Nap + Dinner = Better Mood

Good Evening, World!!! I’m in a slightly better mood than I was when I posted my last post. I owe it to being able to sleep due to taking a nap and eating dinner. Sleep and food always equals a better mood or at least it is for me. I had boxed mac and cheese for dinner. Not the best meal but hey it is comfort food. Comfort food is always a good thing.

I got my order from Amazon today. I got a cross-stitch pattern that I’ve been wanting to do. I am teaching myself to cross-stitch. I have found that is has been helpful when I’ve done a cross-stitch pattern before. So why not get back into it and continue to teach myself to cross-stitch.

Another thing I got from Amazon was yet another workbook. For me being able to help myself with my recovery is very satisfying. Yes, I still get professional help but being able to help myself is a good feeling.

Thanks for reading. It is very much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Tuesday Morning Ramblings

Good Morning, World!!! I still haven’t slept and feel tired enough that I could sleep. The problem with going to sleep now is that it is nine in the morning my time and my sleep pattern would get even more messed up than it is already.

As frustrated as I am with the lack of sleep I am beyond grateful that I have the DBT skills to help me through. Skills that have helped on several occasions throughout the years.

One of the skills I do is to read. I love reading for a multiple reasons. It distracts me. It gets me out of my head. It gets me away from my laptop and television. Reading has been quite helpful.

Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Looks Like No Sleep For Me

Hello, World!!! It is exactly twelve midnight in my corner of the world. I am having trouble sleeping once again. Which is no surprise to me. I suspect that recent trauma as well as insomnia are the culprits once again.

It looks like I will be doing what works best for me to help with the anxiety I deal with when I am unable to sleep.  Tonight I think I’ll read. I am not sure if I’ll be reading Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb or Wonder Woman comic books. I’m most likely going to end up reading both.

Another thing I am most likely going to do if I have yet another sleepless night is my workbooks. Most likely the mindfulness workbook as I did my other workbook last night. Mindfulness has been quite helpful for me and my recovery.

Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s My Birthday & I Can Do What I Want

Good Morning, World!!! It is my birthday and Junior surprised me with some things. He first surprised me with breakfast in bed. He then gave me some presents that I will enjoy. I got some art supplies which I am eager to start using. I also go a dozen or so Wonder Woman comic books. I also got six books to read as well.

So more or less with the art supplies, books and comics books, I am going to be busy for a while. A type of busy I don’t mind doing. I’m looking forward to do some are as well as reading. I am looking forward to engaging with these fun activities.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Just Too Much Adulting

Good Afternoon, World!!! I know it is only two in the afternoon in my corner of the world but I have had just too much adulting for the day. Yes, while doing chores I listened to music which helped a great deal. It is just the other parts of adulting that were getting to me.

For example, while listening to music and cleaning my apartment two of my neighbors were screaming at each other in the hallway. Screaming that led into a physical altercation between the two of them which led to the police being called.

Now that I am done adulting for the moment, I am going to take a break from reality. Taking a break from reality by doing some things I enjoy doing. One thing to escape reality that I will be doing is art. It will help me express the emotions of the day and life in general.

Another way I am I escape reality it by reading. Reading a book or two that is fiction. Actually, I will be reading a fantasy book. Reading a fantasy book is definitely an escape on reality.

Thank you so much for reading about my life. Peace Out, World!!!

Finding the Hope in the Little Things

Good Afternoon, World!!! The last year and a half has been quite the struggle for me yet every time I feel like I am making some ground something trips me up. Sort of like tripping over the other shoe dropping.

Yet when I am tripping over the other shoe dropping, I tend to find the hope in the little things. Little things like reading a book or listening to my favorite music or even creating art. Yes, all the above mentioned give me hope yet something else gave me the hope I needed for this moment in time

That hope came from the two workbooks I am doing. One is about resiliency regarding my sexual orientation of being a pansexual and gender identity of being a non-binary, gender fluid individual. The other workbook is on mindfulness. So the workbooks I am doing on resiliency on who I am with my gender identity and sexual orientation as well as being mindful of being in the moment is what is giving me hope. Hope of who I am as an individual despite tripping over the other shoe dropping.

Thank you for reading. It is much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday:

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Art
  • Workbook
  • Pretty much be lazy

Monday

  • Blog
  • Knitting Group
  • Art Group
  • Therapy
  • Workbook

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Clean apartment
  • Chores
  • Pretty much adulting all day

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Art
  • Read
  • Celebrate birthday
  • Pretty much be lazy due to being my birthday

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Art
  • Read
  • Workbook

Friday

  • Blog
  • DBT Group
  • Therapy
  • Workbook
  • Art
  • Read
  • DBT homework

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Celebrate birthday with family (a few days late)
  • Workbook
  • Art
  • Read
  • DBT homework

 

No Matter How Difficult; Honesty Is Best

Good Evening, World!!! It has been a long and difficult day for me. I started out the day with seeing my case manager. We had some not so good moments that we ended up working out which is huge progress on my end.

I then went to Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) Group. Group grew from four individuals to ten people. Lets see how many stick around this time. We of course have homework and I am okay with that. The homework will be quite helpful for me as it will give me the structure I so desperately need.

After group I saw Gilbert. It was a tough session however it was toward the end of the session that was the most difficult. I was honest with him about something I hadn’t been honest with anybody else about. Something that desperately needed to be told and I might share at a later date when I process it more with Gilbert.

Thank you so much for reading. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Anxiety Sucks Sh*t

I am struggling at the moment with anxiety. Anxiety that appears to be fluctuating quite quickly.  So quickly that I end up freezing. Freezing up so bad that I need to do something to get out of frozen mode.

For me I color. It has proven to be quite helpful for me. Coloring helps me a great deal express my emotions.

I also enjoy reading as it helps me get out of my head. It gets me out of my head enough to refocus my attention on to something else.

Thank you for reading. It’s much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Blog
  • Head to Spokane for Grandma’s funeral
  • Read

Monday

  • Blog
  • Attend Grandma’s funeral
  • Hang out with friend

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Head back to Seattle
  • Read
  • Clean apartment

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Clean apartment

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Dr. Appointment
  • Clean apartment

Friday

  • Blog
  • See case manager
  • Go to DBT group
  • Therapy

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Lunch with friends
  • Volunteer