Keeping Busy to Stay in a Neutral State of Mind

Hello, World from Seattle. It has been one of them days where trying to be in a neutral state of mind has been challenging. It has been challenging due to some negative shit, I have experienced the last few weeks. Yes, I would prefer to be in a good state of mind however I will and am more than okay to be in a neutral state of mind.

I started off the day cuddling with my cat Billie. In fact that appears to be an everyday thing. An everyday thing I don’t mind especially since it is how I start my day. I am more than sure that Billie enjoys starting his day cuddling with me.

After cuddling with my cat, Billie, I worked on a Mindfulness workbook. As I was working on the mindfulness workbook, I realized that my morning cuddles or any cuddles with Billie is mindfulness. So, I guess I do mindfulness everyday as I cuddle with Billie. Even though I do mindfulness daily, I am still going to work on the mindfulness workbook daily till it is finished.

I, of course did all that before getting ready and going to volunteer at PAWS Cat City. I really enjoy volunteering at Cat City. In fact it is one of the highlights of my week. Even though I have my own cat, I enjoy spending time with the cats at Cat City. In fact I enjoy spending time with the kittens and the senior cats. On that note, spending time with the kittens reminds me why I prefer the adult and senior cats especially to have one as a family member.

When I arrived home after volunteering I had packages at my door from Amazon. One of which was For Dummies book for basic math and pre-algerbra. So, I worked on for about a half an hour and the next half an hour I worked on my other For Dummies book which is on U.S History. I’m still waiting on two more educational Books for Dummies. I am doing the For Dummies books because I have forgotten most of what I learned or I never learned it in school.

After “educating myself,” I decided to be creative. First I did some art work. The art I am doing is coloring a poster for my mom. After coloring, I decided to do some crafting by doing latch hook. I am really enjoying doing the latch hook. I am currently doing a latch hook with a cat on it and it is to wipe your feet with before entering your home. I am not sure what I’m going to do with it when I am done with it.

Well, I’m looking at the time and it is time for dinner. That means it is time to end this particular blog post and go eat. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. That is why it is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. Again, thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness Meditation
  • Volunteer at Cat City
  • Practice Latch Hook
  • Work on a Book for Dummies book (not sure which subject yet.)
  • Work on stamp cross stitch

Monday

  • Mindfulness Meditation
  • Work on Books for Dummies (to better educate myself.)
  • Interview at a local fast food chain. (Don’t really want to work fast food but starting pay is twenty dollars and I’m not going to say no since I need a job and it pays well.)
  • Do Laundry
  • Apply for jobs

Tuesday

  • Mindfulnes Meditation
  • Educate myself with the books with dummies series
  • Billie, my cat has a play date with a neighbors cat (Yes both cats get along with each other.)
  • Clean apartment.
  • Apply for jobs

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness Meditation
  • Practice both Latch Hook and Cross Stitch
  • Hang out with grandpa
  • Educate myself with the books with dummies series
  • Hang out with Billie
  • Apply for jobs

Thursday

  • Mindfulness Meditation
  • Hang out with Billie
  • Clean Apartment
  • Apply for jobs
  • Educate myself with the books with dummies series
  • Practice Latch hook and cross stitch

Friday

  • Mindfulness Meditation
  • Doctors appointment
  • Practice cross stitch and latch hook
  • Educate myself with the books with dummies series
  • Dinner with grandpa

Saturday

  • Mindfulness Meditation
  • Spend the day doing hobbies while hanging out with my cat Billie.

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! It has been quite some time since I have done a weekly check in. A lot has happened and sadly a few weeks ago a mutual agreement between myself and now ex-new employer that it wasn’t a good fit for myself or the employer. That means I have been job hunting. This last week I’ve been filling out so many applications my fingers have been cramping up. I’ve been on three interviews this last week.

On another note, Billie had a second follow up appointment regarding his dental extractions. He is healing up okay. He is a champ and didn’t do much complaining except when the anastitic wore off and it was only for a couple of hours. Me as a human would have complained more than my cat about the dental work.

As for me, I was physically attacked and had to go to the emergency room. I have six staples in my head and a shoulder injury. So, I’ve been going to follow up appointments. I’m doing better and my concussion is slowly getting better. I get my staples out on the sixteenth of this month and hopefully will get a referral for physical therapy for my shoulder if it does not get any better.

I think I caught you up to date over this last week as I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Still Awake Early on a Saturday

Good Morning, World!!! It is now 6:03 in the morning in Seattle. As I stated in my last post I was doing some math. I realized I didn’t have the most up to date Books for Dummies when it comes to Basic Math and Pre Alegerbra so I ordered the most updated one. In fact the last few days, I’ve ordered a hand full of Books for Dummies on various subjects. I’m doing this at forty plus years old because I want to know my shit even if I might not have someone to discuss it with. Just knowing that I know something is satisfying enough for me even if I want to discuss it with other people.

I hope next week I will start my education with the Books for Dummies. I just really want to do something productive in my spare time especially since I am currently unemployed. In fact I hope to continue to do it in my spare time when I do finally get some work.

Other things I hope to do in my spare time might have to wait till I get a job like getting back into the comic book world because he needs lots of money for that. In fact it is a hobby I haven’t done in a while due to Covid-19 which sucked. On that not other hobbies I have continued to do on and off is art work by way of coloring and painting. I’ve also occasionally done stamped cross stitch and will get more into it so I can do counted cross stitch. Something that I am now just picking up and teaching myself to do latch hook. You can do pillows, rugs, mats to wipe your feet on at the front door and other such things.

On that note, I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Day of Taking Care of Billie and Myself

Good Evening, World!!! The day started off with taking my cat Billie for a second follow up appointment for dental surgery he had a few weeks ago. Everything appears to be healing just find and dandy. I personally think that is a good thing.

When I got home I ordered my educational books to learn from because I am learning a great deal from the Basic Math and Pre-Algerbra for dummies book. I figured the more I learn educational wise, I can hold better and more educational conversations.

As for the hobby stuff it is starting to get me frustrtated and hilll work on the ones I want to donate to PAWS for a fundraiser next year instead of this year since I started a little late. I am start to do stamped cross stitch as well. I am hoping that not only can I donate my crafts to help non profit make money but also hope to make money of my own as well.

As far as employment goes, I am still unemployed but I am applying for jobs and getting interviews. Still waiting to hear back to see if I get a job. Some I have received the job which sucks but I am hopeful to get a job soon even if it is not in the field I want to be in.

My cat has beeen by my side most of the day and extra cuddling. I love my cat and he love laying in the sun. He has been playing a lot today with his wand toy and loving the catnip.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Thank you again for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

My Go to Wellness Tools When Things are Either Going Well or Not so Well & Sometimes in the Middle

Hello, World!!! Things haven’t had been very good lately but I’m handling them okay. I lost my new job because I wasn’t the right fit and I agree. It turned out to a be mutual agreement and “considered a lay off.” This lay off I’m okay with. The first lay off I wasn’t okay with it due to the fact of how it was handled.

I am putting in applications and going to interviews in the career of my choice as a peer specialist. I have also been applying to old employers I tolerated even the ones that were overnight or twelve plus hours long. Having a job helps me a great deal.

Even though things may not be going so well my cat, Billie has been a huge help. Hell, he is a huge help when things are both going well and not so well. Having an animal around had been quite helpful for me.

Another thing I have found helpful in both the good times and not so good times is volunteering. Volunteering at an animal shelter has been and continues to be quite rewarding. Helping cats find their furrever homes and people a new family member in a cat is one of the best feelings in the world.

Something I have started to do is to start doing math. Specifically, basic math and pre-algerbra. I’m doing this to help me if I get too emotional as well as to keep my math skills up. Having basic math skills is something every adult should have.

Another thing I am taking up is latch hook. I figure taking up a hobby latch hook would be helpful when thing aren’t going so well and even when they are going well.

Of course I’ll still be doing art. Specifically coloring. I am coloring a poster for my mom. She likes that type of thing. She is dealing with cancer and the treatment that goes along with it. Plus her birthday is tomorrow.

I don’t have much more to talk about. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Lazy A$$ Friday

Happy Friday, World!!! I have a had a lazy ass Friday.  I have pretty much done nothing today. I have mostly taken naps as I didn’t sleep last night. Despite napping a good portion of the day I spent my waking moments playing with my cat, Lil Gertie, and doing hobbies I enjoy.

One of the hobbies, I did today was scrap booking. I did this to help me with dealing with the grief of my grandma because the scrapbook I am making has many pictures of my grandma. I am not sure if I am going to keep the scrapbook or give it to my grandpa but whatever I do with it, it is helping me to deal with the grief of the death of my grandma.

Another hobby I have done today was buy some Wonder Woman comic books. Actually, I was able to get a good portion of the Wonder Woman comic books I was not able to buy as of lately due financial reasons. So that means I am catching up on the latest Wonder Woman comic books.

One of the other hobbies I did today was paint. I was painting an abstract piece of art when my cat, Lil Gertie, stepped in my paint. So that’s when I came up with an idea of her walking on my canvas. Surprisingly enough she did it and now I have a very cool painting that I will frame and put on one of my walls.  The difficult part was getting the paint off of the feet of my cat, Lil Gertie. It took about an hour to wash Lil Gertie’s feet but I have an awesome painting of her foot prints. So her stepping into my paint was a blessing despite having to wash her paws for nearly an hour due to her not liking it.

So what I have done today has been quite helpful with my recovery. I love being able to do hobbies and it overall helped with making my day of isolation a great day. Yes, my depression has been acting up however my hobbies kept me from letting it get the better of me.

Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated. I hope everyone enjoys the rest of their Friday. Most importantly, I hope every enjoys their weekend with whatever you are doing. I know some people work weekends and hope that those who work this weekend have a good work shift. Again thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

A Child’s Christmas Wish; William’s Mail

As, a mama to be I know a mother’s love for her child (or children in my case since I am having twins) starts the moment when one finds out they are pregnant. Another thing I have come to realize is that I will do just about anything to make my children’s lives as happy and enjoyable as possible and protect them to the best of my ability. So, when I saw a news story on a local news station about a mom wanting to fulfill her 12 year old Autistic son, Williams Christmas wish I knew I had to help spread the word. All, William wants for Christmas is mail. I meant to blog about this earlier but life got busy. (Side Note: Links to the Facebook and Twitter accounts as well as the address is at the end of the this particular post.) The following is a letter that William’s mother wrote on a Facebook account she set up to make her sons Christmas wish come true:

Williams Mail

I have never done, or asked anything like this before, but I felt the need to. That need that comes from being a mom and wanting to do everything in your power to make your child happy. It seems like such a small thing but it is the few things that drive a mothers soul. The need to protect and the need to bring joy to your kids faces.

My son, William is 12 years old. He is an amazing kid. He rarely asks for much. He is full of love, joy and happiness. William is smart, funny and awesome. William also has Autism (severe) and is also non verbal. (he can not talk). During Christmas time (his absolute favorite time of the year) he always asks me for the things he wants, and they are always the same. He wants Mr.Sketch Markers, Copy Paper, Lays Regular Chips, and whatever Blu Ray is on his mind for his collection. (His “thing” is movies). He is the easiest and hardest to shop for. I am always looking for new things to add to the list but he usually is not interested and just wants what he wants

This is where my request comes in. This year he asked for something new! I almost fell over when he added it to the box (his Christmas wish list box) and the new item is……….. MAIL! Mail. Mail. He LOVES getting mail. Half of our family lives in Northern Canada and the other half lives in Southern USA so he gets mail from family a couple times a year. I always knew he loved getting his mail but when he asked for it, I cried. I actually sat here and cried. Both happy and sad tears. Happy because he was expressing his wants and sad because of how I was going to figure out how to get him what he wants. He is such an amazing kid and he rarely wants for anything, I really want to make something special for him.

Let me tell you why I was sad. William has never had people come to his birthdays or has he been invited to any. No one asks William to come over for playdates or sleep overs. There are a small handful of kids in his class with needs of their own so I understand why. It is not anyone’s fault, it just is what it is. My family lives 1000 miles in one direction and my kids other family (fathers side) lives 1000 miles in the other so there is no family here for us. My teenage daughter is always out, socializing, hanging with friends and sometimes it just breaks my heart. I wish William had that too, but life has other plans for this amazing kid.

Many people assume since he can not talk that he does not understand. Well, let me tell you, this kid understands. He understands a lot. He understands too much. He just can not communicate the way we do, but he is sharp as a tack. He feels love and affection and I think he finds mail from others as affection. He carries around the last box that was sent to him. He covets the post cards. He wants me to read mail to him (even though he is an excellent reader) he wants to send mail. He LOVES mail and asks me for it now (the past couple weeks) multiple times a day. He writes MAIL on his drawings, he brings me the key to check the mail. I think he truly appreciate mail.

Now to my request. I have been racking my brains for a couple weeks. I want to make this year special for this most special boy. He has nothing but love in him and I want him to feel the love from others. If you want to help a kind soul this year, I am asking for strangers to send him mail. I want him to know the world loves and values him in a way that he understands and feels. I have been buying stamps and have been “creating” mail for Christmas. I have enlisted my small family (there is only a handful) to send mail to him for Christmas. I was hoping someone out there would want to sit down and send mail to William. He deserves to feel the love from the world like the rest of us do because he makes this world a better place. He deserves all the mail in the world according to me , but I am his mommy so I am bias.

I know, it may seem strange to ask strangers for mail but this is the only way I can think of to fulfill my sons Christmas wish. I am starting a page, and if people write letters to him on it, I will print the letters off and turn them into mail. If you feel inclined to send this amazing kid a piece of mail, I will save it until Christmas morning and when he wakes up, he will wake up to his beloved mail.

He loves his mail so much that his weekly treat is to visit the Post Office so he can get a Mail Box (a priority mail box) and when we get home he wants me to put Mail in it (usually just one of his BluRays) and he gets so happy to open it. He also carries around this Christmas USPS flier thingy they sent out a while ago with their Christmas stamps.

Please take the time to consider my request. It would mean the world to a very special young boy whose only real wish this year is to open MAIL It would mean the world to this Momma , William and his big sister Victoria too, we just want to make it a very special Christmas for a very special boy

https://www.facebook.com/pag…/Williams-Mail/1575623412666921

If you would like to learn more about what to write or what William likes to talk about please read this link. https://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=1576474325915163&id=1575623412666921

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Williams Mail
PMB# 175
816 Peace Portal Dr.
Blaine, Washington
98230
USA

100th Blog

Writing this particular blog is a major milestone; a milestone in the fact that it is my 100th blog. Blogging on the subject of Mental Illness hasn’t been an easy feat. It hasn’t been easy for me to write on the topic of mental illness due to my own struggles with it and the lack of education. I have the lack of education to convey what I desire to tell you in regards to mental illness. Due to my struggles with mental illness I was unable to go to college and now it’s the lack of funds that I am unable to attend college. On the flip side, I am able to convey how one feels as well as how one deals when one struggles with a mental illness. I am however able to convey something on mental illness that and “educated” person cannot because I live with one. Who better to educate others on mental illness than those who struggle with one? Well, maybe those who not only struggle with a mental illness but have an education in field that deals with mental illness.

Dealing with a mental illness is not an easy thing to deal with because of the struggles one must have to endure when it comes to symptoms.  Learning to deal with the symptoms of a mental health diagnosis in a positive way is a start in  the recovery process. Recovery is not only a difficult journey as well as process but a difficult choice. Yes, recovery is a choice, a choice which one must be a willing participant. Of course being in recovery is an effort that others must be included in because going the journey alone just makes the journey not worth the effort to do. Once a person chooses the road to recovery that person will need all the support they can receive.

The support that one receives looks different to everyone’s own recovery. For me and my own recovery my support system is continuing to grow and be more supportive. My support system includes professionals (such as my therapist, psychiatric nurse practitioner, primary care physician, etc.) as well as natural supports (such as my boyfriend, friends, current and past co-workers, selected family members, etc.). If it wasn’t for the continued support of the people I consider my support system, I would not be able to enjoy my life or even be in recovery. Yes, it is choice that I must make and choose to make however without the support I would not be able to continue on the road of recovery.

The point I am trying to make is that one who struggles with a mental illness needs all the positive support they can get especially when they choose to walk in recovery. Choosing recovery is a personal decision not a forced decision. Being forced into recovery (and in most cases treatment) does more harm than good. The last thing we who struggle with mental illness is to be forced to go into treatment. Yes, in some cases it is a good idea to be put into involuntary treatment but in most cases it is NOT a good idea.

My recovery means the world to me. Yes, there might be relapses and bumps in the road but I will have the support of my support network as well as all the skills I have learned throughout the years. If it wasn’t for my recovery I would not have been able to be employed at my previous employer much less get my current job as a consumer aide at a mental health agency. I have worked endlessly to get where I am at and I owe it all to those who have helped me through out the years. It is to those who have helped me through out the years that this blog is dedicated to. If it wasn’t for the help of many people I would have not been able to be posting my 100th blog much less been able to start this blog to share my recovery as well as to educate those who do not have a mental illness. It is my hope that this blog continues to educate people as well as give hope to those who are struggling and that recovery is possible.

I want to thank you for reading and/or following my blog. It means a great deal to me. I hope that with the next hundred blogs that I will able to continue to convey hope and recovery as well as educate on mental illness. Yes, I know I am not a teacher however some of the best educators in my life  were NOT teachers.

I hope to blog again in the next day or so. I am thrilled that I am able to share my life with you as well as be able show people that there is hope and recovery is possible and that people with mental illness are fully capable human beings. Have a good rest of your weekend all. Peace Out and have fun!!!

Just A Blog About The New Job

It’s an absolutely beautiful Sunday evening in my neck of the woods. So beautiful that my boyfriend and I are going to have dinner outside. We are going to have a grilled chicken salad. Of course the chicken is going to be grilled and the barbeque. I hope we have leftovers so I can take some to work tomorrow.

Speaking of work, I have to remember to take a few things with me tomorrow. A major part of my job is sitting in a little pod like office to let people in the building and that gets boring. I have to remember to take some things to read. I think I’m going to take the book “A Tale of Two Cities” because I haven’t finished reading it yet. The reason why I haven’t finished reading it is that I’ve been busy with life and trying to get a new job. Well, I have that new job and that new job will allow me to read on the job when I am on door duty. I am also going to take a Wonder Woman graphic novel with me. Its one that I have read already but I love Wonder Woman and enjoy rereading any Wonder Woman comic or graphic novel. I am debating weather or not to take some cross-stitching with me to work. I am almost finished with my current cross-stitching project. I really do think I will enjoy my new job wants I get adjusted to what I need to be doing. Plus, I have two more orientations I need to do and fortunately they are both this week. I also have to go to two trainings but the trainings I have to do are not being offered this month so I have to do them next month or whenever they offer them. The trainings I have to do are in Crisis Intervention and CPR. I have to do both every year even if my CPR card is not expired. I know that my new job isn’t the position I want but at least it’s in the field I desire and a foot in the door. Due to agency and union policy I have to be in my current position before be consider an “in-house” applicant. That’s fine with me because I want to be in my position for at least 6 months if not longer because it looks good on the resume’.

Well, I need to get going because my boyfriend said dinner is done and well I am extremely hungry. I hope to blog again sometime in the next few days. Have a wonderful Sunday evening. Peace out!!!!