So Far So Good

Good Afternoon, World!!! It’s been a pretty chill day for me. I went grocery shopping for myself and my grandpa wanted to tag along. It was nice spending time with my grandpa while doing a chore I don’t really like doing; grocery shopping. My grandpa likes grocery shopping for some reason so whenever I go it’s when I spend time with him.

In all honesty if I didn’t need to go grocery shopping, I think I would have isolated today. Not sure why the depression is acting up to where I want to isolate a lot lately. Since I am aware that the depression is acting up to where isolation could become a problem, I know what I need to do. I need to use my DBT skills. Skill that have helped me a great deal.

Today is going to be one of many days that will be above eighty degrees Fahrenheit here in Seattle. Many locals start to melt at eighty degrees. I however start to melt at about ninety five degrees due to spending the majority of my childhood in Southern California. Days like today are the one reason why make an effort to go for walk. Going for walks on days like today help bring up the good parts of my childhood. Most of the good parts involve me being in California living with my dad and grandparents.

I think I am going to go so I can go for a walk. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Baseball & Facebook

Good Evening, World!! I just finished watching the Seattle Mariners play against the Los Angeles Angels. The Mariners swept the Angels in a three game series. I was sad to see the Angels loose because I am from Anaheim now living in Seattle.

I have been isolating all day and know that watching the baseball game on Facebook helped a great deal. I just need to not be isolating. I think I’m going to reach out to folks so I am not isolating.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Happy Hump Day

Good Morning, World!!! I have been awake since three thirty in the morning Seattle time. It is now five thirty in the morning Seattle time. I wish I could go back to sleep however I am unable to do so. I wish sleep came easily for but it doesn’t.

It is hump day (Wednesday) as many of you know. This means the week is half over. It is hard to believe how fast time flies even when you don’t have much going on in your life. I like Wednesdays as they are a reflective day for me. Not sure why they tend to be reflective but they are.

I am not really sure what I am going to do today as I have nothing really planned. I know that I need to do some lite housework so that is on the to do list. As much as I dislike doing house work, it gives me a sense of accomplishment after it is done.

I’m also most likely going to be reading. I am not sure what book I will be reading but I will be reading. It helps me get out of my head. I have a gut feeling that reading will be the go to skill I will be using today as I am really in my head at the moment.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Late Evening Ramblings

Good Evening, World!!! I sit here at my laptop attempting on what I should do next with my evening. I have already ate, taken a shower and am in my pajama’s ready to relax for the night. Not sure what I am going to do except watch the news. News that always seems to be so negative.

I have had a pretty good day.  Having structure in my life is always a good thing for me. As difficult as therapy was for me today it was a good session. As I mentioned in an earlier post we discussed what I could do differently to not attempt to take my own life. One of those things is having my cat, Lil Gertie around. Another thing is to attend groups to help with the structure part of my life that I need.

I think I am going to work on one of my workbooks. The one that is strengths based. The one that I am on the topic of courage. Courage is a difficult topic for me and I have no clue what. It is something to talk to my therapist about.

Life is good. I think I am going to go for a walk now. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless In Seattle

Good Morning, World!!! I am sleepless in Seattle once again. It has nothing to do with Lil Gertie wanting to play at this hour of the day. It has everything to do with the insomnia that I am experiencing. Insomnia sucks!!!

Since my last post, I have not only attempted to sleep but I have read. I am reading about Buddhism. It is helping me be at peace with myself and the world as a whole. The more I read about Buddhism, the more I realize it is the right spiritually for me. Having faith in something is quite helpful for me as an individual as well as my recovery.

I am going to go now. I am going to play with Lil Gertie as she appears to be playful at the moment. Peace Out, World!!!

Laughter In Seattle

Good Morning, World!!! It is just after twelve thirty in the morning in my corner of the world. I just got done watching The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon. Watching The Tonight Show helps me be able to get things off my mind by laughing. Laughing also helps me get to sleep.

I think I am going to read for an hour and then go to bed. Not sure which book I am going to be reading as I am in the middle of reading multiple books. I might even look over my scrapbook as I have written in that. It might be help to put me in a good mindset to sleep.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Kitty Talk Plus Other Stuff

Good Morning, World!!! I was able to get back to sleep after being woken up by my cat early this morning. Lil Gertie did this adorable yet loud meow to wake me up. She woke me up in the middle of a nightmare. A nightmare that is horrific.

I have a job interview today at my previous employer. An interview for a Peer Specialist in their Substance Use Disorder (SUD) program. I am looking forward to the interview. I hope I get the job.

Apparently, Starbucks is closing early today. They are closing early to discuss with their employees about race and racism. It is about fucking time Starbucks discusses this situation. I don’t go into Starbucks because of the employees racist remarks as well as other discriminatory remarks.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless in Seattle, Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! I am unable to sleep at the moment and it has nothing to do with my cat and every thing to deal with the symptoms of my mental health challenges. Dealing with a mental health condition is not my idea of fun yet I have learned a great deal from them. I have learned that acceptance of oneself is not easy however you can still have fun despite all the challenges the conditions bring.

For an example; painting can be fun. I love to paint. I am painting an abstract version of my cat for my grandpa per his request. My grandpa loves the idea that I am painting. He thinks it is a great way to express myself in a healthy and productive way.

Something else that being in recovery brings to me is faith. Or at least searching for a particular faith. Right now I have been reading books on Buddhism. It has given me some hope and peace that I have been looking for. Some people in my life may not like the idea that I am looking into Buddhism but they are grateful that I am searching for some type of faith even if it is not their faith.

I have been working on my strengths based recovery workbook. That part that I am working on is about attitudes. That attitudes that it is discussing at the moment is hope and courage. I am thrilled that I decided to get this workbook as I have been finding it quite helpful to me as well as to my recovery.

I find it amazing that being able to write in the middle of the night can come easy to me. Maybe it is because I am naturally a night owl or that I am more creative at night. Whatever the reason, I am glad that I can express myself in a healthy way. A way that my old therapist, Diana, would be proud of me.

Thank you for reading. Have a great morning and Peace Out, World!!!

Tuesday Morning Thoughts

Good Morning, World!!! If you read my last post you know I got punched by a neighbor. I got punched in the face and have the black eye to prove it. It hurts like hell. The doctor told me last night that I have a slight concussion.

I am sure that when I see my therapist today that we will be discussing the assault as well as other things. Things like my safety regarding my neighbor being violent.

I also see my psychiatric nurse practitioner today and I am sure she will be discussing the same thing my therapist will be talking to me about. Except I see her before I see my therapist.

Right now I am watching the news. I don’t understand what the big deal is regarding the royal wedding. I’m not saying that I don’t care about it. I am just saying it doesn’t need to be discussed everyday for a month. Yes, I know it is this Saturday but I’m already sick of hearing about it.

There is a cloud cover here in Seattle which is making it a little cooler than yesterday. I wish it wasn’t cooler as I love the warm weather. The news say it is suppose to get up into the high seventies which I am thrilled about. I just wish it was in the eighties again. The eighty degree weather will be here soon enough.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace out, World!!!

More Random Thoughts

Hello, World!!! I know it’s only Monday but I am already sick and tired of hear about the Royal Wedding. If I don’t know the people involved in the wedding I don’t want to hear about it. I know I can always turn off the news but then I’ll miss what is going on in my corner of the world.

It is suppose to be another warm day in Seattle. It is suppose to get to about eighty five degrees Fahrenheit (29.5 Celsius)  here in Seattle today. I love this type of weather. I plan on enjoying this weather despite having a debilitating migraine.

Dealing with migraines is not the most fun thing to deal with but I have found that practicing my new faith or what I know of it has been helpful. Reading Buddhist Scriptures as well as a book call Why Buddhism Is True has been quite helpful to subsiding the migraines.

I am hoping that looking into Buddhism is going to be the faith path I am suppose to be on. As of right now it appears to be the right path. I just need to find a place of Buddhist worship to attend to.

Thank you for reading. It is greatly appreciated that you reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!