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Gertie’s On Their Way To Their Interview

Posted on by mamabearraine

Hello!!! It is I, Mama Bear. I realize it have been a few weeks since I last posted. I have been quite busy with family and work. My youngest child is going through their own mental health crisis and needed to focus on that. I requested Gertie not share that as I want to share more about my family when I post. Today is not the day I will post about my family as I want to discuss Gertie and their job interview.

At this very moment Gertie is on their way to their job interview. It is my hope that Gertie gets this job as I know them well enough that they do better with their mental health symptoms when they are working. It is my hope that they get the job they want. Gertie is aware that I don’t think this is the right job for them but if it is meant to be they will be offered the job and Gertie will accept it if it fits their schedule and value system. Gertie is an extremely wise person and will do what is best for them with much consultation from individuals such as myself and Junior. It is my hope that Gertie does well and gets this job if it is meant for them.

Anger = Call to Therapist

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! As much as I love my family, they are driving me nuts right now. Driving me nuts over petty shit that I shouldn’t let get to me but I do.

I talked with my new therapist about this and he suggested some things for me to do so I am not so angry with them. The cool thing about everything is that he knew what questions to ask about me and my anger. He now knows that me calling when I am angry is a good. This is a way for me to be preventative to do self harm urges and self harm acts. Thankfully, the anger toward my family didn’t lead to self harm urges which is why I was being preventative.

Something that my therapist and I came up with is to keep my mind busy so reading and books. I found out that my therapist is also an avid reading. His enjoys science fiction and fantasy genres. Knowing something as simple as this helps me with trusting my therapist. Talking about ways to not be so angry and books with my therapist helped lessened the anger a great deal.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World.

The Woes of the Days, So Far

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! Well, it is just barely after twelve noon in my part of the world. Actually, to be exact it is twelve eleven in the afternoon to be exact.

I am having a moment of grief as I am blogging. I am miss my grandma. I miss everything about her especially the small things she would do for me. I love her so much and wish she was still alive. Reality is she is not going to rise from the dead.

Despite grieving over my grandma, I am doing okay at the moment. I can’t say that for one of my neighbors as they are appearing to be in crisis. A bad enough crisis that they had to go to the hospital to get evaluated. This person pulled the fire alarm several times since my last post. The fire alarm is annoying as hell but it is meant to be that way for folks to leaver their apartment. Yet, when the fire alarm is going off due to someone being in crisis it makes it harder to believe it is the real thing. I just wish the person wasn’t in crisis. Not because the fire alarm in annoying as hell but because being in crisis sucks shit.

Now, I am going to relax by reading my book. I am thrilled that I can get out of my head by reading especially a book I really enjoy. Having a book that is difficult to put down is a great problem to have.

Tanks you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Happy St. Patrick’s Day

Posted on by Gertie

Happy St. Patrick’s Day, World!!! I’m stating the obvious here; it is St. Patrick’s Day. Today is where most of the world thinks they are Irish even if they are not. I am fifty percent Irish. In fact I am third generation born here in America from Ireland. That means my great grandparents immigrated from Ireland.

That’s why when it comes to immigration, I am all for it. All people are looking for, when they immigrate is for a better life. That is what both sets of great grandparents did on my mothers side did. They made a better life for themselves. Granted life was not easy for my great grandparents yet at least it was better than living in Ireland at that time. I’m not saying America is better than Ireland, I am saying that my great grandparents were making a better life for themselves.

Thank you for reading my blog. Happy St. Patrick’s Day and Peace Out, World!!!

 

Gertie’s Grief

Posted on by mamabearraine

Gertie didn’t want me to post today however I am a person of my word. Gertie is dealing with grief of the death of their grandma. Gerties grandma died two weeks ago today. Please send out good thoughts and vibes Gerties was especially since the funeral is over with next Wednesday is Gerties birthday.

Yes, Gertie’s birthday is a week from today. They would be to happy with me however Gertie is like one of my own children to me.

Have a wonderful week and keep Gertie in your thoughts and vibes.

Tuesday Morning Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! Well, there is still snow on the ground here in Spokane where my grandma’s funeral was held. News sources say it is suppose to be snowing at sea level in Seattle which will be a shit show for me and my family going back to Seattle.

Despite the possibility of snow I am looking forward to going home. There is nothing like being in your own home. I miss my bed.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day!!! Peace Out, World!!!

The Funeral Went Well

Posted on by Gertie

My anxiety it still quite high even a few hours after the funeral ended. The service went well. I personally thought it was awesome. I miss my grandma so much. It’s so hard to say goodbye however I’m glad I went.

Now it’s time to start the long term grieving  process and not sure when or how that is going happen. I just know I’ll have the support when I start really grieving.

Thank you so very much for reading. It is very much appreciated from my end. Thanks again from the bottom of my heart. Goodnight!!!! Peace Out, World!!!

Today Is The Day

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! Today is the day of my grandma’s funeral. I’m not sure I am doing at this current moment in time however I suspect I’ll become more emotional as the funeral time come closer.

I am looking forward to playing my flute at my grandma’s funeral. There is something about music that brings people together. My grandma always encouraged me to play my flute and never forced me to practice which made me want to practice just for her.

Thank you so very much for reading my blog. It is much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Dreading Tomorrow

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! Tomorrow is my grandma’s funeral. It is going to be an extremely tough day for my family and I. I am not wanting to say goodbye to my grandma. I miss her so much.

Instead of giving a speech I will be a playing my flute at my grandma’s funeral. It’s something she loved even though I don’t play all that well. My uncle is giving the eulogy while my other uncle as well as my dad share some stories. Of course my grandpa will be sharing some things as well.

Thank you for reading. It’s much appreciated especially now. Peace Out, World!!!

The Waiting Game

Posted on by Gertie

I am sitting here waiting for my family to come pick me up so we can head over to Spokane for my grandma’s funeral. Spending five plus hours in the car with my family will be challenging which is why I am going be making my backpack a DBT bag for the next couple of days.

For me making sure I have the tools or skill I need to not make the situation worse is the key to what DBT is about. Plus I will feel better about myself if I do what I need to do.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!