Daily Archives: August 17, 2018

A Brain That Won’t Turn Off

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Hello, again, World!!! It is still Friday in my corner of the world. My brain appears that it doesn’t want to turn off. My depression is acting up for some reason at the moment. I am not sure why as I have had a busy day as mentioned in a previous post.

As busy as my day has been, sadly the depression wants to creep in and make it a shitty day. I refuse to have the depression make my day a shitty one which is one of the reasons why I am blogging what’s on my mind at the moment.

On a good note my cat has been very cuddly with me tonight which has been quite helpful for my depression. Having, Lil Gertie, my cat around has helped me a great deal when it comes to my mental health. It appears that Lil Gertie is wanting to help me blog at the moment.

Well, the Seattle Mariner versus Los Angeles Dodgers game is now officially over. The final score is Dodgers 11 and Mariners 1. It appears that the Mariners aren’t doing so well as of lately. The Mariners were doing pretty well before the All-Star break but they aren’t doing all that well now.

Now that the baseball game is over my brain to back to me being depressed and wanting to be back at work. I am really wanting to go back to work. Preferably a job in the mental health field and/or working with the homeless. I want to be a peer specialist again and know that some day I will be one again.

I think what I am going to do know is do a little art. I most likely will be combining the genre’s of coloring and collaging together. It is always fun and interesting when you combine genres when it comes to art.

After doing some art, I think I am going to read for an hour two. I am reading this awesome fantasy book called Ship of Magic. I highly recommend it. Reading helps me keep the depression at bay. Art does the same thing as reading does for my depression.

It is hard to believe that this is going to be my ninth post of the day. I didn’t realize I had so much to say today. I hope you all don’t mind me ramble on about silly and/or stupid shit. Blogging helps me a great deal and I hope it helps someone else in this world of ours.

I think I am going to call it a night. Thank you so much again for reading. It is very much appreciated from my end of things. I hope that everyone has a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

 

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A Brain Full of Baseball, Art & Reading

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Good Evening, World!!! I know I recently just posted within the last hour or so. Most likely I post less than an hour ago but I am okay with that. I have a brain full of random shit.

Right now I am listening to the Seattle Mariner versus Los Angeles Dodger game on the radio. I am rooting for the Dodgers as I am originally from the Los Angeles area. I am hoping that the Dodgers win.

As I blog I am listening to the game however after I am done blogging I’ll most likely do some art as I listen to the game on the radio. Actually, I most likely will be coloring as I listen to the baseball game.

I think after the baseball game is over with I am going to read the fantasy book I am reading. I haven’t spent much time reading my novels as of lately and think its time to get back in the habit of it.

I should really get going so I can listen to the baseball game and color. Afterwards, I will read my fantasy novel.

Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is very much appreciated. Sorry for back to back post within less than an hour of each other. Have a good rest of your Friday. I hope everyone has a good weekend. Peace Out, Weekend!!!

It’s Been A Long Day

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Good Evening, World!!! As many of you know I have had a long day. It didn’t really turn out as planned but that is okay for me. It started when I saw my doctor this morning to look at my weird ass mouth infection. She gave me some more antibiotics.  We also discussed how long I have been seeing her and her concern that I could be over using the hospital’s which is valid. So I’ll be seeing her every two weeks just for checks about physical health stuff and if needed mental health stuff as well. Which I am okay with.

I then saw my trusty therapist who is trying his best to gain my trust and it is slightly working. We discussed ways on how I can change certain behaviors and how he can help me with that. He now wants to see me twice a week to help me with my behaviors and help me not use the Emergency Rooms as much for both physical and mental health reasons.

Plans changed when my grandpa picked me up to go to Red Robin. We decided that he would take me to a walk in dental clinic and get a comprehensive dental check up. He paid for it. Looks like that I will need to get all my teeth pulled and get a full set of dentures which is not surprising for me. So next week, I am going to the DSHS office to get some paper work straightened out as it appears I am loosing some things due to a computer and/or human error. So hopefully, I’ll be able to get back on medicaid so I can get my teeth fixed.

My grandpa and I did go out to eat to IHOP but it surely was no Red Robin. Hopefully, we can go to Red Robin soon. I love Red Robin. I think we might go to Red Robin on Sunday.

As far as getting an interview with a potential employer, I am still waiting to hear back. I think it is ridiculous that they haven’t even set one up with me yet when I informed them that the time they gave me I was unable to do so due other obligations. I gave them dates and times when I was available next week and the person said they would get back to me by the end of Friday which is today.

Thank you again for reading my blog as I ramble on about different shit. Have a good rest of your Friday and I hope you enjoy your weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Playing The Waiting Game

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Good Morning, again, World!!! I sit here at my laptop in the waiting room of my doctors office. So the waiting game begins. I highly dislike going to the doctors but it is so much better than having to go to the hospital. I really dislike playing the waiting game but that is why I decided to bring my laptop with me so I can keep myself entertained somehow.

As I play the waiting game the theme of money keep coming up due to the advertisements I have on my blog. Every time someone clicks on an ad, I get a few cents. Yes, few cents isn’t all that much but it all adds up.

Another thing, I brought with me today as I play the waiting game is I brought my comic books. Actually, I brought my Wonder Woman comic books as Wonder Woman is my favorite superhero.

I just hope that my doctor gives me stronger antibiotics to help get rid of this weird ass mouth infection that I have. I’m hopeful yet extremely doubtful that I’ll get some stronger pain meds. I’m doubtful due to the fact that I have a family history of drug abuse and I don’t want to get addicted. Plus I don’t need another issue on top of the issues I already have. All I want is for the infection to go away because when it goes away then so does the annoying ass pain. I really dislike waiting with a passion and I hope that my doctor isn’t running late.

I am a big proponent of starting and ending things on time. I say this because people have lives to live. That means in their lives that they have other obligations to attend to. Like for me, I have to rush to go see my therapist.

I should get going as it is almost time for my appointment and want to make sure I am ready when they call out my name. Thank you for reading. You all are awesome. Happy Friday. Peace Out, World!!!

Here’s To Hoping

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Good Morning, again, World!!! I know I just posted about less than an hour ago but felt like posting again. I have forgotten to mention a couple of things since my last post.

Today, I hope to hear back from the potential employer who I have been playing email tag with to set up a job interview. I am hoping to hear back today to find out when my interview is. It is slightly anxiety provoking but it is one of those things that I will deal with.

On a plus note, I have an interview later this week for a volunteer job at the Seattle Art Museum. I am looking forward to it. Volunteering at the art museum will give me something to do and a way to meet new people.

An idea I have for the day is take my laptop with me a post about things that are going on for me at the moment. For example, I will most likely post while waiting to see my doctor. I also hope to blog while waiting to see my therapist as well but their WiFi seems to be down a great deal. The one thing I won’t do is blog while have lunch with my grandpa at Red Robin. That would just be rude. Now blogging while in the waiting rooms of my doctors and therapist office is a different story.

I honestly hope I hear back about a job interview time for sometime next week. I prefer Monday or Tuesday in the morning but realize that they need to arrange people schedules who will be doing the interviewing.

Having a job will help me immensely with my mental health. Having structure in my life is a good thing and having something what I consider productive for me is quite helpful.  Plus having the extra money will be quite helpful to help pay for stuff that I want but don’t need.

Thank you for reading. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. I hope to blog again in the waiting room of my doctors office. Have a great and Happy Friday. Peace Out, World!!!

Not Exactly A Morning Person

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Good Morning, World!!! If you could call it a good morning. I am not exactly a morning person any morning but this morning I most definitely not a morning person. I didn’t get much sleep last night. At least I have some positive things going on in my life today. Some things I may not want to do but are good for me to day.

My day starts off with attending a doctor’s appointment for my stupid weird ass mouth infection. I know I have said this many times before in other post but I hope she can give me some stronger antibiotics. I also hope for some stronger pain meds but all the pain meds will do is cover up the problem and not fix it. At least the antibiotics will be able to fix problem.

After seeing my doctor, I will be seeing my therapist. We will be discussing some behaviors that I need to learn to control. Also, I hope that he can help me with some paper work or at least make sure I am understanding the paperwork correctly. I might have to actually go to the DSHS office to take care of the paperwork but at least my therapist might be able to help.

My grandpa is picking me up from therapy appointment so we can go to Red Robin. I am treating him to lunch at Red Robin. It’s always nice to spend time with family that are supportive especially over food.

Oh, I highly dislike mornings but I am one of those people I would rather get things done early so I can relax later on during the day. I am still waiting for my news paper to be delivered. It is my morning ritual to read the paper and drink tea with milk, honey and sugar in it.

Despite the lack of sleep last night, I hope that I can keep my anger under control. My anger is easily flared up when I don’t get much sleep. At least I am aware of this and can be mindful of when my anger starts to arise.

It’s just barely after six in the morning in my corner of the world. That means I should start getting ready for the day. Thank you for reading my blog and hope you enjoy reading it. I hope to blog more later on today to share how things are going. It’s greatly appreciated from my end that you read. Peace Out, World!!!

Still Haven’t Been To Sleep, I Might As Well Get Up For The Day

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Good Morning and Happy Friday, World!!! I still haven’t been to sleep yet and it is four in the morning in my corner of the world. Not sure why I haven’t been to sleep but at least I see my doctor and therapist today.

Not sure why I can’t sleep because once I discuss what’s bothering me like in my last post, I am able to get to sleep. It’s just too early to be awake much less wanting to get the day started due to the lack of sleep.

I do see my doctor today regarding my weird ass mouth infection. I am hoping that she can give me an antibiotic that is stronger and more helpful than the one I am on.  The pain is still pretty intense and wish it would go away.

I see my therapist later this morning and I’ll be discussing some of the stuff I talked about in my last post. He might be able to help me a little bit on the paper work. I really think I just need to go into the DSHS office next week to work it out there.

My grandpa and I never did go to Red Robin yesterday for various reasons. So we decided that we are going to go after I see my therapist. Like I have said before, I love Red Robin for both their food and their awesome customer service. I love spending time with my grandpa.

As you may know, I have advertisements on my blog. I have them on my blog to earn an extra few cents every time someone clicks on an add. I just hope people are doing that so I can make extra money for the holidays so I can give gifts to my friends and family. Please click on the ads for me. I would be extremely grateful for it.

Thank you for reading my blog. Also thank you for putting up with my shit especially when I am ask you to do me a favor by clicking the ads on my blog so I can earn some extra money. I hope everyone has a wonderful Friday. Happy Friday!!! Peace Out, World!!!

 

Too Much On My Mind To Sleep

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Good Morning, World!!! Happy Friday to all you people out there. I am having trouble sleeping tonight because I have a great deal on my mind. Department of Social and Human Services (DSHS) is cutting off my medical assistants and food stamps I tend to get a little worried about it. However its state that Social Security is going to be giving me more money which I think is a glitch in someone’s system so I will call DSHS later on today to talk to the about it. I’m sure it will be taken care of even if I have to go to the office to take care of it for yet another possible review. What DSHS does can screw up with what Social Security does with my disability checks.

I am also in a great deal of pain do to an extremely weird mouth infection which has nothing to do with my dental problems. The antibiotics appear to not be working. I hope that when I see my doctor later that I can get stronger antibiotics. I am also hoping to get something stronger than ibuprofen for the pain but I doubt it will happen.

I am hoping as I blog more and include different tags that I’ll get more readership. Using various types of tags appears to be helping for now. For me I want to reach people to give them hope and/or help lessen the stigma that goes with having a mental health challenge.

I should really get going. Please send out positive vibes and/or thoughts and/or energy that I find out later today when my job interview will be for next week regarding the Shelter Counselor position. I really want this employment opportunity.

I hope everyone has a good rest of your nights sleep. If you are already up and going I hope you have a good Friday. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. Peace Out, World!!!

The One AM Blues

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Good Morning, World!!! It is one in the morning in my corner of the world. I am dealing with the blues. I am not sure why it is that I am dealing with the blues but I am. So, I have decided to put on some Blues music to help me get out of being in the blues.

Dealing with the blues can lead me to dealing with depression and I don’t want that either. So, here I am listening to blues music while blogging about my boring ole life again.

I just hope one day I can be a success in societies eyes but I know that is an unrealistic wish of mine but one can hope. For me being a success is for me is to be working and me being what I call productive in my own personal life. Maybe I am having woe is me moment.

I just really want to get back to work soon in a career I would love to be in. For me working helps my mental health a great deal.  A job that I can be proud of and not dread to go to everyday. I want a job I love and the pay doesn’t have to be all that much just as long as I am able to pay my bills.

Having the blues sucks. Maybe I should try to get some sleep. Good night everyone. Peace Out, World!!!