Not So Random Thoughts or Ideas

Hello, again this evening. As some of you know I got laid off from a job I loved and am unable to discuss the legalities about it. I ended up getting another a job and both my supervisor and I decided it wasn’t the be job for me or the agency so a it was an agreement we both agreed on that it should end. Now, I have now income and the only income I have is if you the reader click onto the advertisements to give me extra money. It’s only a cent or two and wont get the money til I get a least a hundred dollars total. So even if it is only one time a day can you please click on an advertisement (or two) so I can earn some money till I can get a job, please. I of course will still volunteer and look for new jobs, I just thought I would ask for a little help please.

Being able to pay bills and take care of my cat Billie are extremely important to me. I hope you can help me out please. I know I have some loyal readers and appreciate all of you. I also want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out and Good Night World!!!

A Couple of Weeks Full of Much Needed but Unwanted Things to Do

I haven’t had the easiest starts to this week do to a traumatic weekend which led to two weeks of unwanted doctors appointments for myself. That doesn’t include Billie’s follow up dental procedure where one area is in the “grey area” of being infected but unsure unless they do test. They left it up to be to not do the test w/out antibiotics and come back in a week. Or do the test to see if antibiotics were needed or not do the test and do the antibiotics. I chose no test with the antibiotics. Its cheap and precautionary.

On top of that I’ve been having my own health issues, I will not exactly get into except medicare is so under staff right now; just thinking about it makes me want to cry. You would think some place like Seattle would have plenty of doctors but no.

Anyway on to better news I am having job interviews once again as the job I up getting after being laid off did not work out to well. I just hope I get a job that best works for me and the needs of my cat Billie as well as myself.

Overall Billie and I are doing fine and I don’t have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It greatly appreciative from my perspective that you do read my blog. If it was not for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Volunteer at Cat City
  • Practice and do some math
  • Learn about Tarot Cards
  • Do recovery workbooks
  • Play with Billie my cat

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Go to Social Security office
  • Practice and do math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do recovery workbooks
  • Play with Billie my cat

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Go to the DSHS office
  • Apply for work/jobs
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Apply for work/job
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do Recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Apply for work/job
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do Recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Apply for work/job
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do Recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Play with my cat Billie
  • Recovery Workbooks
  • Practice and do math
  • Learn about tarot cards

Plans to Make a Better Future

Right now I have a lot of desires to improve my life. Of course my cat Billie Dean helps improve my life. I love him so very much. I know he loves me very much as well. He has kept me stable the last two and half years. I love him so much and wish his dental work wasn’t so expensive.

I am also teaching myself tarot card in hopes it will give me a better direction in my life. I also have a tarot journal to help with it creating a life worth living. A life worth living is something I desire.

Therapy helps build a life worth living as long as doing self help books. I just want to be come a better self even if therapy and self help books are helpful.

Another thing that helps me is applying for jobs a reading. I hope to get a lot done next week. I don’ have much more to say except thank you for reading my blog. it it greatly appreciated from my end of things. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World and have an awesome weekend.

Things Not Exactly Going My Way but I’m Okay With It

Let’s just start with the new job. I wasn’t exactly fired but I didn’t exactly quit. We (my supervisor and I) agreed the job wasn’t a good fit for me and I agree. Plus the commute sucked shit. Plus I missed spending time with my kitty cat, Billie Dean.

I spent a lot of time away from him at the new job I no longer have. I love my Billie and I know he loves me. He is a very sweet cat and I am sure he is grateful that the Seattle weather has cooled down a lot. Billie had expensive dental work done and will go back for a follow up with the vet a a couple of weeks.

I plan on going to the social security office next week to see if I can get back on it. As much as I wish I was working, maybe I need a break to take care of my disability.

On top of other issues I am having land phone line and internet issues which suck shit. I know a lot of small crap is going on and I am doing okay with it.

I don’t have much to say expect thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. I hope you all have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Updates on Billie & Internet Issues

Happy Friday, World!!! First and fore most I took this entire week off of work due to stomach flu as well as mental health stuff. Well all expect yesterday when I took the day off to take Billie to the vet to get some major dental work done Plus I had therapy yesterday as well. I would have told you sooner but my home internet is having some issues. So I am spending time with my family and their internet. I hope to update with you about my new job when my home internet is fixed. I hope everyone has a great Friday and Peace Out World!!!!

Just Some Ramblings About Life

First Day at Job Site

Good Morning, World!!! I am anxious as hell as today is my first day at my job site. Yes, last week was my first official week at work but it was all training and mostly online. I know I will do fine but I am still scared. I just want to do good be what they expect me to be.

I am also nervous about the public transportation part of getting to work. I haven’t taken public transportation since before Covid but I either took a Lyft to work or worked from home. So, I am a little nervous as it would be way too much money to take a Lyft to work.

The other reason why I am nervous is I am worried about leaving my cat Billie Dean home by himself for so long. He is such a lap cat and a needy cat that I worry about being gone so long. Plus, I’m a little needy myself especially for my cat Billie. I love my Billie so much.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a good week at work. Peace Out, World!!!

Anxiety Increasing as Tomorrow Gets Closer

Hello, World!!! My anxiety is increasing as tomorrow gets closer. Even though I’ve had my first week of work it was mostly done remotely or in person with the HR and IT departments which is at different location that I will be working at. See tomorrow in my first day at my job site and I am nervous as fucking hell. I know it is okay to be nervous but not just anxious about my first day at my job site.

I am nervous about having to take public transportation again. The last two years I’ve been either working from home or taking Lyft to and from work due to Covid-19 as I was trying to limit the amount of exposure I could get. I’m not so worried about the exposure as much due to having the vaccine, the booster and actually being diagnosed with Covid-19 the day after I got the booster. Covid suck shit and I know there is a possibility of getting it again but that is not why I’m worried about using public transportation. I’m nervous because, I’ll be taking a route I’ve never taken before. I’m nervous because even on routes, I am familiar with, there are times I have to get off due anxiety and/or PTSD issues and would have to wait for the next bus so I could be in a better head space to be back on the bus. I know everything will be fine but I’m still anxious about it. I just to get use to public transportation again as well as a new route to me.

When I get home from work tomorrow I am sure my cat Billie dean will be more than happy that I am home. Hell, Billie is always happy when I get home even if it is for five minutes for checking my mail or taking out the garbage. I’m more than certain that I will be just as happy to be home as my cat will be.

I do not have much else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, once again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Do Food Handlers permit class and test

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work (First day at actual job site)
  • Spend time with Billie when I arrive home

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work from home as I have online training
  • Dinner with neighbors who are friends

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work (at job site)
  • Spend time with Billie when I get home from work
  • Attend an online 12 step group

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work (at job site)
  • Spend time with Billie after I get home from work

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work (at job site)
  • Dinner with a friend
  • Get home and spend time with Billie

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Spend day at grandpa’s house
  • Do laundry while at grandpa’s
  • Make grandpa dinner while at his place