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Finding the Hope in the Little Things

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! The last year and a half has been quite the struggle for me yet every time I feel like I am making some ground something trips me up. Sort of like tripping over the other shoe dropping.

Yet when I am tripping over the other shoe dropping, I tend to find the hope in the little things. Little things like reading a book or listening to my favorite music or even creating art. Yes, all the above mentioned give me hope yet something else gave me the hope I needed for this moment in time

That hope came from the two workbooks I am doing. One is about resiliency regarding my sexual orientation of being a pansexual and gender identity of being a non-binary, gender fluid individual. The other workbook is on mindfulness. So the workbooks I am doing on resiliency on who I am with my gender identity and sexual orientation as well as being mindful of being in the moment is what is giving me hope. Hope of who I am as an individual despite tripping over the other shoe dropping.

Thank you for reading. It is much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

Posted on by Gertie

Sunday:

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Art
  • Workbook
  • Pretty much be lazy

Monday

  • Blog
  • Knitting Group
  • Art Group
  • Therapy
  • Workbook

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Clean apartment
  • Chores
  • Pretty much adulting all day

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Art
  • Read
  • Celebrate birthday
  • Pretty much be lazy due to being my birthday

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Art
  • Read
  • Workbook

Friday

  • Blog
  • DBT Group
  • Therapy
  • Workbook
  • Art
  • Read
  • DBT homework

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Celebrate birthday with family (a few days late)
  • Workbook
  • Art
  • Read
  • DBT homework

 

Saturday Morning Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I haven’t had the best of weeks. I’m just briefly checking in for the moment as I’m having a slightly rough go at it. I didn’t get much sleep again last night except it wasn’t because of insomnia. It was because I experienced yet another trauma. A trauma that I most likely will not discuss with you or at least in the current future.

I think I am going to work on my mindfulness workbook to help me get back into the right state of mind. Something else that will be helpful is to look over my DBT homework that I did last night and isn’t due to Friday.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

No Matter How Difficult; Honesty Is Best

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! It has been a long and difficult day for me. I started out the day with seeing my case manager. We had some not so good moments that we ended up working out which is huge progress on my end.

I then went to Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) Group. Group grew from four individuals to ten people. Lets see how many stick around this time. We of course have homework and I am okay with that. The homework will be quite helpful for me as it will give me the structure I so desperately need.

After group I saw Gilbert. It was a tough session however it was toward the end of the session that was the most difficult. I was honest with him about something I hadn’t been honest with anybody else about. Something that desperately needed to be told and I might share at a later date when I process it more with Gilbert.

Thank you so much for reading. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Anxiety Sucks Sh*t

Posted on by Gertie

I am struggling at the moment with anxiety. Anxiety that appears to be fluctuating quite quickly.  So quickly that I end up freezing. Freezing up so bad that I need to do something to get out of frozen mode.

For me I color. It has proven to be quite helpful for me. Coloring helps me a great deal express my emotions.

I also enjoy reading as it helps me get out of my head. It gets me out of my head enough to refocus my attention on to something else.

Thank you for reading. It’s much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration: Day 17: A Map As Your Muse

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Good Afternoon, World!!! Today’s assignment is to use a map as our muse. For me I chose the above map as it is focused on goal setting. At this moment in my recovery I focused on my goals as well as reevaluating my goals. Goals that will help me with my recovery as well as my career path which hopefully some day will include education.

I have some major goals in life. Those major or long term goals I have also have short term goals to help me to my ultimate long term goals. My goals are simple and complex and I will share them with you at some point in time.

Thank you for reading. You are awesome. Peace Out, World!!!!

Gertie’s Grief

Posted on by mamabearraine

Gertie didn’t want me to post today however I am a person of my word. Gertie is dealing with grief of the death of their grandma. Gerties grandma died two weeks ago today. Please send out good thoughts and vibes Gerties was especially since the funeral is over with next Wednesday is Gerties birthday.

Yes, Gertie’s birthday is a week from today. They would be to happy with me however Gertie is like one of my own children to me.

Have a wonderful week and keep Gertie in your thoughts and vibes.

Back Home In The Concrete Jungle of Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! The funeral was amazing. I am finally back home in the concrete jungle I call Seattle.

The first thing I am going to do after I am done blogging is call Gilbert, my therapist. After that I’m going to get my meds. Good ole meds in the jungle of Seattle.

Thank you for reading my short ass post regarding me back in the concrete jungle of Seattle. Thank you so much for reading and Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 16: Mine Your Own Material

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! Today’s assignment is mine your material. It ask to look at your draft to see if I can look at it in a new way. I have been working on my one and only draft for awhile and well its one of those post that you just want to make sure it has just the right wording to be able to convey the message I am wanting to say.

Another thing is I think that this assignment is piggy backing on yesterdays assignment of take a cue from your reader and I have done that. For me mining my material and taking a cue from you my reader are similar yet different. And I am okay with that.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Tuesday Morning Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! Well, there is still snow on the ground here in Spokane where my grandma’s funeral was held. News sources say it is suppose to be snowing at sea level in Seattle which will be a shit show for me and my family going back to Seattle.

Despite the possibility of snow I am looking forward to going home. There is nothing like being in your own home. I miss my bed.

Thank you for reading. Have a great day!!! Peace Out, World!!!