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The Never Ending Day

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Good Evening, World!!! Today feels like the never ending day. It feels like a never ending day because it is going by so slowly. I have no clue why it feels like it is going so slowly but at least it’s been a relatively good day.

This week at work some folks were changed to different days to do crisis coverage. I was one of those folks and am now assigned to do crisis coverage during business hours on Thursdays. So today was first Thursday, I did crisis coverage. All the folks on Thursdays are great people but not as interactive as the Friday crisis coverage folks. On that note, when I found out I was being switched to Thursdays, I asked if I could continue to do Fridays crisis coverage and was told yes just as long I do Thursdays. That’s fine with me because I love working with folks in crisis. I was informed that I cannot do more than two days of crisis coverage and I am okay with that.

Thankfully, I am currently off work. I am listening to a podcast about philosophy. Actually, the philosophy podcast I am currently listening to is Philosophize This. I love this podcast for many reasons and I learn a great deal from it. I wish I learned philosophy when I was in high school but sadly that was not an option from the high school I graduated from.

As I sit here blogging and listening to Philosophize This, my cat, Billie Dean, is laying next to me purring. I love the fact that Billie is content with laying next me as I sit blogging and listening to a podcast. Billie is such a love bug of a cat. I love the unconditional love the my cat, Billie gives me. I love my cat so very much.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reading I would not be blogging. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Rambling

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Good Morning, World!!! It’s 2:01 in morning in my corner of the world which is Seattle, Washington. I am sadly not able to sleep and hope I can get some form of rest or preferably sleep. I wanting sleep so I am not a cranky bucket at work. Being a cranky bucket is not fun especially when you have to work. I hope I can get some sleep so I can be the best person I can be when I am at work.

Anyway I have been cuddling with my cat, Billie Dean which helps with relaxing enough to at least help with falling asleep. While cuddling with Billie, my cat, I have been listening to a podcast on philosophy. Specifically, I am listening to Philosophize This. Philosophize This is a great podcast and trying to get to the most recent podcast but I have a long way to go. I am okay with that as it will help have some structure in my life that is enjoyable for me especially since I am learning something everyday from Philosophize This. So, my cat and the podcast will be helping me get some rest tonight.

I don’t have any more to talk about this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If you wasn’t for you reader I wouldn’t be writer my blog. Thanks from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!!

A Buttload of Emotions

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Hello, World!!! Today, I have had a buttload of emotions. The main emotion that bothered me today was anger. Anger over a training at work. I know why I was angry and it really didn’t have anything to do with the training itself but the trainer. Even though the trainer didn’t do anything negative in the training today, I have had some pretty negative experiences with this person. The negative experiences I had with this person was about fifteen years ago and thought I was over it till I saw this person and realize that I wasn’t over it.

So, when the training was over I did a five minute mindfulness meditation practice. A mindfulness meditation practice that helped a great deal and did two more times before the end of work. All three times I did the mindfulness meditation practice helped a great deal.

After work I called a friend as a well as my grandpa. After talking with both my friend and grandpa on the phone, I visited a neighbor in my building who has become a friend. Talking with friends and family helped a great deal. I felt the love from friends and family and that helped with my anger.

Speaking of love, I felt the love from my cat, Billie Dean. He could tell I was have a challenging time so he sat on my lap. Billie being on my lap also helped my anger. I am so grateful that my cat, Billie, can tell when I am having tough moments like today. He is an amazing kitty and I love him so much.

I do not have anything else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reading I wouldn’t be blogging. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Mini Get Away

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Good Afternoon, World!!! Right now, I am currently in Bremerton, Washington. It being Labor Day weekend here in the United States, I decided to come to Bremerton yesterday and I will be going back home to Seattle tomorrow. I decided to take tomorrow off as it is nice to have an extra day off from time to time.

I came to Bremerton because it is a Ferry Boat ride away and feels like it’s far away. I love being able to come to Bremerton for a couple of nights as it is a form of self care for me. It has been a form of self care for me since I made the active decision to be in active mental health and self harm recovery. In fact it was my grandma’s idea and she would pay for a couple of nights in a hotel for me because she knew that being near water and a couple of days away would help me even when I am doing well.

Even though my grandma passed away three and a half years ago, I still come to Bremerton as a way to recharge. In fact, I am really missing my grandma right now. I miss being able to call her up and talk with her. She and my grandpa helped my dad raise me. My grandma was very supportive of me and I am grateful that I am still keeping up with this self care tradition. Most importantly I am grateful that I have a job to be able to pay for the mini get away myself without needing to ask for someone else to pay for it.

Speaking of paying for my trip, my grandpa is taking care of my cat, Billie Dean as I am out of town. Billie is at my grandpa’s getting even more spoiled than he normally is. My grandpa really enjoys taking care of Billie. Billie also loves being spoiled by my grandpa.

Well it is lunch time and I am hungry. So, I am going to end this particular blog post so I can go eat and walk around the Bremerton waterfront. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

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Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Get meds
  • Clean apartment

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Coffee/Tea with friend
  • Work

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Therapy appointment with therapist
  • Med appointment with psychiatrist nurse practitioner
  • Work

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work
  •  Dinner with grandpa

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work
  • Dinner with a friend

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work
  • Dinner by myself at Red Robin

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Clean apartment

A Sleepless in Seattle Type of Night

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Good Morning, World!!! I am having a bad spell of insomnia. I think part of it is because I am in pain due to having kidney stones. Kidney stones is not something I would call as fun or enjoyable.

Since I am not able to sleep, I decided to do something that I find fun and enjoyable. That is listening to a podcast with my cat, Billie Dean, laying next to me in my bed. I am listening to a podcast about philosophy. Specifically, I am listening to Philosophize This. I really like this podcast and am almost caught up to the most recent one of it.

I do not have much more to say as I want to get back to listening to Philosophize This as I lay next to my cat, Billie as he purrs. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great rest of your weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

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Good Evening, World!!! I am tired as hell, so I will keep this brief. This week has been a long week or at least that was the case regarding work. Don’t get me wrong, I love my job, it was just a long week.

Despite a long week at work, I ended up in the emergency room yesterday (Friday) evening due to having pain in my right kidney. I thought I had another kidney infection but I do not. I have kidney stones and they hurt like fucking hell but at least it is not another kidney infection.

Even though I didn’t get to bed till midnight last night, I still went for a walk with a friend this morning. It was a good way to get some exercise and catch up with a friend. My friend and I hadn’t hung out since last year before the pandemic so it was to catch up with each other in person.

Not only did I hang out with my friend, I volunteered mid afternoon at PAWS Cat City today. It was nice to be able to volunteer and help cats get new furrever homes. I love volunteering.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration: Day 13: Play With Word Count

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Realistically, I do not want to “play with word count.” Not sure why but I don’t maybe it reminds me of math class when I was in school. Math was NOT my strong suite. But I know that is not what this assignment is about. I just don’t feel inspired. I rather talk about social media. But that’s okay as I know I won’t be inspired to write about everything.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 12: Critique a Piece of Work

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Today, we are suppose to critique a piece of work which can be artwork, music or writing. It is hard to critique other people work as most of the time other peoples work is better than mine. I critique my own artwork, music and writing all the time. Sadly, the critique becomes self judgement so I try not to critique my own work.

So instead of critiquing, I am going to go on rant. A rant about how people in recovery get stigmatized all the fucking time. People who are in recovery from addiction and/or mental health challenges get stigmatize so much that some people choose to not share their struggles and sadly pass away from their addiction or die by suicide. People can live in long term recovery from addiction as well as mental health challenges. I just wish we weren’t judges so harshly for something that is not are fault. So, before you judge someone due to an addiction and/or mental health challenge think of how you would feel if it was you being judged.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 9: Writing and Not Writing

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When I got today’s inspiration the two things I initially thought on what I do when I am not writing is work and volunteering. I then realized that do write when I work. I have to write notes regarding clients. It is not my favorite part of the job yet I have been informed that I am really good at it.

As far as volunteering, I don’t write. When I volunteer I help take care of cats. Cats that are up for adoption and all of them really cute. I love volunteering my time helping cats get new homes. Volunteering gives me a sense of community as well as a sense of satisfaction.

Another thing I do when I am not writing is listen to music. I listen to music to help with my mental health as well as to have background noise as I live alone with my cat, Billie Dean. I sometimes dance to the music. When I dance to the music, my cat, Billie gives me this weird look that makes me laugh.

I also listen to podcast when I am not writing. I love listening to podcast. I listen to podcast that can educate me on a topic, I do not know much about. I also listen to some podcast for the entertainment. I love to learn as well as to be entertained.

I do many more things when I do not write but I do not want to bore you with everything. I am grateful that I have the ability to read and write.