UGH!!! Another Sleepless Night in Seattle

It’s not a good start to a Tuesday morning in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. I was sound asleep and sleeping quite soundly when two neighbors who live on my floor in different units decided to scream at each other that led into to a physical fight. Needless to say the cops came and “talked” with the neighbors yet didn’t do anything else but talk with them. This angers me and my other neighbors because it triggers our PTSD, Depression and Anxiety. Obviously, Seattle police to get a flying rats ass. All my neighbors and myself want is a decent night of sleep. The cops are not doing their fucking job and a I pay taxes which means I pay their pay check. I am not a happy camper with the Seattle Police Department.

As least my cant Billie Dean is able to help decrease the anger, PSTD, Anxiety and Depression. Billie is a great source of help for me and am beyond grateful for him. I love my cuddle but of a cat. He means the world to me.

I am to tired and angry to finish this blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. Have a great night of sleep. Peace Out, World!!!

Fell Asleep Reading a Good Book

Good Evening, World from my neck of the world known as Seattle. I was finally getting into the book I am reading known as ” The Ship of Magic” by Robin Hobb. Sadly, I feel asleep reading. Not because it is boring as it is not boring. I just needed to sleep. I hope to be able to take a another nap an read again to report how good the boo is so far. So far from what I have read it has been awesome reading.

So, my plan is to take a couple of hour nap so I can be able to read “The Ship of Magic” Robin Hobb. I hope to give our some updates about the book which means spoil alerts.

I’m going to get going so I can get some sleep to update on the book I am reading. Thank you for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me that you read my blog. Peace Out, World!!! I hope hope to update you later this evening or tonight. Peace Out, World!!!

Mental Health Days Off from Work Suck

Good Afternoon, World!!! As I mentioned in last post, I am taking today off from work. I am need of a mental health day off from work. I was going to listen to a podcast as I did some art work by coloring however I got the urge to read.

So, I decided to pick up the book called “Ship of Magic” by Robbin Hobb. I’ve started this book many times and sadly never got through it even though it is great read from what I have read from it. Plus, it is the first book of a trilogy which I am a big fan of book series. I am grateful that she is an awesome author and is local. She lives in Tacoma or least that is what I last heard.

Not only that, it is easier to read with a cat in your lap than trying to do art work when a cat wants to “help” with the artwork. I love Reading and hope to give a report on the book throughout the time I read Ship of Magic.

Reading and having my cat by my side it a great way to do self care especially when you are are taking a mental health day off from work. I am grateful for my employ that they encourages their employee’s to take time of for being sick. I love my job and my employer.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to than you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you are reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writer my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading blog. I greatly appreciate you the reader. Have a great work week a head of you. Peace Out, World!!!

Taking a Sick Day

Good Morning, World!!! Even though I don’t start work till 12:00noon my time which is Seattle time, I called into work sick. On days I don’t start till 12:00noon my time, I take the time to call my clients so it’s doesn’t cause the administrative assistant staff more work to do especially on a Monday. Not only does it make it easier for the admin staff but I realized if I reached out to the clients myself, I don’t have to use that time as “sick time.” Weather or not I get paid to call and cancel on my clients due to illness, I would still do it to especially on Mondays to help my colleagues out.

On a similar note, my supervisor gets “humorously annoyed” (her words, not mine) on how I call in sick. I text as well as call her cell phone (leaving her a voicemail if she doesn’t answer), email her (and HR) and call her on her office number (leaving a voicemail if she doesn’t answer). She is “humorously annoyed” because yes it is somewhat annoying but she finds it humorous because she appreciates the fact that I make sure she finds out some how since technology can be known to not work or do what it is suppose to when it is needed to do so. I technology at work tends to “misbehave” at the worst of the worst times. She does appreciate that I make the extra effort to make sure she is aware.

On to the next thing. Since I am not feeling well, my grandpa made homemade chicken soup yesterday since my uncle wasn’t feeling well. My grandpa just like he does quite frequently makes too much food. So, grandpa will bringing me some homemade chicken soup when he goes to the V.A to get his prescriptions since my home is on the way to the V.A. I love the fact that my 91 year old grandpa is still active. Not only is he more active that myself and the rest of the family, he is more healthy than the rest of the family.

Part of the reason why I am out sick is because my depression and anxiety are both acting up. That usually means that I get digestive problem which sucks. As sucky as it is at least I know I won’t vomit nor have digestive issues with my grandpa’s homemade soup. Soup that he learned to make from my grandma who who sadly passed away four year ago this Valentines day.

On another note, since I am not feeling well, I will be doing some art work. Specifically, I will be coloring. I hope to show you updates of what I color. It all depends if I remember to do so as well as how I am feeling at the moment. While coloring I will be listening to a podcast. A podcast about philosophy. The name of the podcast I will be listing to is “Philosophize This.” I really enjoy this particular podcast.

As much as I dislike being sick, I am grateful for the extra attention my cat Billie Dean gives me. Billie is a love bug even when I am not sick but tends to be more of one when I am sick. I love my cat so much and am grateful for the unconditional love he gives me even though I don’t deserve especially when I don’t give him the attention at the exact times he wants or needs it due to being busy.

I personally think the Seattle weather is okay enough to try to take Billie for a walk outside on his leash if he tolerates it. It’s the leash and harness he tolerates but its the outside he doesn’t tolerate. The thing is he tolerates the outside in his carrier so the vet and I think he needs to feel secure or a sense of safety when outside. So we came up with a training plan regarding outside time on the harness and leash.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it were not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writer my blog. Again, than you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great day ahead of you as well as great work week ahead of you. I truly appreciate you for reading my blog as it means the world to me that you read it. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you have a great Monday. Peace Out, World!!!

Still Too Early to Be Awake on a Sunday

Good Morning, World!!!! It is 8:01in the morning in my corner of the world known as Seattle. In fact my cat Billie Dean is trying to help me writer this particular blog post. I am tired as hell and have not been unable to sleep. I am not sure why sleepless is accruing but I am sure some of it is due to insomnia which suck shit.

On that note at least I am feeling the love my m cat Billie Dean. Billie is sure helping me with both my depression and the anxiety. Both of which sucks. The love from cat is beyond awesome.

Speaking of love my grandpa and uncle will be taking me out to breakfast. I know they love me and look out for my wellbeing. I am grateful that I have a family that loves me event thought is appears to be over bearing at times. Their heart is is in the rate place.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post to say anything thing. I do want to thank you for reading my blog post as it is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be reading my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog.. It is greatly apricated tat my blog it read. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out World and have an awesome day ahead of your!!!

Too Early to be Awake on a Sunday Morning

Good Morning, everyone. It is is too early on a Sunday Morning to be talking about this especially since is has been discussed on the house bill but I am still concerned about it. Long story short, I don’t have the proper words nor eloquent words to discuss the particular. I just as that if you are have the rights to vote in the State of Washington stat that you look into House Bill 1865 and make up your own mind. Preferably, against it but I can see how people are for it as there are good points to it. Yes the intentions are in a good place place sadly the impacts will be a not so good thing due to the barriers in the the HB 1865. Please make the best decision for you ant the people you serves. This could have a major affect on my job in a negative way away and I love my job.

Trying to Get to Sleep

Hello, World!!! It is nearly eleven at night here in Seattle with my cat, Billie Dean by my side. I’m having trouble going to sleep again. I just wish I knew why I have been having issues sleeping. It’s something to talk with my mental health and physical health teams about.

Anyway, I had an okay day today. I went to my grandpa’s home and did some of my laundry. I also helped my grandpa with some of his chores. He is 91 going on 92. I love my grandpa so much and am grateful for him everyday. He and my grandma helped my dad raise me.

The thing I’m planning on doing to help me relax enough to get to sleep. So, I am going to be watching Mr. Holland’s Opus which is a great movie that includes music. I love this movie and can watch it multiple times without getting sick of it.

I don’t have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you my reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a good night and Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Take a walk around the blog
  • Go to my grandpa’s house to spend time with him as well as do laundry 
  • Do workbooks relates to my recovery

Monday

  • Mindfulness medication practice
  • Virtual Doctors appointment
  •  Work
  • Dinner with a friend
  • Work on a workbook for my recovery

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Work on workbook that will help me with my recovery
  • Dinner with another friend

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Attend a 12 step prrotrom

Thursday

  • Mindfulness mindfulness practice
  • Walk around the block
  • Work
  • Work on a workbook that will help me with my recovery

Friday

  • Mindfulness mediation practice
  • Walks around the block
  • Work
  • Dinner with a friend

Saturday

  • Plain is to do nothing all and be lazy

A Sleepless Time of Night in Seattle

Good Very Early in the Morning from my corner of the world known as Seattle!!! I am not really sure why I am unable to sleep tonight but it is frustrating as hell. I have been doing both coping skills as well as doing self care. They are helping a little bit but not as much as I wish they would help.

One of the things I have been dealing with is increased anxiety , PTSD and depression which sucks shit especially when they all decide to come all at once. One of things that appear to be helping it doing mindfulness meditation practices. It helps me stay grounded.

Another thing that helps me stay grounded in my so very smart kitty, Billie Dean. He seams to know when I need the extra support and makes sure I don’t leave his site. Oh how I love Billie and the connection we have. I am so grateful that he chose me. He is a great cat and am glad he is my cat.

Something else I have been doing it coloring. No, I am not coloring the Disney horror coloring book at the moment. I am coloring a coloring page I got from Stuff2Color.com. They have some awesome coloring pictures. In fact a colored one for my grandpa and framed it. I gave it to him for Christmas. He was happy about it and put it up on the wall for all to see.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my perspective that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!!

Not Sorry About My Not So Rated G Post

Good Very Early Morning, World!!! Or at least it’s very early in the morning here in my corner of the world, known as Seattle. Apparently, some readers got offended by my last post regarding coloring a morbid coloring book that is all Disney characters. I received an email from WordPress that it disturbed some of my readers but it doesn’t break any rules or community standards. All they wanted was me to put a “Trigger Warning” at the beginning of the post. I totally understand about getting triggered by things and when I do, I talk with my mental health treatment team as well as other who are in recovery. I also use the skills I learned through therapy when I am triggered. Am I sorry the post triggered other, no not really. I feel bad that I triggered others but I’m not sorry about it as it could be a way for people to learn to cope by using coping skill that help them. For me coloring this coloring book is a way for me to heal from some things that are Disney related. For me coloring and doing a morbid coloring book is a form of self care and healing for me.

As far a the morbid Disney coloring book, it appears that my cat, Billie would like to help with me at times. He doesn’t seem bothered by the morbid Disney coloring book. I love my cat and how he likes my morbid sense of humor.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading it. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me that you read my blog. Peace Out, World!!!