Monthly Archives: May 2018

Dealing With Grief

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! Today, I am getting together with my dad, grandpa and two uncles to celebrate Mother’s Day a day early in memory of my grandma. Tomorrow is going to be a difficult day for my family as well as myself because it is going to be the first Mother’s Day without my grandma.

To help with the grief with this weekend I have a lot planned. Some of what I have planned is as simple as stuff I do everyday. Stuff such as reading Star War: Heir To The Empire or painting or listening to Podcast. Reading and listening helps me forget about the loss for a temporary amount of time. Painting helps me express my emotions.

Thank you for reading. Have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Up Too Early, Again

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is three o’clock in the morning and I am wide awake. I am not sure why I either don’t sleep or I am up at odd hours in the morning like I am now.

At least I am able to do something to keep me busy. I am going to be listening to Philosophize This. Philosophize This is a podcast on philosophy that I have been listening to for a while now. I have been attempting to catch up to the most recent one.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Painting to Help Through Axiety

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am doing better than I was than my last post. I have been painting the last few hours. Painting has helped me express my emotions when I can not seem to put word to my emotions. One of these days I will share more paintings with you.

I think I am going to go to bed now. Have a great nights sleep. Goodnight and Peace Out, World!!!

Unexpected Anxiety

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Hello, World!!! I am struggling at the moment. I am have some severe anxiety symptoms for some reason. I have had a relatively good day.

I mean I spent time with my family. I made them lunch. Despite my dad being a little cranky and getting on my nerves all was good. My family was grateful that I made plenty of food for leftovers. It’s always nice spending time with my family.

I then came home and had a friend come over. She stayed for about an hour as she needed to get home to her family. But it was nice to visit with my friend for an hour. I love spending time with this friend even for a limited time.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Visiting Family

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am visiting with my family right now. I am visiting with my grandma, dad, and an uncle. My dad is in a cranky mood which is nothing new. My uncle is being chill as usual and my grandpa is reading like he usually does.

Since I am here I decided I would blog. I am also going to fix a meal for my family. I have already done a load of my grandpa’s laundry even though he told me I didn’t have to do so. I just wanted to do something nice for my grandpa.

My dad is starting to get annoyed with the smallest shit I do now. All I am doing is cooking a meal. I am making my family fried chicken and macaroni and cheese with carrots.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

No Sleep In Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I didn’t get any sleep last night. I wish I could have gotten some sleep. I suspected I wouldn’t be getting sleep due to my late yet long nap yesterday evening.

I read a good portion of the night. I read Star Wars; Heir to the Empire by Timothy Zahn. It is an easy read for me. I am really enjoying the book.

I also listened to a podcast on philosophy. Specifically, Philosophize This. The dude that does the podcast is from Seattle. I take notes on the podcast and look back at them.

Thank you for reading. Peace out, World!!!

Midnight Thoughts

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am watching the Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon. I am cracking up laughing like I usually do watching Jimmy Fallon. Watching a comedy like the Tonight Show before I go to be has proven to be helpful for me to sleep.

I don’t think I’ll get much sleep tonight as I took a long and late nap. A much needed nap. A nap that I am grateful for.

I think I am going to be working on my recovery workbook if I am unable to sleep. Working on my workbook that focuses on recovery is quite helpful for me. As you may know is that my recovery is extremely important to me. It means the world to me.

I also might read my Star Wars: Heir To The Empire if I can not sleep tonight. As I am really enjoying the book.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Random Thoughts

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I just woke up from a four hour nap. I just hope I can sleep tonight. I doubt I will be able to sleep but I will still try to do so.

Other than the late nap, I am doing well. I got my social security stuff taken care of even it it is just a temporary solution for now. I am not going to be complaining about the temporary solution because I am grateful for it.

I talked to brother today. He and I have the same mom but different dads. He hopes he made the right decision in contacting his aunt on his dads side. Jay is an awesome brother. He is extremely protective of me despite him being eleven years younger than me.

I better get going as I don’t have much else to say. Have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Good News

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Hello, World!!! I got good news. I am eligible for provisional eligibility of social security till they make a final determination if I am disabled in their eyes. I have had this disability for thirty years. I don’t think anything has changed. I still have mental health challenges whether or not I work or not.

I would love to go back to work and have a job I love again. I just don’t know if I can go back as soon as I had hoped. I love working and having a job where I can be a productive member of society.

Being a productive member of society for me would be working however that is not the case at the moment. So for me going to groups is a way for me to be productive. Being productive is crucial for me and my recovery.

Thank you for reading. I hope you have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Up ToO eArLy, AgAiN

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am up too early, once again. I am getting a little annoyed with either not sleeping or getting up at this god awful hour of the morning. At least I got sleep. I think I got about five hours of sleep.

I am going to the social security office today. This time I hope I can actually get there. I need to take care of some business. They keep telling me that I am getting money and then go around saying I am not getting money. They have been doing this for two months now.

I thinking after I am done blogging, I am going to read. I am of course am going to be reading Star Wars: Heir To The Empire by Timothy Zahn. As I have mentioned in many other previous post the last few days, I have been enjoying the book quite immensely.

Thanks for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!