Not So Random Thoughts or Ideas

Hello, again this evening. As some of you know I got laid off from a job I loved and am unable to discuss the legalities about it. I ended up getting another a job and both my supervisor and I decided it wasn’t the be job for me or the agency so a it was an agreement we both agreed on that it should end. Now, I have now income and the only income I have is if you the reader click onto the advertisements to give me extra money. It’s only a cent or two and wont get the money til I get a least a hundred dollars total. So even if it is only one time a day can you please click on an advertisement (or two) so I can earn some money till I can get a job, please. I of course will still volunteer and look for new jobs, I just thought I would ask for a little help please.

Being able to pay bills and take care of my cat Billie are extremely important to me. I hope you can help me out please. I know I have some loyal readers and appreciate all of you. I also want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out and Good Night World!!!

Getting Back Into the Swing of Things

Good Afternoon, World!!! I know I’ve mentioned that my new job didn’t work out for me so, I am applying for new job. I’m also going to go try to get back on Disability through Social Security and will be going to DSHS to get food stamps and hopefully some money till I get a job or disability. I’ve already applied for jobs. I’m just l waiting to hear back since it has only been less than three days for applying for six jobs. Yes, six jobs in three days. I need the money to pay the bills including the rent.

As far as getting back into things, I want to learn new things and start back into getting back into recovery focused stuff. One of the things I’m getting back into is blogging as well a recovery related workbooks. I am also going to read books on the regular basis. I will also be doing some basic math and pre-algebra math as I feel like it is something I need. Yes I know how to do math but I just want to improve it. I’m also going to learn how to do tarot cards. I will not only teach myself but have friends help me as well as watch YouTube video’s.

So, I think that is a good start get back in the swing of things. Plus if I get a job, I will be in the swing of things already but I would just need to to adjust my schedule around. I’m grateful I have time to start all this but sad I don’t have a job or disability coming in money wise to pay bills.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Weekend and Peace Out, World!!!

Update About Last Night & Other Random Thoughts

Good Morning, World!!! My last post was quite concerning if you read it you know there were some gunshots and sadly two people were shot. Thankfully, they are going to survive. I know it scared the shit out of many people including myself and my cat.

Now on to my random thoughts. Well maybe not so random. I’m not sure if I mentioned that my mom has stage three lung cancer. My mom doesn’t appear to worried about it but the rest of the family including myself is worried. Well, all except my brother because nobody has heard or seen him since my mom got diagnosed with lung cancer. I’m worried about both my mom and my brother. It’s unheard of that he hasn’t contacted anyone especially my mom since he is a mama’s boy.

Now on to the real random thoughts that I am having. If you read my blog on the regular basis or even if this is your first time reading my blog you may have noticed I have advertisements. I have advertisements to make money. The only way I get paid is if people click on them. Granted it might be a cent or two or maybe three per click but it adds up. Sadly, WordPress doesn’t pay you till you hit at least one hundred dollars. So if you could kindly click on one advertisement, whenever you read my blog it would be greatly appreciated.

On to more random thoughts, my neighbors a screaming at each other again. Well, one is screaming and the other is just trying to get to their apartment. The one neighbor screaming just needs different type of housing. Personally, the neighbor that is screaming needs to be in supportive housing where there are staff there 24/7 if someone is in need of talking to someone or in crisis. This neighbor appears to be in crisis quite often.

I should get going as my cat Billie Dean is wanting some attention. Oh how I love my cat, Billie. Billie is such a lap cat and loves all the attention he can get. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 3; One-Word Inspiration

Choice

I chose the word choice because we all have choices to make. Some are good and some are not so good. For example I had and interview for a job and told them yes when they offered me the job the next dey. I really ant this job; its the commute I am not not a big fan of. Even I have taken the job and haven’t started yet, I am still applying for other jobs that are closer to home and pay more.

Worse care scenario I make a decision of taking a job closer to home and pays more money. The think about this job that I took was be cause the HR lad who works there work at the job I was laid of from. In fact I admire her.

In all honesty I don’t ant to make the choice of making a job change especially if I haven’t started yet or just start the job. It is a choice I will have to decide on if it comes up.

Haven’t Been Back to Sleep Yet

Good Sleepy Saturday Morning to you from Seattle. I still haven’t been to sleep since I was rudely awaken by three neighbors in the hallway screaming at each other. Two went to jail for domestic violence while the third when to the hospital tot get psych evolution.

Currently it is peaceful on my floor and Billie my cat is trying to help me write this blog. I think he is trying to tell me we both need more sleep which I agree with his assessment. I love Billie so much how he helps with my anxiety.

As some of you know I have advertisements on my blog. Every time someone clicks on an advertisement, I get a paid few cent per add buy I don’t get paid the money till I hit at least the on hundred mark and then I get the money. I am hoping that you the read look at least one or two adds every time you are reading my blog. I could really use the money now that I’ve been laid off. Every click to an advertisement helps. I’m usually not the one to ask for money and I have June and Julys rent paid for all reading with my apartment management. My bills are covered through July as well. The one thing I will be lacking is food as you can only get certain about of food from the food banks and I am not quite qualified for food stamps. I will try get unemployment and am worried how I can pay for my meds but will try to get stated aid for medical through the state. The is why I am asking that you click on the advertisements to help, pretty please the a cherry on top.

It is now eight o one o’clock in the morning I am I am going to try to get some sleep. Thank you for reading blog. It means a log to me. Peace Our, World!!!

Not Exactly How I Planned to Start my Weekend

Good Saturday Afternoon, World!!! I did not get much sleep last night due to insomnia. When I did finally get to sleep a neighbor pulled the fire alarm on several occasions due to the fact other neighbors weren’t wearing their mask. I understand being frustrated others not wearing mask because we are in a middle of pandemic with Covid-19. That doesn’t me you pull a fire alarm because someone is not wearing a mask. Needless to say, I am extremely frustrated that this is still continuing and the police and apartment management company are doing shit. The fire department is fining the individual pulling the alarm as well the apartment management. So, at least the fire department is doing something about it.

On that note, my grandpa and uncle came over to drop some things off for me. They brought me some cough medicine as well cough drops because I am still dealing with the annoying and painful cough that is still lingering from having Covid-19. They even made me one of my favorite food and brought it me which is Cheese Tortellini. It was yummy and have some left over for dinner tonight. Oh how I love that my grandpa made me my favorite dish and that my uncle drove him to give it to me. And much to my surprise my uncle paid me back the money he owed be and gave me an extra $20 “for interest” because it took him so long to pay me back.

Now I am going to cuddle with my cat, Billie Dean, on my lap and watch a couple of movies. I’m not sure what movies I am going to watch but I know for a fact that Billie won’t mind spending a few hours on my lap as I do nothing but watch a movie or two.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have an absolutely great weekend ahead of you and that it is a fun and relaxing one. Peace Out, World!!!

Sunday Afternoon, Ramblings

Good Afternoon, World!!! So far today has been a great day and it is 12:39pm. It being 12:39pm means the day is technically half over. Anyway as I state so far today has been a great day.

I started off the day with a mindfulness meditation from the Calm app. After that I then worked on The Mindfulness Workbook for about forty-five minutes before going to volunteer at PAWS Cat City. I love volunteering so much as I am giving back to a community I love. The animal welfare community is small like the mental health community.

I forgot to tell you a couple of things yesterday evening in my weekly check-in. The first thing is that I am learning Spanish through Duolingo. I’m having fun with it as well as finding challenging enough for me to continue to do it. I’m even practicing with people I know who speak Spanish even though it is very limited on my part.

The second thing I forgot to mention was that I opened a savings account to save money to do things I want and want to do. I haven’t had a savings account in years and am happy that I am able to have one. Yes, I have had a checking account but not savings account. While, I was at the bank yesterday opening a savings account, I found out what my credit score was and was told by the banker that “its a really good score.” I was happily shocked by my credit score. Anyway, I am glad opened a savings account to save money.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Just Plain Ole Coping

Good Evening, World!!! It is now evening time here in Seattle. Right now I am just plain ole coping. Coping with the recent trauma I experienced at the hands of a neighbor. It wasn’t as severe as other trauma’s I have experienced but still relatively traumatic. Traumatic enough that it triggered severe PTSD symptoms from other trauma’s I had experienced in my life.

Now let me discuss the ways I have been coping with the newest trauma in my life. First things first is that my cat, Billie Dean has been quite helpful in helping me cope. Billie has helped me keep myself grounded. Being grounded is key to keeping myself in an okay head space.

Another form of grounding for me as well as a coping skill is doing mindfulness and meditation exercises. Exercises that help me be in the present moment. For me using meditation and mindfulness as away to cope has been prove effective for me and my recovery.

Now that I have let you know how I have been coping at the moment I want to bring something to your attention and hope you help me with it. If you don’t want to, I hope you don’t feel pressured to do so. As you may have seen, I have advertisements on my blog. I have them on my blog to help me earn some money. The only way I can earn money from the advertisements is if you click on them and let them fully load. You don’t have buy anything after clicking. I only earn a cent or two for you clicking it but I don’t get paid till the amount adds up to at least one hundred dollars. I hope that you can help me by clicking on the advertisements so I can earn some extra money.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do, however, want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great week ahead of them. Peace Out, World!!!

At Odds With Myself on How to Help Someone I Graduated High School With

Good Morning, World!!! I am still unable to sleep for some reason. Since I have know idea of why I can’t sleep, I am not going to fret about it. It is most likely, as my psychiatric nurse practitioner says, “treatment resistant insomnia.” Weather it is insomnia or poor sleep hygiene or being off kilter from my job working nights, I can’t sleep.

Since I have not been able to sleep, one of the things I have been doing is scrolling Facebook. As I was scrolling Facebook, someone I went to high school with messaged me privately. This person isn’t exactly a friend but is on my friends list.

Anyway, this friend was born into wealth and finds themselves at odds with their parents. Since they are at odds with their parents and has no job, they are now trying to figure out how to live the life they are use to. I guess their parents have “cut them off” from their trust fund until they are able to live on their own with the help of their parents for two years. My friend really hasn’t held down a job and their parents paid for everything including all their bills. We have been out of high school for twenty plus years and they have not learned how to fend for themselves. This “friend” reached out to me because they know I “know how to live poor” since have lived in poverty most of my life.

I asked my friend if they have a place to stay. My friend said they can stay at their parents place till the end of the year as long as they pay one hundred dollars month for rent and get a job to save up money to get their own place to live. I gave this friend suggestions on the types of jobs they may be able to get during this time and they turned down every suggestion. I also gave them numbers to certain agencies to be able to get food stamps and such. I even offered to go to the nearest DSHS office with them when they open up. My “friend” said “no, it will be an embarrassment if I go near my parents house especially with you.” I informed them out the system worked and that if they want help they need to learn how to deal with the “embarrassment.” This friend stated “I don’t need any freebies. I just need my parents to give me my trust fund money and then I won’t have to depend on the government like you do.” I got upset by this and informed them that as soon as they are ready for my help then don’t hesitate to reach out. I realized that this person just wanted someone to empathize with them and tell them what they want to hear. I have some empathy for this person but I am not going to tell them what they want to hear.

I am at odds with myself as if I should have even offered up my assistance to help this person when they realize what needs to be done to take care of themselves. I am at odds because I can see this as a possible toxic relationship and me carrying the weight of this person. I want to help but I don’t know if this person will ever realize they are responsible for themselves as they have been spoiled their entire lives and taken care of by their parents. I am feeling like I am being judgement of this person and their family and it has me feeling bad about myself. But then again, this person was extremely judgmental for me in high school due to me living in poverty. Anyway, that shouldn’t be the reason I am so judgmental of the person.

I have plenty more to say about the above topic but I am getting angry over the situation and need to stop for now. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you are reading my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has great Tuesday ahead of them. Peace Out, World!!!

A Good Sunday So Far

Good Afternoon, World!!! Before I tell you how my Sunday as been I would like to tell you something about my blog. As you can tell, I have advertisements on my blog. Every time some clicks on an ad I get a cent or two from each ad however before getting the money from the ad, I have wait till all the money reaches one hundred dollars before I can receive it. It suck that I have to wait to get the money but I hope that you my reader will click on the advertisements to help me earn some extra money.

Okay now I can tell you how my day went. I got off work and got some sleep. Not much sleep but some sleep. A short sleep because I wanted to go to lunch with my friends. Being about to talk about work with my friends is quite helpful when you are eating lunch. I love being with my friends.

I do not have much more to talk about. I just hope you all have a great Sunday. Thank you from the bottom of my heart fro reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. Peace Out, World!!!