Frustrated w/Noisy & Aggressive Neighbors

Hello, World!!!! I’m frustrated with my neighbors. Actually, I am furious with one particular neighbor who started some shit with another neighbor for no reason. I finally got to bed and sleep at a decent time when I got woken up by a neighbor screaming for help. A disabled neighbor started beating my other neighbor with a crutch for no reason at all. When I heard the screaming I opened my door and looked into the hallway and witnessed what was going on. When I noticed my neighbor being hit by another neighbor and their crutch, I called 911 and I was not the only one who did. My neighbor who was injured went to the hospital. The other neighbor doing the violence got arrested and screamed the entire time.

On that note I’m not sure if I can go back to sleep at the moment. I just don’t know which neighbors to trust now but at least I know which neighbors are my friends. The neighbor who got attacked is a friend. The neighbor who did the attack will no longer be trustworthy and will no longer be a friend of mine.

Since I’m not sure if I’m going to go back to sleep anytime soon, I will seek comfort from my cat, Billie. Billie is really great at comforting me in hard moments. I’m so happy to have a pet to comfort me and keep me company.

Since I am not sure if I will be able to go to sleep right away, I will be applying for jobs. Even jobs I may not want but I need the money to help pay for bills. I’m running low on money. But that’s enough about this topic.

I’m thinking I might do something creative. Not sure if I will color, latch hook or cross stitch. All three get me relaxed. I most likely will either color a cross stitch.

I don’t have much more to say but thank you for reading my post. Peace Out and Good Night, World!!!

Struggling & Making an Effort to Feel Better Emotionally

Good Afternoon, World!!! I’ve been struggling with PTSD and Depression the last couple of weeks. Partly because I lost my new job and mainly due to some traumatic events in my life that don’t count losing a job. I’ve been applying for new jobs because I need the money to pay the bills even though I know of resources I can go to to help.

I’ve been applying to jobs in fast food even thought I don’t want to work fast food or retail but I need the money to pay the bills. I would rather work as a peer specialist or in the human service feild but right now a job is job and I can’t be too picky right so I can pay bills.

Things that I plan on doing are DBT skills and new hobbies like Latch hooking or attempting to teach myself. I also plan on doing some art by coloring and reading some books. And of course reading some books. I also have a twenty minute check in via phone with my therapist later today. Last but not least doing art work with coloring and spending time with my cat Billie.

I don’t have much more to say. I do want to thank you for reading my blog and hope I’m not boring anyone of you. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Day of Creativity & Time w/My Cat, Billie

Happy Tuesday after a three day weekend here in the United States for most people due to Labor day. Billie appears to be in an active mood. I hope this means good luck for my job interview tomorrow. If I get it it willl be three four hour shift. I just hope I don’t get stuck with an over night shift which 12 hours long and can have up to three of those shift. I might do one evey once in a while and very rarely like an emergency.

Tooday, I am hanging out with Billlie and play with him in between learning new crafting skills of latch hooking. I am not getting it today being extra cuddly and playful. I so love my creative times when Billlie tries to help.

I should practice on my interview tomorrow as well as play with Billie. I also want to practice on my creativity project. Have a great Teuesday everyone.

Not So Random Thoughts or Ideas

Hello, again this evening. As some of you know I got laid off from a job I loved and am unable to discuss the legalities about it. I ended up getting another a job and both my supervisor and I decided it wasn’t the be job for me or the agency so a it was an agreement we both agreed on that it should end. Now, I have now income and the only income I have is if you the reader click onto the advertisements to give me extra money. It’s only a cent or two and wont get the money til I get a least a hundred dollars total. So even if it is only one time a day can you please click on an advertisement (or two) so I can earn some money till I can get a job, please. I of course will still volunteer and look for new jobs, I just thought I would ask for a little help please.

Being able to pay bills and take care of my cat Billie are extremely important to me. I hope you can help me out please. I know I have some loyal readers and appreciate all of you. I also want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out and Good Night World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Volunteer at Cat City
  • Practice and do some math
  • Learn about Tarot Cards
  • Do recovery workbooks
  • Play with Billie my cat

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Go to Social Security office
  • Practice and do math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do recovery workbooks
  • Play with Billie my cat

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Go to the DSHS office
  • Apply for work/jobs
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Apply for work/job
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do Recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Apply for work/job
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do Recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Apply for work/job
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do Recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Play with my cat Billie
  • Recovery Workbooks
  • Practice and do math
  • Learn about tarot cards

Being Jobless is Hopeless But There is Always Hope in Things

Being jobless especially in the field you desire to work in is difficult to wrap your mind around. It is hard to wrap you head around if you keep applying for jobs but not get any interviews or worse you get the interviews but not the job.

I know this because I have been in this spot a lot over the last year and half. But hope is not lost because I figure the more I apply to places and get interviews, the more my name gets out there. Which gives me hope.

The things that keeps me going is looking for jobs and applying for them even if I don’t get an interview. I say this because, my name is out there and at least I am trying to get back to work.

Another thing that keeps the hope alive is having a volunteer job to attend to. Or in my case I have two volunteer jobs I have an obligation to. I have two volunteer jobs because it makes me feel good helping other people and it also looks good on the resume’. In fact I might be getting a third volunteer job later this week if all goes well with a job interview for the volunteer job position I am desiring.

Granted having a volunteer job will not give you a pay check or money you need to pay the bills but employers do look at due to the fact that you were doing something with your time other than sitting on your butt doing nothing.

I am hoping that as I look for jobs that employers look at the volunteer work I do. In fact volunteering is what helps me be and stay hopeful. It helps because I am doing something for others that I can’t get back and that is my time. People will remember the time you give including future employers.

The hope in being jobless is that you have time to give to others that you wouldn’t have if you had a job. Yes, once I get a job I will have to reduce the amount of volunteer jobs I have but I will make sure I will still have at least one volunteer job when I do eventually get a paying job.

Thank you for reading my post. I hope that I didn’t make anyone hopeless with thing post because that wasn’t my intention. My intention was to give you hope by maybe getting a volunteer job as you wait for the paying job you need and/or desire. I want to thank you again for reading. It much appreciated. Have a great rest of your Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

Why Can’t My Brain Turn Off

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am struggling at the moment with my brain not turning off. I am not sure why I can’t turn it off at the moment. I have had a pretty good day as I spent it with my family.

I am wondering why my brain won’t turn off and there are many reasons why. Reasons I can’t take care of till tomorrow. One has to do with DSHS paper work that has to do with human and/or computer error. Another reason is that a couple of my medical bill have gone to collections and I thought I took care of it with the appropriate people so it looks like I will be on the phone a lot tomorrow and maybe most of the week. Oh how I hate being on the phone for things I thought I already have taken care of.

All this is making me worry about money even more than I should be worried about it. Hopefully all this will be taken care of this tomorrow if not sometime this week. There is nothing I can really do right now as it is Sunday and have to wait to a weekday to deal with all this shit.

Dealing with all this shit isn’t helping much with my depression which sucks. But one thing that is helping with my depression right now is my cat. Having a cat that is willing to cuddle with you when you are down is quite helpful. I love Lil Gertie, my cat, so much.

Spending time with my family overnight and this morning was quite helpful with trying to turn my brain off as well. It helped a little but not as much as I would have hoped. I did enjoy spending time with my grandpa.

Now I have to figure out how to spend the rest of my day as I need to keep busy. I guess, I can do the usual stuff with doing art work, read, and spend time with neighbors and friends. I might even look for more jobs and apply for them. Another thing I can do is go for a walk as well as do household chores.

I want to thank you for reading about what is going on in my brain right now. I just hope everything works out as it needs to work out. Have a good Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Watching Sports & Applying For Jobs

Good Evening, again, World!!! Right now I am watching the tenth inning of the Seattle Mariners versus the Los Angeles Dodgers. Right now it is tied four to four. I changed to the baseball game as the Seahawks lost to the Chargers. I am of course rooting for the Dodgers as I am originally from the Los Angeles area.  I was a little disappointed that the Seahawks lost.

As I have been watching various sporting events with my grandpa, I have also been applying for jobs. Jobs as a Peer Specialist. I am really wanting to get a job as it makes me feel like I am being a productive member of society if I am personally working.

I really should get going and start watching the Dodger versus Mariner game as I apply for jobs. Thank you so very much for reading even though I just posted a little over a half an hour ago. Have a good rest of your Saturday night. Enjoy the rest of what you have of your weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Random Shit On The Mind

Hello, World!!! I know I keep blogging today however I have a lot of random shit on my mind at the moment. Some of the shit ain’t so random as I have posted it before especially today but it is still quite random.

At this very moment Lil Gertie, my cat, is sitting next to me staring at my laptop screen. I’m wondering if she wants to help and share her thought or is just figuring out what I am going to say next. I love my cat so much. If it wasn’t for support for the last three months I don’t know where I would be at the moment.

I have also discussed a great deal about working and not having a job. And trying to find creative ways to earn extra money while on Disability Checks. One way I have come up with a way to earn extra money though it is not much is having advertisements on my blog. I only make a few cents from it every time someone clicks on an advertisements and it is my hope that you my reader clicks on just one advertisement a day so the few cents can add up to dollars and so on.

Something that has come to mind for me is to start volunteering other places besides as group co-facilitator at peer run origination and a call taker on a help line.  I have thought about helping out with local politicians that are running in the mid-term elections. I figure it would help me with the job resume’ as well as build a community Another things I have done today that will both help the resume’ and build my own community is fill out volunteer application at the Seattle Art Museum (SAM) and Benaroya Hall which host the Seattle Symphony.

Lil Gertie still seems to be supervising me which mean she wants attention. I better give her some since I’ve been sleep and blogging most of the day. I hope you have the good rest of you Wednesday Evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Sunday Night Ramblings

Hello, World!!! I am still pushing through the depression. Depression that appears to be lingering. Lingering a lot longer that I would like it but I know without shadow of doubt that all this will make me stronger in the long run. As I am fighting through the depression and realizing the strength I have, I at least have hope. Hope that I know things will get better. It may not feel like it at times but it will get better. I know things will get better because it has happened before.

As I think about when I was doing “well” I know it involved me working. Not working is not exactly helping my depression but I know that my new therapist will help me find the structure I need. That was very much apparent during our first appointment. He thinks me working would be beneficial for me and I agree.

Having a therapist who appears to be on the same page as me a good thing. I am hoping that I am not getting my hopes up to high about this as I tend to do that a great deal. I do like that fact that he has an “odd schedule” for working at a community mental health agency.

I think I’m going to go and listen to music while I work on one of my workbooks. I haven’t decided which one quite yet. It appears that music and my workbooks have been helpful for me the last few hours and that is a good thing.

Thank you for reading. Have a good night. Peace Out, World!!!