Grief Before Death

I’m not sure what to call it as it’s not quite depression yet I feel like its too soon to call it grief as my grandma is still alive. I’m feeling sad about my grandma as she doesn’t have much longer to live. I don’t want her to die yet I don’t want her to suffer anymore.

To help me through this I have been using my support system a great deal. They have been there for me. I, have realized though this difficult and challenge time is that some folks I thought would be there for me are not but others have stepped up to the plate while other have gone above and beyond the call of duty.

Junior of course being one of those folks going above and beyond the call of duty. He has been making sure I’ve been taking care of my basic needs. When he is at work he has made sure someone checks in on me.

Having friends to help me through this challenging time has been a blessing to me. I am grateful for those individuals. Without friends, life would be that much more difficult for me.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!


Yet, Another Post About Blogging

Good Evening, World!!! As you are well aware of, I’ve been blogging a great deal as of lately. I just hope as I continue that you don’t get bored with what I have to share especially if I post multiple times of day like I have been.

Today, I finished Developing Your Eye 1 course and enjoyed it immensely. I plan on doing the second one at a later time. I learned that I love photography.

Something I will be starting tomorrow is Everyday Inspiration. I’ve done it and complete twice before. I’ve also started it and never finished multiple times. This time I hope to finish it for the third time.

I’m going to tell you my blogging schedule once again or at least the for sure things I will be blogging about, on what days and why!!! Schedule is as follows:

Sunday: Weekly Plans. Mainly to tell you what I have planned for the week. My plans for the week are subject to change as you never know what life might bring.

Monday: Weekly Writing Prompt. This is where I can be creative with my writing.

Tuesday: TBD

Wednesday: Junior will be writing the first and third Wednesdays while Mama Bear will be writing the second and third Wednesdays.

Thursday: Hopefully, something educational.

Friday: Fun Facts. Basically random facts.

Saturday: Weekly Check-In. Basically how my week went overall.

Thank you for reading yet another post on blogging. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

At Grandma’s House

Hello, World!!! It’s Sunday afternoon and things aren’t going so well for my grandma. She is having trouble staying awake and talking when she is awake. She still has her sense of humor and laughs at my purple hair. Hell, she doesn’t like my purple hair but thats okay, she’s eighty-eight years old.

Seeing my grandma like this is difficult yet rewarding. Being able to help my family especially my grandparents is rewarding for me because they helped my dad raise me. My grandma was like a mother to me or attempted to be a mother when she wasn’t being a grandma to me.

As difficult as it is right now for me I am doing good self care like blogging and other stuff. I need t get going and help my grandpa out with my grandma. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Photo 1; Day 10: Architecture

Good Afternoon World!!! Today is the last day of the Developing Your Eye, 1. It is on architecture. Since the topic is on architecture I knew what to do it on; Emerald House.

Emerald House is pictured above. The building about use to be where Emerald House was and is clubhouse. Emerald House is a part of where I get my mental health treatment. The mansion above is over 100 years old is being torn down to put up an office building.

Sunday Morning Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! I haven’t got any sleep however I am looking forward to the day ahead. I am going to be go seeing my grandma later this morning. I love my grandma so much and wish she was not in home hospice care. She is home hospice due Parkinson’s Disease relate issues. It is quite painful to see her this way but at least she is mentally aware of things. She still has herĀ sense of humor. A sense of humor that I will always remember.

As difficult as having my grandma being in hospice this where I know that my DBT skills will come in handy for me. Skills that have been quite helpful for me in the past and will be helpful for me in the present as well as the future.

Art has been helpful for me to express the emotions that are difficult to express while music speaks when words fail. Reading gets me out of my head to help me escape reality for an hour.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans


  • Blog
  • Visit Grandma
  • Do Laundry
  • Paint


  • Blog
  • Knitting Group
  • Art Group
  • Therapy


  • Blog
  • Go To Social Security
  • Clean Apartment


  • Blog
  • Recovery Coach
  • Therapy
  • Clean Apartment


  • Blog
  • Go To DSHS
  • Visit Grandma
  • Paint


  • Blog
  • Doctor’s Appt.
  • Basketball
  • Therapy


  • Blog
  • Lunch At Red Robin w/Friends
  • Volunteer at Warm Line

Mr. Sandman, I Want Some Sleep

Hello, World!!! I’m having trouble sleeping once again and it’s three o’clock in the morning in my neck of the woods. I am tired as hell and just want some sleep but this is why I am watching a repeat of the figure skating from last evening.

While watching the Winter Olympics, I’m more than likely going to be doing some art. Not sure if what type of art I’m going to be doing but I know I’ll be doing something. More than likely I’ll be doing a combination of collaging and painting. Maybe, I’ll even combine the two genre’s.

Thank you for reading. I hope everyone has a good Sunday and Peace Out, World!!!