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A Tired Seattleite & Their Randomness

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Good Morning, again, World!!! I am tired as hell as I didn’t get much sleep last night. I didn’t get much sleep last night due to a multiple of things which I have written about in my last three post. On a plus note at least my cat, Lil Gertie, is getting some sleep. Something I wish I could be doing right now.

At this point in time I don’t know what the hell, I am going to discuss in the post as I am an extremely tired person. As a person with the lack of sleep not having a clue what they are going to write, I ask for you forgiveness a head of time if I offend or annoy anyone.

I guess, I will start on subject I write about quite often; blogging. It appears to me that since I am using different “tags” that I am getting more people to at least look at my blog. I have even received some new followers due to not using my usual tags. I just figure if I combine some of my usual tags along side with new tags then I am all good with reaching out to people who might need hope or to help bring awareness to others to help lessen the stigma that goes around with having a mental health challenge.

The weather here in Seattle has gotten a lot cooler. I personally love the warm weather but I get highly annoyed hearing people complain about the heat of the summer. I love the heat. I guess I love the heat because I spent most of my childhood growing up in Southern California. I do miss parts of California but Seattle.

Later on today I am taking my grandpa out to lunch. I am taking him to my favorite restaurant; Red Robin. I love going there and I get the same thing every time. I get the Whiskey River Bar-be-que burger with extra cheese and onion straw thingy a mijigars.  It will be nice to spend time with my grandpa over lunch. In fact I am treating him to lunch. He does so much for me.

I have decided to cut the amount of time I spend on social media. Mainly, Facebook since it is the only social media account I have. I guess blogging can be considered social media but I don’t spend as much time on WordPress as I do as on Facebook. Plus Facebook has too much drama for my liking. I will attempt to not spend more than an hour total on Facebook.

Thank you for reading all my randomness. It is much appreciated from my end of things. I hope everyone has a great Thursday. Thank you so much for reading my blog. Don’t forget to let others know about it.  Have a great day everyone. Try to do random acts of kindness today as well. You never know when it could help save someones life or their day. Peace Out, World!!

 

UGH, A Sleepless Type of Night In Seattle

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Good Fucking Morning, World!!! I might as well as stay up for the rest of the day since I have had pretty much no sleep last night. I think I got about an hour to an hour and a half of sleep. I am full of various emotions right now due to the lack of sleep. It is six o’clock in the morning my time and might as well as try to make a good day out of a shitty night.

I first couldn’t sleep due to health problems. Health problems regarding a weird ass mouth infection with massive pain. I was finally able to get to sleep after reading a couple of Wonder Woman comic books.

After sleeping for about an hour and half the building fire alarm goes off because some jerk of a neighbor pulls the fire alarm pull stations on every floor and wakes up the whole fucking building pissing everyone one off. Now that I have a cat I have to make sure I get her out safely just in case it is real fire. Thankfully, it was not a real fire however it still scared the shit out of me and Lil Gertie as well as all the animals in the building and the neighbors. Lil Gertie was not like the sound of the fire alarm whatsoever.

On the plus side I am taking my grandpa out to lunch at Red Robin. Red Robin in my favorite restaurant. I love their hamburgers there. I love the atmosphere  there as well.  I am looking forward to some good food later today with my grandpa.

AS much as the lack of sleep and the fire alarm going off did a number on my mental health challenges, I am grateful that I have a blogging community that cares. I am also grateful that I have a grandpa that will go to Red Robin with me to have some awesome food.

Thank you so very much for reading my post. I am hope I am not boring you with the boring drama of my health issues and the lack of sleep. I am appreciative of all of you and hope you have a good Thursday. Peace Out, World!!!

False Alarms Fucking Suck Shit

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Good Fucking Morning, World. It is three thirty in the fucking morning and I had finally fallen asleep due to being sleepless in Seattle when the building fire alarm goes off. Not only did it scare the shit out of me but it scared the shit out Lil Gertie. It triggered my PTSD and who knows if she has PTSD from this kind of stuff. To make matters worse it was difficult to put her into her already much hated carrier but was finally able to do so. I wasn’t going to leave my poor cat to deal with the noise much less it being an actual fire. Lil Gertie is my life and I need to protect her. All I can say was all that work putting Lil Gertie into her carrier was for nothing because it ended up being a false alarm. Well, better safe than sorry.

My poor cat is hiding in her secret hiding place of my dirty close hamper. If it makes her feel safe then I let her be. Right now she needs her space and I hope she comes out when she feel safe.

Right now I am going to get back into my safe space by reading Wonder Woman comic books. Fire alarms don’t help my mental health especially my PTSD which is why I am going to be reading Wonder Woman comic books to help me chill the fuck out.

I apologize for all the cussing in this post but when it scares my cat and puts her into danger then I am going to be a little angry about it. I have every right to be angry about it and so do my neighbors as someone pulled the fire alarm pull stations on every floor from the basement to the tenth floor of the building.

Thank you for letting me rant and rave about the false alarm. I think I am more upset that it effected my cat. My cat is like my baby. Thank you for reading and hope the day goes well for all of you. I know some of you are just getting up for work while others are still in bed. And some of you have been up for hours working due to the time differences around the world. Have a good day anyway. I appreciate you reading everything I have to say. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless In Seattle, Once Again

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Good Thursday Morning, World!!! It is two oh five in the morning in my neck of the woods and I am unable to sleep. Part of the reason why I am awake is that I slept most of the day way. The other main reason is that the pain I am having due to my weird mouth infection is really bothering me at the moment.  I can’t wait to see my doctor tomorrow (Friday) about it as it is getting annoying as hell and appears to not be going away.

Another thing that is keeping me up right now is it appears that I am on a comic book reading binge of Wonder Woman. I can’t think of a better way to spend a sleepless night the reading especially reading Wonder Woman comic books.

Over the last few weeks I’ve realized that there are sub communities within the blogging community which I am quite grateful for. Most of the sub communities come from the tags within our post to help other find what they are looking for.  For me being apart of a community especially a strong community it helpful for my mental health which is why I continue to blog. In fact I love to blog. It helps me help others and when I help others it makes me feel better about myself.

I should get going a attempt to sleep or at least read more Wonder Woman comic books. Again, thank you for reading my blog. Have a good rest of you night. Peace Out, World

Random Shit On The Mind

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Hello, World!!! I know I keep blogging today however I have a lot of random shit on my mind at the moment. Some of the shit ain’t so random as I have posted it before especially today but it is still quite random.

At this very moment Lil Gertie, my cat, is sitting next to me staring at my laptop screen. I’m wondering if she wants to help and share her thought or is just figuring out what I am going to say next. I love my cat so much. If it wasn’t for support for the last three months I don’t know where I would be at the moment.

I have also discussed a great deal about working and not having a job. And trying to find creative ways to earn extra money while on Disability Checks. One way I have come up with a way to earn extra money though it is not much is having advertisements on my blog. I only make a few cents from it every time someone clicks on an advertisements and it is my hope that you my reader clicks on just one advertisement a day so the few cents can add up to dollars and so on.

Something that has come to mind for me is to start volunteering other places besides as group co-facilitator at peer run origination and a call taker on a help line.  I have thought about helping out with local politicians that are running in the mid-term elections. I figure it would help me with the job resume’ as well as build a community Another things I have done today that will both help the resume’ and build my own community is fill out volunteer application at the Seattle Art Museum (SAM) and Benaroya Hall which host the Seattle Symphony.

Lil Gertie still seems to be supervising me which mean she wants attention. I better give her some since I’ve been sleep and blogging most of the day. I hope you have the good rest of you Wednesday Evening. Peace Out, World!!!

Nothing But Pain & A Cat That Helps

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Good Evening, World!!! At this very moment in time my mouth is in extreme pain. All I have to take for it is ibuprofen. As much as I wish it would help more get rid of the pain, I am grateful that I have my cat, Lil Gertie, to help distract me from the pain. I am looking forward to seeing my doctor on Friday. Hopefully, she will give me something stronger than ibuprofen. Or at least something to take the edge off when I sleep at night. As much as my cat helps lessen the pain the ibuprofen doesn’t conquer, I still have trouble due to the pain.

As much as I am in right now, I am grateful that things could be worse for me especially health wise. I could have a Traumatic Head Injury or a terminal illness. As you can tell, I am attempting to look at the bright side of things. As difficult as it is to look at the bright side of things with my health, I am managing to look at the bright side.

I love my cat so much. She seems to know when it is time for me to take my antibiotics by meowing me a great deal even when she has food and a clean litter box. My cat is one smart kitty. I love my cat so much and I am not sure what I would to without her.

Blogging also appears to be helping me today. It is helping me my mind of the pain even just a little bit. Blogging is also helping me with my mental health symptoms.

I hope to blog more later on. Thank you for reading. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things. You are all freaking awesome. Peace Out, World!!!

Something To Think About

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Good Afternoon, World. I have a lot to think about as I continue to play email tag with a potential employer for an interview. Hell, I have been thinking about this for quite some time. I have been thinking about volunteering at more organizations as I continue to find a paying job.

One of things I am thinking about and have already started was volunteering for certain politicians as the mid term elections coming up in November. I don’t always use this particular volunteer experience in all my resume’s for good reasons but I do put them in other resumes’ If helps show a future employer that I am interested in the direction of what policies go into effect in our country then maybe it will be helpful with my career path. Plus, I get to build a community of new friends.

Something I did just today was put a volunteer application for both Seattle Art Museum (SAM) and Benaroya Hall which houses the Seattle Symphony and other events. I am doing to this help build my resume’ as well my community connections.

For me volunteering at places of interest isn’t always about building resume’s, its about building a community to call your own. Weather that be in Arts, Music or Politics. Finding common interest and common ground is what ultimately helps me with getting a job that I desire. It also looks good on the resume’. I hope that for me it builds more of community for me than my resume though it would be helpful to that as well.

I hope that as I end this post that I can give some hope to those who are feeling stuck in the job search like I am. Right now I am not giving up hope in find a place of employment nor a volunteer job.

Thank you for reading my post once again. I hope you continue to read my post. It means a lot to me. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Being Jobless Sucks

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Hello, again, World!!! Right now, all I can think about besides the pain in my mouth due to some weird mouth infection is how being jobless sucks. Being jobless sucks for many different reasons.  For me it sucks due to the lack of structure in my life. Having structure in my life helps a great deal with the symptoms of my mental health challenges.

Then there is the part of being jobless sucks due to the lack of money. I’m lucky enough to get a disability check but it barely pays the bills. Not having the money to do the things you enjoy are want in this world sucks however it has helped me become more appreciative of what I do have. It’s helped me become more creative on other ways to create and have fun and adventure in this world without having little to no money at all. The one thing I really want money for right now is a tattoo. Yes, that is a first world problem however I can still dream about getting another tattoo till I am able to get a job to get the money to get another job.

On a plus note, being jobless has its benefits. It has helped me get some physical health needs taken care of before going back to work. Taking care of one’s health is a must if one wants to job. I just wish my current health issue wasn’t so painful.

I am still applying and looking for jobs as I sit here and complain about being jobless. I became jobless because I resigned from my much loved job as a Peer Specialist due to the severity of my symptoms of mental health challenges. In fact I am still playing email tag with a potential employer about setting up an interview for sometime next week. I just hope the person hurries up and gets back to me sooner than later.

At least I am not giving up hope on finding job even if it is not exactly a Peer Specialist position. Just as long as it’s in a field I know I will enjoy that will be help me get another job a Peer Specialist. I hope I do find the right job for me that is preferably part time at the moment.

Thanks for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me. Peace Out, World!!!

Just Another Boring Post

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Hello, World!! I know I just posted about an hour ago however, I am bored and felt like just writing about stuff. Stuff that will be repetitive as I have post about it before and other stuff that is not so interesting.

Let’s start off with the advertisements on my blog. I have advertisements on my blog to make a little extra money. It’s not much but it is something. All people have to do is click on the advertisement and I earn a few cents. I know this might be asking a lot from you but can you all click on the advertisements if you see them. I am saving up the money to help pay for gifts for my family during the holidays.

Now on another repetitive topic of blogging. I am wanting to make more of an effort to blog more. I also want to reach more people however I am unsure of how to do that. Yes, I use tags and attempt to put different tags on topics I discuss so I can get more readership that way. I also post my post to social media accounts and hope that I get more readers that way. I am not really worried about how many “followers” I have, I just want to reach more people so I can help lessen the stigma of mental health challenges as well as give people hope who do struggle with mental health challenges.

Today, is going to be one of those low key days where I am doing nothing. By doing nothing I mean doing things that are good self care for me. Most of which are creative.

I plan on doing some art work. Most likely I will be coloring and collaging and maybe combining the two genre’s of art. I might even paint a little today but not too sure yet. I need to see what paint I may need. If I need certain paint then I will need to go to the art supply store and buy some paint. That however takes money that I may not be able to spend at the moment. Which reminds me I need to look at my budget to see if I can buy more paints and canvasses ,

Another thing I plan on doing is writing some music. I play the flute and harmonica and think it would be fun to write some duets for both instruments to play together. I know it sounds odd but I think writing the right piece for a harmonica and flute duet would be cool.

The other thing I plan on doing today is to read. I will read both the novels I am reading as well as some comic books. I most likely will finish one of the novels today or tomorrow. When it comes down to reading comic books, I will most likely be reading Wonder Woman. Wonder Woman is my favorite comic book. I do like to read other comic books but Wonder Woman is my go to comic book.

I think I bored you enough with this post so I am going to end it for now. Hopefully, I will be able to find time to blog again later today. It seems like if I blog more, the more my readers will see what I have to say next. Well, have a good Wednesday. Peace Out, World!!!

Nothing Much To Say

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Hello, World!!! I sit here wondering if I should have kept my appointments with my vocational (employment) specialist and therapist. I have a feeling that I am going to regret cancelling however the mouth infection I have is making it difficult to talk due to the pain of the infection. You would think that the doctors at the hospital would admit me to the hospital for I.V antibiotics but they say it’s not “severe enough” which maybe I need to be grateful for. Another thing I am grateful for despite poor dental hygiene is that the infection has nothing to do with my dental health. I do see my regular doctor on Friday for this stupid infection that fucking won’t go away.

On a side note I have been playing email tag with a potential employer about setting up an interview for sometime next week. It would only be one to two shifts a week which would equal twelve to twenty four hours a week. The shifts are twelve hours due to it being an overnight shelter for homeless young adults.  Working with people who are currently and/or formally homeless is a passion of mine and really hope that I get this job. Yes, I know that the interview hasn’t been set up yet but at least that is in the works. Dealing with homeless individuals for me is easy because all they want are the basics in life.

Thank you for reading. It is very much appreciated from my end. Have a wonderful Wednesday. Peace Out, World!!!