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Having A Tough Evening

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Hello, World!!! As the title of my post suggest, I am having a tough evening. An evening full of depression and grief. I’m still grieving over the death of my grandma. It hasn’t even been a two months since she passed away and I miss her so much, more and more everyday.

Something that I have been doing to help myself is my DBT skills.  Specifically, I have been reading. Reading Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb. I am really enjoying the book. If you are a Fantasy and/or Science Fiction fan, you would enjoy the book. In fact it is the first book in The Liveship Traders Trilogy. 

I am a huge fan of book series. I am a fan of series because I really get into the world the author created as well as the characters. Sometimes I cry at the end of a series because saying goodbye to the world and character of the author’s creation is difficult for me to do. Yes, I know it is not real however sometimes you spend more time with the series than your own family.  Or at least for me it is true.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Life Is About Choices

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As many folks around America and most likely the across the world, the dude known as the Affluenza Teen was released from jail the other day. He spent nearly two years in jail on a probation violation. It was his choice’s in life that got him on probation to begin with. Choice’s that should have given him actual time in prison but he chose to use his wealthy upbringing from “not knowing wrong from right” which I think is bogus. It was his choice to drink and drive that led to killing four innocent people.

I bring up the Affluenza Teen because everyone makes choices in their lives. Choice’s that affect other people whether it is a positive or negative choice. For me I have been thinking a great deal about the choice I have personally made in my life. Both the good and the bad. Choice’s I am proud of and choice’s I am not so proud of.

As I end this post about choice’s, I hope you reflect on the choice’s you have made in your life and how it not only affects you but others. Have a wonderful day no matter where you are. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Another Boring Post About Nothing

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Good Morning, World!!! I have been thinking about something and yes I know that is a scary thought. In fact the thing I have been thinking about is annoying the hell of me. The thing that is annoying me is that when I met with my new clinician yesterday he didn’t know his extension. I’m NOT annoyed with him because it was his first day but I am annoyed with myself for letting it get to me that he doesn’t know his extension.

I may be annoyed over something so minor or something what I consider minor however I am grateful that my new clinician is a Social Worker. Nothing against those who have a LMHC licensure, I just prefer dealing with Social Workers as they get a broader view of working with various individuals in many different aspects of life.

Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

All I Can Say Is That It’s Monday

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Good Evening, World!!! The title of this post says it all. Today, I had a “team meeting” with my now old case manager and Gilbert, who is now my old therapist and met with my new clinician. Not sure what to think of my new clinician but he appears to be a little timid. I just hope he is as direct with me as my case manager and Gilbert as directness is quite helpful for me.

Something else I did was go to Art Group. I love art. We were to paint one big flower to cover the page. I didn’t do that as I wanted to create a field of flowers. It didn’t come out as planned but I like it because I made a couple of focal points in my painting.

When I came home I read a chapter in my book. I am really enjoying my book and grateful that I now have the concentration to now focus on reading. Once, I am done blogging I think I am going to go back to reading. Right now my favorite genre is Fantasy (as well as Science Fiction) and proud of being considered a “geek” due to the genre.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

A Relaxing Sunday Planned

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Good Morning, World!!! As many of you know today is Easter Sunday and April Fool’s Day. I had planned to do some household chores today but decided to save that for another day.

Many people around the world are celebrating Easter Sunday. Actually, people who consider themselves to be Christian today is a big holiday for their faith. It is the resurrection of Jesus Christ.

As Christians around the world celebrate Easter, almost everybody around the world I am sure is going to be playing at least one practical joke on someone since it is April Fools day. I already played a joke on Junior and he returned the favor.

Besides doing April Fool’s jokes on Junior, I’m planning on doing some relaxing things today. I’ll be watching movies with Junior today. I’ll most likely also be reading and doing some art work.  If I do some art, I might share it with you all. Not sure but I might.

I think I’m going to get back to doing what I was doing and relax for the day. Have a wonderful day. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Blog
  • Clean
  • Read
  • Art (most likely coloring and/or collaging)
  • Mindfulness
  • Workbooks

Monday

  • Blog
  • Mindfulness
  • Read
  • Art Group
  • Meet new therapist with Gilbert and old case manager
  • Workbook

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Mindfulness
  • Read
  • Art
  • Clean
  • Workbook

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Mindfulness
  • Read
  • Art
  • Laundry
  • Workbook

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Mindfulness
  • Art
  • Workbook

Friday

  • Blog
  • Mindfulness
  • Art
  • Read
  • Clean
  • Workbook

Saturday

  • Be lazy =
  • Art +
  • Blog+
  • Reading

10 O’clock Ramblings About Baseball

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Hello, World!!! I have a lot on my mind to where going to bed at a decent time appears to not be an option. Or at least it seems like it is not an option at the moment. My depression is acting up along with the symptoms of my PTSD.

So, I am now watching the ten o’clock news here in Seattle to see what is going on in this world. It is the same shit different day. On a plus note it is finally Baseball season.

Baseball is my favorite sport. The Angels are my favorite team as I was born and raised in Anaheim. I do root for the Seattle Mariners when they aren’t playing the Angels or the Dodgers.

I love following the stats that go with being a baseball time. It’s the one time I understand and able to comprehend math.

I guess, I will finish watching the news and try to go back to bed. Goodnight and Peace Out World!!!

 

An Unexpected Hiatus

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Good Evening, World!!! I haven’t blogged in a while due to the fact that I was hospitalized for psych reasons. Well, mainly due to depression. As stated in my last post depression was (and is) biting me in the ass. Biting me in the ass so bad that hospitalization was the was the only way to keep myself safe.

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While in the hospital, the group I enjoyed most was music therapy. The genre that was brought up the most in music group were the eighties. Yes, the eighties. It appeared that no matter the age or generation of the individual, everyone agreed on eighties music. It is always nice when folks can agree on something as simple and as common as music.

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When I wasn’t attending groups, I was reading. Reading, Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb. I finally have enough consternation to read. I’ve only been attempting to read this particular book for months now and realize it was my depression getting in the way. It truly is an awesome book. A book worth reading and getting into. It is a book that is hard to put down.

Speaking of reading I want to end this post and get back to reading.  I hope everyone has a great rest of their Saturday. Peace Out, World!!!

Depression Biting Me in the Ass

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Good Morning, World!!! My depression is biting me in the fucking ass at the moment. Biting me in the ass severe enough that I am isolating myself from people. People that want to help but right now I am needing my space. Space from the world.

Spending time away from other people has me thinking about blogging. I am thinking about re-doing courses I have done and enjoyed doing that WordPress puts on for free. I am not sure which course I am going to re-do at the moment or if I am going to do multiple at the same time. I just know that when I do a course I feel a sense of accomplishment when I finish an assignment and the course.

Something else that gives me a sense of accomplishment is reading. There is something rewarding when get to the next chapter or find something new out about a character or the plot. Right now I am reading the Liveships Traders Trilogy by Robin Hobb. I am really getting into it as well as the characters.

When it comes to reading I prefer book series as it keeps me more interested in reading especially when I was a child and teenager. I don’t mind stand alone books, I just prefer book series. The characters tend to grow on me and I don’t really like saying goodbye which is why I prefer book series over stand alone books.

Thank you very much for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Pain, Pain, Go Away, Please

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Good Evening, World!! Right now I am frustrated with myself. Actually, I am frustrated with the pain I have in my hand. A pain which I caused a few days ago. A pain that is getting worse and not better.

In fact it was getting better along with the swelling starting to subside however it started getting worse this afternoon so I called the consulting nursing line. They asked what I was doing for pain control as well for the swelling. I informed them that I was taking Tylenol and/or Ibuprofen as direct by a doctor as well as icing it and mindfulness and meditation techniques. The nurse was quite surprised and is “impressed” by what I am doing. She suggested I go to the Emergency Room (E.R) and I think I am going to so that.

I will let you know what happens. Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!