Just Me Bitching About Shit

Good Evening, World!!!  I am struggling at the moment and not sure why. I have an inkling why but it’s just the same bullshit I have been discussing about in most of my post as of lately.

I am getting highly annoyed with this weird ass mouth infection that appears that won’t fucking go away. Normally if I was in this much pain, I would go to the hospital however I already know that all the doctors and nurses would say is to take ibuprofen which doesn’t really do shit but I understand why they don’t want to give me something stronger. Doctors are fearful of getting someone addicted to narcotic pain relievers and I don’t blame them. I just want the pain to go away. Actually, I want the infection to be gone so the pain can be gone.

I was suppose to hear back by the end of last week to get an interview at a potential employer sometime this week. That hasn’t happened yet. I wish people would keep their word and yes I know people get busy. I just want to get back to work.

Right now all I can do is to distract myself. I have been playing with my cat which has be quite helpful. Having a cat around sure is quite helpful. I have also been doing some art work. Specifically, I have been coloring. Coloring gives me a sense of peace and that is quite helpful.

Thank you for reading my blog again. I plan on posting again tomorrow. I hope you have a great rest of your Sunday evening. Peace Out, World!!!

 

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Being Jobless is Hopeless But There is Always Hope in Things

Being jobless especially in the field you desire to work in is difficult to wrap your mind around. It is hard to wrap you head around if you keep applying for jobs but not get any interviews or worse you get the interviews but not the job.

I know this because I have been in this spot a lot over the last year and half. But hope is not lost because I figure the more I apply to places and get interviews, the more my name gets out there. Which gives me hope.

The things that keeps me going is looking for jobs and applying for them even if I don’t get an interview. I say this because, my name is out there and at least I am trying to get back to work.

Another thing that keeps the hope alive is having a volunteer job to attend to. Or in my case I have two volunteer jobs I have an obligation to. I have two volunteer jobs because it makes me feel good helping other people and it also looks good on the resume’. In fact I might be getting a third volunteer job later this week if all goes well with a job interview for the volunteer job position I am desiring.

Granted having a volunteer job will not give you a pay check or money you need to pay the bills but employers do look at due to the fact that you were doing something with your time other than sitting on your butt doing nothing.

I am hoping that as I look for jobs that employers look at the volunteer work I do. In fact volunteering is what helps me be and stay hopeful. It helps because I am doing something for others that I can’t get back and that is my time. People will remember the time you give including future employers.

The hope in being jobless is that you have time to give to others that you wouldn’t have if you had a job. Yes, once I get a job I will have to reduce the amount of volunteer jobs I have but I will make sure I will still have at least one volunteer job when I do eventually get a paying job.

Thank you for reading my post. I hope that I didn’t make anyone hopeless with thing post because that wasn’t my intention. My intention was to give you hope by maybe getting a volunteer job as you wait for the paying job you need and/or desire. I want to thank you again for reading. It much appreciated. Have a great rest of your Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

There’s Nothing Like Cuddles From The Cat

Good Evening, World!!! There is nothing like being home especially where there are cat cuddle’s involved. Being able to cuddle with my cat today, or any time for that matter, has been quite helpful to me. Having a cat to come home to makes being home that much more better.

Right now I am watching the five o’clock news. As usual there is nothing really good on the news. Just a bunch of politics. Mainly, a bunch of politicians acting like a bunch of children. In fact children act more mature than politicians do now a days.

Right now I am having my anxiety and depression are acting up and I am not sure why. I am attributing a little bit to my current health problems and other to not having a job.  I mainly blame it on my weird as mouth infection that appears that won’t fucking go away.

I think I am going to work on applying for jobs after I am done post this blog and getting some cuddles from my cat, Lil Gertie. Getting cuddles from my cat, Lil Gertie, is quite helpful for me. I think job hunting and applying for jobs will be helpful as well.

Thank you so much for reading my blog. I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. Have a great rest of you Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

Home With Cat

Good Afternoon, World!!! I don’t know if I stated in my last post, I am now home with my cat. In fact my last post was written and posted here at home. It is nice to be home with my cat at my side. Right now she is purring and it is calming me down quite a bit.

Now that I am home, it is my goal to get my depression and anxiety under control. How do I plan on doing this you ask. Great question. I plan on blogging off and on all day today. I also plan on doing chores which is an odd way of helping with depression and anxiety. Of course spending time with my cat is another way that will be helpful for my anxiety and depression.

I also plan on spending it time with some of my neighbors who have become really good friends. In fact we will be having a potluck dinner. More like an early dinner at about four in the afternoon in my corner of the world. That is less than an hour away for me.

I just wish I wasn’t having such high anxiety and increasing depression despite everything I am doing to combat it. Maybe if I blog later on about the dinner I had or whatever the hell is on my mind will help.

I want to thank you for reading my blog no matter how depressing it can be. For me I appreciate you for reading my blog. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a wonderful Sunday. I hope to blog again later on today to let you know how things have improved. Or I hope improved.  I am very grateful for all of you reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Why Can’t My Brain Turn Off

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am struggling at the moment with my brain not turning off. I am not sure why I can’t turn it off at the moment. I have had a pretty good day as I spent it with my family.

I am wondering why my brain won’t turn off and there are many reasons why. Reasons I can’t take care of till tomorrow. One has to do with DSHS paper work that has to do with human and/or computer error. Another reason is that a couple of my medical bill have gone to collections and I thought I took care of it with the appropriate people so it looks like I will be on the phone a lot tomorrow and maybe most of the week. Oh how I hate being on the phone for things I thought I already have taken care of.

All this is making me worry about money even more than I should be worried about it. Hopefully all this will be taken care of this tomorrow if not sometime this week. There is nothing I can really do right now as it is Sunday and have to wait to a weekday to deal with all this shit.

Dealing with all this shit isn’t helping much with my depression which sucks. But one thing that is helping with my depression right now is my cat. Having a cat that is willing to cuddle with you when you are down is quite helpful. I love Lil Gertie, my cat, so much.

Spending time with my family overnight and this morning was quite helpful with trying to turn my brain off as well. It helped a little but not as much as I would have hoped. I did enjoy spending time with my grandpa.

Now I have to figure out how to spend the rest of my day as I need to keep busy. I guess, I can do the usual stuff with doing art work, read, and spend time with neighbors and friends. I might even look for more jobs and apply for them. Another thing I can do is go for a walk as well as do household chores.

I want to thank you for reading about what is going on in my brain right now. I just hope everything works out as it needs to work out. Have a good Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Still With Family But Missing My Cat

Good Morning, again, World!!! I am still spending time with my family. Mainly my grandpa and uncle. It is always nice to spend time with family but I am missing my cat right now. I know my cat is in good hands with my friend (who is a neighbor) taking care of Lil Gertie but I still miss her. I should be going back home today.

My uncle is taking me to the DSHS office to take care of some medical insurance issues due to the fact that they think I make more money than I actually make. I am glad that I have family to help me out with this stuff. I hope I can get it taken care of tomorrow without having to go to the Social Security office which is even a bigger nightmare.

I just wish my health was in better shape as this weird ass mouth infection is really getting to me. Having to be on a butt loud of antibiotics is not my idea of fun. I feel like that my health is affecting my mental health. My mental health is something I need to keep an eye on especially my depression. This is where I wish I was home with my cat but maybe being with my family is helping me with the depression to a degree.

My grandpa is making breakfast for a late breakfast early lunch. Maybe more like a brunch. Not sure what he is making but it sure smells good. Having a supportive family means a great deal. Even though their support is not as supportive as they think it is but their heart is in the right place.

I better go an see if my grandpa needs help making breakfast or lunch or whatever it is. I hope you all have a wonderful Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

Turns Out It Wasn’t My Appendix, So I Am Okay

Good Morning, World!!! I went to the emergency room because I thought I was having a problem with my appendix. It turned out that my stomach issues were due to the antibiotics that I am on. I am still on the antibiotics because they are the best ones to be on to get rid of the weird ass mouth infection I have. The doctors still think I should still take the antibiotics till I see my doctor or when they run out.

Now on to a different subject. I stayed the night with my grandpa. I am still at his house. He is making waffles for breakfast. Spending time with my grandpa helps the both of us.

I think I am going to look for jobs and apply for them as I am getting really bored with the routine that I have now. I miss working and hope that some day soon that I can go back to work. Working does me good.

Another thing I will be doing is reading other people blogs and update myself on what others are doing in their lives. I haven’t done that in a long while. Reading other peoples blogs brings me hope.

Thank you for reading my blog. I hope to blog again later. Have a great Sunday everyone. Peace Out, World!!!