Monthly Archives: April 2022

Uncertainty With a Whim of Hope

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Good Evening, World!!! I had a challenging supervision with my supervisor today saying I am planning on staying to the end but with the uncertainty of when the end will be, I started putting myself out there via cover letters and resume’s. She understand and is doing the same thing. She informed that the former Vice president and acting president is seeing if she could find a spot for me. Specifically a spot to create a program for the LGBTQ+ (Queer) community. This would be great sense I am queer. To me this is hopeful news but I have a bit of uncertainty at the moment as creating new programs can be challenging.

I am applying for other jobs even though it is my hope my current job stays open as it is one of my dream jobs. I can’t lay all my eggs in one basket. I have tons of references which is a great thing.

In all honesty if I get a job where I work from the office five days a week, I don’t think Billie Dean my cat will be happy with me. We both know we love each other. I love being able to come home from work with the love Billie.

I just hope my next job, whatever it may be will be longer that an year and a half. I will miss my colleagues and clients when it’s time to say goodbye. Just send out good vibes, energy, Vudu, and karma for me please.

I am done with this post and would like to thank you for reading my post. It is greatly appreciated that you read my blog. If if it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Tiring Day Yet A Blessed Day

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Today is Sunday and I have not forgot that today is a religious for both the Jewish faith and the Christian faith. It is Passover for those of the Jewish faith and is Easter for those of the Christian faith. I just wanted to acknowledge both faiths and hope they enjoy their perspective religious activities.

If with the lack of sleep due to insomnia, I do my regular shift at PAWS Cat City as well as an extra as well. I am hoping with the lack of sleep and two shifts at PAWS Cat City that I get a good night sleep tonight.

I also hope to spend time reading comic books while cuddling with my cat Billie Dean. I love my cat Billie so very much and I know he loves me.

Not it’s time to try to sleep. Happy Sunday everyone and Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Cuddle time with Billie Dean, my cat
  • Reading

Monday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk Billie (my cat) around apartment building
  • Work
  • Reading

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk Billie (my cat) around apartment building
  • Therapy
  • Work
  • Reading

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Cuddle time with Billie, my cat
  • Work
  • Reading

Thursday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Cuddle time with Billie my cat
  • Work
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Reading

Friday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Cuddle time with Billie my cat
  • Work
  • Reading

Saturday

  • Mindfulness Meditation Practice
  • Walk Billing my cat around apartment building and cuddle tie
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Reading while cuddling with Billie my cat

Still Sleepless in Seattle

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Good Morning, again, World!!! I am still sleepless in Seattle. Apartment is still cold despite the heat being on full blast but at least its slight warmer than my last post. Despite the lack of sleep, I till plan on volunteering at PAWS Cat City at 9:00am in the morning, Seattle time. I love volunteering especially at PAWS Cats City. I do have say my cat Billie Dean is a wee bit jealous when I get home from volunteering but quickly goes away when he gets treats, cat nip, extra wet food and some play time. Billie is one spoiled cat. I love him so much. Billie and I seem to be going be be reading Wonder Woman Comic Books till I go volunteer. Both of of us seem to be homebodies lately which is good thing.

Well, I guess it’s back to reading Wonder Woman comic books. I have a lot of them plus collectable of Wonder Woman stuff. I hope to talk to you later. Have a Sunday everyone. Peace Out World!!!

Too Early to be Awake on a Sunday

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Good Morning, World!!! I guess its officially Sunday around the world that it is now past three in the morning in Seattle and Hawaii is three hours behind of us or I think they are. Anyway I was woken up partly because it’s cold in my apartment and needed to turn on the heat and part because Billie want his water from the bathroom sink faucet and not his two fountain water bowls or his other water bowl that looks like a water cooler.

I love my cat Billie Dean that if he wants to wake me up just after three o’clock in the morning for his preferred way of drinking water, I’m not going to say no especially since my apartment is cold and I needed to on the heat. I hate being too cold or too hot when I am trying to sleep especially when it’s cold.

On that note my precious love bug of a cat, Billie Dean is now in my lap purring on my lap. Billie is such a love bug and is very much a lap cat. He to quite the talker (meowing) at times and when I am trying to sleep it can be a bit annoying but it’s way to get love and attention when I am in the middle of doing something like having a good a sleep.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular post. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog as if it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check In

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Happy Caturday, World!!! It is Saturday aka Caturday which is when I usually do my weekly check ins. I personally feel like I haven’t bed doing the weekly check ins on the regular basis and I have plenty of legit excuses I can use but not going to use them as I know what I can do to overcome the struggles of doing the weekly check ins.

It has been a challenging few weeks or a I should say a challenging month and a half at work. I love my job with a passion and really hope the county can find a way to to keep us open. There is a very small glimmer of hope it can stay open but the reality is, it most likely will close.

Something that helped me this week was taking yesterday (Friday) off from work and go to my grandpa’s after work on Thursday to spend a couple of days with him and my two uncles. Of course my cat Billie Dean came with me. He enjoyed the extra attention but everyone knows that I am his human.

As far as my own recovery and knowing, I will be laid off but no official lay off date as of yet, I’ve been using my DBT skills. Specifically, the Radical Acceptance skill. Not an easy skill to do but it is helping me a great deal.

On the plus note, it is finally baseball season. I am hoping to make it to a came this season. Preferably one where the Angels are in Seattle. I love my home town team of the Angels. I really hope they do well this season.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my post. Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World

Do you realize it’s my time to hide & nap?

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Hello, World!!! It is four thirty in the after noon in Seattle. This is the time Billie Dean goes into his hiding bed which is on my bed to take a nap. Apparently he is not happy with me because I was to take a nap as well. He does not have a happy face on and hope people can see it. I love giving Billie his space but I need sleep to. Hope you have a great Wednesday afternoon. Peace Out, World!!!

A Range of Emotions

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Hello, World!!! As I write this particular blog, I am writing in between clients and writing note about clients. I guess it’s one of the luxuries of being able to work from home part of the time. I really love my job but today has been a tough one and I am not sure why. Be back later, I have a client to see.

Okay, now I’m back after two sessions with clients and writing their notes so their insurance can pay my employer. I love my job most days and normally don’t feel drained but I’m feeling drained because nobody really knows if my employer is actually closing or not.

I blame the board of directors on this and am happy that the county is wanting to keep us open but it appears like nothing is being done. We have no leadership left. We do have one HR person left and two of the four remaining supervisors are leaving in May.

I have a range of emotions because I love my job and am grateful for it. I’m also angry, depressed and full of anxiety of what is going on. The county is giving us some hope but not much.

Working from home is helping me today because I have Billie to help me with my emotions. I love my cat so much. I wish could talk more about Billie but I have another session with a client and then a meeting. So, thank you so much for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Gratitude of Ramblings

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Hello, World!!! The last month and a half has been a whirl wind especially at work. My past and current collogues have been nothing but awesome. Despite the board directs wanting to close our agency down there is some hope because the county wants us to stay open. To me the very little hope is what is keeping me going. That and the clients we serve.

I’m also grateful to the blogging community for the support you are giving me. You fellow bloggers are a big reason I continue to blog and that is because of of the support you give to me and others.

Now on to my friends, family and my cat, Billie Dean. I wouldn’t have gone through this if it it wasn’t for your support. The same support my colleagues give me .

The love and hope a receive from all of you helps me stay in my recovery and helps me keep focused on the clients my employer serves. Thank you again from the bottom of my hear for reading my blog. Without you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Semi-Woe Is Me Moment

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Hello World!!!I went to my volunteer job at PAWS Cat City like I do every Sunday. I had me a great time. I love spending time with kitties waiting for their furrever home.

On that note I got to my floor where one of my neighbors started raising her voice at me. I ignored her and passed by her so I can get to my apartment. Of course I’m greeted my by cat who escaped into the hall way and this neighbor who already yelled at me, started screaming on my cat and myself. I’ve never seen cat so scared and run back to the apartment. It took all my might to not interact with this neighbor.

I spent some time with Billie Dean to calm him down which calmed me down. Which was helpful for the both of us. I went down to the community room to get a soda not know this neighbor has going to be down there doing a puzzle. She screamed at me an called me names that I won’t mention here because I found them offence of and don’t want to offend anyone else. I got my soda and listened to her and I left the community room crying. I did not say anything to her except “I hope you have a good Sunday” and left the community room and came to my apartment. Spent some more time with a Billie Dean my cat which helped.

I then reached out to a neighbor who is a friend so I could get a good reality check and a hug. We talked about twenty minutes and I felt better. The conversation I had with the neighbor I am friends with pointed out that I wouldn’t have taken all this so hard due to my work situation and being laid off with an unknown lay of date. He said “I would be having a woe is me moment if I were in your situation. The only difference is that yours is a semi woe is me moment which is goo for you.” He also suggested the I try to be friends with some of my neighbors which is true.

I do not have much more to say. I just want to say thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing it. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!