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Gratefulness During a Time of Hardship

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Good Morning from Seattle, Washington. I come to you with a great deal of gratitude. Long story short I lost my disability due to fault of Social Security but I had some responsibility it the situation. I am also applying for unemployment and steal waiting on them. On that note I’ve been known to pay ahead on my rent and am a head on rent. I’m am also ahead on my electric bill will not have to worry about rent or electric bills. What I do need help with food and stuff like normal house n like dish soup, soap, feminine product.

On that note, I have some awesome friends in my life to help me temporally and gave me food to hold m over when my unexpected surprise that my grandpa paid for a lot of groceries form. Oh much I love and am grateful friend and neighbors along with family are being able to give them what they are able to know.

On to the new subject. I received a new job and and at previous employed and it is only twelve yours but at least it a it is job.You are more likely get new jobs and hopefully full time jobs. I am going to love this job.

Today is a day is to continuing go hope people will be helpful with my on PayPal, please help me if you cane.

Focusing On Recovery

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Good evening world from Seattle. Lets start with me feeling slightly depressed due to being laid off from two job. I finally applied for Unemployment and waiting for them to take their sweet ole time to get money in the bank. I have applied for jobs and gotten interviews. Just waiting to hear back to see if I got a job. I really need some employment to pay the bills.

Not having a job is making me feel depressed which is why I am doing some things to help improve the depression and increase joy in my life. Of course I am focusing on attempting to get a job Secondly I am spending a lot of time with my cat Billie. Billie is such a love bug.

Other things I plan to improve my mood is focus on mindfulness as well as self help books. Lets not forget about going to therapy and seeing my psychiatric nurse practitioner.I figure if I focus on this paragraph that going the tarot card and journalling part will be just has helpful.

The other thing that will help is cleaning up my apartment and will start doing the cleaning pare tomorrow just like everything else I mentioned. I started studying up on Tarot cards and stuff and I am feeling a pit more peaceful and slightly less depressed.

As for my potential jobs and interviews please wish me luck. I am not finished with this particular blog post and hope to update you more tomorrow Seattle time. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again thank from the bottom of my heart fro reading my blog. Peace Out World!!!

Middle of the Night Ramblings

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Happy Middle of the Night World or at least it here in Seattle. I ordered some crafting stuff from Amazon. Specifically, I ordered Latch Hook crafting. Not sure how well, I’ll do at it but its worth trying. I am getting impatient for them to arrive even though I order most of them yesterday (Monday, September 5th) and some will arrive sometime today, September 6th.

I’m hoping that I can finish two or three to donate to a local animal shelter to action off during a fundraising event. Not sure how they will turn out but I would love to help in anyway I can and learn a new craft while doing it.

Another thing I hope doing Latch Hook can help improve my depression and PTSD as well as my other mental health diagnosis and symptoms. I really wish I wasn’t laid off as it would be helpful for my mental health symptom.

As far as my cat, Billie, he has been attached to me today. I think he is picking up on my anxiety. I love my cat so much and how he knows when to comfort me..

I want to thank you for ready blog. I don’t have much more to say. Just thank you for reading my blog..

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Volunteer at Cat City
  • Practice and do some math
  • Learn about Tarot Cards
  • Do recovery workbooks
  • Play with Billie my cat

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Go to Social Security office
  • Practice and do math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do recovery workbooks
  • Play with Billie my cat

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Go to the DSHS office
  • Apply for work/jobs
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Apply for work/job
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do Recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Apply for work/job
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do Recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Apply for work/job
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do Recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Play with my cat Billie
  • Recovery Workbooks
  • Practice and do math
  • Learn about tarot cards

Plans to Make a Better Future

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Right now I have a lot of desires to improve my life. Of course my cat Billie Dean helps improve my life. I love him so very much. I know he loves me very much as well. He has kept me stable the last two and half years. I love him so much and wish his dental work wasn’t so expensive.

I am also teaching myself tarot card in hopes it will give me a better direction in my life. I also have a tarot journal to help with it creating a life worth living. A life worth living is something I desire.

Therapy helps build a life worth living as long as doing self help books. I just want to be come a better self even if therapy and self help books are helpful.

Another thing that helps me is applying for jobs a reading. I hope to get a lot done next week. I don’ have much more to say except thank you for reading my blog. it it greatly appreciated from my end of things. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World and have an awesome weekend.

Updates on Billie & Internet Issues

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Happy Friday, World!!! First and fore most I took this entire week off of work due to stomach flu as well as mental health stuff. Well all expect yesterday when I took the day off to take Billie to the vet to get some major dental work done Plus I had therapy yesterday as well. I would have told you sooner but my home internet is having some issues. So I am spending time with my family and their internet. I hope to update with you about my new job when my home internet is fixed. I hope everyone has a great Friday and Peace Out World!!!!

Developing Your Eye; Day 8: Treasure

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My teddy bear that I’ve had since the day I was born or so I’m told

Treasure can mean different things to different people. For instance I have what I call many treasures including my cat Billie and having a place to call home. But for today, the treasure I’ve decided to feature for this assignment is my teddy bear. In fact my uncle got him for me the day I was born or at least that is way the story goes. Considering, that he needs to be stuffed again and have his arm sewn back together at this very moment, I believe the story. The picture in this post just shows the Teddy wasn’t in dire need of being put back together. I call my teddy bear; Teddy or Ted. My family says it’s time to put him in retirement and let him watch over me as I sleep while he sits on the dresser. I agree but I’ve been sleeping with this stuffed animal for my entire life and it’s hard to give up. Teddy has been pretty much everywhere with me except when I went to camp as a preteen and teenager. So, Teddy is a treasure that has seen it all with me; the good, the bad and the ugly and lets not forget he has seen me in my recovery process. Since he has been with me my entire life that is why I chose him to be my featured treasure.

Everyday Inspiration; Day 17: A Map As Your Muse

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Well, whenever it comes to a map as your muse assignment, I don’t use the “typical map” as it doesn’t seem very interesting to me so I find maps such as above the focuses on a topic and doesn’t use the “typical” map style. I chose one on affirmations because they seem to help me with my recovery especially now that I am dealing with imposter syndrome due to the new job.

In fact this particular map has me inspired to look over my affirmation and say a few out loud. I might even a new affirmations to my list. I hope this inspires to continue and/or create affirmations to say on the daily basis.

Anxiety Increasing as Tomorrow Gets Closer

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Hello, World!!! My anxiety is increasing as tomorrow gets closer. Even though I’ve had my first week of work it was mostly done remotely or in person with the HR and IT departments which is at different location that I will be working at. See tomorrow in my first day at my job site and I am nervous as fucking hell. I know it is okay to be nervous but not just anxious about my first day at my job site.

I am nervous about having to take public transportation again. The last two years I’ve been either working from home or taking Lyft to and from work due to Covid-19 as I was trying to limit the amount of exposure I could get. I’m not so worried about the exposure as much due to having the vaccine, the booster and actually being diagnosed with Covid-19 the day after I got the booster. Covid suck shit and I know there is a possibility of getting it again but that is not why I’m worried about using public transportation. I’m nervous because, I’ll be taking a route I’ve never taken before. I’m nervous because even on routes, I am familiar with, there are times I have to get off due anxiety and/or PTSD issues and would have to wait for the next bus so I could be in a better head space to be back on the bus. I know everything will be fine but I’m still anxious about it. I just to get use to public transportation again as well as a new route to me.

When I get home from work tomorrow I am sure my cat Billie dean will be more than happy that I am home. Hell, Billie is always happy when I get home even if it is for five minutes for checking my mail or taking out the garbage. I’m more than certain that I will be just as happy to be home as my cat will be.

I do not have much else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, once again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Posted on by Gertie

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Volunteer at PAWS Cat City
  • Do Food Handlers permit class and test

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work (First day at actual job site)
  • Spend time with Billie when I arrive home

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work from home as I have online training
  • Dinner with neighbors who are friends

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work (at job site)
  • Spend time with Billie when I get home from work
  • Attend an online 12 step group

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work (at job site)
  • Spend time with Billie after I get home from work

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Work (at job site)
  • Dinner with a friend
  • Get home and spend time with Billie

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Spend day at grandpa’s house
  • Do laundry while at grandpa’s
  • Make grandpa dinner while at his place