Tag Archives: Mental Health

The End of the Road

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Think back to a moment where you’ve come to the end of the road with something important in your life—a relationship with a lover; moving out of your childhood home; graduation from school; etc. Write a scene wrapped around that moment, describing how you felt (good and bad) and how you closed the door on that chapter in your life.

This writing prompt is difficult as I can come up with a lot of end of road stories that have influenced me to where I am at in the moment in time. If it wasn’t for end of road experiences I wouldn’t be in recovery. In recovery with an eating disorder or mental health. I wouldn’t be working on my recovery with self-harm.

Its the end of the road experiences that I have experienced has been what Oprah called Awe-Ha moments. Moments that have changed my life and hope that the experiences I have had can help change the lives of others so they can go on and help others themselves.

Thinking about the end of the road not only has me thinking about my recovery but my grandma and her currently being in home hospice care. For her its the end of the road yet she still has her sense of humor. The same sense of humor that I have to help me through her dying. I hope as I deal with my grandma dying I hope I can laugh at life like she has.

Ugh, I Just Want to Sleep

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Good Morning, World!!! I am still wide awake. I’m not sure exactly why I am not able to sleep but it’s starting to get a little annoying. Yes, maybe it’s because I have “treatment resistant insomnia” but I think something is bothering me. I’m not sure what but something is.

Yes, I realize it could be my grandma and dealing with her being at deaths door because she is in hospice care. Dealing with my grandma being in hospice is not easy yet I honestly don’t think it’s the reason I am unable to sleep.

I just wish I knew why I couldn’t sleep because if I did then maybe I could sleep. It’s something that I need to be able to work on my recovery. Hell, it not only helps with my recovery be it helps with staying physically healthy.

Thank you for reading. It’s appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Rambling

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Good Morning, World!!! It appears from my end that I will have another sleepless night here in Seattle. I’m getting quite annoyed with not being able to sleep. My now former psychiatric nurse practitioner says I have treatment resistant insomnia. It sucks hard core hearing this but at least someone is being upfront with me regarding this shit is quite helpful for me.

Something that has been helpful to me and my sleep is practicing mindfulness and meditation skills. Some skills I learned through DBT while I learned other skills through other sources.

I think I’m going to get going and use some mindfulness skills. Have good rest of you night/morning, every. Peace Out, World!!!

Grief Before Death

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I’m not sure what to call it as it’s not quite depression yet I feel like its too soon to call it grief as my grandma is still alive. I’m feeling sad about my grandma as she doesn’t have much longer to live. I don’t want her to die yet I don’t want her to suffer anymore.

To help me through this I have been using my support system a great deal. They have been there for me. I, have realized though this difficult and challenge time is that some folks I thought would be there for me are not but others have stepped up to the plate while other have gone above and beyond the call of duty.

Junior of course being one of those folks going above and beyond the call of duty. He has been making sure I’ve been taking care of my basic needs. When he is at work he has made sure someone checks in on me.

Having friends to help me through this challenging time has been a blessing to me. I am grateful for those individuals. Without friends, life would be that much more difficult for me.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!

Yet, Another Post About Blogging

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Good Evening, World!!! As you are well aware of, I’ve been blogging a great deal as of lately. I just hope as I continue that you don’t get bored with what I have to share especially if I post multiple times of day like I have been.

Today, I finished Developing Your Eye 1 course and enjoyed it immensely. I plan on doing the second one at a later time. I learned that I love photography.

Something I will be starting tomorrow is Everyday Inspiration. I’ve done it and complete twice before. I’ve also started it and never finished multiple times. This time I hope to finish it for the third time.

I’m going to tell you my blogging schedule once again or at least the for sure things I will be blogging about, on what days and why!!! Schedule is as follows:

Sunday: Weekly Plans. Mainly to tell you what I have planned for the week. My plans for the week are subject to change as you never know what life might bring.

Monday: Weekly Writing Prompt. This is where I can be creative with my writing.

Tuesday: TBD

Wednesday: Junior will be writing the first and third Wednesdays while Mama Bear will be writing the second and third Wednesdays.

Thursday: Hopefully, something educational.

Friday: Fun Facts. Basically random facts.

Saturday: Weekly Check-In. Basically how my week went overall.

Thank you for reading yet another post on blogging. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

At Grandma’s House

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Hello, World!!! It’s Sunday afternoon and things aren’t going so well for my grandma. She is having trouble staying awake and talking when she is awake. She still has her sense of humor and laughs at my purple hair. Hell, she doesn’t like my purple hair but thats okay, she’s eighty-eight years old.

Seeing my grandma like this is difficult yet rewarding. Being able to help my family especially my grandparents is rewarding for me because they helped my dad raise me. My grandma was like a mother to me or attempted to be a mother when she wasn’t being a grandma to me.

As difficult as it is right now for me I am doing good self care like blogging and other stuff. I need t get going and help my grandpa out with my grandma. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Photo 1; Day 10: Architecture

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Good Afternoon World!!! Today is the last day of the Developing Your Eye, 1. It is on architecture. Since the topic is on architecture I knew what to do it on; Emerald House.

Emerald House is pictured above. The building about use to be where Emerald House was and is clubhouse. Emerald House is a part of where I get my mental health treatment. The mansion above is over 100 years old is being torn down to put up an office building.

Sunday Morning Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I haven’t got any sleep however I am looking forward to the day ahead. I am going to be go seeing my grandma later this morning. I love my grandma so much and wish she was not in home hospice care. She is home hospice due Parkinson’s Disease relate issues. It is quite painful to see her this way but at least she is mentally aware of things. She still has her sense of humor. A sense of humor that I will always remember.

As difficult as having my grandma being in hospice this where I know that my DBT skills will come in handy for me. Skills that have been quite helpful for me in the past and will be helpful for me in the present as well as the future.

Art has been helpful for me to express the emotions that are difficult to express while music speaks when words fail. Reading gets me out of my head to help me escape reality for an hour.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

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Sunday:

  • Blog
  • Visit Grandma
  • Do Laundry
  • Paint

Monday:

  • Blog
  • Knitting Group
  • Art Group
  • Therapy

Tuesday:

  • Blog
  • Go To Social Security
  • Clean Apartment

Wednesday:

  • Blog
  • Recovery Coach
  • Therapy
  • Clean Apartment

Thursday:

  • Blog
  • Go To DSHS
  • Visit Grandma
  • Paint

Friday:

  • Blog
  • Doctor’s Appt.
  • Basketball
  • Therapy

Saturday:

  • Blog
  • Lunch At Red Robin w/Friends
  • Volunteer at Warm Line

Mr. Sandman, I Want Some Sleep

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Hello, World!!! I’m having trouble sleeping once again and it’s three o’clock in the morning in my neck of the woods. I am tired as hell and just want some sleep but this is why I am watching a repeat of the figure skating from last evening.

While watching the Winter Olympics, I’m more than likely going to be doing some art. Not sure if what type of art I’m going to be doing but I know I’ll be doing something. More than likely I’ll be doing a combination of collaging and painting. Maybe, I’ll even combine the two genre’s.

Thank you for reading. I hope everyone has a good Sunday and Peace Out, World!!!