A Not So Good Sunday

Good Evening, World!!! It hasn’t been a very good Sunday for me. I ended up in two Emergency Rooms at two different hospitals. One which told me it I had a bad tooth and needed to get a dentist. The other hospital said I had a mouth and facial infection with a possible tooth infection. So I am now on antibiotics for a the mouth and facial infection along with taking ibuprofen for the pain. I was suggested by the second hospital to get a dentist whom gave me referrals to.

On a plus note I was able to do some art work as well as post this blog. On a bigger plus note I am able to be home with my cat, Lil Gertie and able to play with her. She is such a sweet cat.

Thank you for reading. I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend. Peace Out, World.

Who The Hell Knows Where This Post Is Going To Say?

Good Afternoon, World!!! Yes, I know this is like my third post for the day in just a few hours but I have a lot on my mind. Plus I am wanting to start blogging more often. Blogging about my journey appears to help others and even helps me with my own mental health challenges.

One of the things I want to bring up which I have discussed before and is sort of a random though is the the advertisements I have to earn some extra cash to help pay for some desired things I would like have such as art supplies. I just hope that those who do get the advertisements click on to them for me as that’s how I make the money. You don’t have to purchase anything from the sights. You just need to click on it and let it load from my understanding. I know it’s asking a lot from you my reader to do that and I hope you know it helps me with my hobbies like my art work and blogging and other such things.

As I blog, I hope to blog about different things in my post to add different tags in hopes to bring my readership. I know the might seem a little weird or odd but anyway I can get folks to read my blog then maybe I can help just one more person get the hope they need to be in recovery with their mental health challenges, no matter what their recovery looks like for them. Giving others hope is what I desire the most about the blog.

If you read my blog on the regular basis even the semi regular basis you know that I love to do art. Primarily painting and coloring with some occasional collaging. I am hoping that I can share my art work with you all on my blog as soon as I get my camera fixed.

Something I am going to have to do this next week is get some medical care for a possible kidney and bladder infections. Something I don’t want have to deal with but will have to do so. Another thing I have to get checked out is my teeth. I need to get some major dental care done. Getting both medical and dental health care done also helps with mental health.

Something that has been helping me a great deal with my mental health recovery is my emotional support animal, my cat, Lil Gertie. She has been a great help to me with my recovery.  Knowing when I need to be tended to emotionally. Lil Gertie knows when to get my attention when I am in a bad spot which is good thing. Too bad I can’t take her into places lie grocery stores.

I think I am going to get going now. I am wanting to go read and have lunch. I know what book I am going to read as it’s one I have already started and want to finish. Now trying to figure out want I am going to have for lunch. I hope everyone has a good weekend. Don’t blink or the weekend will disappear. Have an awesome weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Looking at the Bright Side of Things

Good Morning, (again), World!!! As I sit here writing this post I can’t help but think how good things are for me despite tooth pain and depression. I’m looking past the pain and depression at the bright things in my life. Some of my bright things in my life are simple things while others are the usual things people are grateful for.

Bright Side of Things in my life are as follows:

  • Lil Gertie (my cat)
  • Family
  • Friends
  • Play-Doh (yes, I did just say Play-Doh)
  • Blogging
  • Having a roof over my head (a place to live)
  • Food and food stamps
  • Reading and being able to read
  • Music and being able to play a musical instrument
  • My hoodies (hooded sweatshirts)
  • My Art supplies
  • Comic Books (specifically Wonder Woman)
  • My stuffed animals (especially the teddy bear, I’ve had since I was born)

As you can tell I have a great deal of things that help me look at the bright side of things. I realize that some of them may be silly but if they help me look at the bright side of things then dealing with the tooth pain and depression aren’t as bad.

Things that I have been doing today that have been quite helpful for both depression and tooth pain are a combination of things. One thing that has been quite helpful is playing with my cat, Lil Gertie. I must of wore her out as she is sleeping at the moment. Another thing I’ve been doing is reading. I’ve been reading both a novel and comic books. I of course had music playing in the background as it is soothing. I’ve also been doing various genres of art work with of course music playing in the background. I’ve also been playing with my toys such as Play Doh as well as my Hot Wheels Cars and holding my stuffed animals.

Well, I should get going as I am sure I am boring you with things in the post. Thank you so much for reading. Have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!!

Not So Random Thoughts

Good Morning, World!!! By now I am sure many of you especially those who live in the United States that a small airplane was stolen from SeaTac Airport. Sadly, it did crash and the person who stole the plane is suspected to be dead. The news is saying that this was a “suicide mission and not a terrorist attack.” The person who stole the plane was a grounds person for an airline at the airport. I am unable to comprehend how this was able to happen post 9/11. Another thing I am unable to comprehend is that if the man who did steal and crash the plane was suicidal why the media isn’t discussing more about mental health challenges and how it affects society as a whole. My heart goes out to the family of the individual.

On that note, I am switching the topic drastically. I am changing it to dental care. Specifically, my dental care. I think I have a tooth abscess.  I think it’s an abscess because I have had them in the past. If it doesn’t get better by this time tomorrow, I am taking myself to the emergency room to get it taken care of.  All I know is that I have a high pain tolerance and my tooth hurts like hell.

As many of you my regular followers, have noticed, I haven’t been blogging as much. I have no excuses on why I haven’t been blogging as much. The blogging community is a community, I am proud to be apart of. We are a tight nit community and I have seen very little drama within the blogging community. So to my followers, I thank you for allowing me to be apart of your community.

Thank you for reading. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Wednesday Afternoon Ramblings

Good Afternoon, World!!! I saw Gilbert today for therapy. We discussed a number of things today. Some of which I will share with you. We first discussed me punching a brick wall. We did a chain analysis on the self harm action. We talked about I could have done differently than punching a brick wall.

Not only did we talk about self harm we discussed my time at the DSHS office. We talked about how I am finally back on Medicaid and getting a higher amount of food stamps. We discussed how I am now able to finally get proper dental care. Gilbert also informed me about how I can double my food stamps local farmers markets.

Now that I told you what therapy was like today, I think I am going to go and read. I really enjoy reading as it helps me get out of my head.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Volunteering And Other Stuff

     Well, it’s still Wednesday and I went to my volunteer job. The bad thing is they closed the shelter for they day to spray for different type of bugs. (Don’t worry, when they spray for bugs they open it back up in the evening so clients can check in and get a bed for the night.) I am just frustrated that I went all the way there to have to come back to my boyfriends.

     I guess I am frustrated because my boyfriend had his wisdom teeth pulled yesterday. That’s part of the reason why he took his vacation this week so he could have time to recuperate. Plus he wanted to spend time with me. Anyway, his mom took him to the dentist yesterday since she drives and has a car. I also had to see my therapist so I wouldn’t have been able to take him to the dentist. Getting your wisdom teeth pulled is not very fun especially, when its all four of them. My boyfriend cant chew at the moment and is acting like a big overgrown baby. Hell, I think if I had my wisdom teeth pulled I would be acting like a big baby. Wanting to baby and help my boyfriend today is why I am a little frustrated that I was notified that they wouldn’t need me at my volunteer job today. At least I am getting to spend time with him right now. I just wish I knew how to make him feel better. I know realistically I really cant help him feel better but I wish I could. I love him so much. I know he loves me and wishes I didn’t have to still deal with the trauma I dealt with as a child and as an adult.

     If it weren’t for the shit I went through, I wouldn’t have the passion I do to want to help others and become a peer support specialist. I start training for a peer run warm line next Tuesday. In fact its going to be two days a week for about 5 hours each day for about 4 weeks (which is a month) and that equals to a 40 hour training. The cool thing about being a call taker on a Warm Line is getting different types of training to help you be a better call taker. I also look at it that any training I get being a Warm Line call taker volunteer will help me be a better Peer Specialist when I do eventually get employed as one.

     Speaking of becoming a Peer Specialist or Peer Support, the interview I was suppose to have for the Consumer Aide position last Thursday finally got rescheduled for July 30th. The time is not officially set yet but it is either at 10am or 1pm. I am getting a little nervous about it because by the time I have the interview the job will have been posted for four months. I am nervous that I might be the one they hire. Even though I want this job so badly, I am scared of the job change cause I’ve been at my current employment for 9 years. I know I need a job change because I am bitter at my current employment even though I do enjoy many of my customers and co-workers. I don’t even know if I got the job because I haven’t even had the interview yet. Its difficult  for me to wrap my mind around that a position has been up for nearly four months.

     There are actual Peer Specialist positions up at other agencies that I am thinking about applying for as well. I am a little hesitant to apply to the peer positions the I know I qualify for because I am afraid that I will jinx myself. Even though I am fearful of leaving my current employment I need to get out of there just as badly. I just don’t want to jinx myself and get more interviews and not get any job offers. I will most likely apply for the jobs because I want out of my current employment even though I am fearful of the change.

    Before I get going and put my boyfriend to bed I want to share something with you. I finally got to 1,000 views today. Last time I checked I was at 1,003 views. I just want to know how I can get more views as well as more followers. Oh yeah, I also now have 12 followers. I just wish I knew how to get more followers and more viewers. I have more to tell you but I am getting tired and well my boyfriend is asleep on the couch drooling. It is 11:49pm (pacific time) and I think its time for bed.

    I plan on blogging sometime tomorrow. I hope I remember to tell you what I was planning on sharing tonight. Have good night all. Peace Out!!