Still, No Sleep In Seattle

Good  Morning, World!!! It is now five o’clock in the morning here in Seattle and I still haven’t had a wink of sleep. I even took a dose of my sleeping meds after my last post and well the Ambien didn’t work. I just laid there in bed for about an hour while my cat, Lil Gertie, laid next to me purring as she got petted most of that hour.

I have managed to keep myself busy the last few hours. One of the things I have done was watch movies. In fact I watched two Harry Potter movies. That helped to take my mind off of things for a while.

The next thing I did was read a handful of Wonder Woman comic books. Reading Wonder Woman comic books always seem to give me the strength I need for the moment even if that is not my intention for reading Wonder Woman.

Watching Harry Potter and reading Wonder Woman may have helped me get my mind off of things as well a given me strength to handle things, I was hoping hoping that both would relax me enough to get to sleep. Unfortunately, I was not able to get to sleep doing either.

Now I am watching the morning news as I await the arrival of my news paper. I prefer to read the news paper first and then watch the morning news however my news paper has not arrived yet. Of course it is just five o’clock in the morning and the paper usually gets here between five thirty and six o’clock in the morning.

I do have therapy later this morning. In fact I see my therapist at eleven thirty this morning for an hour. The lack of sleep is one of the many things I hope to bring up to him today. I really like my therapist as he is quite helpful. Besides being helpful to me he is a strengths based therapist which means he helps me focus on my strengths so when in times of weakness, I can rely on the strength I have. He is also recovery focused which is a great thing for me. Having a therapist the is recovery focused and strengths based is awesome and rare or I think it is rare as it is difficult to find one that is both especially in the community mental health system.

I don’t have much else to say at the moment. It looks like I have been long winded for this post and that wasn’t my intention. My intention was to keep this post sweet and to the point and not so long. I apologize for my post being so long and e being incredibly long winded. It appears that I need to end the post from my cats, Lil Gertie, point of view as well. I say this cause she is attempting to sit on the key board of my laptop to prevent me form writing.

As this post comes to a close, I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. I hope everyone has a great week. Have a good day everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Morning Madness

Good Morning, World!!! As always there is always some madness to Monday mornings. Not sure why there always seems to be some morning madness to Mondays but there is. Today’s Monday morning madness it brought to you by last minute shit that needs to be done before I head to conference later on today.

For instance, I have some last minute packing I need to do. Stuff like my laptop other such stuff. For the most part I am mostly packed. I highly dislike packing which is why I do as much as I can as early as I can. I pack early because I am always fearful I might forget something.

As I pack the last of what need to, I am also getting ready for the day and other stuff I need to do. For example, I have therapy today. I have to emotionally prepare myself for therapy as it is hard and difficult work. Another thing I need to do I get wet (canned) cat food for my cat so my cat sitters can give Lil Gertie, my cat, a special treat while I will at the conference. Another last minute thing I have to do is get my meds. I most definitely need to get my meds or I won’t be able to function very well.

Well, I need to get going and get ready for a long day ahead. Thank you so much for reading my blog. I hope you have a great Monday. Have a great week ahead. Peace Out, World!!!

More Randomness About The Same Ole Shit

Good Afternoon, again, World!!! I am so excited for the conference next week that I created a painting expressing how I feel about attending the conference. Painting is not just for me to express my negative emotions but to express the positive emotions as well. I am thinking about taking the painting to the conference to share with people. Art is so helpful for me to express my emotions.

Even though I don’t check into the hotel to three in the afternoon on Monday, I have started packing. Which reminds me I have to get my refills for my meds on Monday before I leave for the conference. I already know what to pack but making sure I get my meds are the major thing I can’t forget to pack as I have refill to pick up on Monday.

I am also getting excited about my job interview for next Friday, August 31st for a peer specialist position. Yes, the commute will not be fun as it is about an hour each way on the bus. But on the bright side if I get the job, I will be traveling the opposite direction of the main part of the traffic nightmare since everyone tends to go toward Seattle while I’ll be going the opposite direction of most everyone else. I am not saying there won’t be traffic the direction I am going in, its just the traffic going into Seattle is worse. Look, I am getting ahead of myself as if I already got the job but I don’t know if I even got the job because I haven’t had the interview yet.

Thank you for reading!!! It is really appreciative from my end of things. Like I said in my last post, I hope to blog about the conference during my free time at the conference. I hope everyone has a great Friday. Peace Out, World.

Waiting to Go To Hospital Due to Migraine

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am waiting to go to the hospital for my migraine to see if it gets better especially since my grandpa will be taking me. After my grandpa takes me to the hospital I’ll be spending the night at his place and have him bring me home tomorrow.

My cat is helping me relax a little which might help with the migraine. Anything to help with the migraine I am willing to try.

I should get going and rest. I will keep you updated. Thank you reading my blog. It is appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

The Migraine From Hell

Good Afternoon, World!!! I have the migraine from hell. It is so bad I called my regular doctor to see if I could see her today or any other provider in the clinic. Unfortunately, everyone was booked up so she suggested I go to the Emergency Room. She also suggested that I have someone take me just in case the hospital gives me meds.

I did all my usual stuff to help reduce the migraine or even to make it go away but nothing has worked. I took over the counter pains meds which do shit for a migraine but it was worth a shot. So I took my Immitrex and the first dose did shit as well as the second dose. I have shut all the blinds in hopes that the darkness would help lessen the pain and it has. The shower I took only lessened the pain for about an hour. I have also been trying to sleep my migraine away but that didn’t help much. I informed my doctor of all this which is why she suggested that I go to the Emergency Room.

I am now waiting on family to pick me to take me to the hospital in hopes they can do something about the pain. In fact it is my grandpa that is picking me up to take me to the hospital. I hope he doesn’t mind waiting forever and a day in the Emergency Room for my migraine.

As I am waiting for my grandpa to pick me up my cat, Lil Gertie, is cuddling right beside me. Her cuddling right beside me is helping quite a bit with the anxiety I am feeling going back to the Emergency Room.

Thank you for reading my blog. I hope to update you as soon as I am able to do so. Mainly when I am feeling slightly better than I am now. I really do appreciate you all reading my blog. Have a great Wednesday. Peace Out, World!!!

No Sleep For Me

Good Morning, World!!! It is seven o’clock in my corner of the world and was unable to sleep last night. I took my Ambien as prescribed and still didn’t fall asleep. Yes, I remember blogging through the Ambien fog.

I was finally almost asleep when I had a severe asthma attack that led me to go to the Emergency Room.  At first the doctor though I was having an anxiety attack but thankfully my oxygen levels proved the doctor wrong. I love it when the doctors are proven wrong. My asthma attack was due to the poor air quality Seattle is having due to all the wild fires around the state.

When I got home from the hospital, I tried to get back to sleep. Unfortunately, I was unable to get to sleep Partly out of fear of having another asthma and partly because my cat wanted to play. So I gave up on sleep and gave into my cat and played with her. On the plus side at least I can take a nap later on in the day.

Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is so very much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless In Seattle & In An Ambien Fog

Good Morning, World!!! I am sleepless in Seattle and have taken my Ambien which means I am in an Ambien fog. I am blogging in an Ambien fog in hopes that it will help me become sleepy.

I have done my normal sleep hygiene routine and even took an Ambien yet sleep isn’t coming easy to me tonight. I even had a busy Monday to help me sleep better. But apparently sometimes everything you do to help you get to sleep doesn’t always help. I guess it is just time to try to lay down again and try to get to sleep. Not getting a good nights sleep can have an effect on ones mental health so I really need to get to bed as soon as possible. It could effect physical health as well.

Have a good night sleep. Peace Out, World!!!

An Adulting Type of Day

Good Morning, World!!! I don’t know where to start so I guess, I will start at the beginning. I started off the day with going to the DSHS office and well it always sucks dealing with government agencies but thankfully everything was taken care of. Thankfully, I am getting some of my medical back and getting my food stamps back.

After dealing with DSHS, I had to make some phone calls. Phone calls regarding medical bills and one collection agency. I have been able to get charity care and/or make payment plans which is a burden off of my back.

I have also gone to the pharmacy to get my meds for the week. I am now getting my meds on the weekly basis per my psychiatric nurse practitioner. After having a suicide attempt a month ago with Tylenol she didn’t want to risk me overdosing on my meds. To tell you the truth I am more likely to stop my meds than to over dose on them. I am hoping that I will only have to do this for a month or two to prove myself again. I know she is only doing this for my protection. So, I got my meds and I take them as prescribed.

I have some household chores that I have been putting off that finally got done. Getting my household chores done is a great accomplishment.

Hell, doing everything I have done today by ten thirty in the morning in my corner of the world is a major accomplishment. I am very proud of myself for being able to do all this by ten thirty in the morning.

Now, I don’t know what to do with the rest of my day. I know I will be spending time with my cat, Lil Gertie as she helps me with my emotions.  As I figure out what to do with the rest of my day, I want to thank you for reading my blog. Have a wonderful Monday and a great work week. Peace Out, World!!!

Still With Family But Missing My Cat

Good Morning, again, World!!! I am still spending time with my family. Mainly my grandpa and uncle. It is always nice to spend time with family but I am missing my cat right now. I know my cat is in good hands with my friend (who is a neighbor) taking care of Lil Gertie but I still miss her. I should be going back home today.

My uncle is taking me to the DSHS office to take care of some medical insurance issues due to the fact that they think I make more money than I actually make. I am glad that I have family to help me out with this stuff. I hope I can get it taken care of tomorrow without having to go to the Social Security office which is even a bigger nightmare.

I just wish my health was in better shape as this weird ass mouth infection is really getting to me. Having to be on a butt loud of antibiotics is not my idea of fun. I feel like that my health is affecting my mental health. My mental health is something I need to keep an eye on especially my depression. This is where I wish I was home with my cat but maybe being with my family is helping me with the depression to a degree.

My grandpa is making breakfast for a late breakfast early lunch. Maybe more like a brunch. Not sure what he is making but it sure smells good. Having a supportive family means a great deal. Even though their support is not as supportive as they think it is but their heart is in the right place.

I better go an see if my grandpa needs help making breakfast or lunch or whatever it is. I hope you all have a wonderful Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

Turns Out It Wasn’t My Appendix, So I Am Okay

Good Morning, World!!! I went to the emergency room because I thought I was having a problem with my appendix. It turned out that my stomach issues were due to the antibiotics that I am on. I am still on the antibiotics because they are the best ones to be on to get rid of the weird ass mouth infection I have. The doctors still think I should still take the antibiotics till I see my doctor or when they run out.

Now on to a different subject. I stayed the night with my grandpa. I am still at his house. He is making waffles for breakfast. Spending time with my grandpa helps the both of us.

I think I am going to look for jobs and apply for them as I am getting really bored with the routine that I have now. I miss working and hope that some day soon that I can go back to work. Working does me good.

Another thing I will be doing is reading other people blogs and update myself on what others are doing in their lives. I haven’t done that in a long while. Reading other peoples blogs brings me hope.

Thank you for reading my blog. I hope to blog again later. Have a great Sunday everyone. Peace Out, World!!!