Tag Archives: Sleep

Rudely Awaken by Fire Alarm

Posted on by Gertie

Good Fucking Morning, World!!! I am fucking angry as hell right now. I was sound asleep and the damn fire alarm went of again. I’m angry because an idiot of a neighbor pulled the fire alarm again because another neighbor was not wearing a mask in a common area of our apartment building. I fucking don’t understand why this neighbor has to pull the fire alarm every fucking time he sees another neighbor who doesn’t wear a mask. It’s fucking bullshit.

The fire department is just as angry as my neighbors and I. The fire department has fined this neighbor so many time it’s not funny. The sad yet good thing is the dude admits to the fire fighters. Sadly, the fire fighters have been here so many time because of this dude that they now have the cops come to “talk” to him. Plus, the fire fighters fear for this neighbors safety because other neighbors want to “beat the shit out of him.” I’m not one of those people but I do feel like screaming at time. Pulling the fire alarm is a misdemeanor crime and the cops won’t arrest him because the county jail won’t accept people with misdemeanor crimes due to Covid-19 which is fucking bullshit.

Okay my rant is over. I don’t anything else to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Never too Early to be Up for Cat Therapy

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!! It is six o’clock in morning in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. I don’t have to be up till 9:00 for a 9:30 appointment with my doctor as I don’t start work till twelve noon on Tuesdays. But I am up at six o’clock in my morning because my cat is wanting some cuddle time. Maybe it’s because my PTSD and Anxiety symptoms are high at the moment my depression is at a low grade level at the moment.

As much as I wish I was still asleep, I am grateful for my cuddles with my cat, Billie Dean. Billie is famous for his cuddle especially when my mental health symptoms are acting up. I did have some nightmares last night which increased the anxiety and the PTSD but am grateful for the Billie cuddles to start of the day even if it is earlier than normal for my Tuesday work schedule. I love my cat and how he provides me emotional support.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless in Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

Good very early Morning, World!!! Sadly I can not sleep at the moment due to insomnia and PTSD. Having both really sucks shit. Right now I feel like listening to my Childhood Memories Play list of music to help me get relaxed enough to get back to sleep. Having insomnia and PTSD sucks and all I want is sleep.

At least the Childhood Memories Playlist songs are helping along with my cat Billie helping me with his unconditional love. I love my cat so much. I really thing the music and my cat will help me get back to sleep.

I don’t have much more do to say in this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Not a Productive Day

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! Today has been a pretty unproductive day. I have been asleep all day due to the fact I waited to attend a twelve step meeting. I got the right time but wrong day. I did attend another twelve another meeting last night. I’m glad I went.

I also did some reading of some science fiction and fantasy books that I could not stop reading. I love those king of books that I couldn’t put down because they are so good. I spent four hours reading two different books last night.

On another plus note, Billie Dean, my cat was a happy camper because he got a lot of play time as well as some catnip. My cat is now wanting my catnip but he will have to wait to later this evening.

As far as attending twelve step meetings today, I am not sure if I am going to attend as I am really tired that I might not be able to fully focus on the meeting. That kind of goes for my chores I was planning on doing today. I just don’t have enough energy or focus to do my household shores.

I did get my daily walk in which is an accomplishment concerting how tired I am from not having any sleep last night due to my own doing. I at least completed something today. I also am planning on playing with my cat Billie Dean. He deserves all the play time he can get especially since he need to loose two to three pounds. I love my cat, so much It’s hard to believe that tomorrow will be his two you gotcha (adoption) date. I am love how loving and cuddly Billie is.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank your for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out. World!!!

Sadly, I miss read the time and day of the LGBTQ+ 12 Step Meeting

Posted on by Gertie

Hello and Good Morning!!! I was hoping to go to a twelve step meeting that started at 10:00am Seattle time. Sadly, I thought it was on a Saturday morning when it turns out it is a Sunday morning. I will be be able to attend that meeting due to volunteering during that time. As disappointed as I am I am grateful that I can now get some sleep since I didn’t sleep last night. I can now take a nap.

At least there are other meetings I can attend meeting later to day on Zoom. I will be able to do self care by sleeping, attending twelve step meetings and of course spending time with the love of my life, my cat Billie Dean. Recovery is awesome and looks differently to everyone.

I don’t have much to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading blog post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Not worry I will be attending a later twelve step once I get some sleep. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

No Sleep Again In Seattle, Last Night (But It Was Completely My Fault)

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World and Happy Saturday especially those who have it off. It is now 9:00am Seattle time and I got absolutely no sleep. But this time it was completely my fault and nothing to do with insomnia, neighbors arguing and fighting with each as well as an idiot neighbor pulling the fire alarm.

I stayed up attending Twelve step meetings as well as reading twelve step literature. Specifically the Big Red Book (aka the BRB). I am learning a great deal from the meetings as well as the literature. I am grateful that I am making this part of my new years goals as well as my part of my recovery.

I am also grateful that I had time to read some books that I am reading for pleasure. Specifically, I am reading science fiction books as well as some fantasy books. It helps me with my self care and escape from the realities this world how now a days. Books are a great way to escape from reality.

Another thing that kept me awake and my cat was thrilled about it which as I played with him a good portion of the night now he is sleeping like the beauty queen (or should say king) that he is. My at is so amazing and tomorrow is is two year official gotcha date. I love my babe boy Billie and he has help me a great deal with my recovery.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I will be going to a twelve step meeting before going to bet to take a nap. I also want to thank you the reader for reading y blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a good weekend all and happy Saturday. Peace Out, World!!!

My Cat Billie Dean Wants to Play in the Middle of the Night

Posted on by Gertie

Good Very Early, Morning from Seattle. I just got woken up from my cat Billie Dean wanting to play in the middle of night. I of course gave in or I would loose more sleep than I already have from the last few nights from neighbors. At least Billie only wanted to play for ten minutes which makes me happy because I was able to get back to sleep quickly. I know he loves to play because he love me. The best part of a play session with Billie is the snuggles and cuddles he gives me. I love him much and I know he loves me. Billie playing with be helps my depression and I am grateful for that.

I am too tired to write more. I hope you have a great night of sleep. Peace Out, World!!!

Having a Tough Day at Work

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am currently having a tough day a work. Part of it is because I didn’t get much sleep last night due various reasons which included my neighbors being dickwads during a time where most people actually sleep or at least try to sleep.

Today is just one of them days. I have two clients schedule which I had a session with one of them already and will see my next one at 2:00pm; Seattle time. Today has been primarily being in meetings all day as well as dealing with clients in crisis as I am apart of the Thursday crisis coverage team.

Anyway, some of the crisis calls I have taken today have been triggering for me. I think it is partly due to the lack of sleep last night. Anyway, I am grateful for my colleagues as I have been able to do check-in’s with a couple of them after a couple of rough crisis calls from clients.

I have amazing colleagues and an awesome supervisor. I love my employer and feel supported by everyone including the leadership team. Having an awesome employer and colleagues is super helpful everyday especially and challenging days like today.

And of course I am working from home today so I can’t forget to mention how supportive of a colleague my cat Billie Dean has been today. I know for fact he knows I am needing the extra cuddles and love he is giving me. Animals including my cat, Billie have unconditional love especially for their humans.

I do not have much more to say in in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Apparently, Not Going Back to Sleep Tonight

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Good Fucking, Morning, World!!! This is most likely be a rant of a post. It is 6:03am in the morning here in Seattle. I am one angry person who is now a fucking a cranky bucket and now I have to be up to start getting ready for work. Work that I love to do but challenging on a good day and even more challenging when you are a cranky bucket.

I swear my neighbors don’t get it or understand that arguing and physically fighting is not a good thing any time of the day especially in the middle of the night. Then there is the idiot neighbor who has pulled the fire alarm so many times it’s not funny and very angering on my part as well as other neighbors me angry. The Seattle Fire Department and the Seattle Police Department are doing shit about the dude pulling the fire alarm. All I want it fucking sleep so I can be the best I can be for the best I can be for the client a serve at work.

I really don’t want to be cranky at work especially working really to not be one when I am in sessions with clients. My clients tend to understand which is a good thing. Now that I have to be up to get ready for work, it is time for morning meditation mindfulness practice with a nice cup of tea.

Well, I don’t have much more to say expect for thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my heart. Here is to a day that I hope to not be a cranky bucket. Peace Out, World!!!

Phuck Getting Sleep Tonight

Posted on by Gertie

Good Morning, World!!! Apparently it appears I am not getting a good night sleep tonight because I have neighbors that a physically fighting on my hallway floor. On top of that other neighbors are pulling the building the fire alarm. I am tired and tired has phucking hell. All the shit that is happening is trigging my PTSD. I am tired as hell and a phucking cranky buck it. I just wish Seattle Housing Authority (SHA), The Seattle Fire Department as well as the Seattle Police would do something. People do need to work and being a cranky bucket is not a way to start the day.

I don’t have much to say. Thank you for listening to my rants especially about my neighbors.