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Who The Hell Knows Where This Post Is Going To Say?

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Good Afternoon, World!!! Yes, I know this is like my third post for the day in just a few hours but I have a lot on my mind. Plus I am wanting to start blogging more often. Blogging about my journey appears to help others and even helps me with my own mental health challenges.

One of the things I want to bring up which I have discussed before and is sort of a random though is the the advertisements I have to earn some extra cash to help pay for some desired things I would like have such as art supplies. I just hope that those who do get the advertisements click on to them for me as that’s how I make the money. You don’t have to purchase anything from the sights. You just need to click on it and let it load from my understanding. I know it’s asking a lot from you my reader to do that and I hope you know it helps me with my hobbies like my art work and blogging and other such things.

As I blog, I hope to blog about different things in my post to add different tags in hopes to bring my readership. I know the might seem a little weird or odd but anyway I can get folks to read my blog then maybe I can help just one more person get the hope they need to be in recovery with their mental health challenges, no matter what their recovery looks like for them. Giving others hope is what I desire the most about the blog.

If you read my blog on the regular basis even the semi regular basis you know that I love to do art. Primarily painting and coloring with some occasional collaging. I am hoping that I can share my art work with you all on my blog as soon as I get my camera fixed.

Something I am going to have to do this next week is get some medical care for a possible kidney and bladder infections. Something I don’t want have to deal with but will have to do so. Another thing I have to get checked out is my teeth. I need to get some major dental care done. Getting both medical and dental health care done also helps with mental health.

Something that has been helping me a great deal with my mental health recovery is my emotional support animal, my cat, Lil Gertie. She has been a great help to me with my recovery.  Knowing when I need to be tended to emotionally. Lil Gertie knows when to get my attention when I am in a bad spot which is good thing. Too bad I can’t take her into places lie grocery stores.

I think I am going to get going now. I am wanting to go read and have lunch. I know what book I am going to read as it’s one I have already started and want to finish. Now trying to figure out want I am going to have for lunch. I hope everyone has a good weekend. Don’t blink or the weekend will disappear. Have an awesome weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Looking at the Bright Side of Things

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Good Morning, (again), World!!! As I sit here writing this post I can’t help but think how good things are for me despite tooth pain and depression. I’m looking past the pain and depression at the bright things in my life. Some of my bright things in my life are simple things while others are the usual things people are grateful for.

Bright Side of Things in my life are as follows:

  • Lil Gertie (my cat)
  • Family
  • Friends
  • Play-Doh (yes, I did just say Play-Doh)
  • Blogging
  • Having a roof over my head (a place to live)
  • Food and food stamps
  • Reading and being able to read
  • Music and being able to play a musical instrument
  • My hoodies (hooded sweatshirts)
  • My Art supplies
  • Comic Books (specifically Wonder Woman)
  • My stuffed animals (especially the teddy bear, I’ve had since I was born)

As you can tell I have a great deal of things that help me look at the bright side of things. I realize that some of them may be silly but if they help me look at the bright side of things then dealing with the tooth pain and depression aren’t as bad.

Things that I have been doing today that have been quite helpful for both depression and tooth pain are a combination of things. One thing that has been quite helpful is playing with my cat, Lil Gertie. I must of wore her out as she is sleeping at the moment. Another thing I’ve been doing is reading. I’ve been reading both a novel and comic books. I of course had music playing in the background as it is soothing. I’ve also been doing various genres of art work with of course music playing in the background. I’ve also been playing with my toys such as Play Doh as well as my Hot Wheels Cars and holding my stuffed animals.

Well, I should get going as I am sure I am boring you with things in the post. Thank you so much for reading. Have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!!

I Can’t Seem to Stay Awake

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Good Early Afternoon, World!!! For some reason, I can’t seem to stay awake today. Not sure why as I feel fine physically. Maybe my body is try to catch up with the depression I have been recovery from. I’m not sure why I am sleeping most of the day away but apparently I need the sleep. I just hope I am able to sleep tonight.

Besides sleeping most of the day, I have been able to do some chores. I cleaned the kitty litter box as well as both the bathroom and kitchen. So, I haven’t exactly been a lazy, I’ve just been extremely sleepy for some odd reason. My big issue for the day is being able to sleep tonight. I’ll worry about that when tonight comes if the no sleep happens.

Since I have done some chores among my long sleeping periods, I think I am going to read as it appears to be one of those lazy type of days for me. Since I love to read maybe it will help me stay awake a little bit.

Thank you for reading my blog. It is very much appreciated from my end of thing. Wish me luck on being able to sleep tonight night since I have been sleeping the day away. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Depressed Yet Grateful

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Good Morning, World!!! I woke up this morning depressed yet grateful to be alive. I’m grateful to be alive as I am realizing that I never would have thought when I was in my late teens and early twenties that I would live to be my current age of 39. I thought way back when that I would have been dead due to suicide.

Despite being depressed and unemployed, I am grateful for my life and the life I have lived thus far. Yes, I have made my fare share of mistake however they have helped shaped who I am today. I have decided to share with you my gratitude list for the day.

  • Life itself
  • My cat, Lil Gertie
  • My family
  • My friends
  • The blogging community
  • The mental health help I am getting
  • My therapist
  • My doctors
  • My apartment
  • My teddy bear
  • Being able to read
  • Music
  • Being able to play the flute and harmonica
  • Summer

That is my gratitude list for today. I hope it helps you find the little things in life to be grateful for. Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is extremely appreciated on my end that I have people that read my blog. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Mr. Sandman, Where Are You?

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Good Morning, World!!! I have yet to get to sleep despite trying. Lil Gertie has been helping me through some anxiety attacks. Anxiety attacks that can be debilitating. I don’t think my anxiety is causing me to not sleep however it something to discuss with my therapist.

I have been reading as this time of morning there is nothing on and don’t feel like doing much of anything else. I have been reading a book I put down a few months ago and decided to start reading it again.

I am thinking I am going to get going as I want to try to get some sleep before I need to get up. I just wish I knew were Mr. Sandman was so I could sleep. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Feeling Meh Getting Slightly Better

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Good Evening, World!!! I am still feeling a little meh however the feeling is slightly getting better. Having depression sucks shit but if I acknowledge the depression I know what to do to help myself through it. At least when it is in its milder form for me.

When I realized I was feeling depressed, I hung out with my family. We had waffles for a late breakfast. We also watch a baseball game on television. The team we were rooting for won.

When I got home I worked on my Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) homework. I also read ahead for the next group. DBT has helped through some really difficult times. Times where I could have given up but didn’t because I used my DBT skills.

After doing my DBT homework, I read. I read for about an hour. Reading helped me get out of my head. I read a Star Wars book that I am enjoying quite immensely.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Happy Hump Day

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Good Morning, World!!! I have been awake since three thirty in the morning Seattle time. It is now five thirty in the morning Seattle time. I wish I could go back to sleep however I am unable to do so. I wish sleep came easily for but it doesn’t.

It is hump day (Wednesday) as many of you know. This means the week is half over. It is hard to believe how fast time flies even when you don’t have much going on in your life. I like Wednesdays as they are a reflective day for me. Not sure why they tend to be reflective but they are.

I am not really sure what I am going to do today as I have nothing really planned. I know that I need to do some lite housework so that is on the to do list. As much as I dislike doing house work, it gives me a sense of accomplishment after it is done.

I’m also most likely going to be reading. I am not sure what book I will be reading but I will be reading. It helps me get out of my head. I have a gut feeling that reading will be the go to skill I will be using today as I am really in my head at the moment.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless In Seattle

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Good Morning, World!!! I am sleepless in Seattle once again. It has nothing to do with Lil Gertie wanting to play at this hour of the day. It has everything to do with the insomnia that I am experiencing. Insomnia sucks!!!

Since my last post, I have not only attempted to sleep but I have read. I am reading about Buddhism. It is helping me be at peace with myself and the world as a whole. The more I read about Buddhism, the more I realize it is the right spiritually for me. Having faith in something is quite helpful for me as an individual as well as my recovery.

I am going to go now. I am going to play with Lil Gertie as she appears to be playful at the moment. Peace Out, World!!!

Laughter In Seattle

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Good Morning, World!!! It is just after twelve thirty in the morning in my corner of the world. I just got done watching The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon. Watching The Tonight Show helps me be able to get things off my mind by laughing. Laughing also helps me get to sleep.

I think I am going to read for an hour and then go to bed. Not sure which book I am going to be reading as I am in the middle of reading multiple books. I might even look over my scrapbook as I have written in that. It might be help to put me in a good mindset to sleep.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Busy Lil Bee Being In Recovery

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Good Morning, World!!! I haven’t been back to sleep since my last post. I have been busy since my last post. I read a little bit. I read about Buddhism. If you regularly read my blog you know I have been looking into Buddhism. I am looking into it as I haven’t really been searching spiritual wise the last couple of years. Spirituality is a part of being in recovery. Being in recovery is something I have aspired to be and have been for quite some time. Yes, I have had bumps in the road. Yes, I have fallen however I have picked myself up and wiped myself off.

Being in recovery means doing things that are difficult. For me doing workbooks is quite challenging for me as it pushes me to aspire to be the person I am meant to be. This morning, I have chosen to work on the workbook that focuses me being queer and resilient. Being able to push myself with my gender identity, queerness and resiliency goes right along with my values in my personal recovery path with mental health challenges.

Being in recovery is a major deal for me. I was informed that I would never be in recovery from a mental health condition because my symptoms were so severe. Never tell me I can’t do something because I end up proving you wrong with being able to do it.

Thank you for reading. Have a nice Wednesday. Peace Out, World!!!