Tag Archives: Mental Health

Sleepless In Seattle, Once Again

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Good Thursday Morning, World!!! It is two oh five in the morning in my neck of the woods and I am unable to sleep. Part of the reason why I am awake is that I slept most of the day way. The other main reason is that the pain I am having due to my weird mouth infection is really bothering me at the moment.  I can’t wait to see my doctor tomorrow (Friday) about it as it is getting annoying as hell and appears to not be going away.

Another thing that is keeping me up right now is it appears that I am on a comic book reading binge of Wonder Woman. I can’t think of a better way to spend a sleepless night the reading especially reading Wonder Woman comic books.

Over the last few weeks I’ve realized that there are sub communities within the blogging community which I am quite grateful for. Most of the sub communities come from the tags within our post to help other find what they are looking for.  For me being apart of a community especially a strong community it helpful for my mental health which is why I continue to blog. In fact I love to blog. It helps me help others and when I help others it makes me feel better about myself.

I should get going a attempt to sleep or at least read more Wonder Woman comic books. Again, thank you for reading my blog. Have a good rest of you night. Peace Out, World

Nothing But Pain & A Cat That Helps

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! At this very moment in time my mouth is in extreme pain. All I have to take for it is ibuprofen. As much as I wish it would help more get rid of the pain, I am grateful that I have my cat, Lil Gertie, to help distract me from the pain. I am looking forward to seeing my doctor on Friday. Hopefully, she will give me something stronger than ibuprofen. Or at least something to take the edge off when I sleep at night. As much as my cat helps lessen the pain the ibuprofen doesn’t conquer, I still have trouble due to the pain.

As much as I am in right now, I am grateful that things could be worse for me especially health wise. I could have a Traumatic Head Injury or a terminal illness. As you can tell, I am attempting to look at the bright side of things. As difficult as it is to look at the bright side of things with my health, I am managing to look at the bright side.

I love my cat so much. She seems to know when it is time for me to take my antibiotics by meowing me a great deal even when she has food and a clean litter box. My cat is one smart kitty. I love my cat so much and I am not sure what I would to without her.

Blogging also appears to be helping me today. It is helping me my mind of the pain even just a little bit. Blogging is also helping me with my mental health symptoms.

I hope to blog more later on. Thank you for reading. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. You are all freaking awesome. Peace Out, World!!!

Something To Think About

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Good Afternoon, World. I have a lot to think about as I continue to play email tag with a potential employer for an interview. Hell, I have been thinking about this for quite some time. I have been thinking about volunteering at more organizations as I continue to find a paying job.

One of things I am thinking about and have already started was volunteering for certain politicians as the mid term elections coming up in November. I don’t always use this particular volunteer experience in all my resume’s for good reasons but I do put them in other resumes’ If helps show a future employer that I am interested in the direction of what policies go into effect in our country then maybe it will be helpful with my career path. Plus, I get to build a community of new friends.

Something I did just today was put a volunteer application for both Seattle Art Museum (SAM) and Benaroya Hall which houses the Seattle Symphony and other events. I am doing to this help build my resume’ as well my community connections.

For me volunteering at places of interest isn’t always about building resume’s, its about building a community to call your own. Weather that be in Arts, Music or Politics. Finding common interest and common ground is what ultimately helps me with getting a job that I desire. It also looks good on the resume’. I hope that for me it builds more of community for me than my resume though it would be helpful to that as well.

I hope that as I end this post that I can give some hope to those who are feeling stuck in the job search like I am. Right now I am not giving up hope in find a place of employment nor a volunteer job.

Thank you for reading my post once again. I hope you continue to read my post. It means a lot to me. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Being Jobless Sucks

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Hello, again, World!!! Right now, all I can think about besides the pain in my mouth due to some weird mouth infection is how being jobless sucks. Being jobless sucks for many different reasons.  For me it sucks due to the lack of structure in my life. Having structure in my life helps a great deal with the symptoms of my mental health challenges.

Then there is the part of being jobless sucks due to the lack of money. I’m lucky enough to get a disability check but it barely pays the bills. Not having the money to do the things you enjoy are want in this world sucks however it has helped me become more appreciative of what I do have. It’s helped me become more creative on other ways to create and have fun and adventure in this world without having little to no money at all. The one thing I really want money for right now is a tattoo. Yes, that is a first world problem however I can still dream about getting another tattoo till I am able to get a job to get the money to get another job.

On a plus note, being jobless has its benefits. It has helped me get some physical health needs taken care of before going back to work. Taking care of one’s health is a must if one wants to job. I just wish my current health issue wasn’t so painful.

I am still applying and looking for jobs as I sit here and complain about being jobless. I became jobless because I resigned from my much loved job as a Peer Specialist due to the severity of my symptoms of mental health challenges. In fact I am still playing email tag with a potential employer about setting up an interview for sometime next week. I just hope the person hurries up and gets back to me sooner than later.

At least I am not giving up hope on finding job even if it is not exactly a Peer Specialist position. Just as long as it’s in a field I know I will enjoy that will be help me get another job a Peer Specialist. I hope I do find the right job for me that is preferably part time at the moment.

Thanks for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me. Peace Out, World!!!

Just Another Boring Post

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Hello, World!! I know I just posted about an hour ago however, I am bored and felt like just writing about stuff. Stuff that will be repetitive as I have post about it before and other stuff that is not so interesting.

Let’s start off with the advertisements on my blog. I have advertisements on my blog to make a little extra money. It’s not much but it is something. All people have to do is click on the advertisement and I earn a few cents. I know this might be asking a lot from you but can you all click on the advertisements if you see them. I am saving up the money to help pay for gifts for my family during the holidays.

Now on another repetitive topic of blogging. I am wanting to make more of an effort to blog more. I also want to reach more people however I am unsure of how to do that. Yes, I use tags and attempt to put different tags on topics I discuss so I can get more readership that way. I also post my post to social media accounts and hope that I get more readers that way. I am not really worried about how many “followers” I have, I just want to reach more people so I can help lessen the stigma of mental health challenges as well as give people hope who do struggle with mental health challenges.

Today, is going to be one of those low key days where I am doing nothing. By doing nothing I mean doing things that are good self care for me. Most of which are creative.

I plan on doing some art work. Most likely I will be coloring and collaging and maybe combining the two genre’s of art. I might even paint a little today but not too sure yet. I need to see what paint I may need. If I need certain paint then I will need to go to the art supply store and buy some paint. That however takes money that I may not be able to spend at the moment. Which reminds me I need to look at my budget to see if I can buy more paints and canvasses ,

Another thing I plan on doing is writing some music. I play the flute and harmonica and think it would be fun to write some duets for both instruments to play together. I know it sounds odd but I think writing the right piece for a harmonica and flute duet would be cool.

The other thing I plan on doing today is to read. I will read both the novels I am reading as well as some comic books. I most likely will finish one of the novels today or tomorrow. When it comes down to reading comic books, I will most likely be reading Wonder Woman. Wonder Woman is my favorite comic book. I do like to read other comic books but Wonder Woman is my go to comic book.

I think I bored you enough with this post so I am going to end it for now. Hopefully, I will be able to find time to blog again later today. It seems like if I blog more, the more my readers will see what I have to say next. Well, have a good Wednesday. Peace Out, World!!!

Nothing Much To Say

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Hello, World!!! I sit here wondering if I should have kept my appointments with my vocational (employment) specialist and therapist. I have a feeling that I am going to regret cancelling however the mouth infection I have is making it difficult to talk due to the pain of the infection. You would think that the doctors at the hospital would admit me to the hospital for I.V antibiotics but they say it’s not “severe enough” which maybe I need to be grateful for. Another thing I am grateful for despite poor dental hygiene is that the infection has nothing to do with my dental health. I do see my regular doctor on Friday for this stupid infection that fucking won’t go away.

On a side note I have been playing email tag with a potential employer about setting up an interview for sometime next week. It would only be one to two shifts a week which would equal twelve to twenty four hours a week. The shifts are twelve hours due to it being an overnight shelter for homeless young adults.  Working with people who are currently and/or formally homeless is a passion of mine and really hope that I get this job. Yes, I know that the interview hasn’t been set up yet but at least that is in the works. Dealing with homeless individuals for me is easy because all they want are the basics in life.

Thank you for reading. It is very much appreciated from my end. Have a wonderful Wednesday. Peace Out, World!!!

 

An Ambien Fog Post While Still Sleepless in Seattle

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Good morning, world. I am doing another Ambien fogged post while being Sleepless in Seattle. I highly don’t recommend you do this at all. Probably not one of my wisest choices I have done but certainly the worst I have done in an Ambien fog.

Right now my moth infection is what is keeping me up and the Ambien isn’t helping me sleep like it usually does. So I am blaming my physical illness on not being able to sleep due to the pain. There is only so much Ambien can do and it can’t help with pain. I just wish the doctors would have given me stronger than ibuprofen but hopefully my regular doctor will on Friday when I see her.

Right now, I am worrying about my cat as she is home alone since I am at my grandpa’s house. I know she is all right as a neighbor checked on her and said she as okay. I love my cat, Lil Gertie so much.

Besides worrying about Lil Gertie, I am worried about my health care and how much it is going to cost me. Now that Trump is in office I lost most what I got due to Obamacare.  I just wish Trump didn’t take away my much need health care away. I am a working class person and was doing well with ObamaCare and now that trump is in office I’m not getting good medical.

This is why I always volunteer for specific people running for office as well as going out and voting. Its a way that I know my voice is heard in a weird sort of way.

The Ambien fog is really kicking in if I am talking political on my post. I just hope that the tags I have put up bring new people to read my post. It might be a first post but at least it won’t be boring and at least it will be weird.

Thank you for reading. I hope everyone has a happy Tuesday and gets some rest like I am planning on it. Good Night and Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless in Seattle – Ambien Fog Post

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Hello, World!!! It is the middle of the night and I woke up not being able to go back to sleep. I, unfortunately woke up my grandpa with being a wake at this time of morning. He did go back to bed as I sit here blogging about the lack of sleep I am having.

My facial infection is what woke me up so I am staying up for a while. Of course blogging is one of the things that I have helped me through weird and odd time like theses. I’m also posting under the influence of taking Ambien and wonder how much of this I will remember I write.

I also think I am going to listen to some music after I am done blogging. Blogging and music help me a great deal when I wake up especially when I am in Ambien type fog. Listening to music helps a great deal and hopefully will get me back to sleep.

Have a good night everyone. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

The Never Ending Monday

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Good Evening, World!!! It has been quite a Monday. A Monday that appears to be never ending especially when it comes to my health care. Due to the health care concerns I am having which thankfully is not dental related, I am staying with my family. My neighbor is watching my cat, Lil Gertie. Since I am staying with my grandpa and uncle due to my health, I am well enough and not contagious that I am able to make them dinner. I am making them spaghetti.

I was suppose to have therapy today but I cancelled due to my health problems. I did talk to my therapist briefly today. He is concerned with how my health isn’t doing all that well. We also discussed how it is affecting my mental health. After a short twenty minute talk we discussed plans about rescheduling our appointment for Wednesday.

Now it is time to figure out a regular blogging schedule as I have lapsed in my regular blogging experiences.  For me blogging is part of being a community and community is important to me.

Now its time for me to finish dinner. After dinner, I’ll be doing some art. Specifically, I will be coloring mandala’s. It is quite soothing to me.

Thank you for reading. Have a good evening and hope you Monday turned out better than mine did. I am feeling better. Peace Out, World!!!

Not The Way I Desire To Start A Monday

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Happy Monday, World!!! I posted my last post approximately four or so hours ago. Give or take thirty minutes. I am still in an Emergency Room, room. They are not sure if they are going to admit me due to the severity of my infection but they do have I.V antibiotics going on me. Now if they can only give me the good pain meds instead of the ibuprofen shit they are giving me.

As much as I wish I was getting stronger pain meds, I want my cat Lil Gertie, here that much more. I miss her very much. I have family and neighbors that will take care of her if I am admitted to the hospital for my stupid infection.

On the plus note, I have my laptop to be to help me keep myself busy and all of you up dated on what the hell is going on with me. Another thing I have is my art supplies with me. Specifically my coloring supplies. This will help me deal with the pain quite a bit more.

I just want to thank you all for reading my blog. I hope your Monday is going far better than mine is. Have a wonderful work week. Peace Out, World!!!