Tag Archives: Insomnia

Too Tired To Stay Awake

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Good Morning, World!!! It is nine o’clock in the morning in my corner of the word and I am having trouble staying awake. I originally woke up at six o’clock in the morning and fell back to sleep. I have a feeling that I won’t be able to stay awake much longer after waking up this time. Not sure why I am so sleepy.

I am wondering why I am so sleepy has something to do with my depression creeping back into my life. I sure hope it is not the depression creeping back in. As shitty as depression can be, I am not one hundred percent sure that it is the reason why I am so sleepy.

I am thinking that maybe it is because my body is trying to become healthy again by fighting off the weird ass mouth infection I have. Sometimes your health can cause you to be more tired than usual to help heal the body.

On a side note I did listen to the Dodger versus Mariner game last night. The Dodgers beat the Mariners from 11 to 1. I am happy that the Dodgers won last night. I am a huge baseball fan and am hoping at least one of my teams makes it to the play offs.

Well, I think I am going to get going and go back to sleep. I just wish I knew why I was so freaking tired. I hope everyone has a good Saturday. Have a wonderful weekend everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

Not Exactly A Morning Person

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Good Morning, World!!! If you could call it a good morning. I am not exactly a morning person any morning but this morning I most definitely not a morning person. I didn’t get much sleep last night. At least I have some positive things going on in my life today. Some things I may not want to do but are good for me to day.

My day starts off with attending a doctor’s appointment for my stupid weird ass mouth infection. I know I have said this many times before in other post but I hope she can give me some stronger antibiotics. I also hope for some stronger pain meds but all the pain meds will do is cover up the problem and not fix it. At least the antibiotics will be able to fix problem.

After seeing my doctor, I will be seeing my therapist. We will be discussing some behaviors that I need to learn to control. Also, I hope that he can help me with some paper work or at least make sure I am understanding the paperwork correctly. I might have to actually go to the DSHS office to take care of the paperwork but at least my therapist might be able to help.

My grandpa is picking me up from therapy appointment so we can go to Red Robin. I am treating him to lunch at Red Robin. It’s always nice to spend time with family that are supportive especially over food.

Oh, I highly dislike mornings but I am one of those people I would rather get things done early so I can relax later on during the day. I am still waiting for my news paper to be delivered. It is my morning ritual to read the paper and drink tea with milk, honey and sugar in it.

Despite the lack of sleep last night, I hope that I can keep my anger under control. My anger is easily flared up when I don’t get much sleep. At least I am aware of this and can be mindful of when my anger starts to arise.

It’s just barely after six in the morning in my corner of the world. That means I should start getting ready for the day. Thank you for reading my blog and hope you enjoy reading it. I hope to blog more later on today to share how things are going. It’s greatly appreciated from my end that you read. Peace Out, World!!!

Still Haven’t Been To Sleep, I Might As Well Get Up For The Day

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Good Morning and Happy Friday, World!!! I still haven’t been to sleep yet and it is four in the morning in my corner of the world. Not sure why I haven’t been to sleep but at least I see my doctor and therapist today.

Not sure why I can’t sleep because once I discuss what’s bothering me like in my last post, I am able to get to sleep. It’s just too early to be awake much less wanting to get the day started due to the lack of sleep.

I do see my doctor today regarding my weird ass mouth infection. I am hoping that she can give me an antibiotic that is stronger and more helpful than the one I am on.  The pain is still pretty intense and wish it would go away.

I see my therapist later this morning and I’ll be discussing some of the stuff I talked about in my last post. He might be able to help me a little bit on the paper work. I really think I just need to go into the DSHS office next week to work it out there.

My grandpa and I never did go to Red Robin yesterday for various reasons. So we decided that we are going to go after I see my therapist. Like I have said before, I love Red Robin for both their food and their awesome customer service. I love spending time with my grandpa.

As you may know, I have advertisements on my blog. I have them on my blog to earn an extra few cents every time someone clicks on an add. I just hope people are doing that so I can make extra money for the holidays so I can give gifts to my friends and family. Please click on the ads for me. I would be extremely grateful for it.

Thank you for reading my blog. Also thank you for putting up with my shit especially when I am ask you to do me a favor by clicking the ads on my blog so I can earn some extra money. I hope everyone has a wonderful Friday. Happy Friday!!! Peace Out, World!!!

 

Too Much On My Mind To Sleep

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Good Morning, World!!! Happy Friday to all you people out there. I am having trouble sleeping tonight because I have a great deal on my mind. Department of Social and Human Services (DSHS) is cutting off my medical assistants and food stamps I tend to get a little worried about it. However its state that Social Security is going to be giving me more money which I think is a glitch in someone’s system so I will call DSHS later on today to talk to the about it. I’m sure it will be taken care of even if I have to go to the office to take care of it for yet another possible review. What DSHS does can screw up with what Social Security does with my disability checks.

I am also in a great deal of pain do to an extremely weird mouth infection which has nothing to do with my dental problems. The antibiotics appear to not be working. I hope that when I see my doctor later that I can get stronger antibiotics. I am also hoping to get something stronger than ibuprofen for the pain but I doubt it will happen.

I am hoping as I blog more and include different tags that I’ll get more readership. Using various types of tags appears to be helping for now. For me I want to reach people to give them hope and/or help lessen the stigma that goes with having a mental health challenge.

I should really get going. Please send out positive vibes and/or thoughts and/or energy that I find out later today when my job interview will be for next week regarding the Shelter Counselor position. I really want this employment opportunity.

I hope everyone has a good rest of your nights sleep. If you are already up and going I hope you have a good Friday. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. Peace Out, World!!!

The One AM Blues

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Good Morning, World!!! It is one in the morning in my corner of the world. I am dealing with the blues. I am not sure why it is that I am dealing with the blues but I am. So, I have decided to put on some Blues music to help me get out of being in the blues.

Dealing with the blues can lead me to dealing with depression and I don’t want that either. So, here I am listening to blues music while blogging about my boring ole life again.

I just hope one day I can be a success in societies eyes but I know that is an unrealistic wish of mine but one can hope. For me being a success is for me is to be working and me being what I call productive in my own personal life. Maybe I am having woe is me moment.

I just really want to get back to work soon in a career I would love to be in. For me working helps my mental health a great deal.  A job that I can be proud of and not dread to go to everyday. I want a job I love and the pay doesn’t have to be all that much just as long as I am able to pay my bills.

Having the blues sucks. Maybe I should try to get some sleep. Good night everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

 

The Last Shitty Randomness Post For The Night

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Good Evening, World!!! It is nine thirty at night in my corner of the world. Not exactly bed time for me yet as I stay up late. Yet, I know many of you are still up right now because it is the middle of the night in your corner of the world and are unable to sleep.

Today’s topics in my post are nothing but randomness that comes to my mind. I know that sounds odd and bit out there but it appears to be working with people at least reading my boring ass blog.

We have discussed many topics here including me getting an interview for a volunteer position at the Seattle Art Museum (SAM). I am looking forward to it and hope I get the volunteer position.

This led into my frustration with a potential employer that said they wanted to set up a time next week to do an interview yet they haven’t gotten back to me. This frustrates the hell out of me because it is a job that I really want.

I discussed a great deal of things in what I am calling my randomness series. We covered a great deal of topics. Topics that I hope will get people interested in reading my blog.

One thing I have discussed many times is the advertisements I have a blog. I have them in hopes that people click on them. If people click on them I make some money. Not much money. Only a few cents worth but its money that adds up. I hope people will do that to help a poor soul like me.

I also discussed me filling out a volunteer application for Benaroya Hall, home of the Seattle Symphony so I could volunteer there as well. I love symphony music. Volunteering with the visual and performing arts always looks good on a resume’.

I guess right now I really want to get an interview with potential employer who reached out to me about times to interview yet has never gotten back to me. I really want this job because it will allow me to volunteer places as well attend my much needed appointments with my therapist.

We did talk about my physical health as well. But we really didn’t discuss much about my mental health. I see my regular doctor tomorrow and then see my therapist afterwards which is a good thing.

Going back to the work thing is if I get this job I would only be working one to two days a week because its an overnight shift at a young adult shelter where homeless individual between 18 to 25ish sleep. They are twelve hour shifts. Only working twelve to twenty four hours a week will allow me to keep volunteering as well attend to my needs regarding both physical and mental health.

I know it is barely nine fifteen at night but I’m calling it a night. I hope everyone has a good nights sleep tonight and Peace Out, World!!!

 

More Randomness From A Tired Person

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I am still tired as hell due to the lack of sleep last night. The insomnia isn’t what kept me up last night though it play a small roll in the lack of sleep. Part of the reason I didn’t sleep last night was because some idiot of a neighbor kept pulling the pull stations on every floor to set off the fire alarm. Needless to say there were and are a lot of angry people and scared pets in the building right now.

I am looking forward to spending time with my grandpa later this afternoon. I am treating him to my favorite restaurant, Red Robin. I always get great food as well as great service when I go there.  My grandpa likes it there as well however it can be too loud for him to hear anybody.

I am still playing email tag with a future employer about a job. Actually, more like finding a time for a job interview. I hope to hear back from her sometime today. I really want this job as I will be working with the homeless once again and the best part I would be working within the age group I want to work with. That is young adults. Cross your fingers that I not only get the interview as it sounds like I will but cross them fingers that I get the job as well.

Something I did yesterday was apply for two volunteer positions. One with the Seattle Art Museum (SAM) and the other at Benaroya Hall, the home of the Seattle Symphony. These are some things that I am interested in. Plus it looks good on a resume’. It shows employer that that I have many interest in the community. The local community at that. Having the arts and music on my resume’ will show future employers that I am a well rounded person.

Another thing I am planning on doing that I could put on a resume’ with some discretion is volunteering for candidates that are running for election during this years mid-term elections.   I am already volunteering for two candidates and am excited to help them win the seats they are running for. With volunteering for anything politics putting it on a resume’ is dependent on where and what you’re applying for.

I am still in pain from the stupid mouth infection I am dealing with. That is why I am seeking health care from my doctor tomorrow. Hopefully, she can help with getting rid of the infection. I also hope she can help with the pain management thing as well.

It appears from my end of things that I have be quite long winded as of lately when it comes to my post. I hope you all don’t mind me being long winded. Sometimes I just need to let things out that I may not be able to talk about verbally to others or others might get tired of the randomness of the various topics I bring up.

Thank you so very much for reading my blog. I appreciate that you take the time to read it or even skim over it. I hope everyone has a great Thursday and Peace Out World!!!

A Tired Seattleite & Their Randomness

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Good Morning, again, World!!! I am tired as hell as I didn’t get much sleep last night. I didn’t get much sleep last night due to a multiple of things which I have written about in my last three post. On a plus note at least my cat, Lil Gertie, is getting some sleep. Something I wish I could be doing right now.

At this point in time I don’t know what the hell, I am going to discuss in the post as I am an extremely tired person. As a person with the lack of sleep not having a clue what they are going to write, I ask for you forgiveness a head of time if I offend or annoy anyone.

I guess, I will start on subject I write about quite often; blogging. It appears to me that since I am using different “tags” that I am getting more people to at least look at my blog. I have even received some new followers due to not using my usual tags. I just figure if I combine some of my usual tags along side with new tags then I am all good with reaching out to people who might need hope or to help bring awareness to others to help lessen the stigma that goes around with having a mental health challenge.

The weather here in Seattle has gotten a lot cooler. I personally love the warm weather but I get highly annoyed hearing people complain about the heat of the summer. I love the heat. I guess I love the heat because I spent most of my childhood growing up in Southern California. I do miss parts of California but Seattle.

Later on today I am taking my grandpa out to lunch. I am taking him to my favorite restaurant; Red Robin. I love going there and I get the same thing every time. I get the Whiskey River Bar-be-que burger with extra cheese and onion straw thingy a mijigars.  It will be nice to spend time with my grandpa over lunch. In fact I am treating him to lunch. He does so much for me.

I have decided to cut the amount of time I spend on social media. Mainly, Facebook since it is the only social media account I have. I guess blogging can be considered social media but I don’t spend as much time on WordPress as I do as on Facebook. Plus Facebook has too much drama for my liking. I will attempt to not spend more than an hour total on Facebook.

Thank you for reading all my randomness. It is much appreciated from my end of things. I hope everyone has a great Thursday. Thank you so much for reading my blog. Don’t forget to let others know about it.  Have a great day everyone. Try to do random acts of kindness today as well. You never know when it could help save someones life or their day. Peace Out, World!!

 

UGH, A Sleepless Type of Night In Seattle

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Good Fucking Morning, World!!! I might as well as stay up for the rest of the day since I have had pretty much no sleep last night. I think I got about an hour to an hour and a half of sleep. I am full of various emotions right now due to the lack of sleep. It is six o’clock in the morning my time and might as well as try to make a good day out of a shitty night.

I first couldn’t sleep due to health problems. Health problems regarding a weird ass mouth infection with massive pain. I was finally able to get to sleep after reading a couple of Wonder Woman comic books.

After sleeping for about an hour and half the building fire alarm goes off because some jerk of a neighbor pulls the fire alarm pull stations on every floor and wakes up the whole fucking building pissing everyone one off. Now that I have a cat I have to make sure I get her out safely just in case it is real fire. Thankfully, it was not a real fire however it still scared the shit out of me and Lil Gertie as well as all the animals in the building and the neighbors. Lil Gertie was not like the sound of the fire alarm whatsoever.

On the plus side I am taking my grandpa out to lunch at Red Robin. Red Robin in my favorite restaurant. I love their hamburgers there. I love the atmosphere  there as well.  I am looking forward to some good food later today with my grandpa.

AS much as the lack of sleep and the fire alarm going off did a number on my mental health challenges, I am grateful that I have a blogging community that cares. I am also grateful that I have a grandpa that will go to Red Robin with me to have some awesome food.

Thank you so very much for reading my post. I am hope I am not boring you with the boring drama of my health issues and the lack of sleep. I am appreciative of all of you and hope you have a good Thursday. Peace Out, World!!!

False Alarms Fucking Suck Shit

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Good Fucking Morning, World. It is three thirty in the fucking morning and I had finally fallen asleep due to being sleepless in Seattle when the building fire alarm goes off. Not only did it scare the shit out of me but it scared the shit out Lil Gertie. It triggered my PTSD and who knows if she has PTSD from this kind of stuff. To make matters worse it was difficult to put her into her already much hated carrier but was finally able to do so. I wasn’t going to leave my poor cat to deal with the noise much less it being an actual fire. Lil Gertie is my life and I need to protect her. All I can say was all that work putting Lil Gertie into her carrier was for nothing because it ended up being a false alarm. Well, better safe than sorry.

My poor cat is hiding in her secret hiding place of my dirty close hamper. If it makes her feel safe then I let her be. Right now she needs her space and I hope she comes out when she feel safe.

Right now I am going to get back into my safe space by reading Wonder Woman comic books. Fire alarms don’t help my mental health especially my PTSD which is why I am going to be reading Wonder Woman comic books to help me chill the fuck out.

I apologize for all the cussing in this post but when it scares my cat and puts her into danger then I am going to be a little angry about it. I have every right to be angry about it and so do my neighbors as someone pulled the fire alarm pull stations on every floor from the basement to the tenth floor of the building.

Thank you for letting me rant and rave about the false alarm. I think I am more upset that it effected my cat. My cat is like my baby. Thank you for reading and hope the day goes well for all of you. I know some of you are just getting up for work while others are still in bed. And some of you have been up for hours working due to the time differences around the world. Have a good day anyway. I appreciate you reading everything I have to say. Peace Out, World!!!