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No Sleep Again In Seattle, Last Night (But It Was Completely My Fault)

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Good Morning, World and Happy Saturday especially those who have it off. It is now 9:00am Seattle time and I got absolutely no sleep. But this time it was completely my fault and nothing to do with insomnia, neighbors arguing and fighting with each as well as an idiot neighbor pulling the fire alarm.

I stayed up attending Twelve step meetings as well as reading twelve step literature. Specifically the Big Red Book (aka the BRB). I am learning a great deal from the meetings as well as the literature. I am grateful that I am making this part of my new years goals as well as my part of my recovery.

I am also grateful that I had time to read some books that I am reading for pleasure. Specifically, I am reading science fiction books as well as some fantasy books. It helps me with my self care and escape from the realities this world how now a days. Books are a great way to escape from reality.

Another thing that kept me awake and my cat was thrilled about it which as I played with him a good portion of the night now he is sleeping like the beauty queen (or should say king) that he is. My at is so amazing and tomorrow is is two year official gotcha date. I love my babe boy Billie and he has help me a great deal with my recovery.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I will be going to a twelve step meeting before going to bet to take a nap. I also want to thank you the reader for reading y blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a good weekend all and happy Saturday. Peace Out, World!!!

Attended a Midnight 12-Step Meeting

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Happy very early Saturday day morning. I just got off of a twelve step meeting that I find quite helpful and use recovery words and statements that other 12 step meeting do not. I find it quite helpful and am happy I am starting to do these meetings again. I want to say more more I am tired as hell and it is almost 2:00am Seattle time. I hope to share more later today. Have a good night and Peace Out, World

Attending a Late Night 12-Step Meeting

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Happy Friday, Again, World. It is pretty late on for me to attend an a 12-step meeting. I will be attending Adult Children of Alcoholics (and dysfunctional families. I haven’t gone in a while a will consider my new ACA birthday. I am not a big fan of 12step meeting but ACA doesn’t fee like the typical 12step program is is more recovery focused on the individual than the person that is alcoholic or dysfunctional. It’s has a lot of recovery related language which is why I I think I enjoy it. Of course my cat will be attending with me as he as been being more of a love but than he usually is.

Attending ACA meeting is my way to continue my recovery process and my recovery is extremely important to me, Being active recovery is what helps me stay stable to I can work as a peer specialist or peer counselor. Any skills I can get will help me be able to help others.

I am grateful that I found Adult Children of Alcoholics and dysfunctional families last year but stopped going so today Friday, February 4th, 2022 will be my new birthday. I really like the support the get from ACA/ACOA.

Thank you for listening to me and supporting me in one of my 2022 goals. I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I am also that 12Step meeting are now online due to the stupid pandemic. Peace Out, World!!!

Happy Friday

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Happy Friday, World!!! Today marks two todays since I officially met my cat Billie Dean while doing a volunteer shift at PAWS Cat City even thought I didn’t officially adopt Billie till February 6th of 2020. Which was about a month and a half before lockdown happened due to Covid-19 the dreaded pandemic everyone wants to go away.

Even though today is the the two day anniversary of officially meeting Billie Dean while volunteering, I put him on hold for two days so I could adopt my cuddly, loving, talkative, fifteen pound kitty who knows how to love me unconditionally as well as a sweet cat who loves everyone especially me. I am grateful that in two days it will be the two year gotcha (adoption) day or Billie. I love my cat so much an am grateful that I was able to adopt Billie right before the lockdown happened and I truly think Billie helped me through the lock down from this stupid pandemic.

In fact today was the first day back to the office after have Covid-19 myself. My colleagues mainly discussed our cats today and how loving they are and how helpful they are for our own mental health. In fact my colleagues have been coming friends to me which is a good thing.

Since becoming friends with colleagues we decided to end our Friday and begin our weekend with going out to dinner. We has some pretty good food from a restaurant across the street from our work. Great food and awesome happy hour drinks at a cheap price.

Having the support of colleagues that are becoming friends as well as the love of my cat Billie surely help me with my every day life as well as my mental health symptoms. It’s great to have friends, colleagues and pet to help me through my depression.

Having great support is awesome. I do not not have much more to say in this particular blog post except thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. I am also grateful for it being Friday and the start of the weekend for me. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great weekend and a happy Friday. Peace Out, World!!!

2022 Goals (Part 3)

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Good Morning, World!!! It is 6:03am in the morning in my corner of the world here in Seattle. I have been coming up with some more goals I know that I can accomplish by the end of the year or hopefully make some small accomplishments with the goals.

One of the goals I want to focus on this year is self care. Self care can look differently to different people at different times. One of my self care goals is to get my hair cut and/or died twice this year. Getting a hair cut make me feel getter about myself.

Another self care goal which is also goal of my mine is to do my chores a on a more regular basis. Like actually get my apartment completely cleaned and declutter the stuff I do not need any more. I plan on having a schedule to do chores around my apartment at least three times a week. As far as the chores, I think cleaning my apartment will help with my depression.

As far as self help stuff, I plan on doing some self help workbooks to help with my healing and recovery. Workbooks tend to help me along with attending therapy session with my therapist. The more help I can get the more recovery I can gain to be able to help the people I help at work with.

I am also planning on attending a 12-step meeting that has the twelve step concepts in it as well as can have peer recovery language in it. It focus on the self and how to realize that you don’t need to fix the person with the problem that you just need to focuses on that you need to change yourself. It has pit of other 12step programs in it which makes it more center to being a better peer and had peer recovery language in the particular 12step program which is why I like it is so much. So far I still have more goals but wanted to let you know part three of my goals.

And of course taking care of my cat, Billie Dean will always be a goal. He is my baby and my life and I love him to death. I’m sure he loves me back. I love my cuddle but of a cat.

I don’t have much to say in the particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

My Cat Billie Dean Wants to Play in the Middle of the Night

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Good Very Early, Morning from Seattle. I just got woken up from my cat Billie Dean wanting to play in the middle of night. I of course gave in or I would loose more sleep than I already have from the last few nights from neighbors. At least Billie only wanted to play for ten minutes which makes me happy because I was able to get back to sleep quickly. I know he loves to play because he love me. The best part of a play session with Billie is the snuggles and cuddles he gives me. I love him much and I know he loves me. Billie playing with be helps my depression and I am grateful for that.

I am too tired to write more. I hope you have a great night of sleep. Peace Out, World!!!

Lonely & Depressed

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Good Evening, World!!! Valentines Day is a week and a half a way. I have never been a give fan of Valentines Day for various reasons in my life. One reason is why do we need a special day to tell people that we love them when can do that every day.

To make Valentines Day worse for me is that my grandma past away on Valentines day of 2018. This year will mark four years since she passed a way and I miss her greatly. She was the one I went to when I was lonely and depressed. I miss her so very much.

I am needing to end this particular blog post as it is making me sad and missing my grandma greatly. I love her so much and which I could give her one last hug. Peace Out, World!!

Having a Tough Day at Work

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I am currently having a tough day a work. Part of it is because I didn’t get much sleep last night due various reasons which included my neighbors being dickwads during a time where most people actually sleep or at least try to sleep.

Today is just one of them days. I have two clients schedule which I had a session with one of them already and will see my next one at 2:00pm; Seattle time. Today has been primarily being in meetings all day as well as dealing with clients in crisis as I am apart of the Thursday crisis coverage team.

Anyway, some of the crisis calls I have taken today have been triggering for me. I think it is partly due to the lack of sleep last night. Anyway, I am grateful for my colleagues as I have been able to do check-in’s with a couple of them after a couple of rough crisis calls from clients.

I have amazing colleagues and an awesome supervisor. I love my employer and feel supported by everyone including the leadership team. Having an awesome employer and colleagues is super helpful everyday especially and challenging days like today.

And of course I am working from home today so I can’t forget to mention how supportive of a colleague my cat Billie Dean has been today. I know for fact he knows I am needing the extra cuddles and love he is giving me. Animals including my cat, Billie have unconditional love especially for their humans.

I do not have much more to say in in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Apparently, Not Going Back to Sleep Tonight

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Good Fucking, Morning, World!!! This is most likely be a rant of a post. It is 6:03am in the morning here in Seattle. I am one angry person who is now a fucking a cranky bucket and now I have to be up to start getting ready for work. Work that I love to do but challenging on a good day and even more challenging when you are a cranky bucket.

I swear my neighbors don’t get it or understand that arguing and physically fighting is not a good thing any time of the day especially in the middle of the night. Then there is the idiot neighbor who has pulled the fire alarm so many times it’s not funny and very angering on my part as well as other neighbors me angry. The Seattle Fire Department and the Seattle Police Department are doing shit about the dude pulling the fire alarm. All I want it fucking sleep so I can be the best I can be for the best I can be for the client a serve at work.

I really don’t want to be cranky at work especially working really to not be one when I am in sessions with clients. My clients tend to understand which is a good thing. Now that I have to be up to get ready for work, it is time for morning meditation mindfulness practice with a nice cup of tea.

Well, I don’t have much more to say expect for thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my heart. Here is to a day that I hope to not be a cranky bucket. Peace Out, World!!!

Phuck Getting Sleep Tonight

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Good Morning, World!!! Apparently it appears I am not getting a good night sleep tonight because I have neighbors that a physically fighting on my hallway floor. On top of that other neighbors are pulling the building the fire alarm. I am tired and tired has phucking hell. All the shit that is happening is trigging my PTSD. I am tired as hell and a phucking cranky buck it. I just wish Seattle Housing Authority (SHA), The Seattle Fire Department as well as the Seattle Police would do something. People do need to work and being a cranky bucket is not a way to start the day.

I don’t have much to say. Thank you for listening to my rants especially about my neighbors.