Lack of Human Interaction Sucks Shit

First and fore most, having Covid-19 sucks shit even when you are able to be home dealing with it which I am grateful for. The lack of sleep I got suck shit but at lease I am home dealing with it. The isolation is what sucks the most. I can’t visit friends, neighbors or family which makes it quite lonely. On the plus note I least get to talk with my friends and family on the phone. My neighbors has been quite helpful with getting me what I need and leaving it at my door so there is no interaction there. being lonely sucks but I at least I know people care about me. Even my work and volunteer jobs are checking in on me which makes me as lonely as I am at times. At least I know people care about me.

I desperately miss volunteering at Cat City and know that I will be back in February as a precaution to fellow volunteers, employers and the adopters, adopting cats. I just want to make sure nobody gets Covid from me. They same thing goes for my work situation at work. I don’t want to give Covid to my colleagues or my clients.

As far as my friends and family, I don’t want them having Covid either which is why I am not going to have any plans with them for at least month if not two months. Yes, all that isolation will make me lonely but at least I have blogging as well as social networking like Facebook.

I am thinking why I am feeling like this is due to the lack of sleep from last night and me being a cranky bucket. I hate being cranky buck it.

I do have to say that I will have some human interaction when I go back to work tomorrow. I just need to go back to work so I can feel productive. I may not be back to a hundred percent but I am feeling well enough to work from home. My employer is very cool about taking care of one self.

As far as my cat goes, I am grateful for him. He has been loving on me and not making me feel so lonely. I love my Billie Boy. He is an amazing kitty and I love him so much.

I am getting really tired due to the lack of sleep last night. So I think I will now take a nap now. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Belated New Year’s and Peace Out World!!!

Not My Ideal Way to Start Off a New Year

Happy Belated New Years, World!!! I want to apologize for posting a late New Year’s post as I came up Covid-19 positive. Which has worn me out completely. I did go to the hospital; specifically the emergency room as I thought I either had strep through, the flu or an a reaction the the booster shot. Turns out I ended up having Covid. Now the way I thought I would been ending the year of 2021 or starting they year 2022. On a plus note at least the Emergency Room (ER) sent me home instead of hospitalizing me. I take it as a good sign they sent me home. I get diagnosed on December 30th of 2021 and was not able to work at all for four days due to how shitty I felt from having Covid.

As shitty has having Covid is, I am taking a leave of absence from my volunteer to job at PAWS Cat City for the month of January so I can make sure I have enough time to become symptom free and be able to quarantine the ten days after being symptom and able to get one negative Covid test back so I can go back to volunteering in February. I will miss volunteering with the cats as well as helping find the right cat for their furrever home with a human that loves them

As far as work goes, I called out sick due to Covid-19 for four days even though I can work from home. I was just feeling shitty as hell. I did go to work (from home) this past Friday as I was feeling better to be able to work. My employer appears to be supportive of me and my colleagues when we are sick with whatever we are sick with be they are more supportive when it comes to Covid-19.

I did end up having to go to the hospital emergency room when I first noticed the symptoms I was having. I went because I wasn’t sure if I was have a reaction to the Covid booster I received the day before I went to the emergency room or if it was the flu because it felt like a really bad flu. Turns out it was Covid and that my booster had nothing to do with me getting Covid. My entire family got tested and all them were negative but my mom is still waiting on her results of her test. I’m hoping it is negative as then I think I know where I got it from. It most like would have been from the hotel I stayed at. Any way I feel like the hospital wouldn’t have sent me home with Covid if it wasn’t a minor case even though Covid feels like hell even when you are sent home. I am beyond grateful to be home with Covid than to be in the hospital with Covid.

There is know place like home even if you feel like shit especially from Covid. It’s is nice to be home with my wonderful loving cat Billie Dean. Billie is such a loving cat the enjoys snuggling with me especially when I am not feeling will.

As far as work goes, I will be working from home till I am symptom free for ten days with two negative Covid test in a row before going back to the office two days a wake. I like how they want to protect my colleagues and clients a like.

My volunteer job like the fact that I am taking a leave of absence for the month of January to protect employees, volunteers and potential adopters from Covid especially since I am not sure when my symptoms will be gone and able to do the post symptomatic quarantine and able to get tested with a hopefully negative test.

As much as I am grateful that I am home sick with Covid and have the luxury of being able to work from home now that I am felling somewhat better, I am thrilled that I have my cat, Billie Dean to keep me company. I do miss face to face human interaction. Billie, my cat hasn’t exactly left my side since getting Covid as I think he want’s to make sure I am taken care of by him. I love my cat so very much.

On the note it snowed in Seattle and I am grateful that it is gone as I highly dislike snow even when I am stuck home sick with Covid. Seattle basically shuts down at any chance of snow. Snow is not my friend.

Honesty, I am really missing volunteering at this very moment as that is what I would be doing this very moment if I didn’t have Covid-19. I miss playing with other cats and able to do what I need to do start the day at PAWS Cat City. I love volunteering at Cat City. I just want to expose my the employees, potential adopter and fellow volunteers with Covid.

As sucky the ending of 2021 was and how sucky the beginning of 2022 is due to having Covid, I am happy that Covid did not get my hospitalized. Getting Covid was not my ideal way end one year and start a new year but at least I am not hospitalized because of it. At least I get to be home spending it with my cat, Billie Dean. I love the fact the Billie is more cuddly at the moment due to me not feeling well. I am also grateful that I am feeling better to be working from home despite how tired I get. I love my job and that my work understands the need to work from home due to Covid.

I do not have much more to stay in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog as if wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It means a great deal that you read my blog. Happy New Years and Peace Out, World!!!

First Day of Vacation

Happy Holidays, World!!! Today is my first day of vacation. I have today and the next ten days off from work. I love my job with a passion. I just need a break especially since I have a challenging time during the holiday season.

Today, is just a day to relax and enjoy being home with my cat, Billie Dean. I have packed to go to my mom’s tomorrow (Christmas Eve) evening after celebrating Christmas with my dad’s side of the family. Only thing left to pack up is Billie’s stuff as he will be staying at my grandpa’s when I am visiting my mom in Olympia. I will wait till tomorrow to do it as it is mainly his food and dishes as he already has the other stuff at my grandpa’s. I plan on watching movies and television the rest of the day.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Holidays and Peace Out, World!!!

A Day Off for Self Care

Good Afternoon, World!!! I took today off as a mental health day. I just needed to do it for the sake of both my mental health and physical health. I spent a great deal of the day of self care. It was the perfect day to do inside self care stuff as the weather in Seattle has be unpredictable today;

So, I spent part of the listening to music and the other part of the day listening to a podcast about philosophy. The specific music I was listening to was Christmas music and the philosophy podcast that I was listening to was “Philosophize This.”

As I listened to Christmas music or “Philosophize This” I did a multitude of things. The obvious thing I did was give my cat, Billie Dean, plenty of attention. Of course Billie loves all the attention I give him. Other things that I did was art work. Specifically, I colored. I colored various types of mandala’s. Another thing I did was put some jigsaw puzzles together. The puzzle isn’t complete put it is starting to look like what it’s suppose to look like. So that is what I did for my self care mental health day off.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog, I wouldn’t be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great Monday evening. Happy Holidays, and Peace Out, World!!!

Mr. Sandman Forgot to Stop by my Place so I Could Not Sleep

Good Morning World!!! It is 2:34 in morning here in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. My neck of the woods happens to be nothing but concrete buildings and the not the natural woods. It would nice to be some time in nature instead of a concrete forest known as a city. In my cast it would the concrete city of Seattle.

I will be taking a mental health day from work later today. I am grateful that my work is so understanding with needing to take time off. My job is really extremely supportive and I appreciate it. They are big into doing good self care.

I know eventually, I will bet some sleep at some point today but I do have plans to do some good self care stuff. I am planning on listening to Christmas music while I do some art work by coloring color pages that are Christmas pictures. I also plan on listening to Christmas music while putting Christmas/wintery puzzles together.

I most likely will be doing other self care stuff but right now I just want to sleep as Mr. Sandman forgot my place for me to sleep. I just want to sleep. Of course my cat, Billie Dean will be apart of my self care which will be sleeping. He will be playing later when I am not so tired. I think he is okay with not playing right now.

I do not know have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is really appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, does read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Holidays and Peace Out, World!!!!

Taking A Mental Health Day Off on Monday

Good Sunday Evening, World!!! Or at least it is still Sunday evening in my corner of the world known as Seattle. I have decided that I will be taking tomorrow, Monday, off from work for a mental health day. My depression and PTSD are sadly acting up so I am taking tomorrow (Monday) off.

I am grateful that I work in the mental health field at a mental health agency that supports taking mental health days off. I feel bad because I’m taking it off in the middle of the holiday season when I know I will be on vacation in a few days. I feel bad because a handful of my clients are not doing so well mental health wise. I know they will be okay as I know they have the resources but I feel like I am letting my clients down as well as my colleagues down.

On that note, I need to take care of myself to be able to help both my clients and my colleagues. So, what I am planning on doing rest of this evening (Sunday) is to listen to a podcast about philosophy while my cat Billie Dean lays on my lap. The philosophy podcast my cat, Billie and myself will be listening to is Philosophize This.” I really enjoy this podcast and it appears that Billie chills out listening to the podcast as the podcaster, Steven West has a calming voice.

As far as self care tomorrow, I am not sure what I am going to do for self care. I know I will be spending much needed time with my cat, Billie. Billie is helping me through the holiday season and I have had a great deal of trauma as child around Christmas time. So, Billie will be helping me tomorrow. I will be doing other self care stuff but not sure what at the moment.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a great rest of their Sunday evening. Happy Holidays and Peace Out, World!!!

A Friday Morning Post

Good Morning, World!!! Well, at least it is still morning in my corner of the world here in Seattle. Normally, I would be working right now. I would be working from the office today but took the day off to do some trainings that are actually webinars that I could watch anytime but I wanted to have the day off today. Yes, I will be watching the training webinars later today when I know I struggle more with my depression and anxiety.

Anyway, I will be spending a few hours with my grandpa today for some family time with him. We are going to get me a new cell phone as mine is on the frits after having it for four years. My grandpa will be taking me to get some food as well. Food from my favorite restaurant of Red Robin. I love Red Robin. Besides a new phone and Red Robin, I will be doing some of my Christmas shopping. Not all of it but just some of it. I only celebrate Christmas because of my grandpa and somewhat for my mom as my mom just has me and my brother. Christmas gives me an excuse to spend time with family even if they are dysfunctional but I love them them. I personally celebrate another other holiday that I will discuss later.

On that note, Billie Dean, my cat is thrilled I am home at the moment. I think he is noticing that my anxiety and depression are acting up as he has been more lovey dovey or “clingy” lately especially after and issue I had with a work colleague. I love my job and enjoy working with my colleagues including the one I am having an issue with however I am grateful for Billie’s love and attention when things aren’t exactly going the way I want such as increased depression and anxiety symptoms.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope everyone has a good holiday season even if we are still stuck in a middle of a pandemic. Peace Out, World!!!

Dealing With Some Work Issues

Good Evening, World!!! It is Thursday evening here in my corner of the world known as Seattle. Seattle weather has be grey and misty like it is typical Seattle weather. The weather isn’t exactly helping my depression but at least I know what to do to take care of myself.

So, yesterday, I finally had it with a colleague that has been bullying me so I went to Human Resources (HR) about it. I’ve been having high anxiety about going to HR about being bullied but on that note yesterday (Wednesday) was the day that broke the camels back. I don’t want my colleague in trouble. I just want my colleague to realize not everyone is going to have the same response to this persons news. Anyway, I made sure HR knew that I don’t want this colleague in trouble. I want this person educated not everyone is going to have the same response and that this persons response to my response was not the best way to react to how I reacted in the way this person wanted. I am worried about retaliation with this person but I am doing what I need to do for self care.

As far as my self care, I am listening to a philosophy podcast as I am doing art work. Specifically, I am coloring as I listen to the philosophy podcast, “Philosophize This.” It seems to be helping me deal with being bullied at work.

Of course, Billie Dean, my cat has been quite helpful with this bullying issue that I have been having with a colleague. He is supporting me emotionally. I love my cat and am happy that Billie gives me the support I need.

I am also grateful that HR is being supportive of the situation which is quite unusual from my personal experience at previous employers. I really hope the person, I narked on doesn’t get officially in trouble. I just want this person to realize that I felt bullied and to be educated on bullying.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have a good night and Peace Out, World!!!

Just a Bunch of Rambling

Good Evening, World!!! Happy Hanukkah to those who are Jewish and celebrating this miracle holiday. In all honesty I get the feeling this particular blog post will go in all sorts of different directions as I seem scatter brained today.

Surprisingly, as I type this particular blog I am listening Christmas music. I guess it’s the season to do so. At least it is bringing me joy as I type this blog. Listening to Christmas music brought me joy at work as well. No, Christmas music was not playing when I was in session with clients. I guess the Christmas music helped me be productive with work today or at least the note taking part of my job.

Speaking of work, I have some pretty awesome colleagues. My small group team, I am a member of is an amazing group of people. I adore all my colleagues especially the ones that are on my small team. I really do like my supervisor. She is awesome.

After my work shift ended I decided to continue to listen to Christmas music while doing art work. My cat, Billie Dean wanted to help. So, some of my artwork is quite a bit more unusual than normal. I really love my cat and his “helpfulness” with the art work.

My depression has been acting up which is why I’ve been making some art work while listening to Christmas music. I am planning on giving my art work away as gifts during this holiday season to my friends and family.

I am grateful for the friends and family I have in my life. They truly do love and care about me. Billie, my cat is now trying to help me type this particular blog post. I feel the love from my colleagues, friends, family and my cat Billie.

I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Happy Hanukkah to those of you who are celebrating it. Peace Out, World!!!

A Not So Normal Wednesday but So Far So Good With Some Sad Moments

Good Afternoon, World!!! I am off work and have been for just over three hours now. My employer decided to close the agency I work for early today. So, I work for four hours and get paid for eight hours. I’m complaining about working for four hours and getting paid for eight hours.

Anyway, right now I am home alone without my cat, Billie Dean. Billie is at my grandpa’s house so I can do some major deep cleaning to where I will be using chemicals not good for cat. Billie will be coming home on Saturday. So, I did some cleaning right after I was done with work. I did more cleaning and chores than I thought I would do after work.

After work and house cleaning I went for a walk. A walk that led me to my volunteer job to spend fifteen minutes with some cats since my cat, Billie is with my grandpa. It felt good to get some kitty time. After visiting some cats, I walked and picked up some incense which helps me with my self care. After picking up some incense, I walked to the bank and got some cash as well as some quarters for laundry. The walk helped a great deal.

I am now home listening to a podcast about philosophy with incense burning as part of my self care which is even helping me more. I am listening to the philosophy podcast “Philosophize This” as I learn a great deal from this podcast.

Doing my self care today is key for me as tomorrow is Thanksgiving Day which mark exactly two years since my last cat, Lil Brooke crossed over the rainbow bridge. I really miss Lil Brooke with all my heart. On that note if it wasn’t for loosing her, I wouldn’t have been come a volunteer at PAWS Cat City here in Seattle. I also wouldn’t have had the chance to adopt my current cat Billie Dean.

Speaking of my cat Billie, he is at my grandpa’s right now and tomorrow is Thanksgiving Day which means, I will be at my grandpa’s celebrating Thanksgiving with my grandpa, dad, my two uncles and of course my cat Billie. I am looking forward to seeing Billie tomorrow and then coming home and deep cleaning my apartment.

Despite the multiple emotions of today, it has over all been a good day with some sad moments. I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Have you all have a great rest of your Wednesday. If you live in the United States I hope you have a great Thanksgiving tomorrow. Peace Out, World!!