It’s Friday & the Start of the Weekend for Most People

Happy Friday, World!!! Friday’s are the start of the weekends for most people who would nine to five jobs, Monday through Friday. This schedule is similar to mine most weeks except this week as I needed to take a mental health day from work. I slept most of the day and am still sleepy as hell even though it is evening in here in Seattle.

I think the only reason why I am not I am not napping at the moment is because I am waiting for a package from Amazon. We all know how Amazon is with packages. They either claim to be delivered when they are not or they don’t follow delivery instructions which could lead to theft of the package. I am some are supplies I am expecting so I can do some coloring in my coloring book that will make it stand out more color wise.

As I sit here typing this blog post, I am listening to my favorite podcast on philosophy. That podcast is Philosophize This. I highly encourage you to listen to it. I know philosophy isn’t everyone’s cup a tea but I do ask that you give it a try to listen to the first two or three episodes.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog post because if it wasn’t for you my reading I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great weekend ahead. Peace Out, World!!!

Taking a Mental Health Day

Good Morning, World!!! I am taking today off for serval reasons. My anxiety and depression are acting up. I am not exactly sure why my anxiety and depression are acting up. I am grateful that my employer allows people to take a mental health day off every now and than.

So, off course part of my mental health day off I plan on spending it with my beloved cat, Billie Dean. Billie is such an amazing cat who is a snuggle bug and lap cat. I love Billie so much and how he helps me even though he may not realize it.

Another thing I have been doing and will continue to do today is art artwork. Specifically, I will being coloring while listening to a podcast on philosophy. Specifically I will be listening to Philosophize This. Steven West is the one who does this podcast and lives in Seattle which is ever supercool. Anyway coloring and listening to Philosophize This had helped me gain and education I never had in school. Now that I am an adult I can do things the can educate myself like doing art work or listening to a podcast. Education is a never ending and I love to learn new shit so I know what I am talking about..

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If i wasn’t for you my reader, I would not writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Friday everyone, everyone!!! Peace Out, World!!!!

A Look into My Shit Hole of a Brain

Good Evening, World!!! I am not in a good space to be writing this post but just want to let you that my brain is being a shithole right now. My brain is just going all of the place. Part of me wonders if taking a client to their dental appointment yesterday played apart in this but I am doing the best I can.

My brain is causing me some imposter syndrome and have mixed emotions around this. I feel like I am an imposter even though I am not the only that deals with this. My cat helps me keep my imposter syndrome in check.

After getting off work I have been doing some art. Specifically, I have been coloring. Coloring a book a friend of mine who is also a neighbor. My friend gave me a the perfect coloring book. While I coloring, I am listening to the podcast Philosophize This. I really get an education from this podcast. An education I never got in high school.

So that is that shit that is going on in my mind at moment. I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Evening Ramblings

Hello, World!!! It is 9:24pm on a Monday evening here in Seattle. Monday’s are the start of the work week for me. Normally, I would have gone into the office today but I decided not to for no reason except I wanted to work from home. I didn’t have any clients that had an in person appointment with me today so I was able to work from home. I did have appointments with client but they were all scheduled for a virtual appointment or telephone appointment. Normally, I wouldn’t have worked from home today but my anxiety was through the roof and my depression was slightly acting up. I really do think working from home today helped both my anxiety and depression.

As far as my anxiety and depression they are doing much better than this morning. Working from home helped a great deal. Even though working from home helped, I think being home with my cat, Billie Dean, helped the anxiety and depression the most. Billie would not let me leave his sight and when he does this I think it is way to make sure I refocus myself. Refocus by realizing I have a responsibility my cat, Billie, who depends on me to make sure he is fed and taken care of which includes his health care. His unconditional love helps me be a more loving person to others and most importantly more loving to myself. For that I am forever grateful for Billie my cat as well as my last kitty Lil Gertie. The love I have received from all the pets I have had is what has helped me love myself and other people.

Since we kind of on the topic of love; something that has also helped me with self love as well as help my anxiety and depression is mindfulness. Mindfulness has helped me great deal with my mental health recovery. Mindfulness helps me make better decisions for my life even though I will still make mistakes.

I do not have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader I would not be writer my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom from my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great rest of you Monday. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! I realize I haven’t done weekly check-ins in a while. I will do my best to do weekly check-ins more regularly. Whenever, I do weekly check-in’s I wonder what you the reader think of them.

On that note, this week has been quite the week. A week that went by slowly but also had good moments in it. Let’s use today as an example. My grandpa and uncle came by my apartment to help me clean it. They didn’t have to do this but they did. I still have a lot to do with cleaning my apartment however I am greatly appreciative that I had help from family. I am also grateful for the love my family has for me.

Speaking of love, I feel the love from my friends as well. A neighbor of mine who is a friend invited me over for dinner twice this past week. I was able to have dinner with this friend both times she invited me to dinner. It was nice spend time with this friend.

As far as work goes, it went well this week. It did go by slowly but that is okay because some weeks are going to be like that. Yesterday (Friday), was paperwork day. I was bored as I was and am all caught up on paperwork. I was able to get some unexpected stuff done thanks to my supervisor and small group team. A client will be benefitting because of the help of my supervisor and colleagues.

This past week I realized, I haven’t been doing mindfulness meditation practices on the daily basis like I was at the beginning of the year. So, I started it back up again three days ago. Mindfulness meditation practice helps me be able to be a better person as well as help me cope.

Another thing I have started back up is journaling on the daily basis. I am using journaling daily as a form of a daily check-in with myself. Doing some journaling daily as a form of a check-in with myself will also help me figure out what I need to work on with my therapist.

Now on to the topic of my cat, Billie Dean. Billie has been more of a cuddle bug than he normally is. I am not one hundred percent sure why he is being more of a cuddle bug, I am grateful that he is being more of a cuddle bug. Having Billie in my life has been quite helpful and I love him so very much.

I do not have anything else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciative from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

The Never Ending Day

Good Evening, World!!! Today feels like the never ending day. It feels like a never ending day because it is going by so slowly. I have no clue why it feels like it is going so slowly but at least it’s been a relatively good day.

This week at work some folks were changed to different days to do crisis coverage. I was one of those folks and am now assigned to do crisis coverage during business hours on Thursdays. So today was first Thursday, I did crisis coverage. All the folks on Thursdays are great people but not as interactive as the Friday crisis coverage folks. On that note, when I found out I was being switched to Thursdays, I asked if I could continue to do Fridays crisis coverage and was told yes just as long I do Thursdays. That’s fine with me because I love working with folks in crisis. I was informed that I cannot do more than two days of crisis coverage and I am okay with that.

Thankfully, I am currently off work. I am listening to a podcast about philosophy. Actually, the philosophy podcast I am currently listening to is Philosophize This. I love this podcast for many reasons and I learn a great deal from it. I wish I learned philosophy when I was in high school but sadly that was not an option from the high school I graduated from.

As I sit here blogging and listening to Philosophize This, my cat, Billie Dean, is laying next to me purring. I love the fact that Billie is content with laying next me as I sit blogging and listening to a podcast. Billie is such a love bug of a cat. I love the unconditional love the my cat, Billie gives me. I love my cat so very much.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reading I would not be blogging. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Rambling

Good Morning, World!!! It’s 2:01 in morning in my corner of the world which is Seattle, Washington. I am sadly not able to sleep and hope I can get some form of rest or preferably sleep. I wanting sleep so I am not a cranky bucket at work. Being a cranky bucket is not fun especially when you have to work. I hope I can get some sleep so I can be the best person I can be when I am at work.

Anyway I have been cuddling with my cat, Billie Dean which helps with relaxing enough to at least help with falling asleep. While cuddling with Billie, my cat, I have been listening to a podcast on philosophy. Specifically, I am listening to Philosophize This. Philosophize This is a great podcast and trying to get to the most recent podcast but I have a long way to go. I am okay with that as it will help have some structure in my life that is enjoyable for me especially since I am learning something everyday from Philosophize This. So, my cat and the podcast will be helping me get some rest tonight.

I don’t have any more to talk about this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If you wasn’t for you reader I wouldn’t be writer my blog. Thanks from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!!

A Buttload of Emotions

Hello, World!!! Today, I have had a buttload of emotions. The main emotion that bothered me today was anger. Anger over a training at work. I know why I was angry and it really didn’t have anything to do with the training itself but the trainer. Even though the trainer didn’t do anything negative in the training today, I have had some pretty negative experiences with this person. The negative experiences I had with this person was about fifteen years ago and thought I was over it till I saw this person and realize that I wasn’t over it.

So, when the training was over I did a five minute mindfulness meditation practice. A mindfulness meditation practice that helped a great deal and did two more times before the end of work. All three times I did the mindfulness meditation practice helped a great deal.

After work I called a friend as a well as my grandpa. After talking with both my friend and grandpa on the phone, I visited a neighbor in my building who has become a friend. Talking with friends and family helped a great deal. I felt the love from friends and family and that helped with my anger.

Speaking of love, I felt the love from my cat, Billie Dean. He could tell I was have a challenging time so he sat on my lap. Billie being on my lap also helped my anger. I am so grateful that my cat, Billie, can tell when I am having tough moments like today. He is an amazing kitty and I love him so much.

I do not have anything else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reading I wouldn’t be blogging. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Get meds
  • Clean apartment

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Coffee/Tea with friend
  • Work

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Therapy appointment with therapist
  • Med appointment with psychiatrist nurse practitioner
  • Work

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work
  •  Dinner with grandpa

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work
  • Dinner with a friend

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work
  • Dinner by myself at Red Robin

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Clean apartment

Everyday Inspiration; Day 5: Hook ‘Em With a Quote

The future belongs to those who believe the beauty of their dreams.

Eleanor Roosevelt

I’ve chosen this quote from Eleanor Roosevelt because it has helped me a great deal with figuring out what my dreams are as well as being able to accomplish my dreams. In my case my the dreams I am thinking about are around my career. My career of being a peer support specialist also known as a peer counselor. This quote has helped me believe in myself that I can do anything including being able to be in recovery with my mental health challenges. Being in recovery means I am able to succeed in whatever I want to succeed in which includes my job. I love my job with a passion and am beyond grateful for Eleanor Roosevelt’s quote.