Monthly Archives: May 2018

Cat = Help With PTSD

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Good Morning, World!!! I woken up by Lil Gertie. She licked me smack dab on the nose. Some how this cat knows when I am having a nightmare or some other symptom of PTSD. I’m not sure how she knows but she knows.

I think once I am done blogging this post, I will read. Read about Buddhism. I am learning so many different things about this religion. A religion that knows that you’re going to struggle yet doesn’t shame or guilt you into a being something you are not. It encourages you to strive to be the best you are.

Having a faith in something spiritual is key to being in recovery for anyone. It doesn’t have to be Buddhism or even Christianity. Just as you have faith in something. For me it is Buddhism. Or at least for now it is because I am looking into it, to make sure it is the right faith for me.

Thank you for reading. Have a good morning. Peace Out, World!!!

Middle of the Night Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I just got done watching the Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon. He is a very funny person. I am planning on going to bed within the next hour. Lil Gertie is smack dab in the middle of my bed. If she is still there when I go to be, I will move her.

I am planning on watching M*A*S*H after I am done blogging. Watching something that is a comedy or has humor involved helps with my anxiety especially before bed. Some how laughter helps me sleep.

I haven’t really done much all day as I didn’t have much planned but an interview that got cancelled. It was a nice and relaxing day for me. I read a great deal. I read about Buddhism. I also read Buddhist Scriptures.

Thank you for reading. Goodnight and Peace Out, World!!!

Fun Doesn’t = Anxiety

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I am sitting here blogging as I watch The Ellen Show on television. Lil Gertie is sitting by my side purring. I have been having anxiety all day and Lil Gertie has been helping. Watching Ellen is proven to be helpful as well. It has proven to be helpful due to the fact she is funny as hell. I would love to be in the audience of the Ellen Show but fear being on television.

I have been working on my scrapbook a great deal today. It is starting to come along. I am looking forward to showing it to people including my therapist. Since my therapist is new to me, showing him a scrap book of what is important to me might help him get to know me a little bit more. Scrap booking is like painting for me. It is a way to express my emotions.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Late Morning Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I am a little disappointed as I went to my job interview and it didn’t happen. It didn’t happen because one of the interviewers wasn’t there due to a family emergency. So, the interview got rescheduled for next Monday.

Now that I am home, I have been scrap booking. I have been adding pictures of Lil Gertie as well as Wonder Woman items. So, I have been adding two of my favorite things; my cat and my favorite super hero. I love to scrap book.

Lil Gertie has been helpful to me regarding my anxiety today. Not job interview anxiety but anxiety as a whole. Anxiety that appears to be reduced by Lil Gertie.

I think I am going to get going. Thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Kitty Talk Plus Other Stuff

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Good Morning, World!!! I was able to get back to sleep after being woken up by my cat early this morning. Lil Gertie did this adorable yet loud meow to wake me up. She woke me up in the middle of a nightmare. A nightmare that is horrific.

I have a job interview today at my previous employer. An interview for a Peer Specialist in their Substance Use Disorder (SUD) program. I am looking forward to the interview. I hope I get the job.

Apparently, Starbucks is closing early today. They are closing early to discuss with their employees about race and racism. It is about fucking time Starbucks discusses this situation. I don’t go into Starbucks because of the employees racist remarks as well as other discriminatory remarks.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Gotta Love My Kitty

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Good Morning, World!!! My cat has this adorable meow that tends to startle me at this hour in the morning. I love her so much. At this hour in the morning all she wants to do is play. She is an amazing little kitty. I’ve noticed she does her cute playful meow this time of morning when I am having a nightmare. I think she does it to wake me up from the nightmare to prevent it from getting worse. I don’t know how animals are able to sense it but they do.

I finally was informed on how much I earned from the advertisements and it is not all that much. I just have to wait to get it till it reaches the one hundred dollar mark to be able to claim it which sucks shit. So if you all can do me a favor and click on the advertisements that would be great.

I think I am going to be doing some scrap booking. Since Lil Gertie got me up, I might as well as be productive. I love making scrap books as they remind me of all the good things that happen in my life. Looking at them helps with the remembering of good things. Good things that are becoming more and more, the older I get.

Thank you for reading. Have a great Tuesday everyone. Peace Out, World!!!

Nothing But Random Thoughts

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I know it is Memorial Day here in the United States however I found out today that I have a job interview tomorrow for a Peer Specialist position at my previous employer. It is for their Substance Use Disorder (SUD) program. I am looking forward to it.

I have been scrap booking most of the day. I have fun doing it. I am looking forward to showing it to my therapist. My therapist enjoys the fact that I do creative stuff like scrap booking. Although I am pretty sure he is unaware that I scrap book because I have never informed him nor do I think it was documented in therapeutic notes.

I also been working on my strengths based recovery workbook today. The topic I am working on is courage and hope. It is discussing how having an attitude of hope and courage can help one on their recovery process.

Having things to do helps. It helps with the symptoms of my mental health conditions. Keeping busy is what helps reduce my symptoms.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless in Seattle, Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I am unable to sleep at the moment and it has nothing to do with my cat and every thing to deal with the symptoms of my mental health challenges. Dealing with a mental health condition is not my idea of fun yet I have learned a great deal from them. I have learned that acceptance of oneself is not easy however you can still have fun despite all the challenges the conditions bring.

For an example; painting can be fun. I love to paint. I am painting an abstract version of my cat for my grandpa per his request. My grandpa loves the idea that I am painting. He thinks it is a great way to express myself in a healthy and productive way.

Something else that being in recovery brings to me is faith. Or at least searching for a particular faith. Right now I have been reading books on Buddhism. It has given me some hope and peace that I have been looking for. Some people in my life may not like the idea that I am looking into Buddhism but they are grateful that I am searching for some type of faith even if it is not their faith.

I have been working on my strengths based recovery workbook. That part that I am working on is about attitudes. That attitudes that it is discussing at the moment is hope and courage. I am thrilled that I decided to get this workbook as I have been finding it quite helpful to me as well as to my recovery.

I find it amazing that being able to write in the middle of the night can come easy to me. Maybe it is because I am naturally a night owl or that I am more creative at night. Whatever the reason, I am glad that I can express myself in a healthy way. A way that my old therapist, Diana, would be proud of me.

Thank you for reading. Have a great morning and Peace Out, World!!!

Cat + Scrap Booking = Helping Anxiety

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I am struggling the moment however Lil Gertie is helping me through the struggle. She is sitting next to me purring up at storm. She knows when to come up to me when my anxiety is acting up.

I having been scrap booking about Lil Gertie. I have added pictures to a SMASH scrap book / journal type thing and writing about Lil Gertie. I have been adding other things to the scrap book as well but so far it appears to be mainly Lil Gertie in it at the moment.

Scrap booking and Lil Gertie appear to be helping with my anxiety at the moment. Both also appear to be helping with the symptoms of PTSD as well.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out World!!!

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Blog
  • Read (specifically books on Buddhism)
  • Print out photos of my cat, Lil Gertie
  • Paint (a picture of Lil Gertie)
  • Scrapbook
  • Relax

Monday

  • Blog
  • Read (not sure which book yet but I will read)
  • Scrapbook
  • Paint
  • Relax
  • Workbooks

Tuesday

  • Blog
  • Hearing Voices Group
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Wednesday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • Paint
  • Scrapbook
  • Relax
  • Workbooks

Thursday

  • Blog
  • Therapy
  • Read
  • Workbooks

Friday

  • Blog
  • Read
  • DBT Group
  • Workbooks
  • DBT Homework

Saturday

  • Blog
  • Training to be a co-facilitator at a Peer Run program.
  • Workbooks