Hello, World!!! It is 11:09 at night in my corner of the world. I have been watching the Olympics quite faithfully this time around. I am finding that watching the Olympics has been helping me with the loss of my grandma. I really miss her.
I’ve also been doing some mindfulness and meditation practices today. I am feeling some peace whenever I do a mindfulness practice. I have come to the conclusion that mindfulness and meditation is helpful for my recovery.
My recovery means the world to me and whatever I find helpful for it, is something I will continue to do. If you are person in recovery, I encourage you to find things that are helpful for you and your recovery.
Good Evening, World!!! If you been reading my blog this past week you know that my grandma passed away. It’s been quite difficult for me and my family especially my grandpa. My grandparents were married for 62 1/2 years so of course its going to be difficult for him.
My friends have been a wonderful source of support the last few days. Friends who have no fear of seeing me cry or giving me reality checks when needed. Hell, my friends are stubborn ass mules just like I am. I think that’s what makes my friends awesome. They don’t put up with my bullshit.
Speaking of friends, I went to Red Robin with two of my closest friends. We had some yummy food. Food that is good for the soul.
I didn’t go to my volunteer job this evening primarily because of the grief I am dealing with regarding my grandma. People are pretty understanding about it. Having some awesome peer support is great.
For me having a space a good place to write also depends on the head space I am in at the moment. As of lately, I’ve been in a head space to where writing has been quite helpful for me.
When I am at hope I like to write facing my west living room window so I can look up and see the trees outside of my window. This helps me when I’m having trouble coming up with words to help me convey with what I want to say. The words someone says or writes can bring a person down or lift a person up. For me I hope that I lift folks up with what I say and write.
I say this because I’ve had harsh words said to me. Words that had me thinking about dying by suicide. (No, I’m NOT currently suicidal.) When I talk and/or write, I want to make sure my words don’t have others thinking about death by suicide.
For me the space to write all depends on my head space and is different every time I write. I like to write by water no matter my head space however that can be dependent on the weather if I write outside. I also like to write in mom and pop coffee shops. It helps with my creativity.
Hello, World!!! I am having a rough moment. A rough moment with missing my grandma. I miss my grandma’s voice. I miss her smile. I miss her laugh. I miss her very much.
Something that I am going to do after I am done with this post is read. For me reading has been a tool that I am relying to help me escape from the reality of the pain I am in. Yes, I do allow myself to feel the pain no matter how difficult it may be. I just need some way to escape and reading is a healthy way to do it.
Thank you so very much for reading my many depressing post lately. Peace Out, World.
Good Morning, World!!! As I sit here at my laptop thinking about the sleep I got. Not the amount of sleep but the quality of sleep. I woke up this morning with drool on the Wonder Woman comic book I was reading last night. I fell asleep reading it and ended up getting good quality of sleep despite only get three hours of it.
Something I did last night besides reading and sleeping was watch the Olympics. For me watching the Olympics is helping me hold on to the hope that I finally got back when I was on an inpatient unit back in January. The Olympics not only brings hope to the world but brings it together like nothing else in the world.
I think I am going to get going. Thank you so much for reading. It is greatly appreciated from my end. Happy Weekend. Peace Out, World!!!
Hello, World!!! It is exactly twelve midnight in my corner of the world. I’m not sure if I will be able to sleep tonight but I hope I will be able to. As a precaution I came up with a plan to keep myself occupied if I am unable to sleep.
The plan is to do some art. Most likely some collaging. Collaging a poem or two or maybe more. It seems to be something I’ve been enjoying quite a bit the last few days. I might make one in memory of my grandma.
Another thing I have planned is to read my book Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb. Yes, it’s taking a while for me to read but am enjoying it quite a bit. I will also be reading Wonder Woman comic books.
Speaking of Wonder Woman, I am doing a Wonder Woman jigsaw puzzle. It’s a one thousand piece puzzle and love the challenge.
Thank you for reading. Have a good night everyone an Peace Out, World!!!