Not Feeling All That Well

Good Morning, World!!! It is just after two in the morning on a Sunday in my corner of the world. I am spending the night at my grandpa’s house. I am not feeling so well. I am thinking I might wake up either my uncle or my grandpa to take me to the hospital as my stomach is in knots. Actually, where my appendix is, is where it hurts like hell and I feel like  I am going to vomit.  I think I am going to cut this post short at wake up my family to take me to the hospital. Better safe than sorry when it comes to ones appendix.

On a side not the Mariners beat the Dodgers in the tenth inning. Just wanted to add something other than me not feeling all that well.

I sure get going and get to the hospital. My family will take me. I hope everyone has a better start to their Sunday than me. Have a great Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

Attempted To Go Back To Sleep But A No Go

Good Morning, again, World!!! I attempted to go back to sleep and was unsuccessful at it. I might as well as start my normal daily routine. Right now that includes having a cup of tea and reading the news paper. As always, there is never anything good in the news however having this morning routine gives me a since of accomplishment. It gives me something to do to start my day out.

At this moment in time I am a little worried about my health as my doctor wants me to see her every two weeks. I know she is doing it to be preventative so I am not going to the Emergency Room as much but it still worries me. She is also doing it to help be preventative with my mental health symptoms as well. I have had my doctor for nine years now and this is the worst she has seen me mental health wise even though my mental health symptoms are slowly improving.

My therapist will now being seeing me twice a week instead of once a week. It is kind of a similar way to the way my doctor is thinking, to try to keep me from using the Emergency Room too much. Plus, my therapist wants to get deeper into the things that are really bothering me like trauma related things. I don’t know if I like the idea of going deeper into things but if it ultimately helps me and my mental health then I am willing to give it a try.

Right now I need to get my mind off of things so I think I am going to go take a shower which always make me feel better. I will also have some breakfast because food is always a good thing for both your health and mental health.

After taking care of some basic needs I think I will do some good self-care things for myself before I go to my volunteer job. One way I will do some self care is by doing some art. Specifically, I will be doing some painting. After doing some painting, I’ll be doing some reading. I will be reading the fantasy novel as well a comic books. Reading helps me a great deal to get out of my own head and forget about the depression I am struggling with at the moment.

As much as my depression sucks, going to my volunteer job this evening will be quite helpful for me. It will help me focus that my problems aren’t as bad as others. Volunteering helps me get out of my own head. Helping others always helps me be in a better head place.

Now that I am done boring you half out of your mind, I will end this post for now. Thanks so much for reading my blog. It is very much appreciated from my end of things. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Have a good Saturday. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Tired To Stay Awake

Good Morning, World!!! It is nine o’clock in the morning in my corner of the word and I am having trouble staying awake. I originally woke up at six o’clock in the morning and fell back to sleep. I have a feeling that I won’t be able to stay awake much longer after waking up this time. Not sure why I am so sleepy.

I am wondering why I am so sleepy has something to do with my depression creeping back into my life. I sure hope it is not the depression creeping back in. As shitty as depression can be, I am not one hundred percent sure that it is the reason why I am so sleepy.

I am thinking that maybe it is because my body is trying to become healthy again by fighting off the weird ass mouth infection I have. Sometimes your health can cause you to be more tired than usual to help heal the body.

On a side note I did listen to the Dodger versus Mariner game last night. The Dodgers beat the Mariners from 11 to 1. I am happy that the Dodgers won last night. I am a huge baseball fan and am hoping at least one of my teams makes it to the play offs.

Well, I think I am going to get going and go back to sleep. I just wish I knew why I was so freaking tired. I hope everyone has a good Saturday. Have a wonderful weekend everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Been A Long Day

Good Evening, World!!! As many of you know I have had a long day. It didn’t really turn out as planned but that is okay for me. It started when I saw my doctor this morning to look at my weird ass mouth infection. She gave me some more antibiotics.  We also discussed how long I have been seeing her and her concern that I could be over using the hospital’s which is valid. So I’ll be seeing her every two weeks just for checks about physical health stuff and if needed mental health stuff as well. Which I am okay with.

I then saw my trusty therapist who is trying his best to gain my trust and it is slightly working. We discussed ways on how I can change certain behaviors and how he can help me with that. He now wants to see me twice a week to help me with my behaviors and help me not use the Emergency Rooms as much for both physical and mental health reasons.

Plans changed when my grandpa picked me up to go to Red Robin. We decided that he would take me to a walk in dental clinic and get a comprehensive dental check up. He paid for it. Looks like that I will need to get all my teeth pulled and get a full set of dentures which is not surprising for me. So next week, I am going to the DSHS office to get some paper work straightened out as it appears I am loosing some things due to a computer and/or human error. So hopefully, I’ll be able to get back on medicaid so I can get my teeth fixed.

My grandpa and I did go out to eat to IHOP but it surely was no Red Robin. Hopefully, we can go to Red Robin soon. I love Red Robin. I think we might go to Red Robin on Sunday.

As far as getting an interview with a potential employer, I am still waiting to hear back. I think it is ridiculous that they haven’t even set one up with me yet when I informed them that the time they gave me I was unable to do so due other obligations. I gave them dates and times when I was available next week and the person said they would get back to me by the end of Friday which is today.

Thank you again for reading my blog as I ramble on about different shit. Have a good rest of your Friday and I hope you enjoy your weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Playing The Waiting Game

Good Morning, again, World!!! I sit here at my laptop in the waiting room of my doctors office. So the waiting game begins. I highly dislike going to the doctors but it is so much better than having to go to the hospital. I really dislike playing the waiting game but that is why I decided to bring my laptop with me so I can keep myself entertained somehow.

As I play the waiting game the theme of money keep coming up due to the advertisements I have on my blog. Every time someone clicks on an ad, I get a few cents. Yes, few cents isn’t all that much but it all adds up.

Another thing, I brought with me today as I play the waiting game is I brought my comic books. Actually, I brought my Wonder Woman comic books as Wonder Woman is my favorite superhero.

I just hope that my doctor gives me stronger antibiotics to help get rid of this weird ass mouth infection that I have. I’m hopeful yet extremely doubtful that I’ll get some stronger pain meds. I’m doubtful due to the fact that I have a family history of drug abuse and I don’t want to get addicted. Plus I don’t need another issue on top of the issues I already have. All I want is for the infection to go away because when it goes away then so does the annoying ass pain. I really dislike waiting with a passion and I hope that my doctor isn’t running late.

I am a big proponent of starting and ending things on time. I say this because people have lives to live. That means in their lives that they have other obligations to attend to. Like for me, I have to rush to go see my therapist.

I should get going as it is almost time for my appointment and want to make sure I am ready when they call out my name. Thank you for reading. You all are awesome. Happy Friday. Peace Out, World!!!

Here’s To Hoping

Good Morning, again, World!!! I know I just posted about less than an hour ago but felt like posting again. I have forgotten to mention a couple of things since my last post.

Today, I hope to hear back from the potential employer who I have been playing email tag with to set up a job interview. I am hoping to hear back today to find out when my interview is. It is slightly anxiety provoking but it is one of those things that I will deal with.

On a plus note, I have an interview later this week for a volunteer job at the Seattle Art Museum. I am looking forward to it. Volunteering at the art museum will give me something to do and a way to meet new people.

An idea I have for the day is take my laptop with me a post about things that are going on for me at the moment. For example, I will most likely post while waiting to see my doctor. I also hope to blog while waiting to see my therapist as well but their WiFi seems to be down a great deal. The one thing I won’t do is blog while have lunch with my grandpa at Red Robin. That would just be rude. Now blogging while in the waiting rooms of my doctors and therapist office is a different story.

I honestly hope I hear back about a job interview time for sometime next week. I prefer Monday or Tuesday in the morning but realize that they need to arrange people schedules who will be doing the interviewing.

Having a job will help me immensely with my mental health. Having structure in my life is a good thing and having something what I consider productive for me is quite helpful.  Plus having the extra money will be quite helpful to help pay for stuff that I want but don’t need.

Thank you for reading. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. I hope to blog again in the waiting room of my doctors office. Have a great and Happy Friday. Peace Out, World!!!

Not Exactly A Morning Person

Good Morning, World!!! If you could call it a good morning. I am not exactly a morning person any morning but this morning I most definitely not a morning person. I didn’t get much sleep last night. At least I have some positive things going on in my life today. Some things I may not want to do but are good for me to day.

My day starts off with attending a doctor’s appointment for my stupid weird ass mouth infection. I know I have said this many times before in other post but I hope she can give me some stronger antibiotics. I also hope for some stronger pain meds but all the pain meds will do is cover up the problem and not fix it. At least the antibiotics will be able to fix problem.

After seeing my doctor, I will be seeing my therapist. We will be discussing some behaviors that I need to learn to control. Also, I hope that he can help me with some paper work or at least make sure I am understanding the paperwork correctly. I might have to actually go to the DSHS office to take care of the paperwork but at least my therapist might be able to help.

My grandpa is picking me up from therapy appointment so we can go to Red Robin. I am treating him to lunch at Red Robin. It’s always nice to spend time with family that are supportive especially over food.

Oh, I highly dislike mornings but I am one of those people I would rather get things done early so I can relax later on during the day. I am still waiting for my news paper to be delivered. It is my morning ritual to read the paper and drink tea with milk, honey and sugar in it.

Despite the lack of sleep last night, I hope that I can keep my anger under control. My anger is easily flared up when I don’t get much sleep. At least I am aware of this and can be mindful of when my anger starts to arise.

It’s just barely after six in the morning in my corner of the world. That means I should start getting ready for the day. Thank you for reading my blog and hope you enjoy reading it. I hope to blog more later on today to share how things are going. It’s greatly appreciated from my end that you read. Peace Out, World!!!

Still Haven’t Been To Sleep, I Might As Well Get Up For The Day

Good Morning and Happy Friday, World!!! I still haven’t been to sleep yet and it is four in the morning in my corner of the world. Not sure why I haven’t been to sleep but at least I see my doctor and therapist today.

Not sure why I can’t sleep because once I discuss what’s bothering me like in my last post, I am able to get to sleep. It’s just too early to be awake much less wanting to get the day started due to the lack of sleep.

I do see my doctor today regarding my weird ass mouth infection. I am hoping that she can give me an antibiotic that is stronger and more helpful than the one I am on.  The pain is still pretty intense and wish it would go away.

I see my therapist later this morning and I’ll be discussing some of the stuff I talked about in my last post. He might be able to help me a little bit on the paper work. I really think I just need to go into the DSHS office next week to work it out there.

My grandpa and I never did go to Red Robin yesterday for various reasons. So we decided that we are going to go after I see my therapist. Like I have said before, I love Red Robin for both their food and their awesome customer service. I love spending time with my grandpa.

As you may know, I have advertisements on my blog. I have them on my blog to earn an extra few cents every time someone clicks on an add. I just hope people are doing that so I can make extra money for the holidays so I can give gifts to my friends and family. Please click on the ads for me. I would be extremely grateful for it.

Thank you for reading my blog. Also thank you for putting up with my shit especially when I am ask you to do me a favor by clicking the ads on my blog so I can earn some extra money. I hope everyone has a wonderful Friday. Happy Friday!!! Peace Out, World!!!

 

Too Much On My Mind To Sleep

Good Morning, World!!! Happy Friday to all you people out there. I am having trouble sleeping tonight because I have a great deal on my mind. Department of Social and Human Services (DSHS) is cutting off my medical assistants and food stamps I tend to get a little worried about it. However its state that Social Security is going to be giving me more money which I think is a glitch in someone’s system so I will call DSHS later on today to talk to the about it. I’m sure it will be taken care of even if I have to go to the office to take care of it for yet another possible review. What DSHS does can screw up with what Social Security does with my disability checks.

I am also in a great deal of pain do to an extremely weird mouth infection which has nothing to do with my dental problems. The antibiotics appear to not be working. I hope that when I see my doctor later that I can get stronger antibiotics. I am also hoping to get something stronger than ibuprofen for the pain but I doubt it will happen.

I am hoping as I blog more and include different tags that I’ll get more readership. Using various types of tags appears to be helping for now. For me I want to reach people to give them hope and/or help lessen the stigma that goes with having a mental health challenge.

I should really get going. Please send out positive vibes and/or thoughts and/or energy that I find out later today when my job interview will be for next week regarding the Shelter Counselor position. I really want this employment opportunity.

I hope everyone has a good rest of your nights sleep. If you are already up and going I hope you have a good Friday. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. Peace Out, World!!!

The Last Shitty Randomness Post For The Night

Good Evening, World!!! It is nine thirty at night in my corner of the world. Not exactly bed time for me yet as I stay up late. Yet, I know many of you are still up right now because it is the middle of the night in your corner of the world and are unable to sleep.

Today’s topics in my post are nothing but randomness that comes to my mind. I know that sounds odd and bit out there but it appears to be working with people at least reading my boring ass blog.

We have discussed many topics here including me getting an interview for a volunteer position at the Seattle Art Museum (SAM). I am looking forward to it and hope I get the volunteer position.

This led into my frustration with a potential employer that said they wanted to set up a time next week to do an interview yet they haven’t gotten back to me. This frustrates the hell out of me because it is a job that I really want.

I discussed a great deal of things in what I am calling my randomness series. We covered a great deal of topics. Topics that I hope will get people interested in reading my blog.

One thing I have discussed many times is the advertisements I have a blog. I have them in hopes that people click on them. If people click on them I make some money. Not much money. Only a few cents worth but its money that adds up. I hope people will do that to help a poor soul like me.

I also discussed me filling out a volunteer application for Benaroya Hall, home of the Seattle Symphony so I could volunteer there as well. I love symphony music. Volunteering with the visual and performing arts always looks good on a resume’.

I guess right now I really want to get an interview with potential employer who reached out to me about times to interview yet has never gotten back to me. I really want this job because it will allow me to volunteer places as well attend my much needed appointments with my therapist.

We did talk about my physical health as well. But we really didn’t discuss much about my mental health. I see my regular doctor tomorrow and then see my therapist afterwards which is a good thing.

Going back to the work thing is if I get this job I would only be working one to two days a week because its an overnight shift at a young adult shelter where homeless individual between 18 to 25ish sleep. They are twelve hour shifts. Only working twelve to twenty four hours a week will allow me to keep volunteering as well attend to my needs regarding both physical and mental health.

I know it is barely nine fifteen at night but I’m calling it a night. I hope everyone has a good nights sleep tonight and Peace Out, World!!!