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Apparently, Not Going Back to Sleep Tonight

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Good Fucking, Morning, World!!! This is most likely be a rant of a post. It is 6:03am in the morning here in Seattle. I am one angry person who is now a fucking a cranky bucket and now I have to be up to start getting ready for work. Work that I love to do but challenging on a good day and even more challenging when you are a cranky bucket.

I swear my neighbors don’t get it or understand that arguing and physically fighting is not a good thing any time of the day especially in the middle of the night. Then there is the idiot neighbor who has pulled the fire alarm so many times it’s not funny and very angering on my part as well as other neighbors me angry. The Seattle Fire Department and the Seattle Police Department are doing shit about the dude pulling the fire alarm. All I want it fucking sleep so I can be the best I can be for the best I can be for the client a serve at work.

I really don’t want to be cranky at work especially working really to not be one when I am in sessions with clients. My clients tend to understand which is a good thing. Now that I have to be up to get ready for work, it is time for morning meditation mindfulness practice with a nice cup of tea.

Well, I don’t have much more to say expect for thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my heart. Here is to a day that I hope to not be a cranky bucket. Peace Out, World!!!

UGH!!! Another Sleepless Night in Seattle

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It’s not a good start to a Tuesday morning in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. I was sound asleep and sleeping quite soundly when two neighbors who live on my floor in different units decided to scream at each other that led into to a physical fight. Needless to say the cops came and “talked” with the neighbors yet didn’t do anything else but talk with them. This angers me and my other neighbors because it triggers our PTSD, Depression and Anxiety. Obviously, Seattle police to get a flying rats ass. All my neighbors and myself want is a decent night of sleep. The cops are not doing their fucking job and a I pay taxes which means I pay their pay check. I am not a happy camper with the Seattle Police Department.

As least my cant Billie Dean is able to help decrease the anger, PSTD, Anxiety and Depression. Billie is a great source of help for me and am beyond grateful for him. I love my cuddle but of a cat. He means the world to me.

I am to tired and angry to finish this blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. Have a great night of sleep. Peace Out, World!!!

A Late Post about New Years Goals for 2022 Part One

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Good Evening, World!!! I know it’s the last day of January and many people have already discussed and started their new years goals. Some even failed at them already which is something that many people do including myself.

I have many goals for the year 2022 and realize that my goals can change for whatever reason and I am okay with that. So, as of right now one of my new years gIoals for 2022 is to learn to read tarot cards. This is to help me direct what my day will be like and focus on what I need to focus on for the day. I first need to first read and learn about it before doing readings on myself and hopefully others. I also have a tarot journal to document what my reading informed me for the day. The cool thing is that the first and only tarot card set is cats. It is my hope that as I learn about tarot as well as use my tarot journal that I will document here on my blog post.

Of course another another way for me to stay connected to the world as well as my self is to restart both mindfulness and meditation practices. I say this because when I started this last year that last one hundred days it helped a great deal with with not just my mental health symptoms but my everyday life like going to work and volunteering. I ended up having more focus on what I needed to do. I am also plan on focusing on journaling before and after a mindfulness and/or mindfulness practice so I can see any improvement in life including my recovery as well as my work and volunteer job.

Speaking of work and volunteering, I plan on continuing on doing both. I don’t see any changes in work or volunteering as I love doing both, I according to those in charge I am doing a “great job and always willing to learn.

As fart as my cat Billie Dean, I will continue to take care of him and most importantly, love him with all my heart. He is a sweet love bug of a cat that is such a cuddle bug. I love my cat so much. I don’t know how lucky I got with Billie choosing me to adopt him.

Of course I have other goals for the new year. On of which is to read. Specifically, read books that I have been meaning to read for years. It is my plant to read six books this year in 2022. To me this seems like a realistic goal I can accomplish when it comes to reading.

Another go I have for this year is to do some art work. My plan is to color two coloring pages as well as paint at least one painting. I feel like this is a realistic goal. I am looking forward to this goal as well as well as my other goals.

I do have have other goals in which I will share in another post within the next couple of days. I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciation from my end of things that you the reader read m blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writer my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you have a good night sleep. Peace Out, World!!!

Fell Asleep Reading a Good Book

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Good Evening, World from my neck of the world known as Seattle. I was finally getting into the book I am reading known as ” The Ship of Magic” by Robin Hobb. Sadly, I feel asleep reading. Not because it is boring as it is not boring. I just needed to sleep. I hope to be able to take a another nap an read again to report how good the boo is so far. So far from what I have read it has been awesome reading.

So, my plan is to take a couple of hour nap so I can be able to read “The Ship of Magic” Robin Hobb. I hope to give our some updates about the book which means spoil alerts.

I’m going to get going so I can get some sleep to update on the book I am reading. Thank you for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me that you read my blog. Peace Out, World!!! I hope hope to update you later this evening or tonight. Peace Out, World!!!

Mental Health Days Off from Work Suck

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Good Afternoon, World!!! As I mentioned in last post, I am taking today off from work. I am need of a mental health day off from work. I was going to listen to a podcast as I did some art work by coloring however I got the urge to read.

So, I decided to pick up the book called “Ship of Magic” by Robbin Hobb. I’ve started this book many times and sadly never got through it even though it is great read from what I have read from it. Plus, it is the first book of a trilogy which I am a big fan of book series. I am grateful that she is an awesome author and is local. She lives in Tacoma or least that is what I last heard.

Not only that, it is easier to read with a cat in your lap than trying to do art work when a cat wants to “help” with the artwork. I love Reading and hope to give a report on the book throughout the time I read Ship of Magic.

Reading and having my cat by my side it a great way to do self care especially when you are are taking a mental health day off from work. I am grateful for my employ that they encourages their employee’s to take time of for being sick. I love my job and my employer.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to than you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you are reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writer my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading blog. I greatly appreciate you the reader. Have a great work week a head of you. Peace Out, World!!!

Taking a Sick Day

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Good Morning, World!!! Even though I don’t start work till 12:00noon my time which is Seattle time, I called into work sick. On days I don’t start till 12:00noon my time, I take the time to call my clients so it’s doesn’t cause the administrative assistant staff more work to do especially on a Monday. Not only does it make it easier for the admin staff but I realized if I reached out to the clients myself, I don’t have to use that time as “sick time.” Weather or not I get paid to call and cancel on my clients due to illness, I would still do it to especially on Mondays to help my colleagues out.

On a similar note, my supervisor gets “humorously annoyed” (her words, not mine) on how I call in sick. I text as well as call her cell phone (leaving her a voicemail if she doesn’t answer), email her (and HR) and call her on her office number (leaving a voicemail if she doesn’t answer). She is “humorously annoyed” because yes it is somewhat annoying but she finds it humorous because she appreciates the fact that I make sure she finds out some how since technology can be known to not work or do what it is suppose to when it is needed to do so. I technology at work tends to “misbehave” at the worst of the worst times. She does appreciate that I make the extra effort to make sure she is aware.

On to the next thing. Since I am not feeling well, my grandpa made homemade chicken soup yesterday since my uncle wasn’t feeling well. My grandpa just like he does quite frequently makes too much food. So, grandpa will bringing me some homemade chicken soup when he goes to the V.A to get his prescriptions since my home is on the way to the V.A. I love the fact that my 91 year old grandpa is still active. Not only is he more active that myself and the rest of the family, he is more healthy than the rest of the family.

Part of the reason why I am out sick is because my depression and anxiety are both acting up. That usually means that I get digestive problem which sucks. As sucky as it is at least I know I won’t vomit nor have digestive issues with my grandpa’s homemade soup. Soup that he learned to make from my grandma who who sadly passed away four year ago this Valentines day.

On another note, since I am not feeling well, I will be doing some art work. Specifically, I will be coloring. I hope to show you updates of what I color. It all depends if I remember to do so as well as how I am feeling at the moment. While coloring I will be listening to a podcast. A podcast about philosophy. The name of the podcast I will be listing to is “Philosophize This.” I really enjoy this particular podcast.

As much as I dislike being sick, I am grateful for the extra attention my cat Billie Dean gives me. Billie is a love bug even when I am not sick but tends to be more of one when I am sick. I love my cat so much and am grateful for the unconditional love he gives me even though I don’t deserve especially when I don’t give him the attention at the exact times he wants or needs it due to being busy.

I personally think the Seattle weather is okay enough to try to take Billie for a walk outside on his leash if he tolerates it. It’s the leash and harness he tolerates but its the outside he doesn’t tolerate. The thing is he tolerates the outside in his carrier so the vet and I think he needs to feel secure or a sense of safety when outside. So we came up with a training plan regarding outside time on the harness and leash.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it were not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writer my blog. Again, than you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great day ahead of you as well as great work week ahead of you. I truly appreciate you for reading my blog as it means the world to me that you read it. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you have a great Monday. Peace Out, World!!!

Trying to Get to Sleep

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Hello, World!!! It is nearly eleven at night here in Seattle with my cat, Billie Dean by my side. I’m having trouble going to sleep again. I just wish I knew why I have been having issues sleeping. It’s something to talk with my mental health and physical health teams about.

Anyway, I had an okay day today. I went to my grandpa’s home and did some of my laundry. I also helped my grandpa with some of his chores. He is 91 going on 92. I love my grandpa so much and am grateful for him everyday. He and my grandma helped my dad raise me.

The thing I’m planning on doing to help me relax enough to get to sleep. So, I am going to be watching Mr. Holland’s Opus which is a great movie that includes music. I love this movie and can watch it multiple times without getting sick of it.

I don’t have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you my reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a good night and Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Check-In

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Good Evening, World!!! It is that time of week that I do my weekly check-in. First and fore most I have been working from home due to the fact that I have been dealing with Covid-19. My work is wanting me to come back to the office at least once a week if not twice a week. So I go a Covid-19 test yesterday to see if it comes back negative which I hope it does because I am going stir crazy isolating because of Covid. On that note at least my employer has be very supportive. I consider myself that I am able to work from home when I am not so fatigue from having Covid-19.

On that note, my family and friends as well as my neighbors have supportive of me going through Covid-19. My family, friends and neighbors have been making sure I’ve been getting fed with food they make me. They also provide me with stuff like toilet paper and cleaning supplies. I’m grateful that I have people in my life that care about me and willing to make sure I am doing okay.

Going back to the work issue, I feel like I am lucky that I am able to have the luxury from home. Yes, I did have to take about week off because Covid-19 sucks shit and was so fatigue from it that even working from home was challenging. Again, I am happy that I am well enough to be able to work from home. Yes, I still fill shitty but at least I feel well enough go work from home and I am lucky to be able to work from home.

As far as my sleep goes, it sucks shit. I didn’t sleep well last night and ended up sleeping all day today. My sleep hygiene sucks right now. I am not sure why but I would like to blame having Covid-19. Weather or not Covid is the reason why my sleep schedule is so off.

I don’t have much more lack of sleep issue. I sadly slept all day today due to the lack of sleep I got last night. I really do not like when my sleep schedule is so out of wack but I realize that I will get back to a normal sleep schedule for myself.

I don’t have much more to say about my weekly check in. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you my reader, I would not be writing my blog. I greatly appreciate that you read my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading in my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Apparently, Mr. Sandman Forgot to Stop by My Place

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Good Saturday, Morning, World!!! It is five zero four (5:04) in the blasted morning here in Seattle area. In fact as I looked out the window it is currently foggy outside. In all honesty, I wish I was able to sleep despite liking fog when I don’t have to be out in it.

As far as my cat, Billie Dean, he is sound asleep. Something I wish I was doing at the moment. Sadly, Mr. Sandman forgot to stop by my place so I could get some sleep. I just would like to sleep a solid eight hours, preferably at night. I am however grateful that Billie, my cat, is still asleep or he would most likely be wanting to play. And as much I as enjoy playing with Billie, I am just way too tired to play with him at the moment which is why I am glad he is sound asleep.

Since I haven’t been able to sleep I have been listening to a podcast about philosophy. Specifically, I am listening to the podcast “Philosophize This.” Of course as I listen to this podcast, I am coloring. In fact I am coloring the creepy, morbid Disney Horror coloring book that I ordered off of Amazon. I’m hopingo to show you updates on the pictures I am coloring.

I do not have very much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great Saturday ahead of them. Peace Out, World!!!

A Sleepless Time of Night in Seattle

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Good Very Early in the Morning from my corner of the world known as Seattle!!! I am not really sure why I am unable to sleep tonight but it is frustrating as hell. I have been doing both coping skills as well as doing self care. They are helping a little bit but not as much as I wish they would help.

One of the things I have been dealing with is increased anxiety , PTSD and depression which sucks shit especially when they all decide to come all at once. One of things that appear to be helping it doing mindfulness meditation practices. It helps me stay grounded.

Another thing that helps me stay grounded in my so very smart kitty, Billie Dean. He seams to know when I need the extra support and makes sure I don’t leave his site. Oh how I love Billie and the connection we have. I am so grateful that he chose me. He is a great cat and am glad he is my cat.

Something else I have been doing it coloring. No, I am not coloring the Disney horror coloring book at the moment. I am coloring a coloring page I got from Stuff2Color.com. They have some awesome coloring pictures. In fact a colored one for my grandpa and framed it. I gave it to him for Christmas. He was happy about it and put it up on the wall for all to see.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my perspective that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!!