Struggling & Making an Effort to Feel Better Emotionally

Good Afternoon, World!!! I’ve been struggling with PTSD and Depression the last couple of weeks. Partly because I lost my new job and mainly due to some traumatic events in my life that don’t count losing a job. I’ve been applying for new jobs because I need the money to pay the bills even though I know of resources I can go to to help.

I’ve been applying to jobs in fast food even thought I don’t want to work fast food or retail but I need the money to pay the bills. I would rather work as a peer specialist or in the human service feild but right now a job is job and I can’t be too picky right so I can pay bills.

Things that I plan on doing are DBT skills and new hobbies like Latch hooking or attempting to teach myself. I also plan on doing some art by coloring and reading some books. And of course reading some books. I also have a twenty minute check in via phone with my therapist later today. Last but not least doing art work with coloring and spending time with my cat Billie.

I don’t have much more to say. I do want to thank you for reading my blog and hope I’m not boring anyone of you. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

My Go to Wellness Tools When Things are Either Going Well or Not so Well & Sometimes in the Middle

Hello, World!!! Things haven’t had been very good lately but I’m handling them okay. I lost my new job because I wasn’t the right fit and I agree. It turned out to a be mutual agreement and “considered a lay off.” This lay off I’m okay with. The first lay off I wasn’t okay with it due to the fact of how it was handled.

I am putting in applications and going to interviews in the career of my choice as a peer specialist. I have also been applying to old employers I tolerated even the ones that were overnight or twelve plus hours long. Having a job helps me a great deal.

Even though things may not be going so well my cat, Billie has been a huge help. Hell, he is a huge help when things are both going well and not so well. Having an animal around had been quite helpful for me.

Another thing I have found helpful in both the good times and not so good times is volunteering. Volunteering at an animal shelter has been and continues to be quite rewarding. Helping cats find their furrever homes and people a new family member in a cat is one of the best feelings in the world.

Something I have started to do is to start doing math. Specifically, basic math and pre-algerbra. I’m doing this to help me if I get too emotional as well as to keep my math skills up. Having basic math skills is something every adult should have.

Another thing I am taking up is latch hook. I figure taking up a hobby latch hook would be helpful when thing aren’t going so well and even when they are going well.

Of course I’ll still be doing art. Specifically coloring. I am coloring a poster for my mom. She likes that type of thing. She is dealing with cancer and the treatment that goes along with it. Plus her birthday is tomorrow.

I don’t have much more to talk about. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

An Apprehensive Type of Day

Good Morning, World!!! I’m not sure why I am so apprehensive today but I am. Maybe it is because of the call I just got from a former employer asking me if I’m still up for the interview. Does this mean they chose someone else or does this mean I’m the only one willing to take the job.

Plus my cat appears to not be feeling well. It might be his teeth or he could be picking up on my depression or maybe both. Animals can do that. I’m also worried about money due to not having any type of income.

I do not have much more to say except thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Day of Creativity & Time w/My Cat, Billie

Happy Tuesday after a three day weekend here in the United States for most people due to Labor day. Billie appears to be in an active mood. I hope this means good luck for my job interview tomorrow. If I get it it willl be three four hour shift. I just hope I don’t get stuck with an over night shift which 12 hours long and can have up to three of those shift. I might do one evey once in a while and very rarely like an emergency.

Tooday, I am hanging out with Billlie and play with him in between learning new crafting skills of latch hooking. I am not getting it today being extra cuddly and playful. I so love my creative times when Billlie tries to help.

I should practice on my interview tomorrow as well as play with Billie. I also want to practice on my creativity project. Have a great Teuesday everyone.

The Woes of Billie my Cat & Myself; Yes, Things are Getting Better w/the Two of Us

Hello, World! It is just after twelve noon in the afternoon here in my corner of the world known as Seattle. A lot has happened over the last couple of weeks. Lot of job interviews and doctors appointments.I’m going to get better health wise.

In fact my cat has had some health issues besides the kidney stuff. He has some dental stuff done and one is’t healing correctly so as a precautionary measure they are giving Billie my cat antibiotics. Billie appears to be fine most of the time. Well except when he has to take his antibiotics. I don’t blame as they probably taste yucky to him.

As far as me I’ve sexually assaulted last weekend by a neighbor and few days later physically assaulted by the same neighbor. The police are “looking into it.”

I the mean time I have been feeling out job applications and attending job interviews. Some I know I won’t get while others I have a good chance. Wish me luck with getting a job sooner than later.

I’ve also be doing art work for my mom which i hope she enjoys.

I don’t have much more to say except thank you for reading.

Not So Random Thoughts or Ideas

Hello, again this evening. As some of you know I got laid off from a job I loved and am unable to discuss the legalities about it. I ended up getting another a job and both my supervisor and I decided it wasn’t the be job for me or the agency so a it was an agreement we both agreed on that it should end. Now, I have now income and the only income I have is if you the reader click onto the advertisements to give me extra money. It’s only a cent or two and wont get the money til I get a least a hundred dollars total. So even if it is only one time a day can you please click on an advertisement (or two) so I can earn some money till I can get a job, please. I of course will still volunteer and look for new jobs, I just thought I would ask for a little help please.

Being able to pay bills and take care of my cat Billie are extremely important to me. I hope you can help me out please. I know I have some loyal readers and appreciate all of you. I also want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out and Good Night World!!!

A Couple of Weeks Full of Much Needed but Unwanted Things to Do

I haven’t had the easiest starts to this week do to a traumatic weekend which led to two weeks of unwanted doctors appointments for myself. That doesn’t include Billie’s follow up dental procedure where one area is in the “grey area” of being infected but unsure unless they do test. They left it up to be to not do the test w/out antibiotics and come back in a week. Or do the test to see if antibiotics were needed or not do the test and do the antibiotics. I chose no test with the antibiotics. Its cheap and precautionary.

On top of that I’ve been having my own health issues, I will not exactly get into except medicare is so under staff right now; just thinking about it makes me want to cry. You would think some place like Seattle would have plenty of doctors but no.

Anyway on to better news I am having job interviews once again as the job I up getting after being laid off did not work out to well. I just hope I get a job that best works for me and the needs of my cat Billie as well as myself.

Overall Billie and I are doing fine and I don’t have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It greatly appreciative from my perspective that you do read my blog. If it was not for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Sunday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Volunteer at Cat City
  • Practice and do some math
  • Learn about Tarot Cards
  • Do recovery workbooks
  • Play with Billie my cat

Monday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Go to Social Security office
  • Practice and do math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do recovery workbooks
  • Play with Billie my cat

Tuesday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Go to the DSHS office
  • Apply for work/jobs
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Apply for work/job
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do Recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Thursday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Apply for work/job
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do Recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Friday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Apply for work/job
  • Practice and work on math
  • Learn about tarot cards
  • Do Recovery workbooks
  • Play with my cat Billie

Saturday

  • Mindfulness meditation
  • Play with my cat Billie
  • Recovery Workbooks
  • Practice and do math
  • Learn about tarot cards

Plans to Make a Better Future

Right now I have a lot of desires to improve my life. Of course my cat Billie Dean helps improve my life. I love him so very much. I know he loves me very much as well. He has kept me stable the last two and half years. I love him so much and wish his dental work wasn’t so expensive.

I am also teaching myself tarot card in hopes it will give me a better direction in my life. I also have a tarot journal to help with it creating a life worth living. A life worth living is something I desire.

Therapy helps build a life worth living as long as doing self help books. I just want to be come a better self even if therapy and self help books are helpful.

Another thing that helps me is applying for jobs a reading. I hope to get a lot done next week. I don’ have much more to say except thank you for reading my blog. it it greatly appreciated from my end of things. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World and have an awesome weekend.

Things Not Exactly Going My Way but I’m Okay With It

Let’s just start with the new job. I wasn’t exactly fired but I didn’t exactly quit. We (my supervisor and I) agreed the job wasn’t a good fit for me and I agree. Plus the commute sucked shit. Plus I missed spending time with my kitty cat, Billie Dean.

I spent a lot of time away from him at the new job I no longer have. I love my Billie and I know he loves me. He is a very sweet cat and I am sure he is grateful that the Seattle weather has cooled down a lot. Billie had expensive dental work done and will go back for a follow up with the vet a a couple of weeks.

I plan on going to the social security office next week to see if I can get back on it. As much as I wish I was working, maybe I need a break to take care of my disability.

On top of other issues I am having land phone line and internet issues which suck shit. I know a lot of small crap is going on and I am doing okay with it.

I don’t have much to say expect thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. I hope you all have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!