Tag Archives: Money

Late Morning Ramblings

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Hello, World!!! I am sitting here trying to figure out what to do with my day. I was suppose to go to a baseball game but the person who had the tickets gave them to a family who had never been to see a baseball game. I couldn’t be more proud of my friend as she did it out of love and compassion.

Life has a way to make you think. As much as I wanted to go to the baseball game to not have to deal with my reality of money and Social Security. Yes, I am worrying a little about it right now but I know in reality it is going to all work out.

I am loving my weighted blanket. It is proven money well spent. I slept well because of it last night. If you have the money to get one I recommend you get one if you have trouble with sleep and/or anxiety.

Thank you for reading!!! Peace Out, World!!!

Nothing but Just a Bunch of Rambling

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! First and fore most I am having anxiety as Social Security informed me that I am “no longer disabled” and are discontinuing money that I worked hard for. They are also telling me I owe them money when I told them of the over-payment to begin with. I am having really high anxiety over this yet I can not do anything about it till I go into the office about it. I plan on going on Monday as I am sure tomorrow will be busy as it is the day after everyone gets paid. I may have anxiety over it but there is nothing I can really do right now.

I am also really sad right now because I am missing my grandma. I miss her and I know she would tell me everything is going to work out. I just have to remember that. I know she is watching over me and will want me to not worry about the Social Security.

The one thing that is helping is helping is something I just got from Amazon which is a weighted blanket. It is helping with everything that is going on for me at the moment. I am sweating by the weighted blanket. It is quite helpful.

I also saw my therapist today. I discussed with him my social security issue and he is going to help me the best he is able to do. I then checked in with him about a half an hour ago to inform him about how the weighted blanket is being of major help and how I wasn’t expecting till tomorrow. He really wants to help me the best he way is able to do so.

Thank you so for reading my blog. It mean the world!!! Peace Out, World!!!

More Ramblings

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am blogging write now just to get things off of my mind. Stuff that isn’t all that important but stuff I just want to ramble on about. I realize people might not want to hear (or read) me ramble about shit but you don’t have to read if you don’t want to. Yes, I am having an attitude at the moment.

Let’s forget the attitude I am having and get on with talking. I really hope I get the job I had the interview for yesterday (Tuesday). I want the job for a multitude of reasons. One; is it will give me something to do. Two; it would give me more money. Three; and the most important, I will be able to help folks.

I brought up the money thing and I know it’s not the most important thing out there however it is nice to have extra in the bank. At least it is something that isn’t worrying me as much as it was.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Anxiety That Won’t Go Away

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! As I mentioned in an earlier post I didn’t see my therapist today for our session due to anxiety. We did reschedule our appointment for Thursday. He has checked up on me twice today to make I am doing okay. Yes, I am doing okay. Or better than I was.

Better than I was earlier especially since my budget is better than I thought it was going to be. I forgot to include my tax refund I got in my budget.

Even though I had anxiety over my budget my therapist and I figured out that I was having anxiety due to PTSD symptoms. Symptoms that don’t help with my general anxiety symptoms. Symptoms I wish were subsiding but they are not so much.

Thank you so much for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Still High Anxiety

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! I missed therapy today due to the fact my anxiety was too high. My therapist did check-in with me and we discussed my anxiety. We figured out that part of my anxiety was due to the PTSD. We also found that the last time my anxiety was this bad was over a year ago and is major improvement. I love it when there is a silver lining in things.

Besides dealing with anxiety, I have figured out some things about my money situation. Figuring out the money situation is a huge relief for me. Knowing that I have things in place as a just in case is a huge relief.

I think I am going to call some friends and see if they want to hang out. Maybe go and have a late lunch or something. Most of my friends tend to love to eat.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

A High Anxiety Monday

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I am struggling so much with anxiety that I am unable to make it to my therapy appointment. I am not sure why my anxiety is acting up so badly but it is. It hasn’t acted up so badly to where I am unable to make it to an appointment especially therapy. Just as long as it is not this bad tomorrow I’ll be okay.

I say just as long as it is not this bad tomorrow, I’ll be okay because I have a job interview tomorrow. It is job I really want and one I think I would be good at. That is why I hope my anxiety isn’t this high tomorrow.

I found out this morning that it could take up to three weeks to find out how much I made from the advertisements on my blog. That means at least another month with them. Depending how much I make all depends if I keep them. I may not keep them as I don’t like them but I need the extra money.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Ugh, It’s Monday Morning

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is still morning here in Seattle. Hell, it is still morning in all time zones of the United States. And it is Monday morning at that. Monday mornings are not any fun for most people in the world as it is the start of another work week.

I read in the news paper that asthma studies have been happening to reverse it even in adults. This is a good thing for me as I have asthma. Millions of people are affected by asthma around the world.

I should find out some time today if I am making money on the advertisements on my blog. If I’m not making the money then I am most likely taking the advertisements off my blog.

Something I have done today and haven’t done in a few days is mindfulness practice. I have found this quite helpful in starting my day. It is not the cure all but it sure is more helpful than people realize. It is not easy to do but again it is worth it.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Working Through Shit

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! I am having one of those moments again where I just need to write through shit. Shit that includes PTSD symptoms. PTSD symptoms that are severe at the moment but I know I will get through them.

I should find out some time in the next day or two about how much money I earned with the advertisements on my blog. I get paid through PayPal which will be good for my online purchase and help keep me from using my credit card. I have to earn a minimum of one hundred dollars to be able to access the money I earned which sucks.

I just don’t know why I am having an up and down day today. It sucks shit. Having Depression and PTSD is no fun and wish the emotions that came with them would subside even a little bit.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Blogging Through Shit

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! I am not sure what I am dealing with at the moment. One moment I am struggling and the next, I am okay. Since I am unsure what is going on with me emotionally, I tend to write in moments like this. Writing helps me process whatever the hell is going on. It helps me figure out what is going on.

As I write this post I am just going to write what is going through my head. This might be scary for you all as I am going to be blunt as hell and not hold back. Hell, what I think scares the shit out of me sometimes. The stuff coming out is not the scariest I have thought.

I am slightly worried about money for the month of May. Not as worried as I was in previous post but still worried. I know things will work out when it comes the money situation as I have people who can be of help to be if need be. I just don’t want to have to depend on them.

I wish my neighbor would turn down their stupid television. It is pissing me off and for some fucking reason it is trigger me. Why in the hell is someone’s loud television trigging me? Sounds silly but it is triggering for some odd reason.

I think I am going to read. I love reading and enjoy it immensely. I just don’t understand why it is taking me so long to read this particular book. It is an awesome book and will write a book review on it when I am finally finished with it.

I wonder who actually reads my blog. I mean is it reaching the people I want it to reach. Are people actually reading it or just “liking it” after reading a few sentences? I am trying to figure out why I only have just over three hundred followers after nearly four years of blogging. In fact I wonder if tags work sometimes. I know they must but I just wonder how many people actually go to the tags. I know I do.

I should really be doing chores right now. I need to clean my apartment. I clean my apartment once a week. Or I attempt to clean it once week. Nobody likes having to clean but it is a necessity that is part of being an adult.

I think I am going to go now. Thank you for reading. It is very much appreciated from my end. Peace Out, World!!!

Still Awake in Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! It is just after five thirty in the morning and I still haven’t been to sleep. Yes, I have attempted to get to sleep, I just was unable to do so. I even took my Ambien to be able to sleep and still a no go at the oh so elusive sleep.

Despite getting no sleep I have managed to stay busy. I pretty much stayed busy by reading. Reading appears to be one of my go to activities as of lately. I enjoy reading immensely.

Even though I read most of the night, it still didn’t take my anxiety away a hundred percent. I am worried about money like many people around the world are. I am worried that my tax refund check won’t get here in time to pay the rent. I know I am most likely worried about nothing but I am worried.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!