Not Sure What Today Hold

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Good Morning, World!!! I didn’t sleep at all last night. It I am not exactly why but it happens especially when one has insomnia. At least I got to spend it with Billie on my lap while I read a Star Wars book most of the night.

As for today, I am not exactly sure what today holds since I didn’t sleep last night especially since it is ten o’clock in the morning; Seattle time. I most likely will end up taking a nap at some point today. When I get no sleep, I become a cranky bucket.

Besides taking a nap I plan on reading a Star Wars book as well as Wonder Woman comic books. It appears that I am back on a reading kick once again. I think it’s partly because I don’t want to deal with the realities of what is going on in the world as well as the fact that I am getting laid of on June 3rd which is this Friday.

Another thing I plan on doing is art. Not sure what type of are and might intertwine genres of art. Of course while doing art I will be listening to music as I create it. Not exactly sure what genre of music but I think it will all depend on the genre of art I choose to do.

I do not have much more to ay in this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Munchies

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Good Morning, World!!! It is two nineteen in the morning here is Seattle with my cat Billie laying next me. Honestly, I have the munchies and took too many of two my meds. I took too many to NOT die by suicided but lessen the pain I feel for my client who took their own life. I took the Xanax and Ambien numb myself and hopefully get sleep. Sadly, I can’t sleep and I have a big day ahead of me.

I got the munchies from the meds. I’m eating Ben and Jerry’s Half Baked ice cream as well as some cheese ball ship stuff and Cherry Pepsi. As I a eating I a listening to some music. In fact I feel high with the amount of med I took. No I am NOT suicidal, I jus need to numb myself.

After eating, I will continue to is to music with my cat, Billie by my side as well as do some art. Not sure what type of art but some form of it.

I don’t have a lot more to say expect I’m going to miss my client died by suicide. Thank you all for being there for me and I promise you I won’t do any harm to myself. Peace Out, World!!!!

Just Realized I Have a Four Day Weekend

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Hello World!!! I am just realizing that I have a four day weekend ahead of me because I forgot it was Memorial Day weekend so I am taking tomorrow (Friday) off to go to a four hour training that will help me with my chosen career. I also made a doctors appointment for tomorrow to follow up on some health care needs that I need to be taken care of.

First of all want to pay tribute to those who served in the military and paid the ultimate price for our country; death. They helped keep our freedoms and am grateful for their ultimate sacrifice.

Not on to some sad news that client of mine from work died by suicide. This was a shocker as this client worked really hard with their recover from depression and other stuff. This client is an inspiration to me in regards to keeping on the recovery path. I can not say more as I could be breaking the HIPAA Law. I am just sad that their depression got the better of them. At least they are no longer suffering.

On Saturday, I am going to go visit family and have some meals with them. It is always nice to spend time with family especially my grandpa. I love my grandpa so much. My grandpa is my hero.

On Sunday I will be volunteering at PAWS Cat City. I love volunteering with animals specifically. I look forward to Sunday mornings when I get some time with more kitties.

On Monday as well as other days when I have the time I will be reading a book. Not jut ay book but a Star Wars book. I love Star Wars and I love to read. I am really looking forward to this four day weekend.

Before I forget I will be spending time reading with my cat Billie which makes this weekend a good one.

On that note I don’t have much more to stay in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciate from my end that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you my reader reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. So thank you from the bottom of reading my blog. Peace Out World!!!

Not Sure How to Title this Post

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Good Evening, World!!! Not sure how to write this post as I have a lot to say but due to some legal stuff through like signing legal documentation about my lay off date as well as bad new about a client and due to HIPAA laws can’t disc close that. It’s hard to believe I have a week and half at my current employer. I’m sad that I am getting laid off especially from a job love.

On a good not I have job interview on June 6th and looking forward to it. If I get I hired, I don’t think I would like the commute since I will have to take public transportation which will take a while or take a LYFT which is expensive. I hope I get the job be I’m not holding my breath or counting my chickens at this point in time.

I think I will spend the rest of the day hanging out with my cat Billie reading a Star Wars book. Yes, I do like Star Wars. I’ve seen all he movie thus far not my goal is read all the Star Wars books. I know it’s weird but I need something to do as I apply for job, wait for interview and hope I get a job.

I don’t have much to say in this particular post. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It means a lot to me that you do. Peace Out, World!!!

The Very Little Things I Did Being Home Sick

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Good Evening, World!!! If you read my last post you would know I stayed home sick. I have done very little to day. I did spend a lot of time cuddling with my cat Billie especially when I was reading. I read a few chapter in Ship of Magic by Robin Hobb. So far I am enjoying it. I’ve also been reading Wonder Woman comic books.

I’ve been reading when I have not been sleeping. I hope I am able to go to work tomorrow especially since I only have two week left before my lay off date. I really don’t like sleeping during the day because I am afraid I might not sleep at night.

I don’t have anything else to say except I need to eat dinner and then cuddle with my cat Billie again. Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Home Sick From Work

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Good Morning, World!!!! Or at least it is still morning here in the Seattle area. As I look out the window it looks like the typical gloomy day of clouds and thankfully no drizzle or rain. In fact I won’t be working today because I feel sick due to the issues I had regarding bladder and kidney issues which doesn’t help the depression. So the gloomy skies of Seattle fit my mood of depression due to illness.

Since I’m not working today, it is going to be one o those days I spend in bed. I’ll be in bed with my cat Billie reading. I will be reading Science Fiction books as well as comic books. I most likely will be reading comic books. It just feels like a comic book type of sick day.

It will feel weird not working today because I usually work from home on Mondays. I did put my work laptop away so I wouldn’t be tempted to work and do what is needed for me to do. On that note, my cat will be happy to get more attention today since I am not working from home.

I don’t have much more to say. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. So thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Not the Weekend I Was Expecting

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Good Evening, World!!! This weekend didn’t turn out as planned. I was planning on going to a street fair in my neighborhood both yesterday and today as well as volunteer at PAWS Cat City this morning. Sadly, I cancelled those plans due to needing to go to the hospital late Friday night /early Saturday morning. I was unable to urinate for nearly twelve hours so I went to the hospital to get medical care. Good news is now I a am able to pee. Bad news is I have a bladder infection, a kidney infection in both kidney’s as well as kidney stones in both kidney’s. I do have meds on board and schedule an appointment with my regular doctor the Friday, May 27th.

I didn’t go to the street fair yesterday because I was at the hospital all night so I slept all day. I didn’t go to the street fair today because I’m just so tired from the meds they gave me. I missed going this year because they didn’t have the street fair in 2020 or 2021 due Covid-19. I miss hearing the music and seeing all the art at the street fair. Most of all I miss hanging out with friends eat street fair food. I did have friends bring street fair food to me hereat home and am grateful for that.

Another thing I missed doing was volunteering at PAWS Cat City this morning. I love being able to start the day by doing cleaning duties, playing with the cats and helping cats find furrever homes. I love volunteering at PAWS Cat City.

On that note I go to spend the day with Billie my cat all day as well as eat fair food brought to me by friends and hanging out with them in my home for a couple of hours. I was and am able to enjoy the art the bought for me. I was also able to listen to music from Spotify as well a read comic books. Even though my weekend plans didn’t go as planned I was able to do so self care and Billie my cat as well as friends and neighbors helping me out. Loved being able to enjoy art and street fair food brought by friends. Also loved being able to read comic books and listen to music as I hung out with my cat Billie.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I just want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Just a rambling of a post

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Happy Friday, Everyone. Well at least it is still is here in Seattle for another few minutes. My depression is action up and at least I know my meds are work for my depression. I just need to use the skills in my tool box and WRAP plan the help lessen the depression. In fact Billie, my cat is helping with my depression.

Sadly, depression is increasing my self harm urges is why I am focusing on my self care plan. My self-care play is to continue to listen to music and do art. Also I will be going to a street fair tomorrow (Saturday). The last time this street fair happened was in 2019 and was cancelled in 2020 and 2021 due to Covid019. I’m looking forward to attending.

As far as my self harm urges, I plan on working on my skills to keep myself sane. Of course Billie will be a big help with that.

I don’t have much more to say except thank you for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Peace Out!!!

Just a Blog About My Day

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Good Evening, World!!! Today was a hard and busy day at work. I had two appointments with clients, a clinical meeting, called twenty-three client and wrote note on the client I saw and called. The best part such a busy day, I still managed to get my one hour lunch. I love that my current employer gives us an hour lunch and we get paid for it. Having a “meal” or something to eat during the work day unless you’re fasting for religious reasons one of the few mandatory rule we had. Of course seeing clients and writing notes on clients in a timely manner is also mandatory. I love my job and I am sad that I am getting laid off. I just wish my was not going to close. I love my job for many reasons. My clients are amazing and seeing their recovery process is awesome. Having great colleagues even the one that don’t like one another were civil and professional about it. Mostly it was that I felt support by my colleagues and supervisor. I supervisors who were not micromanagers which is why I was able to what I needed to do at work today.

Now that I am off work for the day, I’ve decided to do some self care. I started by going for a walk in this beautiful Seattle weather has I listened to music. When I got home from my walk I read a couple of chapter in the novel I am reading and then read a couple of comic books. After that I did some art as I listened to music my recovery play list. Of course, my cat Billie “helped” with my art work. Now, as I write this blog I’m still listening to music from recovery playlist as Billie lays on my legs. Doing this self care is helping me with the grief of being laid of from a job I love with a passion.

The grief with being laid of is real for me and many of my colleagues. It hasn’t been easy the last almost three months but I have faith that my colleagues and I will get through this grief together and in our own ways.

I don’t have much more to discuss in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading it. It is greatly appreciated from end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you so very much from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out World!!!

1,000 Followers

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Hello, World!!! Today, has been an unexpected. First I found out that I have reached over one thousand followers on this blog. It is slightly surprising to find out that my first blog post was on May 31, 2014 and it’s taken this long get a thousand followers but I’m okay with that. I’m okay because I know my blog it not everyone cup of tea.

I started this blog to help lesson the stigma of having a mental health challenge as well as to educate other the people like me can be productive members of society no matter how it looks for the individual person. I also started blogging in hope to give others dealing with mental health challenges hope and that recovery look different for everyone.

I’ve discussed many things on this blog. Everything from self care to having a diagnosis to therapy and meds. We even discussed stigma as well as working creating a life worth living. I am grateful that as of right now life is worth living for me at the moment and I hope you can get to that point as well.

I do not have much more to say except thank to all my thousand followers for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It means the world to me. Peace Out, World!!!