Tag Archives: Sleep

Weekly Check-In

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Hello, World!!! If you have been keeping up to date on my blog you know it has been a tough week for me. You also know that I, unfortunately self harmed. A self harm action I will be discussing with my therapist.

Another thing I need to talk to my therapist about is my sleep issues. Sleep issues that has its ups and downs. It just appears it is more down than up because if it was up I think I would be able to sleep.

Something else that happened this week was that I got a phone call. Not just any phone call. A phone call to schedule a job interview. My job interview is scheduled for this Tuesday and I hope it is a job for me.

I also completed three paintings this week. Paintings that helped me express my emotions in a healthy way. One of these days I need to share my paintings with you all. I have shared a painting or two but that is it. I want to share more paintings with you.

Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Saturday Morning Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I again didn’t get any sleep last night. Having insomnia sucks shit yet I am attempting to look at the silver lining in it. Right now the silver lining is being of support to my best friend who lost her mom yesterday. She leaned on me and another friend of our due to the fact we know what it is like to recently loose someone close.

I also did some reading. Reading has been quite helpful to pass the long nights. It has also been quite entertaining. Being able to read and entertain myself has been a useful tool for me.

Since we are on the topic of reading, I most likely will be reading most of the day as the weather is not exactly nice. It is a typical Seattle weather type of day outside. Having a typical weather day like today is great for me to read and to rest since I didn’t get sleep last night.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyone Needs A Day Off

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Good Afternoon, World!!! It’s been a day since I last posted. I didn’t post for no particular reason. Sometimes we just need a day off every once in a while even from blogging. Don’t get me wrong, I love blogging, I just need a day off.

One of the things I did yesterday was nap most of the day. I think it was because I was so tired and catching up on sleep. Not only did I sleep a lot yesterday, I also read. I read Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb. I am enjoying the books thus far. Besides reading and napping I worked on two of my workbooks. Workbooks that help me with my recovery.

Having a nice day off from blogging was a good thing. Unfortunately, my best friends mom died today from health complications. She was only in her sixties. She was like a second mom to me. This was the friends mom that helped me convince my grandma to play the flute.  Please keep my friend and her family in your thoughts and send positive vibes their way.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Self Soothing Due to Early Awaking

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Good Morning, World!!! It is three o’clock in the morning here in Seattle. Unfortunately, I am wide awake. On the plus side I did get some sleep. Not as much sleep as I personally, would like but I did get some sleep.

As difficult as not being able to sleep right is, I am needing to self soothe as part of my self care plan. So, I put on one of my favorite hooded sweatshirts on. In fact the sweatshirt is of my favorite baseball team the Angels. In fact the Angels are currently in the lead for the American League West.

Besides wearing my Angels hoodie I am holding my teddy bear. A teddy bear I have had since I was born. It was given to me by my uncle. My teddy bear not only self soothes me but gives me some sort of safety. Safety from what? Who knows but I’ll take it.

After I am done blogging, I am going to do a mindfulness exercise practice. Mindfulness appears to put me in the right head space. I never thought I would say this but mindfulness is also self soothing for me. Well if it is done in a way I feel safe it is self soothing.

Thank you for reading. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

 

 

So Far a Busy Tuesday

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Good Afternoon, World!!! It is early Tuesday afternoon and so far I have done a lot today. One of the first things I did today was work of my mindfulness workbook. I started the first chapter which is on Fear and Mindfulness. I didn’t finish the chapter as I had to get go to get to my therapy appointment on time.

I showed my therapist the coping skills box I made per his suggestion. I also share the paper I wrote. He was impressed by both the box and the paper. More so that I was willing to do both. He now realizes that therapy homework will be beneficial to me and will think of assignments for me to do starting next week.

Another thing that happened today was that I found out that I have a job interview at a community mental health agency for a peer position next Tuesday. This will be a part time job which would be so much better for me than a full time job. I hope I get the job I am interviewing for next Tuesday.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

A Goodnight’s Sleep

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Good Morning, World!!! I actually got six hours of sleep last night. I am thrilled that I got that much sleep. I know six hours of sleep may not seem like a lot of sleep but for me it is. Sleeping six hours is a good thing.

As much as I am excited about getting so much sleep, I woke up depressed. Waking up depressed makes me acutely aware on how vigilant I have to be today. It is not fun waking up depressed but being diligent about what I need to do to make sure I don’t make it worse.

One thing I’ll do to not make it worse is attending art group. Going to art group will help me not isolate as well as being able to expression myself. I love attending art group.

I need to get going so I can do my morning routine. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

 

A Relaxing Saturday

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I have been having a relaxing Saturday. I have been watching movies pretty much all day. Movies on Netflix and Hulu. Movies that helped me get into a creative space.

A creative space to be able to paint. I painted while listening to music. I attempted to paint a squirrel. It didn’t turn out as planned but that is okay because the paintings that didn’t turn out as planned are the most original and unique paintings out there. The music playing the background is what helped me keep with the flow of painting.

Now I am going to go take a nap as I am tired. I have only had three hours of sleep in the last two days . Have a great rest of your Saturday. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s the Weekend; Time to Relax

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Goo Morning, World!!! After my last post at five o’clock this morning, I finally got some sleep. I only got about three hours of sleep because I woke about about eight o’clock my time but I am okay with only three hours. At least I got some sleep.

Now that it is nine thirty in the morning in my neck of the woods, I am trying to figure out what I am going to do with my day as I need to make sure I am busy. One of the things I’ll be doing is listening to podcast. Specifically, Philosophize This which is about philosophy. Listening to podcast appears to be of help to me.

Another way I will keep myself busy today is by doing art. Not sure what type of art I’ll be doing today but I will be doing something today. Art is relaxing to me and helps me express my emotions when I am unable to identify them.

I, of course will be watching movies as well. I have chosen a handful of movies to watch on Hulu and Netflix. I do this so I have options on what movies I want watch. Since I don’t have cable anymore I have chosen the route of Hulu and Netflix. Having both is about fifty dollars cheaper for me to have.

I think I am going to get going and start off my weekend. Have a great weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Got Sleep?!?!

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Good Morning, World!!! Right now I am dealing with a major case of insomnia. Insomnia that meds won’t even work for. I took my Ambien right after my last post and well here I am still wide awake. Normally, taking the Ambien works but apparently it is not working tonight and it is frustrating as hell.

As frustrating as it is to not sleep at least I have been able to use my coping skills. Coping skills to help me through the night. The coping skills that I have been doing are art and reading. I have been painting as well as reading The Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb. At least my coping skills have been helpful to me tonight.

Thank you for reading. I hope everyone has a wonderful day. Peace Out, World!!!

Hoping For Some Sleep Tonight

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Good Morning, World!!! It is just after midnight in my neck of the woods and I am tired as hell. I didn’t sleep last night and I am hoping that I get some sleep tonight. For me sleep is important to maintain good mental health.

Something that I have been doing to help myself is art work. I have been painting most of tonight and it appears that it is helping me contain my emotions.

Another thing that has been helping is watching television. I am watching the Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon. For me laughter helps me be able to get into a good head space to be able to get some sleep.

I think I will get going and continue to watch Jimmy Fallon. Have a goodnight and peace out world!!!