Tag Archives: Medication

The Waiting Game

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Good Morning, World!!! It is nine thirty-six in the morning here in Seattle. I am waiting for UPS to deliver on of my medications and I am getting frustrated. I have never had any of my medications delivered before and I am not if I am going to ever do it again. This is why I prefer going to a brick-and-mortar pharmacy as I hate the waiting grame.

As I wait for UPS to deliver my medications, I will be doing some artwork as my cat, Billie sleeps in my lap as he snores. The type of artwork I am planning on doing is diamond art/painting. In fact, I will be working on the one I started yesterday, the diamond art/painting of a tuxedo cat in a tree. The reason why I chose the one I am working on is because I am partial to tuxedo cats as my cat, Billie is a tuxedo cat. I really do enjoy doing diamond art/painting.

I do not have anything else to discuss or write about in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you the reader for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated on my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be continuing to write my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Working on My Recovery

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Good Evening, World!!! I am realizing that my recent trauma is causing a lot of shit to happen in my life and I am allowing some of it to happen. Some of the shit I can control while some of it I cannot. The things I can control, I hope will help with the things I cannot control.

One of the things that I have come to the conclusion of is attending a twelve step meeting that focuses on how I react and nurture myself coming from a dysfunctional family that is full of alcoholics. The particular meeting I am attending focuses on what I can do to nurture myself as well as how I react to my dysfunctional family. As anyone who is in a 12-step program is aware of, is that attending ninety meetings in ninety days is highly suggested as well as having a “home group” to attend.

Attending therapy regularly for me is a major part of my recovery. Talk therapy helps me a great deal as does other types of therapies such as DBT, CBT and Motivational Interviewing (MI). I think my therapist does a lot of Motivational Interviewing with me as well as some DBT.

Of course working on workbooks is helpful for me when it comes to my recovery. There so many different workbooks out there that are helpful. One that I am working on now focuses on mental health recovery.

One thing that also helps me is taking medicine for my anxiety, depression and PTSD. If I didn’t take meds it would make everything else I do for my recovery much more challenging to do but it is also not the only thing.

As I have mentioned in a previous post doing at least two mindfulness meditations a day helps a great deal. It helps me start and end my day with a mostly clear mind. It also helps a great deal with my anxiety.

Acupuncture helps my depression and anxiety a lot as well as helps with physical health issues.

Lets not forget my cat Billie helps. He is extremely helpful.

I don’t have much more to discuss in this blog post. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Billie Not Liking Me At the Moment Even Though He Still Loves Me

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Good Morning, World!!! I took Billie for a follow dental appointment. As a precautionary procedure they I giving Billie antibiotics as one of the sites isn’t getting better but not getting worse so I chose to do antibiotics. Billie isn’t liking it. He may not like me for a few minutes but I know he still loves me. He still wanted his morning loving after the antibiotic.

My cat means the world to me and I love him with all my heart. Having an Emotional Support Animal (ESA) has greatly helped me with my recovery and mental health symptoms. I’m grateful for my last cat Lil Brooke and my current cat Billie.

Thank you for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me the you the reader read my blog. If it was not for you the reader reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. So thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

My Meds Aren’t Working

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Good Morning, Word!!! My medication is not working. Friend and family are saying that it appear that I am on drugs when I am not on drugs. MY meds aren’t working like they are suppose to. My friends and family think I am using drugs when in reality my meds are not working properly. The last thing I want is people thinking I am on drugs.

On that note, I let my doctor, therapist and psychiatrist know vie email and phone call. I know that is a bit much but I just wanted to make sure they were made aware of it. Plus my meds are making me funny and they should know about that. I hope they get back to me soon.

Television Not Working; Time to Read

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Good Afternoon, World!!! My television stopped working and not sure why. That means I get to catch up on some reading. I’m hoping my uncle or grandpa can help me with my television as I like to watch the news. I like to know what is going on in the world.

Granted the news can cause some anxiety but I like to know what is going on in the world. Despite the news being depressing, I think I will read a book. I have two choose books to choose from and i think I am going to read the singleton book ss the the other three books are a serious of books.

Another think I am going to to do is listen to a podcast about philosophy. I learn a great deal from philosophy. I listen to it by podcast. I’m glad I’m learning stuff about different subjects.

I think I need to go now. i am getting tired from my med. Thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out World!!!

Middle of the Night Munchies

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Good Morning, World!!! It is two nineteen in the morning here is Seattle with my cat Billie laying next me. Honestly, I have the munchies and took too many of two my meds. I took too many to NOT die by suicided but lessen the pain I feel for my client who took their own life. I took the Xanax and Ambien numb myself and hopefully get sleep. Sadly, I can’t sleep and I have a big day ahead of me.

I got the munchies from the meds. I’m eating Ben and Jerry’s Half Baked ice cream as well as some cheese ball ship stuff and Cherry Pepsi. As I a eating I a listening to some music. In fact I feel high with the amount of med I took. No I am NOT suicidal, I jus need to numb myself.

After eating, I will continue to is to music with my cat, Billie by my side as well as do some art. Not sure what type of art but some form of it.

I don’t have a lot more to say expect I’m going to miss my client died by suicide. Thank you all for being there for me and I promise you I won’t do any harm to myself. Peace Out, World!!!!

Sound Asleep & Woke Up With an Asthma Attack

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Good Very Early, Morning, World!!! I am not a happy camper right now. I was sound asleep and woke of from an asthma attack. Someone or maybe multiples someone’s are smoking in their individuals are smoking in their apartments which is creeping into the hallway and into other apartments. Apartments of those who don’t smoke cigarettes and/or weed. I don’t smoke cigarettes nor do I smoke weed due allergies of the cigarette smoke and it causing me asthma attacks like the pot smoke does.

It is against the lease to smoke in our units and inside common areas and the community patio. Sadly, the management can’t do anything about because there needs to be witnesses and/or proof which fucking sucks. You need to be breathing and alive to be able to pay rent and if a resident dies due to asthma attack from the cigarette and/or pot smoke then the family has everyone right to sue the management company for not doing shite about it. Thankfully my emergency inhaler worked.

I don’t have much more to say this blog post. I am tired has hell. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my hear for reading my blog. Have good Saturday ahead of you all even if it’s 3:38 in morning or at least it is in Seattle. Peace Out, World!!!

Taking A Sick Day From Work

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Good Morning, World!!! I am taking a sick day from work today. I am taking it off today because one of my disabilities is sadly acting up. I did let my supervisor know via text to her cell phone as well as an email to her work email and a voicemail to her office phone. I just wanted to make sure I covered my ass even though my supervisor is beyond awesome. I admire my supervisor and how well she works with clients. I also did let Human Resources (HR) know that I am out due to my disability. I let HR know it was disability related to also cover my ass. I do plan on letting my supervisor know tomorrow when I am in the office that I was out due to my disability. I do not fear getting fired for calling out sick especially when it comes to my disability. I don’t tell my supervisor the full story about being out due to disability because I don’t want to put her in an awkward situation if people ask her why. My direct supervisor and the HR director are both amazing people.

Since I am taking care of my health today by taking care of my disability, I still plan on doing some reading for work. Both of the books that I am reading help me both professionally and personally. I am really enjoying the books and have started another blog post about these books and how they intersect with my professional and personal life.

The one thing I did do was go to the pharmacy to pick up my medication. Picking up my meds was extremely important because they help with my health issues as well as with my disabilities. So, I am happy that I got my meds.

Since I am hope sick from work I not only will be spending it reading the books I mentioned earlier in this blog post, I am spending the day with my cat, Billie Dean without any interruption. I love my cat so very much. The weather here in Seattle today makes it easy to spend it reading as I hang out with my cat, Billie.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Not wanting to be a Cranky Bucket at Work

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Good Morning, World!!! I am unable to sleep again. I don’t think not going into work isn’t an option at the moment as the clients I have today are struggling with some minor crisis. I need to find someway to get somewhat of a better night of sleep.

One of those ways is to take a sleeping pill but sadly it makes me groggy but at least the grogginess at least goes away with time but not quick enough. I really don’t want to be a cranky bucket at work. I also don’t want to call in sick due to the lack of sleep. I really love my job. My job means the world to me.

On the plus note at least my cat has been extra lovely Dovey with me. Billie Dean is an amazing cat and I love him so much. I may have rescued him but I think he was and is the one doing the rescuing of me. Billie is really a great lap cat and helps me not be a cranky bucket when I have to start work at eight in the morning Seattle time.

I am thinking I might have to take a my sleeping meds so I can get some sleep so I am not a cranky bucket at work. I don’t have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader for reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart from reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Little Buzzed

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Hello, World!!! I’m a little buzzed from drinking some alcohol. I normally don’t drink but thought I would have a couple tonight. I don’t like the feeling of being buzzed. Alcohol and my meds usually don’t mix so I’m not sure if I will take them tonight as I don’t want to cause any problems.

Some people would say drinking alcohol during a painful time in my life is not wise and they would be correct. I realize this as I choose to not drink but on an occasional basis. I’m not drinking to make the pain go away or to escape it. I just thought I would enjoy some Irish Cream in my hot chocolate.

I miss my grandma and want to make her proud. I’m not sure how to do that right now but I want to make her proud of me.

Thank you for reading.