Tag Archives: PTSD

Depression Strikes, Again

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! Right now I am struggling with depression and anxiety. I am not sure why as it was an overall good day. Symptoms come at the most inopportune time especially those associated with PTSD.

I have been doing my workbook on mindfulness. It has been quite helpful for me working this workbook as well as the other workbooks I am doing. I am finding that using mindfulness is helping me with my reactivity and how I respond to things.

I also ordered three Star Wars books from Amazon as they were giving deals on Star Wars stuff. I got one of the books for free. I am looking forward to reading the Star Wars books as I am a huge fan of the Movies.

Speaking of reading I read today as well. I am finally getting some where in one of the books I am reading. It is finally getting good. I love to read.

Thank you for reading. May the 4th be with you. Peace Out, World!!

May the Fourth Be With You

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I woke up this morning from a nightmare. A nightmare that is a symptom of PTSD. Dealing with childhood drama as an adult is difficult to do but it is possible to lessen the pain with a lot of therapy.

I may have woken up from a nightmare but I got about six hours of sleep. I owe the amount of sleep due my new weight blanket. I am in love with the weighted blanket.

Today is May 4th and is a day Star Wars fans celebrate here in the United States. May the Fourth be with you represents May the force be with you from Star Wars. I love Star Wars.

Thank you for reading. May the fourth be with you. Peace Out, World!!!

Anxiety That Won’t Go Away

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! As I mentioned in an earlier post I didn’t see my therapist today for our session due to anxiety. We did reschedule our appointment for Thursday. He has checked up on me twice today to make I am doing okay. Yes, I am doing okay. Or better than I was.

Better than I was earlier especially since my budget is better than I thought it was going to be. I forgot to include my tax refund I got in my budget.

Even though I had anxiety over my budget my therapist and I figured out that I was having anxiety due to PTSD symptoms. Symptoms that don’t help with my general anxiety symptoms. Symptoms I wish were subsiding but they are not so much.

Thank you so much for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Still High Anxiety

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! I missed therapy today due to the fact my anxiety was too high. My therapist did check-in with me and we discussed my anxiety. We figured out that part of my anxiety was due to the PTSD. We also found that the last time my anxiety was this bad was over a year ago and is major improvement. I love it when there is a silver lining in things.

Besides dealing with anxiety, I have figured out some things about my money situation. Figuring out the money situation is a huge relief for me. Knowing that I have things in place as a just in case is a huge relief.

I think I am going to call some friends and see if they want to hang out. Maybe go and have a late lunch or something. Most of my friends tend to love to eat.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

A High Anxiety Monday

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am struggling so much with anxiety that I am unable to make it to my therapy appointment. I am not sure why my anxiety is acting up so badly but it is. It hasn’t acted up so badly to where I am unable to make it to an appointment especially therapy. Just as long as it is not this bad tomorrow I’ll be okay.

I say just as long as it is not this bad tomorrow, I’ll be okay because I have a job interview tomorrow. It is job I really want and one I think I would be good at. That is why I hope my anxiety isn’t this high tomorrow.

I found out this morning that it could take up to three weeks to find out how much I made from the advertisements on my blog. That means at least another month with them. Depending how much I make all depends if I keep them. I may not keep them as I don’t like them but I need the extra money.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Working Through Shit

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I am having one of those moments again where I just need to write through shit. Shit that includes PTSD symptoms. PTSD symptoms that are severe at the moment but I know I will get through them.

I should find out some time in the next day or two about how much money I earned with the advertisements on my blog. I get paid through PayPal which will be good for my online purchase and help keep me from using my credit card. I have to earn a minimum of one hundred dollars to be able to access the money I earned which sucks.

I just don’t know why I am having an up and down day today. It sucks shit. Having Depression and PTSD is no fun and wish the emotions that came with them would subside even a little bit.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Reading Helping Me Through PTSD

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I am slightly struggling at the moment. I am struggling with some PTSD symptoms. Symptoms that are acting up for some unknown reason at the moment. Symptoms I will be working through.

Besides fighting against PTSD symptoms, I have been attempting to lay low. I am laying low due to the symptoms of PTSD as well as it just one of those days for me.

I’ve been reading most of the day as it appears that it has been quite helpful for me today. It has gotten me out of my head and has helped reduce the PTSD symptoms.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Tough Evening

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! This evening has been a rough one despite it being a good day. It has been rough because my PTSD. PTSD that appears to not be letting up at the moment. So this is when my coping skills box comes in handy. Skills that will be quite helpful for me to do once I am done blogging.

I think that reading might be a helpful coping skill for me to do right. Reading helps me get out of my head. Reading also helps my PTSD symptoms subside even for a brief moment or two.

Thank you for reading. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Successfully, Working Through Struggles

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Hello, World!!! I am struggling at the moment yet I am having a good day. I went to the park and did some art work. I did some coloring while I was at the park. It is a beautiful day here in Seattle which is why I decided to go to the park and color. I enjoyed myself. In fact I think I got a slight sunburn as I am a little pink.

After coming home I decided to do some painting. I am going to painting how this sunny weather is making me feel. I am feeling happy at the moment despite my struggles with PTSD.

Thank you for reading and Peace Out, World!!!

Mr. Sandman, Where Are You

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am having trouble sleeping once again. I am getting slightly frustrated with not being able to sleep. I am partly blaming the no sleep yet on PTSD because my symptoms are acting up.

Something that helps me with my PTSD symptoms is reading. Something I have been doing most of the night as it is one thing that has been tonight. Reading doesn’t take away the symptoms but it helps me forget them after they appear even for a brief moment.

I think I’ll get back to reading. Have a goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!