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An Unexpected Hiatus

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Good Evening, World!!! I haven’t blogged in a while due to the fact that I was hospitalized for psych reasons. Well, mainly due to depression. As stated in my last post depression was (and is) biting me in the ass. Biting me in the ass so bad that hospitalization was the was the only way to keep myself safe.

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While in the hospital, the group I enjoyed most was music therapy. The genre that was brought up the most in music group were the eighties. Yes, the eighties. It appeared that no matter the age or generation of the individual, everyone agreed on eighties music. It is always nice when folks can agree on something as simple and as common as music.

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When I wasn’t attending groups, I was reading. Reading, Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb. I finally have enough consternation to read. I’ve only been attempting to read this particular book for months now and realize it was my depression getting in the way. It truly is an awesome book. A book worth reading and getting into. It is a book that is hard to put down.

Speaking of reading I want to end this post and get back to reading.  I hope everyone has a great rest of their Saturday. Peace Out, World!!!

Depression Biting Me in the Ass

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Good Morning, World!!! My depression is biting me in the fucking ass at the moment. Biting me in the ass severe enough that I am isolating myself from people. People that want to help but right now I am needing my space. Space from the world.

Spending time away from other people has me thinking about blogging. I am thinking about re-doing courses I have done and enjoyed doing that WordPress puts on for free. I am not sure which course I am going to re-do at the moment or if I am going to do multiple at the same time. I just know that when I do a course I feel a sense of accomplishment when I finish an assignment and the course.

Something else that gives me a sense of accomplishment is reading. There is something rewarding when get to the next chapter or find something new out about a character or the plot. Right now I am reading the Liveships Traders Trilogy by Robin Hobb. I am really getting into it as well as the characters.

When it comes to reading I prefer book series as it keeps me more interested in reading especially when I was a child and teenager. I don’t mind stand alone books, I just prefer book series. The characters tend to grow on me and I don’t really like saying goodbye which is why I prefer book series over stand alone books.

Thank you very much for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Wednesday Afternoon Ramblings

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I saw Gilbert today for therapy. We discussed a number of things today. Some of which I will share with you. We first discussed me punching a brick wall. We did a chain analysis on the self harm action. We talked about I could have done differently than punching a brick wall.

Not only did we talk about self harm we discussed my time at the DSHS office. We talked about how I am finally back on Medicaid and getting a higher amount of food stamps. We discussed how I am now able to finally get proper dental care. Gilbert also informed me about how I can double my food stamps local farmers markets.

Now that I told you what therapy was like today, I think I am going to go and read. I really enjoy reading as it helps me get out of my head.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Blogging Through The Pain

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Hello, World!!! I am in a lot of pain right now. Pain from hitting a brick wall. Having two fractures from hitting a brick wall are natural consequences from what I did and I hope I learned from it.

I did go see my doctor today. She is quite concerned that I have been hitting brick walls lately.  She stated that she will be talking to my mental health treatment team about this concern and I am happy that she is doing this.

Since I have limited mobility in my hand some of my usual skills are not available to me at the moment which means I will be doing a lot of reading. Reading that I wish I had more time for and now it appears I have that time. That’s why I plan on catching up on some reading.

I think I’ll go and do some reading. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Depression Go Away & Never Come Back

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Good Evening, World!! It is a sunny day in Seattle and I am loving it. The sun appears to help my mood a great deal.

As helpful as the sun is to my overall mood, my depression appears to be acting up. Despite wanting to isolate and stay cooped up in my apartment, I went to the park and read. I found that reading outside in the park today was of great help to me. I got a natural dose of Vitamin D while not isolating and getting out of my own head.

I just wish my depression wasn’t acting up at the moment. I am now obviously blogging to see if putting into word will help. A good portion of the time blogging helps. Especially if it is in combination of using other skills I have. In this case it has been reading.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Art
  • Laundry
  • Workbooks

Monday

  • Blog
  • Go to doctor’s
  • Art Group
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Go to DSHS
  • Read
  • Workbooks
  • Art

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Art
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Friday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • DBT Group

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Volunteer
  • Workbooks

DBT to Combat Depression

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Good Morning, World!!! I woke up depressed. Waking up depressed has me acutely aware on what I need to do to make I don’t let it affect me as badly as it can potentially do.  I need to focus on what work in moments like these.

For me that is using my DBT skills. Skills that have evolved over time for me. For me the skills I use as of lately are art, reading, and workbooks. All of these skills do something different for me yet are helping me with my recovery process.

Art helps me express my emotions in ways I am unable to verbalize. That is why when I woke up this morning one of the first things I did was to do art. Specifically, I colored and did some collaging.

Reading helps me get out of my head. It helps me focus on something else than the things going on in my head. It gets me out of my negative head space. That is why after I did some art, I read.

Reading helped me refocus my mind so I could do one of my workbooks. Specifically one on self awareness. The self awareness workbook is proving to be more challenging than I thought it would be. I do have to say that challenging is always a good thing when it comes to doing workbooks or something that is recovery related.

Thank you for reading. Have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

DBT To The Rescue

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Good Morning, World!!! I am in a bad head space right now yet I realize what I need to do to help me get out of it. For me doing using my DBT skills is what helps me. I have a plethora of DBT skills in my toolbox.

Right now I think my go to things are my workbooks, books and comic books as they can help with various types of things. Things I will explain once again in this post.

For me the workbooks help me help myself. It is not a replacement for my mental health treatment but an added addition to help. The workbooks help with my recovery.

Reading helps me get out of my head. It helps me focus on something other than what is going on in my own head. I have been reading the Liveship Traders Trilogy and Wonder Woman comic books.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I am unable to sleep once again and I am watching late night television. Comedy and humor appears to be of help when I am unable to sleep and/or struggling. At this moment in time I am watching due to the fact that I am unable to sleep.

I think if I continue to not be able to sleep properly tonight that I am going to work on my Self Awareness Workbook that I got from Amazon on Tuesday. I started it when I got it and it already appears to be challenging. Challenging is a good thing for a work book. I feel like if it doesn’t challenge you to a degree then it is something that doesn’t need to be worked on.

I’m also going be reading tonight. As I have mentioned in previous posts, reading helps me a great deal. It helps by getting me out of my head even if its only for a half an hour. Plus it gets me to use my imagination.

Thank you for reading. Goodnight!!! Peace Out, World!!!

 

Got Sleep?

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Good Morning, World!!! I haven’t been able to sleep all night and it is 4:30 in the morning in my corner of the world. I want to blame the nap I took yesterday afternoon but I know that is not the case. Some of it has to do with insomnia while some of it has to do with me reading.

I spent most of the night reading as I didn’t really want to put down the book I am reading nor the Wonder Woman comics I was reading. If I can’t sleep I might as well as do something that will stimulate my mind and help me distract myself to get me out of my own head.

I also ended up doing some workbooks that I have been doing. I might as well as focus a little bit on my recovery if I am unable to sleep. It’s my way of being productive since I am not working at the moment.

Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!