Taking a Sick Day

Good Morning, World!!! Even though I don’t start work till 12:00noon my time which is Seattle time, I called into work sick. On days I don’t start till 12:00noon my time, I take the time to call my clients so it’s doesn’t cause the administrative assistant staff more work to do especially on a Monday. Not only does it make it easier for the admin staff but I realized if I reached out to the clients myself, I don’t have to use that time as “sick time.” Weather or not I get paid to call and cancel on my clients due to illness, I would still do it to especially on Mondays to help my colleagues out.

On a similar note, my supervisor gets “humorously annoyed” (her words, not mine) on how I call in sick. I text as well as call her cell phone (leaving her a voicemail if she doesn’t answer), email her (and HR) and call her on her office number (leaving a voicemail if she doesn’t answer). She is “humorously annoyed” because yes it is somewhat annoying but she finds it humorous because she appreciates the fact that I make sure she finds out some how since technology can be known to not work or do what it is suppose to when it is needed to do so. I technology at work tends to “misbehave” at the worst of the worst times. She does appreciate that I make the extra effort to make sure she is aware.

On to the next thing. Since I am not feeling well, my grandpa made homemade chicken soup yesterday since my uncle wasn’t feeling well. My grandpa just like he does quite frequently makes too much food. So, grandpa will bringing me some homemade chicken soup when he goes to the V.A to get his prescriptions since my home is on the way to the V.A. I love the fact that my 91 year old grandpa is still active. Not only is he more active that myself and the rest of the family, he is more healthy than the rest of the family.

Part of the reason why I am out sick is because my depression and anxiety are both acting up. That usually means that I get digestive problem which sucks. As sucky as it is at least I know I won’t vomit nor have digestive issues with my grandpa’s homemade soup. Soup that he learned to make from my grandma who who sadly passed away four year ago this Valentines day.

On another note, since I am not feeling well, I will be doing some art work. Specifically, I will be coloring. I hope to show you updates of what I color. It all depends if I remember to do so as well as how I am feeling at the moment. While coloring I will be listening to a podcast. A podcast about philosophy. The name of the podcast I will be listing to is “Philosophize This.” I really enjoy this particular podcast.

As much as I dislike being sick, I am grateful for the extra attention my cat Billie Dean gives me. Billie is a love bug even when I am not sick but tends to be more of one when I am sick. I love my cat so much and am grateful for the unconditional love he gives me even though I don’t deserve especially when I don’t give him the attention at the exact times he wants or needs it due to being busy.

I personally think the Seattle weather is okay enough to try to take Billie for a walk outside on his leash if he tolerates it. It’s the leash and harness he tolerates but its the outside he doesn’t tolerate. The thing is he tolerates the outside in his carrier so the vet and I think he needs to feel secure or a sense of safety when outside. So we came up with a training plan regarding outside time on the harness and leash.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it were not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writer my blog. Again, than you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great day ahead of you as well as great work week ahead of you. I truly appreciate you for reading my blog as it means the world to me that you read it. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you have a great Monday. Peace Out, World!!!

Still Too Early to Be Awake on a Sunday

Good Morning, World!!!! It is 8:01in the morning in my corner of the world known as Seattle. In fact my cat Billie Dean is trying to help me writer this particular blog post. I am tired as hell and have not been unable to sleep. I am not sure why sleepless is accruing but I am sure some of it is due to insomnia which suck shit.

On that note at least I am feeling the love my m cat Billie Dean. Billie is sure helping me with both my depression and the anxiety. Both of which sucks. The love from cat is beyond awesome.

Speaking of love my grandpa and uncle will be taking me out to breakfast. I know they love me and look out for my wellbeing. I am grateful that I have a family that loves me event thought is appears to be over bearing at times. Their heart is is in the rate place.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post to say anything thing. I do want to thank you for reading my blog post as it is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be reading my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog.. It is greatly apricated tat my blog it read. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out World and have an awesome day ahead of your!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work on self help work books
  • Breakfast with grandpa and uncle
  • Walk around the block
  • Go back to sleep as depression is acting up

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditations practice
  • Work on self help workbooks
  • Work
  • Walk around block

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work on self help workbooks
  • Walk around block
  • Work

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work on self help self care workbooks
  • Work
  • God for a walk

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work on self help self care workbook
  • Work
  • God for a walk

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Work on self help work books
  • Work
  • Walk around the neighborhood

Saturday

  • Free day /selfcare day.

Almost Asleep but Two Idiots Woke Me up

Good Fucking Morning, Word! I was almost fucking asleep due to another sleepless night. One dickwod of my neighbors pulled the fire alarm again due to the fact anther dickwad of neighbor not wearing a mask. I all want is this pulling of the fire alarm to stop if it is not a true emergency. I am tired as hell and want some fucking sleep. If I don’ get some sleep soon I will become a bat shit cranky bucket. Lets hope i get some hope I get some sleep now.

Too Early to be Awake on a Sunday Morning

Good Morning, everyone. It is is too early on a Sunday Morning to be talking about this especially since is has been discussed on the house bill but I am still concerned about it. Long story short, I don’t have the proper words nor eloquent words to discuss the particular. I just as that if you are have the rights to vote in the State of Washington stat that you look into House Bill 1865 and make up your own mind. Preferably, against it but I can see how people are for it as there are good points to it. Yes the intentions are in a good place place sadly the impacts will be a not so good thing due to the barriers in the the HB 1865. Please make the best decision for you ant the people you serves. This could have a major affect on my job in a negative way away and I love my job.

Trying to Get to Sleep

Hello, World!!! It is nearly eleven at night here in Seattle with my cat, Billie Dean by my side. I’m having trouble going to sleep again. I just wish I knew why I have been having issues sleeping. It’s something to talk with my mental health and physical health teams about.

Anyway, I had an okay day today. I went to my grandpa’s home and did some of my laundry. I also helped my grandpa with some of his chores. He is 91 going on 92. I love my grandpa so much and am grateful for him everyday. He and my grandma helped my dad raise me.

The thing I’m planning on doing to help me relax enough to get to sleep. So, I am going to be watching Mr. Holland’s Opus which is a great movie that includes music. I love this movie and can watch it multiple times without getting sick of it.

I don’t have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you my reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a good night and Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Take a walk around the blog
  • Go to my grandpa’s house to spend time with him as well as do laundry 
  • Do workbooks relates to my recovery

Monday

  • Mindfulness medication practice
  • Virtual Doctors appointment
  •  Work
  • Dinner with a friend
  • Work on a workbook for my recovery

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Work on workbook that will help me with my recovery
  • Dinner with another friend

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Attend a 12 step prrotrom

Thursday

  • Mindfulness mindfulness practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Work on a workbook that will help me with my recovery

Friday

  • Mindfulness mediation practice
  • Walks around the block
  • Work
  • Dinner with a friend

Saturday

  • Plain is to do nothing all and be lazy

Weekly Check-In

Good Evening, World!!! It is that time of week that I do my weekly check-in. First and fore most I have been working from home due to the fact that I have been dealing with Covid-19. My work is wanting me to come back to the office at least once a week if not twice a week. So I go a Covid-19 test yesterday to see if it comes back negative which I hope it does because I am going stir crazy isolating because of Covid. On that note at least my employer has be very supportive. I consider myself that I am able to work from home when I am not so fatigue from having Covid-19.

On that note, my family and friends as well as my neighbors have supportive of me going through Covid-19. My family, friends and neighbors have been making sure I’ve been getting fed with food they make me. They also provide me with stuff like toilet paper and cleaning supplies. I’m grateful that I have people in my life that care about me and willing to make sure I am doing okay.

Going back to the work issue, I feel like I am lucky that I am able to have the luxury from home. Yes, I did have to take about week off because Covid-19 sucks shit and was so fatigue from it that even working from home was challenging. Again, I am happy that I am well enough to be able to work from home. Yes, I still fill shitty but at least I feel well enough go work from home and I am lucky to be able to work from home.

As far as my sleep goes, it sucks shit. I didn’t sleep well last night and ended up sleeping all day today. My sleep hygiene sucks right now. I am not sure why but I would like to blame having Covid-19. Weather or not Covid is the reason why my sleep schedule is so off.

I don’t have much more lack of sleep issue. I sadly slept all day today due to the lack of sleep I got last night. I really do not like when my sleep schedule is so out of wack but I realize that I will get back to a normal sleep schedule for myself.

I don’t have much more to say about my weekly check in. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader, I would not be writing my blog. I greatly appreciate that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading in my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Apparently, Mr. Sandman Forgot to Stop by My Place

Good Saturday, Morning, World!!! It is five zero four (5:04) in the blasted morning here in Seattle area. In fact as I looked out the window it is currently foggy outside. In all honesty, I wish I was able to sleep despite liking fog when I don’t have to be out in it.

As far as my cat, Billie Dean, he is sound asleep. Something I wish I was doing at the moment. Sadly, Mr. Sandman forgot to stop by my place so I could get some sleep. I just would like to sleep a solid eight hours, preferably at night. I am however grateful that Billie, my cat, is still asleep or he would most likely be wanting to play. And as much I as enjoy playing with Billie, I am just way too tired to play with him at the moment which is why I am glad he is sound asleep.

Since I haven’t been able to sleep I have been listening to a podcast about philosophy. Specifically, I am listening to the podcast Philosophize This.” Of course as I listen to this podcast, I am coloring. In fact I am coloring the creepy, morbid Disney Horror coloring book that I ordered off of Amazon. I’m hopingo to show you updates on the pictures I am coloring.

I do not have very much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great Saturday ahead of them. Peace Out, World!!!

A Sleepless Time of Night in Seattle

Good Very Early in the Morning from my corner of the world known as Seattle!!! I am not really sure why I am unable to sleep tonight but it is frustrating as hell. I have been doing both coping skills as well as doing self care. They are helping a little bit but not as much as I wish they would help.

One of the things I have been dealing with is increased anxiety , PTSD and depression which sucks shit especially when they all decide to come all at once. One of things that appear to be helping it doing mindfulness meditation practices. It helps me stay grounded.

Another thing that helps me stay grounded in my so very smart kitty, Billie Dean. He seams to know when I need the extra support and makes sure I don’t leave his site. Oh how I love Billie and the connection we have. I am so grateful that he chose me. He is a great cat and am glad he is my cat.

Something else I have been doing it coloring. No, I am not coloring the Disney horror coloring book at the moment. I am coloring a coloring page I got from Stuff2Color.com. They have some awesome coloring pictures. In fact a colored one for my grandpa and framed it. I gave it to him for Christmas. He was happy about it and put it up on the wall for all to see.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my perspective that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!!