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Wide Awake at 2:34 in the Morning

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Good Morning, World!!! It is two thirty-four in the morning here in Seattle. After my last blog poste yesterday, things didn’t go as I had planned but that is okay. I had planned to do a diamond art/painting of a tuxedo cat in a tree, but I got sidetracked. I got sidetracked by deciding to learn how to use a PowerPoint. Yes, I know it’s a little late in the game to learn how, but it never hurts to learn. I am teaching myself to use PowerPoint because I am wanting to present a conference that is solely focused on peer specialist. The cool thing I am learning about PowerPoint is can actually get creative with using it and I think that is awesome.

After starting to learn how to use PowerPoint, I realized that I needed to take a nap as I was tired as hell. Needless to say, I am now wide awake. I truly didn’t mean to sleep for so long especially since it was supposed to be a nap and not an average night of sleep for me.

Now that I am wide awake from an extra-long nap, I plan on doing some artwork. The type of artwork I am going to work on is a diamond art/painting project. The diamond art/painting I am doing is that of a tuxedo cat in tree. I picked this diamond art/painting because my cat, Billie is a tuxedo cat. Yes, that means I am very partial to tuxedo cats.

Maybe it is a good thing that I am doing diamond art/painting because the weather is yucky in Seattle right now. Yes, I know it is the middle of the night, but the weather is supposed to get worse as the day goes on. I’m not a big fan of yucky weather but it does make a great excuse to stay inside.

I do not have much else to discuss or write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Mixture of Middle of the Night Emotions & Ideas

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Good Morning, World from Seattle and it is still the middle of the middle of the night here in Seattle. In fact as I write this blog, my cat Billie is purring on my lap. I am technically on crisis coverage till eight in the morning Seattle time and will complete my crisis coverage.

On that note there is a family emergency regarding my grandpa and thankfully my uncle is taking care of it till I am off of crisis coverage at eight o’clock this morning Seattle time. I did let the appropriate people know at work about it however I totally remembered I can deal with my family emergency while finishing up my much needed notes. I will send the email about catching up on notes while helping my grandpa once I know my supervisors are awake and aware of the situation regarding my grandpa. Either way I most like will do my notes, I just want to be able to get paid for them but like I mentioned before I want to make sure the supervisors are made aware that I will being finishing my crisis coverage shift and missing my regular shift and will bring up the idea of seeing if I can get paid catching up on notes while dealing my grandpa’s emergency. I am so grateful that my uncle is currently dealing with my grandpa’s emergency as I am crisis coverage for work right now.

Right now, I am struggling with some intense emotions regarding my mental health challenges. Specifically my depression and PTSD which both suck shit.Since doing mindfulness meditation appears to help my mental health symptom help a great deal, it is one of the skills I go to first. The next thing I plan on doing is doing something creative. I plan on doing both arts at crafts. The art I plan on doing is art work by coloring and doing diamond art. When it comes to diamond art I will have to sort some stuff out which is cool. As far as crafting goes, I will be doing some cross stitching. I love being able to use my self care to help with my recovery.

I just hope when I email my supervisors again later that they will allow me to work on my notes and still get paid for it as help my grandpa with his emergency. My work is not one hundred okay with me right now but that is okay as I know I am doing the best I can. At least they treat me with respect.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Early to Be Awaken on A Saturday Morning

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Good (very early) Morning, World!!! It is very early in the morning here in Seattle. In fact it is 3:06am in the morning Seattle time and I am tired as hell. I think part of the reason I am awake this early is due to a combination of the symptoms of the Depression, Anxiety and PTSD, I struggle with. Thank goodness, I have the support of my cat, Billie to depend on this earlier in the morning. I know I can call people this early in the morning however and thankfully it is not to that point that I will have to rely on my human friends as it is a mild case at the time. Although, Billie my cat is snoring away on my lap as I write this, I am listening to some music. By the sound of it as well as looking out the window, it is currently raining in Seattle which fits my mood of mild depression.

On the plus part I am looking forward to my Amazon deliveries later today which mainly consist of craft supplies of Diamond Art and Latch Hook stuff. Looking forward to the creativity to come once my apartment is clean. I might order more but I want to make sure I am fully awake and have one more bill to pay off.

That’s all I have to say about this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my very early morning post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my post as if it was not for you the reader, reading my post, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Keeping Busy to Stay in a Neutral State of Mind

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Hello, World from Seattle. It has been one of them days where trying to be in a neutral state of mind has been challenging. It has been challenging due to some negative shit, I have experienced the last few weeks. Yes, I would prefer to be in a good state of mind however I will and am more than okay to be in a neutral state of mind.

I started off the day cuddling with my cat Billie. In fact that appears to be an everyday thing. An everyday thing I don’t mind especially since it is how I start my day. I am more than sure that Billie enjoys starting his day cuddling with me.

After cuddling with my cat, Billie, I worked on a Mindfulness workbook. As I was working on the mindfulness workbook, I realized that my morning cuddles or any cuddles with Billie is mindfulness. So, I guess I do mindfulness everyday as I cuddle with Billie. Even though I do mindfulness daily, I am still going to work on the mindfulness workbook daily till it is finished.

I, of course did all that before getting ready and going to volunteer at PAWS Cat City. I really enjoy volunteering at Cat City. In fact it is one of the highlights of my week. Even though I have my own cat, I enjoy spending time with the cats at Cat City. In fact I enjoy spending time with the kittens and the senior cats. On that note, spending time with the kittens reminds me why I prefer the adult and senior cats especially to have one as a family member.

When I arrived home after volunteering I had packages at my door from Amazon. One of which was For Dummies book for basic math and pre-algerbra. So, I worked on for about a half an hour and the next half an hour I worked on my other For Dummies book which is on U.S History. I’m still waiting on two more educational Books for Dummies. I am doing the For Dummies books because I have forgotten most of what I learned or I never learned it in school.

After “educating myself,” I decided to be creative. First I did some art work. The art I am doing is coloring a poster for my mom. After coloring, I decided to do some crafting by doing latch hook. I am really enjoying doing the latch hook. I am currently doing a latch hook with a cat on it and it is to wipe your feet with before entering your home. I am not sure what I’m going to do with it when I am done with it.

Well, I’m looking at the time and it is time for dinner. That means it is time to end this particular blog post and go eat. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. That is why it is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. Again, thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Frustrated w/Noisy & Aggressive Neighbors

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Hello, World!!!! I’m frustrated with my neighbors. Actually, I am furious with one particular neighbor who started some shit with another neighbor for no reason. I finally got to bed and sleep at a decent time when I got woken up by a neighbor screaming for help. A disabled neighbor started beating my other neighbor with a crutch for no reason at all. When I heard the screaming I opened my door and looked into the hallway and witnessed what was going on. When I noticed my neighbor being hit by another neighbor and their crutch, I called 911 and I was not the only one who did. My neighbor who was injured went to the hospital. The other neighbor doing the violence got arrested and screamed the entire time.

On that note I’m not sure if I can go back to sleep at the moment. I just don’t know which neighbors to trust now but at least I know which neighbors are my friends. The neighbor who got attacked is a friend. The neighbor who did the attack will no longer be trustworthy and will no longer be a friend of mine.

Since I’m not sure if I’m going to go back to sleep anytime soon, I will seek comfort from my cat, Billie. Billie is really great at comforting me in hard moments. I’m so happy to have a pet to comfort me and keep me company.

Since I am not sure if I will be able to go to sleep right away, I will be applying for jobs. Even jobs I may not want but I need the money to help pay for bills. I’m running low on money. But that’s enough about this topic.

I’m thinking I might do something creative. Not sure if I will color, latch hook or cross stitch. All three get me relaxed. I most likely will either color a cross stitch.

I don’t have much more to say but thank you for reading my post. Peace Out and Good Night, World!!!

Day of Creativity & Time w/My Cat, Billie

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Happy Tuesday after a three day weekend here in the United States for most people due to Labor day. Billie appears to be in an active mood. I hope this means good luck for my job interview tomorrow. If I get it it willl be three four hour shift. I just hope I don’t get stuck with an over night shift which 12 hours long and can have up to three of those shift. I might do one evey once in a while and very rarely like an emergency.

Tooday, I am hanging out with Billlie and play with him in between learning new crafting skills of latch hooking. I am not getting it today being extra cuddly and playful. I so love my creative times when Billlie tries to help.

I should practice on my interview tomorrow as well as play with Billie. I also want to practice on my creativity project. Have a great Teuesday everyone.

Unemployment Sucks; Family & Friends Rock

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Good Afternoon, World!!! It’s evening time here in Seattle and I am feeling a little depressed while dealing with some PTSD. I have been sleeping off and on all day due to the depression and PTSD. Personally, I think being unemployed is was is helping the depression a little bit. I really need a job to help keep myself busy which help with the symptoms of my mental health diagnosis.

On the plus side when I haven’t been sleeping most of the day family and friends have been checking up on me. Some of my friends and neighbors have been feeding me. My grandpa gave me money to buy some art and crafting supplies to keep myself busy and hopefully awake during the day. So, I got some coloring stuff like colored pencils and markers as well as some of those giant and detailed coloring posters. I also got some crafting stuff as well. I got some latch hook crafting. I’ve never done latch hook so I want to try something knew and who knows I might have some done before the holidays to give as gift. Of course 98% of the latch hook stuff I’m get to make happen to be cats which isn’t surprising since I own a cat. Actually, I feel like my cat is more like a family member that me owning him.

As far as the unemployment part of life they are being challenging right now. I am on the job hunt and applying for jobs and getting interviews. It’s just the waiting game on hearing back if I’m going to get an interview or a job. Patience is not my virture.

I don’t have much else to say except my cat Billie is wanting to sit on my lap and my laptop is getting in his way. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So , thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Mr. Sandman Wants me To Learn & Not Sleep

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I am getting a bit frustrated. I can not sleep even if my life depended on it which in a way sleep is a part of being able to to function in daily life. I just really want to sleep and want to sleep now. At least the Seattle rain is soothing me and helping lessening the anxiety that I am dealing with at the moment.

On that note I have been being creative by doing art. Specifically, I have been coloring. Coloring has been quite helpful for me to be able to lessen the anxiety I am dealing with. As I have been coloring, I have been listening to a podcast about philosophy. I feel like listening to “Philosophize This” is giving me an education I never received in school, specifically high school since I never went to college. Being able to be creative by doing art via coloring and listening to a podcast on philosophy is helpful for me to get through a sleepless night.

Of course, Billie Dean, my cat has be quite helpful with keeping the anxiety down. Billie is such a love bug and I love him so very much. I am grateful that he is in my life. I just whish I could sleep. I guess it’s time to cuddle with Billie my cat once again.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom from my heart for reading my blog. Wish me luck that I can get some sleep. Peace Out, World!!!

Another Night Without Sleep With a Bit of Learning & Creativity

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It is extremely extremely early in my corner of the world which is Seattle. It is cold for Seattle. Not cold as in snowing or freezing outside. It is just cold as the temperatures are below normal. At least it’s just really bad rain and wind and the temperatures are in the low 40’s.

Anyway, it’s not because of the “cold” weather why I am up at this god awful hour in the middle of the night. I am up in the middle of the night due to insomnia. I think part of the insomnia I am dealing with tonight is because of PTSD shit. Having PTSD and insomnia suck shit especially since I am unable sleep.

So, since I am unable to sleep, I am doing art. Actually the type of art I am doing is coloring. Of course as I am coloring I am listening to a podcast about philosophy. I am using creativity via art by coloring as I learn about philosophy but listening to a podcast. I am listening to “Philosophize This.” So, I guess by being creative while doing art, I am able to learn about philosophy.

Of course my cat, Billie Dean is keeping me company by sitting on my lap. Billie is purring up a storm which means he is just happy he is getting attention. Oh shit the fire department is here at my building. Thankfully the fire alarm isn’t going off or at least it is not at the moment. Anyone, Billie is just grateful for the attention I am giving him in the middle of the night.

I do not have much more to talk about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Still No Sleep In Seattle

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It is now 12:29 in the afternoon here in Seattle. I still have not been to sleep and I am cranky as fucking hell. I’ve been ready some magazines about mindfulness and meditation that seems to be helping. They seem to be helping because that have some journaling accepts to them which is pretty cool. I am also reading a magazine specifically geared to be more creative and want to be more creative.

That sad part of all this is since I am lacking sleeping my comprehension skills suck shit right now. I think I am going to call this a post and end it for now now. I hope everyone has a great weekend ahead of them. Peace Out, World!!!