Monthly Archives: February 2018

Dreading Tomorrow

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Hello, World!!! Tomorrow is my grandma’s funeral. It is going to be an extremely tough day for my family and I. I am not wanting to say goodbye to my grandma. I miss her so much.

Instead of giving a speech I will be a playing my flute at my grandma’s funeral. It’s something she loved even though I don’t play all that well. My uncle is giving the eulogy while my other uncle as well as my dad share some stories. Of course my grandpa will be sharing some things as well.

Thank you for reading. It’s much appreciated especially now. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 14: Recreate A Single Day

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Today’s assignment is to recreate a single day. I’m not sure if I like this particular assignment as I don’t necessarily want to recreate a single day. If I were to recreate a single day then I wouldn’t be mindful of the present moment. As much as recreating a positive day I would relive a negative one as well.

I guess, what I am saying is every moment I have experienced in life is what made me who I am today. Yes, I would like to relive or recreate moments or even days however that means I would have to relive situations I don’t want to relive.

Now that I am off of my soapbox thank you for reading. It is appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

The Waiting Game

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I am sitting here waiting for my family to come pick me up so we can head over to Spokane for my grandma’s funeral. Spending five plus hours in the car with my family will be challenging which is why I am going be making my backpack a DBT bag for the next couple of days.

For me making sure I have the tools or skill I need to not make the situation worse is the key to what DBT is about. Plus I will feel better about myself if I do what I need to do.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Blog
  • Head to Spokane for Grandma’s funeral
  • Read

Monday

  • Blog
  • Attend Grandma’s funeral
  • Hang out with friend

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Head back to Seattle
  • Read
  • Clean apartment

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Clean apartment

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Dr. Appointment
  • Clean apartment

Friday

  • Blog
  • See case manager
  • Go to DBT group
  • Therapy

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Lunch with friends
  • Volunteer

 

Ugh!!! Someone Pulled The Fire Alarm

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I’m getting frustrated as hell. Someone keeps pulling the pull station and it sets off the fire alarm. I was in the middle of working on one of my workbooks. I am now shaken up by this. It triggers my PTSD as I been in two fires.

Now that I have been triggered, I am going to do some mindfulness and meditation practices. I need to get back to being relaxed so I can sleep tonight.

I hope everyone has a great night. Thank you for reading my blog. Goodnight. Peace Out, World!!!

In Physical Pain (Not Looking For Sympathy)

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am in physical pain from breaking my hand. Never hit a brick wall because the brick wall always wins. I am not asking for empathy nor am I asking for sympathy. I am just venting my frustrations about me self harming.

I think I have had enough self pity about me harming myself. Now on to being productive. I need to pack to go to Spokane tomorrow for my grandma’s funeral on Monday.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

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Good Evening, World!!! This is a difficult as I am typing with a broken hand. I broke my hand by punching brick wall. Never punch a brick wall as you will always loose to the brick wall. I have learned my lesson to use my skills instead of harming myself.

I didn’t go to my volunteer job because of dealing with the grief of my grandma’s death. I think that is why I got so angry. Angry that my grandma passed away. I wish my grandma didn’t die. I miss her so much.

Not much happened this week. Just dealing with the grief of my grandma and helping plan her funeral for Monday. Oh yeah Seattle got some snow and it has been frigid cold here as well.

Thank you for reading my blog. No need to worry about me as I won’t self harm. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 13: Play with Word Count

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Today’s assignment is to play with word count. I don’t have an exact number I want to have in regards to writing as I feel like it is limiting to me as writer. Yes, I realize if I ever write a memoir of my life, that I would have to limit the amount I have to say.

On that note, my grandma’s funeral is coming up in a few days and will be speaking at it. I don’t like speaking in crowds but this is something my grandma would want me to do. I know she would be proud of me when I do as she is aware of my fear of public speaking.

Thank you for reading. I think I need to write what I’m going to say at my grandma’s funeral. Have a wonderful weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Just a Rambling or Two

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Good Morning, World!!! I was able to get back to sleep after my last post discussing about how I woke up from a nightmare. Nightmares are not my idea of fun and not conducive to one getting sleep.

Right now I am thinking about my grandma and her funeral on Monday.  I miss her so much and its going to be difficult to say goodbye to her on Monday. I just want my grandma back so much. I love her so very much.

I think once I am done blogging I will do The Mindfulness Workbook that I’ve been working on. It’s helping me overcoming fear and embracing compassion. I am enjoying doing this workbook as well the other workbook I am doing.

I think I am going to get going and do my workbook. Thank you very much for reading my blog. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Had A Not So Lovely Nightmare

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Good Morning, World!!! Good news is that I finally got some sleep. Bad news is I woke up with a nightmare. Having nightmares is not my idea of fun nor is my idea of a good night’s sleep.

Since I woke up from a nightmare that was a bit more rattling than usual I decided to blog. After I finish this post, I am going to read Wonder Woman comic books. I love reading comic books especially Wonder Woman.

Thank you for reading. It is greatly appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!