Kitty Talk Plus Other Stuff

Good Morning, World!!! I was able to get back to sleep after being woken up by my cat early this morning. Lil Gertie did this adorable yet loud meow to wake me up. She woke me up in the middle of a nightmare. A nightmare that is horrific.

I have a job interview today at my previous employer. An interview for a Peer Specialist in their Substance Use Disorder (SUD) program. I am looking forward to the interview. I hope I get the job.

Apparently, Starbucks is closing early today. They are closing early to discuss with their employees about race and racism. It is about fucking time Starbucks discusses this situation. I don’t go into Starbucks because of the employees racist remarks as well as other discriminatory remarks.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Gotta Love My Kitty

Good Morning, World!!! My cat has this adorable meow that tends to startle me at this hour in the morning. I love her so much. At this hour in the morning all she wants to do is play. She is an amazing little kitty. I’ve noticed she does her cute playful meow this time of morning when I am having a nightmare. I think she does it to wake me up from the nightmare to prevent it from getting worse. I don’t know how animals are able to sense it but they do.

I finally was informed on how much I earned from the advertisements and it is not all that much. I just have to wait to get it till it reaches the one hundred dollar mark to be able to claim it which sucks shit. So if you all can do me a favor and click on the advertisements that would be great.

I think I am going to be doing some scrap booking. Since Lil Gertie got me up, I might as well as be productive. I love making scrap books as they remind me of all the good things that happen in my life. Looking at them helps with the remembering of good things. Good things that are becoming more and more, the older I get.

Thank you for reading. Have a great Tuesday everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

Nothing But Random Thoughts

Good Afternoon, World!!! I know it is Memorial Day here in the United States however I found out today that I have a job interview tomorrow for a Peer Specialist position at my previous employer. It is for their Substance Use Disorder (SUD) program. I am looking forward to it.

I have been scrap booking most of the day. I have fun doing it. I am looking forward to showing it to my therapist. My therapist enjoys the fact that I do creative stuff like scrap booking. Although I am pretty sure he is unaware that I scrap book because I have never informed him nor do I think it was documented in therapeutic notes.

I also been working on my strengths based recovery workbook today. The topic I am working on is courage and hope. It is discussing how having an attitude of hope and courage can help one on their recovery process.

Having things to do helps. It helps with the symptoms of my mental health conditions. Keeping busy is what helps reduce my symptoms.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless in Seattle, Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! I am unable to sleep at the moment and it has nothing to do with my cat and every thing to deal with the symptoms of my mental health challenges. Dealing with a mental health condition is not my idea of fun yet I have learned a great deal from them. I have learned that acceptance of oneself is not easy however you can still have fun despite all the challenges the conditions bring.

For an example; painting can be fun. I love to paint. I am painting an abstract version of my cat for my grandpa per his request. My grandpa loves the idea that I am painting. He thinks it is a great way to express myself in a healthy and productive way.

Something else that being in recovery brings to me is faith. Or at least searching for a particular faith. Right now I have been reading books on Buddhism. It has given me some hope and peace that I have been looking for. Some people in my life may not like the idea that I am looking into Buddhism but they are grateful that I am searching for some type of faith even if it is not their faith.

I have been working on my strengths based recovery workbook. That part that I am working on is about attitudes. That attitudes that it is discussing at the moment is hope and courage. I am thrilled that I decided to get this workbook as I have been finding it quite helpful to me as well as to my recovery.

I find it amazing that being able to write in the middle of the night can come easy to me. Maybe it is because I am naturally a night owl or that I am more creative at night. Whatever the reason, I am glad that I can express myself in a healthy way. A way that my old therapist, Diana, would be proud of me.

Thank you for reading. Have a great morning and Peace Out, World!!!

Cat + Scrap Booking = Helping Anxiety

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am struggling the moment however Lil Gertie is helping me through the struggle. She is sitting next to me purring up at storm. She knows when to come up to me when my anxiety is acting up.

I having been scrap booking about Lil Gertie. I have added pictures to a SMASH scrap book / journal type thing and writing about Lil Gertie. I have been adding other things to the scrap book as well but so far it appears to be mainly Lil Gertie in it at the moment.

Scrap booking and Lil Gertie appear to be helping with my anxiety at the moment. Both also appear to be helping with the symptoms of PTSD as well.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Blog
  • Read (specifically books on Buddhism)
  • Print out photos of my cat, Lil Gertie
  • Paint (a picture of Lil Gertie)
  • Scrapbook
  • Relax

Monday

  • Blog
  • Read (not sure which book yet but I will read)
  • Scrapbook
  • Paint
  • Relax
  • Workbooks

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Hearing Voices Group
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Paint
  • Scrapbook
  • Relax
  • Workbooks

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Friday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • DBT Group
  • Workbooks
  • DBT Homework

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Training to be a co-facilitator at a Peer Run program.
  • Workbooks

 

 

I Don’t Think My Cat Realizes It’s Sunday

Good Morning, World!!! I don’t think Lil Gertie realizes it is Sunday. Sunday is meant to either sleep in or go to a religious service and sometimes both. For me it is meant to sleep in. If you read my blog regularly you know sleep doesn’t come easy for me.

I think what I am going to do is attempt to go back to sleep. Especially since Lil Gertie is taking a cat nap at the moment.

I will also be reading. Reading two books on Buddhism. One is called Why Buddhism Is True while the other book is Buddhist Scriptures. Right now I am looking into Buddhism and it is giving me hope and a sense of peace. A Peace that I need at the moment.

Thank you for reading my blog. It is extremely appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Relapse Update

Good Evening, World!!! I had a good time with my family. As much as I love them, I am grateful to be back home. Back home with Lil Gertie.

To tell you the truth I think I was more grateful to be home on Thursday as I was in the hospital overnight due to a suicide attempt. An attempt that was triggered by PTSD symptoms. I informed a friend of mine who lives in my apartment building. He took me to the hospital and informed my family as well as Junior. My neighbor and Junior took care of Lil Gertie all day Wednesday and most of the day Thursday before I got the all clear to come home. Junior brought me home and I have had friends and family check up on me to make sure I’m okay.

I was more worried about Lil Gertie than me and realize that if I am feeling suicidal again that I will reach out to people who care. People who have care about me for a long time. I know of people who don’t have the support that I do when it comes to helping me when it comes to my mental health challenges. Recovery is all about getting back up on the horse and wiping yourself off when you fall.

The lesson I have learned is that I may not have someone to be available to take care of Lil Gertie. She is dependent on me to take care of her. I can not let my emotions get the better of me as I have Lil Gertie to help me with that as well as needing to take care of her.

Thank you for reading and I am not currently suicidal nor a risk to harm myself in any way. You are all awesome. Peace Out, World!!!

Spending Time With Family

Hello, World!!! Right now I am spending time with my grandpa and dad. Since I am spending time over at my grandpa’s I am doing my laundry. I am doing a load of laundry at my grandpa’s so I wouldn’t have to pay to do laundry in my apartment building.

I am missing Lil Gertie as I am away from her right now. She has been quite helpful for me and my anxiety. She is a little cuddle bug.

I just wanted to make sure I blogged today. I will try to blog later to inform you what has been going on the last few days. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Friday Evening Ramblings

Good Evening, World!!! My therapist checked in with me before he left the office for the three day weekend. He reminded me the free music event going on this weekend at the Seattle Center. I plan on going to Folk Life on Monday with my friend from high school.

My anxiety has been acting up so I have been painting. I painted or attempted to paint another picture of Lil Gertie. I am hoping that with practicing that I could get good enough to sell some of my art.

Well I need to go and eat dinner. Have good three day weekend. Have a Happy Friday. Peace Out, World!!!