Not Sorry About My Not So Rated G Post

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Good Very Early Morning, World!!! Or at least it’s very early in the morning here in my corner of the world, known as Seattle. Apparently, some readers got offended by my last post regarding coloring a morbid coloring book that is all Disney characters. I received an email from WordPress that it disturbed some of my readers but it doesn’t break any rules or community standards. All they wanted was me to put a “Trigger Warning” at the beginning of the post. I totally understand about getting triggered by things and when I do, I talk with my mental health treatment team as well as other who are in recovery. I also use the skills I learned through therapy when I am triggered. Am I sorry the post triggered other, no not really. I feel bad that I triggered others but I’m not sorry about it as it could be a way for people to learn to cope by using coping skill that help them. For me coloring this coloring book is a way for me to heal from some things that are Disney related. For me coloring and doing a morbid coloring book is a form of self care and healing for me.

As far a the morbid Disney coloring book, it appears that my cat, Billie would like to help with me at times. He doesn’t seem bothered by the morbid Disney coloring book. I love my cat and how he likes my morbid sense of humor.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading it. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me that you read my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Disturbing Way to Start a New Year by Coloring; Do a Disney Horror Coloring Book

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Saw fart this is what I have what I have done with my start of my Disney Horror coloring books.

So, I ordered a morbid Disney graphic coloring book off of Amazon to have as I have love hate with relationship with Disney. I was going to see if my clients would want to do them as well. I quickly realized it would not be great for my clients to do. So I am have decided I will work on this particular horrific Disney coloring book myself and share my progress with you my reader. So here is the start of the first picture. I hope you like it so far. It will get more morbid as I do more pictures. I hope I can share this on a regular basis as I am sure the farther along I get in the coloring book the more morbid it gets. This is not the Disney I knew growing up near Disneyland. I’m pretty sure this is not the Disney any of knew in our childhood.

I don’t know have much more to say expect to say thank you for reading my blog plots. I appreciate it from my things that you read blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Thank you again from reading my blog.. Peace Out, World!!!

Just a Random Middle of the Night Post

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Good Middle of the night, World!!!!. I have not been able to sleep for various reason which includes insomnia and depression. Honestly, I think I could have some dependence on Ativan. I don’t want to have a dependence of Ativan because I don’t need any more issues than I already have.

I did email my doctor just in case because I don’t want another issue on top of other issues I already have. I know I may be a bit paranoid but I rather ge on the cautious side.

I do not have much more to say about this particular blog post. I do want to thankyou for reading my blog. I hope you have a great night. Peace Out. World!!!

Covid-19 Testing Frustration w/a Good Out Come

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I’m not sure how I should feel right now. Covid-19 is hitting pretty heard and dealing with isolation and quarantine doesn’t help with the depression symptoms a great deal. On the plus note I am feeling better regarding the Covid-19. Being isolated sucks. At least I have my cat, Billie Dean keeping me company. I’m also have friends and family checking in by telephone and virtually via Zoom.

The thing that gets me frustrated it that I can’t seem to get a Covid-19 test to see if I am still positive. At least I was able to get through the urgent care my clinic helps with. Being isolated doesn’t exactly help with my depression symptoms times as isolation is a major trigger for the depression.

One the plus side being able to work from home has been helpful as it gives me some human interaction. Not the type I want but it’s a form of human interaction. Plus, I have my cat Billie Dean to keep me company. I love the fact the Billie gives me lots of loves and cuddles.

I am also grateful for my friends, family and colleagues for checking up on me when they did not have to do do. I have an awesome support system.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do have to say thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you from the bottom or my heart for reading it.

The Never Ending Thursday

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Good Afternoon, World!!! Today feels like a really long Thursday. A Thursday that feels like the never ending storying. I think it feel like this is because I am still dealing with some symptoms of Covid-19. I am especially dealing with the fatigue, the brain fog, as well as the continuous sleepiness and migraines. At least the diarrhea is finally going away.

Oh a plus note, my employer has been very supportive with the Covid stuff as well as other stuff that might come up. My employer is extremely supportive and appreciates us employees. You don’t get that and many employees.

The best part of all this is I get to work from home and still get paid. And my colleague at home, my cat Billie Dean like to help. Sometimes his helpfulness can be a hinderance but at least my cat brings smiles to clients face and I say that is worth the hinderances. I do have to say Billie is my favorite colleague.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciate that you the reader do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Despite Being Tired as Hell, I’m Going to Work

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Good Morning, World!!! I am tired as hell as I didn’t not get much sleep again. Part of the reason why I was unable to sleep was because of the depression and insomnia. The other part was because two of my neighbors on my floor decided to have an argument that led into a physical altercation. Not exactly my idea of a good night of sleep.

I do plan on working today due to the fact that I need the money to pay my rent and other bills which I count meds as a bill. If I don’t get my meds it’s not a pretty site for everyone involved. I love my job with a passion and want to make sure I practice what I preach when it comes to my clients.

Being a good example to my clients and to my colleagues is extremely impartment to me as I really want to be the person others can come to for advice. I hope this post doesn’t sound like I am bragging on myself because that is not my intention to do so. I just want to say that despite being extremely tired I will be going to work today. I love my job and love work with both my clients and colleagues.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog as you are the reason why I write my blog. I hope everyone has a great Thursday ahead of them. Peace Out, World!!!

The Great Escape via a Book

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Well, Happy Good in the Middle of the night to the folks who can’t sleep or have to work, World!!! For me I am unable to sleep again for the second night in a row which sucks shits. I will much likely start to read the book. The book’s name is ” The Paper Bag Christmas” by Kevin Alan Milne.. I hope I can start reading it tonight since I am having some much sleep issues which sucks shit. It is my home that I will do a book review on this book and hope the author doesn’t mind.

In fact is one of my goals for 2022 to is read more books and this is great way to off this particular goal to accomplish. Thank you for reading blog. It greatly appreciated that you read my blog. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog.

Wanting to Escape from My Own Reality

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Good Evening, World!!! Right now I really want to escape my own reality. The reality of the depression I am dealing with. I personally think the depression I am currently dealing with has something to do with being in quarantine due to Covid-19.

Let’s start with first things first, work helps me not focus on my own reality as I need to make sure the needs of my clients get met. Plus it feels good when a client accomplishes a goal that they have bee working on for a long time. I love being able to walk along side of people who are working on their own personal journey of recovery.

Another thing the helps me escape from my own reality is volunteering at a local animal shelter. Even though I have my own cat to play with it is gratifying to see cats get adopted into a furrever home. Seeing cats adopted is rewarding in itself and I am thrilled to be able to experience that and not just with the cats I have adopted but cats that have been adopted by others.

Another way, I find a way to escape from reality it reading. Reading all sorts of books including comics or comic books. I do have to say be favorite comic book is Wonder Woman and I have my dad to thank for that. Despite my dad loosing his ability to read, he always encouraged me to read. In fact my favorite genre’s of books are science fiction, fantasy and horror books. Since my dad is unable to read due to a traumatic brain injury (TBI), we call each other every evening and I read him books. Doing this has helped mend and heal our issues. We do occasionally read comic books but that is more my thing that my dad’s thing. I am just grateful that reading to my dad is healing our relationship.

Of course I can forget my sweet loving cuddle bug of a cat that helps me escape the realities of what life has to bring. The cat love is unconditional and am grateful for my cat Billie Dean.

Let not forget the most important of escaping reality which is sleep. Sleep can be a major reality escape especially with people dealing with depression and other such mental health diagnosis.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading m blog as if it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be witting my blog. It is great appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Feeling Guilty About About my Traditionally New Years Post on New Years

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I am feeling extremely guilty for not doing a New Year’s post for the year 2022. I feel guilty because I was am sick with Covid-19 and was sick enough to post a post on New Years. I know I shouldn’t be beating myself up but I am. I know you my readers understand but I feel like I let you all down. I know people get busy with family events and I know people understand when others sick. I just wish I wasn’t so hard o myself. In fact one of my goals for 2022 to is to now be so hard on myself. I know it won’t be so easy to do but I have supportive to help me with this. I know some of my readers will be have help with this and am grateful for you. I just was to be held accountable to others. I also have people in my “real” life that can help me with this. It never has to have too many accountability accountability partners.

I don’t have very much to stay in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog post. If it was not for you reading my blog post, I would not be writing my blog post. So, thank you from the bottom of my hear for reading my blog. I am hoping to post more about my New Years goals at a later time. Happy New Year and Peace Out, World!!!

Not the Most Productive Day I’ve Had

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Good Evening, World. It is seven ten in the evening in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. If you have read my last few post, I was not able to at all last night and spent most of the the day sleeping. I am finally awake enough to be able to semi function and I by they I mean by writing this post. And of course having a neighbor who is a close friend get me some groceries. I just wish my neighbor would hurry up with getting me my groceries. I shouldn’t be complaining as this neighbor is one of the good guys and respects people even they don’t agree politically.

I guess, I am being inpatient is because I am tired as hell and didn’t sleep last night but did sleep most of day. I sadly, missed work due to the lack of sleep and and I highly dislike missing work as the clients I work with depend on me. I think part of the reason my sleep schedule is unpredictable is because my depression symptoms are starting to slightly increase which is not a good thing.

Not only is my neighbor who is my friend getting groceries for me, my cat has been even more cuddly more than he normally is. Billie being cuddly and my friend getting me groceries is very helpful for my depression symptoms.

I do not have much more to say in this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!