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A Nothing Sort of Day

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Good Evening, World!!! Overall, today has been good. I have had bouts of crying spells due to depression and grief. Grief over the loss of my grandma, seven months ago today. The last seven months have has proven to be challenging due to the loss of my grandma as you never know when a sudden wave of grief will hit.

As I stated in my last post today was going to be a day of self care due to the grief of loosing my grandma seven months ago. I thought I was going to watch movies most of the day but it turned out to watching television or at least a television show on Hulu. I binged watched the show, E.R. I forgot how much I loved the show E.R.

I not only binge watched E.R., I read comic books. I specifically read Wonder Woman comic books. Reading gave my eyes a break from the computer screen and they were happy that I do.

I watched E.R and read comic books while curled up under my weighted blanket with my cat, Lil Gertie, next to me. My weighted blanket and Lil Gertie helped with my depression and anxiety today.

Today, was the perfect day to do nothing due to the weather. I am glad I decided to stay in and watch E.R and read Wonder Woman due to the weather. Despite being pretty isolated today I am glad I chose to be isolated. I had a good time binge watching E.R and reading Wonder Woman comics and plan to continue to do both after I finish with this post.

Thank you for reading my blog. I appreciate you my reader from the bottom of my heart. You guys are all awesome. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

A Lazy Friday

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Good Morning, World!!! It is Friday morning and I plan to take it easy today while staying in my pajama’s all day. Part of the reason I am doing this is because today marks the seventh month anniversary of my grandma’s death. Yes, that means I am still taking her death hard and obviously still dealing with grief. Another reason why I am taking it easy today is because of the weather. It is a rainy and dreary day here in Seattle. So the weather is fitting my depressive mood at the moment.

Since my grief and depression are acting up, I have decided that staying my pajama’s is a part of my self care plan which means I will staying in all day. Yes, I do have plans to do things here at home as part of my self care. As part of my self care I plan on doing today is watch movies. Not sure what movies I am going to watch but I plan on watching comedies as they are the most helpful to me when I am depressed and/or dealing with grief.

Another things I plan on doing today for good self care is reading. I plan on reading the Science Fiction novel I picked up from my home library. I also plan reading comic books. I will most likely be reading Wonder Woman comic books with a mixture of other comic books.

Having a good self care plan when I plan on staying home is key to making sure my depression doesn’t get worse. So, that is why I decided to do things that are quite helpful for me when I am home. The best part of me staying home now and being lazy is spending time with my cat.

I don’t have much more to say. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated. I hope everyone has a good day and a wonderful weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Wonder Woman & The WNBA

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Good Evening, World!!! I have been fighting off depression all day today. I haven’t left my apartment except to check my mail. Despite being depressed and in isolation mode, I have found ways to keep myself busy.

The main thing I did today was read Wonder Woman comic books. I did this as it appears reading Wonder Woman comic books give me the strength I need to get through difficult moments like the ones I have had today.

Another thing I did was watch the Seattle Storm sweep the Washington Mystics in the WNBA championship. Of course that means the Seattle Storm win the 2018 WNBA championship. I am proud of the Seattle Storm.

Now, I need to figure out what the hell to do next to combat this depressive episode I am struggling with. I think I am going to call some friends. Reaching out to others is helpful for me. I most likely will also do some coloring.

Lil Gertie, my cat, has been quite helpful to me today. She is an awesome cat. I think having Lil Gertie has proven to be a great investment for me. She has helped my mental health in many ways.

Thank you so much for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated. I hope everyone has a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Minor Miracle

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Good Morning, World!!! My new sleeping meds work well. I was able to sleep for six hours. For me getting six hours of sleep is a miracle. I normally only get about three hours of sleep when in reality I need about eight hours of sleep. So I am really happy with the miracle of getting six hours of sleep last night with the help of my new sleeping med.

I have been watching the morning news. It appears that the only thing they are discussing is the weather. Mainly about Hurricane Florence headed toward the east coast. The morning news is also discussing the tropical storm hitting Hawaii.

Now I am going to get my morning tea and read the news paper while eating cereal. It is part of my morning routine. Having this part of my morning routine has proven helpful for me to a good start of the day.

I don’t have much more to say. I hope everyone has a wonderful day. The week is half over and hope that whatever you have planed that you are able to enjoy your plans. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things.  Peace out, World!!!

Tuesday Evening Randomness

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Good Evening, World!!! Today is a sad day in America’s history. Seventeen years ago today marks the anniversary of the most horrific act of terrorism America has ever dealt with. Everyone I know remembers exactly where they were and what they were doing when they heard the news of the terrorist attack. The last seventeen years I have seen the resiliency that people have after such terrible things happening.

I saw my psychiatric nurse practitioner today. She changed my sleep med from Ambien to Lunesta. My psychiatric nurse practitioner is awesome. She informed me just like my primary care doctor does, to not drink so much caffeine. I don’t like coffee so I get my caffeine through tea and soda. I drink way too much soda.

Tomorrow my grandpa and I are going out to lunch tomorrow. We are going “dutch” meaning he pays for what he eats and I pay for what I eat. Not sure where we are going to go but I’m going to have a good time spending some time with my grandpa.

I’m also planning on watching the women’s basketball championship tomorrow. I am of course rooting for the Seattle Storm. I really hope they win tomorrow as that means they would have swept the Washington Mystics. Just so you all know, Sue Bird, is really down to earth.

I think I should get going as I haven’t had dinner yet. I want to thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

 

 

Two O’clock in the Morning Randomness

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Good Morning, World!!! Today is a sad day in American history. Today is the 17th anniversary of the 9/11 terrorist attacks. This a day that our country put all politics away and help each other. I personally knew two people where killed in the twin towers and I am honoring them this post. To make people don’t forget the loss people  are still dealing with.

I am writing the post in an Ambien fog and don’t really know how much sense I am making at the moment. Lil Gertie, my cat is wanting to play with me so I might want to keep this blog shore.  But I have so much to say.

My cat meowing at me with here toys surrounding her. This leading me to believe that she wants to play. I think I will play with Lil Gertie. I gave her some fish I had for dinner as treat. She ate it all up.

I better get going. I hope I can get to sleep. Goodnight and Peace Out, World!!!

Manic Monday Madness

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Good Evening, World!!!  I don’t deal with bipolar however, I think I was Manic a little bit earlier. I am trying to get my Medicaid straightened out and it appears there was an error on DSHS which they acknowledge and they will be paying the bill for the service that should have been already.

After dealing with DSHS, I went and informed my therapist of what had. He agrees that the information I got was quite confusing him. So he is going to take me to the DSHS office on Friday to get clarity when my medicaid got turn backed on. I have it but nobody agrees of when it started. I did talk to my therapist about other shit like the PTSD and the grief.  It was overall a good session with him. It was extremely helpful for me today.

I didn’t art group like wanted to because I was too tired. Yes, I wanted to go but I was too tired so I came home and took a nap, The  nap was refreshing.  I can do art her at home.

I don’t know what else to write about at the moment. I feel like that today was full of madness due to all the red tape I had to deal with today. Thank you for reading  my blog. It is greatly appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Morning Randomness

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Good Morning, World!!! I unfortunately didn’t get sleep last night despite taking my sleeping meds. I hope that at some point today that I will be able to take a nap.

Due to not getting sleep, I hope I can make through my therapy session without becoming a cranky bucket. I will be discussing with my therapist about the lack of sleep I have been getting. I know he will inform me to discuss it with my psychiatric nurse practitioner tomorrow however my therapist and I can come up with non medication ways to get to sleep. I see my therapist at eleven thirty this morning and hope that I don’t fall asleep on the bus when I go to my appointment.

The one thing I am looking forward to bu not sure I will attend is Art group. Yes, it starts a half an hour after I see my therapist however since I didn’t get any sleep last night I don’t know if attending would be a good idea as I might need to come back home to take a nap.

I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated on my end of things. Peace Out, World!!!

Still, No Sleep In Seattle

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Good  Morning, World!!! It is now five o’clock in the morning here in Seattle and I still haven’t had a wink of sleep. I even took a dose of my sleeping meds after my last post and well the Ambien didn’t work. I just laid there in bed for about an hour while my cat, Lil Gertie, laid next to me purring as she got petted most of that hour.

I have managed to keep myself busy the last few hours. One of the things I have done was watch movies. In fact I watched two Harry Potter movies. That helped to take my mind off of things for a while.

The next thing I did was read a handful of Wonder Woman comic books. Reading Wonder Woman comic books always seem to give me the strength I need for the moment even if that is not my intention for reading Wonder Woman.

Watching Harry Potter and reading Wonder Woman may have helped me get my mind off of things as well a given me strength to handle things, I was hoping hoping that both would relax me enough to get to sleep. Unfortunately, I was not able to get to sleep doing either.

Now I am watching the morning news as I await the arrival of my news paper. I prefer to read the news paper first and then watch the morning news however my news paper has not arrived yet. Of course it is just five o’clock in the morning and the paper usually gets here between five thirty and six o’clock in the morning.

I do have therapy later this morning. In fact I see my therapist at eleven thirty this morning for an hour. The lack of sleep is one of the many things I hope to bring up to him today. I really like my therapist as he is quite helpful. Besides being helpful to me he is a strengths based therapist which means he helps me focus on my strengths so when in times of weakness, I can rely on the strength I have. He is also recovery focused which is a great thing for me. Having a therapist the is recovery focused and strengths based is awesome and rare or I think it is rare as it is difficult to find one that is both especially in the community mental health system.

I don’t have much else to say at the moment. It looks like I have been long winded for this post and that wasn’t my intention. My intention was to keep this post sweet and to the point and not so long. I apologize for my post being so long and e being incredibly long winded. It appears that I need to end the post from my cats, Lil Gertie, point of view as well. I say this cause she is attempting to sit on the key board of my laptop to prevent me form writing.

As this post comes to a close, I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. I hope everyone has a great week. Have a good day everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

No Sleep In Seattle

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Good Morning, World!!! It is just after two o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world. Not my idea of a good way to start off a Monday. This marks two nights in a row where I have not been able to sleep. I wish I wasn’t wide awake.

I received an email earlier today regarding a volunteer job at Benaroya Hall which is the home of the Seattle Symphony. I applied for a volunteer job their and hope that when I have the ‘interview” that I get a position that is best suited to my skill set. Plus, volunteering at Benaroya Hall and for the Seattle Symphony will look good on the resume’. It will show that I have interest outside of the mental health field. Plus, it will give me the structure I so desire and need.

Another thing I will like to bring up is the advertisements on my blog. I know they can be quite annoying however if you click on them, it gives me a little income. Not much but some. So, I ask you my loyal readers and followers to click on an advertisement or two once or twice a week so I can get money. Yes, its only a few cents per click but at least it is something.

I am going to go back to bed and try to get some sleep. I want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!