Monthly Archives: August 2018

Why Can’t My Brain Turn Off

Posted on by Gertie

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am struggling at the moment with my brain not turning off. I am not sure why I can’t turn it off at the moment. I have had a pretty good day as I spent it with my family.

I am wondering why my brain won’t turn off and there are many reasons why. Reasons I can’t take care of till tomorrow. One has to do with DSHS paper work that has to do with human and/or computer error. Another reason is that a couple of my medical bill have gone to collections and I thought I took care of it with the appropriate people so it looks like I will be on the phone a lot tomorrow and maybe most of the week. Oh how I hate being on the phone for things I thought I already have taken care of.

All this is making me worry about money even more than I should be worried about it. Hopefully all this will be taken care of this tomorrow if not sometime this week. There is nothing I can really do right now as it is Sunday and have to wait to a weekday to deal with all this shit.

Dealing with all this shit isn’t helping much with my depression which sucks. But one thing that is helping with my depression right now is my cat. Having a cat that is willing to cuddle with you when you are down is quite helpful. I love Lil Gertie, my cat, so much.

Spending time with my family overnight and this morning was quite helpful with trying to turn my brain off as well. It helped a little but not as much as I would have hoped. I did enjoy spending time with my grandpa.

Now I have to figure out how to spend the rest of my day as I need to keep busy. I guess, I can do the usual stuff with doing art work, read, and spend time with neighbors and friends. I might even look for more jobs and apply for them. Another thing I can do is go for a walk as well as do household chores.

I want to thank you for reading about what is going on in my brain right now. I just hope everything works out as it needs to work out. Have a good Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Still With Family But Missing My Cat

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Good Morning, again, World!!! I am still spending time with my family. Mainly my grandpa and uncle. It is always nice to spend time with family but I am missing my cat right now. I know my cat is in good hands with my friend (who is a neighbor) taking care of Lil Gertie but I still miss her. I should be going back home today.

My uncle is taking me to the DSHS office to take care of some medical insurance issues due to the fact that they think I make more money than I actually make. I am glad that I have family to help me out with this stuff. I hope I can get it taken care of tomorrow without having to go to the Social Security office which is even a bigger nightmare.

I just wish my health was in better shape as this weird ass mouth infection is really getting to me. Having to be on a butt loud of antibiotics is not my idea of fun. I feel like that my health is affecting my mental health. My mental health is something I need to keep an eye on especially my depression. This is where I wish I was home with my cat but maybe being with my family is helping me with the depression to a degree.

My grandpa is making breakfast for a late breakfast early lunch. Maybe more like a brunch. Not sure what he is making but it sure smells good. Having a supportive family means a great deal. Even though their support is not as supportive as they think it is but their heart is in the right place.

I better go an see if my grandpa needs help making breakfast or lunch or whatever it is. I hope you all have a wonderful Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

Turns Out It Wasn’t My Appendix, So I Am Okay

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Good Morning, World!!! I went to the emergency room because I thought I was having a problem with my appendix. It turned out that my stomach issues were due to the antibiotics that I am on. I am still on the antibiotics because they are the best ones to be on to get rid of the weird ass mouth infection I have. The doctors still think I should still take the antibiotics till I see my doctor or when they run out.

Now on to a different subject. I stayed the night with my grandpa. I am still at his house. He is making waffles for breakfast. Spending time with my grandpa helps the both of us.

I think I am going to look for jobs and apply for them as I am getting really bored with the routine that I have now. I miss working and hope that some day soon that I can go back to work. Working does me good.

Another thing I will be doing is reading other people blogs and update myself on what others are doing in their lives. I haven’t done that in a long while. Reading other peoples blogs brings me hope.

Thank you for reading my blog. I hope to blog again later. Have a great Sunday everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

Not Feeling All That Well

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Good Morning, World!!! It is just after two in the morning on a Sunday in my corner of the world. I am spending the night at my grandpa’s house. I am not feeling so well. I am thinking I might wake up either my uncle or my grandpa to take me to the hospital as my stomach is in knots. Actually, where my appendix is, is where it hurts like hell and I feel like  I am going to vomit.  I think I am going to cut this post short at wake up my family to take me to the hospital. Better safe than sorry when it comes to ones appendix.

On a side not the Mariners beat the Dodgers in the tenth inning. Just wanted to add something other than me not feeling all that well.

I sure get going and get to the hospital. My family will take me. I hope everyone has a better start to their Sunday than me. Have a great Sunday. Peace Out, World!!!

Watching Sports & Applying For Jobs

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Good Evening, again, World!!! Right now I am watching the tenth inning of the Seattle Mariners versus the Los Angeles Dodgers. Right now it is tied four to four. I changed to the baseball game as the Seahawks lost to the Chargers. I am of course rooting for the Dodgers as I am originally from the Los Angeles area.  I was a little disappointed that the Seahawks lost.

As I have been watching various sporting events with my grandpa, I have also been applying for jobs. Jobs as a Peer Specialist. I am really wanting to get a job as it makes me feel like I am being a productive member of society if I am personally working.

I really should get going and start watching the Dodger versus Mariner game as I apply for jobs. Thank you so very much for reading even though I just posted a little over a half an hour ago. Have a good rest of your Saturday night. Enjoy the rest of what you have of your weekend. Peace Out, World!!!

Spending Time With Grandpa

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Good Evening, World!!! It is ten o’clock at night in my corner of the world. I have been spending time with my grandpa as I am staying the night at his place tonight. We went to Red Robin to have a nice meal with wonderful service. After eating at Red Robin, we came back to my grandpa’s place and I applied for a job.

A part time job as a peer specialist. I was going to apply for my jobs but I got to sleepy to do so, so I feel asleep for about three hours. Sleep that I desperately need. Now that I am up and awake I plan on applying for more jobs as a peer specialist.

I am looking forward to my volunteer job interview with the Seattle Art Museum (SAM) on Thursday. I am looking forward to this because it will help me gain more of a community in the art community. Plus if I get the volunteer job it will look good on the resume’.

No need to worry about Lil Gertie, my cat, as she is being taking care of my a friend of mine who happens to be a neighbor. A friend who is really good with animals. He should be called the animal whisper.

Well, I am going to get going and watch the news. Have a wonderful night everyone. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Just Another Boring Post

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I have decided I am not going to go volunteer tonight. I rather spend time with my grandpa watching the Seattle Seahawks preseason game. As much as I am not big American Football fan it’s always nice to spend time with my grandpa spending time with what he enjoys to do.

While spending time with my grandpa and uncle I plan on not only watching the Seattle Seahawk game, I plan on blogging as well as looking for and applying for jobs. I plan on doing this as I am extremely eager to go back to work. Working gives me a sense of purpose like volunteer does however work gives me more purpose.

As I spend time with my grandpa and uncle a good friend of mine who is a neighbor will be taking care of Lil Gertie, my cat, for me. He is very fond of my cat and I can trust him with Lil Gertie. I will miss Lil Gertie while I am gone even though it is just over night.

I am hoping that spending time with my grandpa and uncle that we can go out to eat on my treat to Red Robin. I am a big fan of Red Robin and the food they serve as well as their awesome service. It appears that the Red Robin event keep being put off and I hope this time it doesn’t get put off this time around.

In all honestly I most likely will be working on my resume’ and applying for jobs as I really want to get back to work. Not working is getting quite boring for me. Applying for work helps me feel productive even though I know I am productive in other ways in my life.

Thank you for reading my boring post. I thank you for reading my post. It is sincerely appreciated from my end of things. I hope I am not boring you with the same ole topics in my post. I’ll try to come up with new idea’s to discuss. Again thank you so much for reading my post. Peace Out, World!!!

A Shower Does A Soul Some Good (Plus Other Things)

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Good Afternoon, World!!! There is nothing like a good nice hot shower to help cleanse both the body and the soul. For me taking a shower is helpful for not just my soul but my depression.

After taking a shower, I decided to deep clean my cat’s kitty litter box. I tend to do this once a week as the normal cleaning of the litter box doesn’t always get rid of the germs; when you just scooping out the poop and pee.

I then did the dishes. After doing the dishes I mopped the kitchen and bathroom floors as well as some other household chores. Doing chores gives me a sense of accomplishment which helps with the soul or at least with my soul.

After I doing chores, I worked on a piece of art that I have been working on for about a week. Specifically, it is a painting that is almost finished. I just have to wait for the paint to dry to completely finish it as I need to do another layer of a different color paint.

As I wait for the paint to dry I read the fantasy novel I have been reading. I am really enjoying the book and am having trouble putting it down. On occasion I do put the novel down to read comic books. Specifically, Wonder Woman comic books.

So what I have been doing so far today has given me some hope as well as some peace. Hope and peace that my soul needed. My soul needed this because I needed to do some good self care.

I have realized that I need to do more self care for myself which includes doing everyday chores. Chores that mean taking out the trash and doing the dishes. Yes, I know doing simple chores may not be considered self care or something that helps one’s soul but for me it is self care and helpful for my soul. It also gives me hope and peace when I do fun things as well. Such as art work and reading.

Thank you for reading. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World

Attempted To Go Back To Sleep But A No Go

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Good Morning, again, World!!! I attempted to go back to sleep and was unsuccessful at it. I might as well as start my normal daily routine. Right now that includes having a cup of tea and reading the news paper. As always, there is never anything good in the news however having this morning routine gives me a since of accomplishment. It gives me something to do to start my day out.

At this moment in time I am a little worried about my health as my doctor wants me to see her every two weeks. I know she is doing it to be preventative so I am not going to the Emergency Room as much but it still worries me. She is also doing it to help be preventative with my mental health symptoms as well. I have had my doctor for nine years now and this is the worst she has seen me mental health wise even though my mental health symptoms are slowly improving.

My therapist will now being seeing me twice a week instead of once a week. It is kind of a similar way to the way my doctor is thinking, to try to keep me from using the Emergency Room too much. Plus, my therapist wants to get deeper into the things that are really bothering me like trauma related things. I don’t know if I like the idea of going deeper into things but if it ultimately helps me and my mental health then I am willing to give it a try.

Right now I need to get my mind off of things so I think I am going to go take a shower which always make me feel better. I will also have some breakfast because food is always a good thing for both your health and mental health.

After taking care of some basic needs I think I will do some good self-care things for myself before I go to my volunteer job. One way I will do some self care is by doing some art. Specifically, I will be doing some painting. After doing some painting, I’ll be doing some reading. I will be reading the fantasy novel as well a comic books. Reading helps me a great deal to get out of my own head and forget about the depression I am struggling with at the moment.

As much as my depression sucks, going to my volunteer job this evening will be quite helpful for me. It will help me focus that my problems aren’t as bad as others. Volunteering helps me get out of my own head. Helping others always helps me be in a better head place.

Now that I am done boring you half out of your mind, I will end this post for now. Thanks so much for reading my blog. It is very much appreciated from my end of things. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Have a good Saturday. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Tired To Stay Awake

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Good Morning, World!!! It is nine o’clock in the morning in my corner of the word and I am having trouble staying awake. I originally woke up at six o’clock in the morning and fell back to sleep. I have a feeling that I won’t be able to stay awake much longer after waking up this time. Not sure why I am so sleepy.

I am wondering why I am so sleepy has something to do with my depression creeping back into my life. I sure hope it is not the depression creeping back in. As shitty as depression can be, I am not one hundred percent sure that it is the reason why I am so sleepy.

I am thinking that maybe it is because my body is trying to become healthy again by fighting off the weird ass mouth infection I have. Sometimes your health can cause you to be more tired than usual to help heal the body.

On a side note I did listen to the Dodger versus Mariner game last night. The Dodgers beat the Mariners from 11 to 1. I am happy that the Dodgers won last night. I am a huge baseball fan and am hoping at least one of my teams makes it to the play offs.

Well, I think I am going to get going and go back to sleep. I just wish I knew why I was so freaking tired. I hope everyone has a good Saturday. Have a wonderful weekend everyone. Peace Out, World!!!