Sleepless in Snowy Seattle

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Good Morning, World!!! I am unable to sleep however I am enjoying watching the snow fall. It is rare when it snows in Seattle so it is both exciting and annoying. Exciting because it is beautiful and not a common occurrence in Seattle. It is an annoyance because nobody really knows how to drive in snow here in Seattle counting myself. But then again I don’t have a car and take public transportation.

Besides watching the snow fall, I am watching the Winter Olympics. I am loving the fact that the Olympics are on as they have been quite helpful for me get through some rough moments as well as some sleepless nights like tonight.

I am get going and watch the snow fall as well as the Olympics. Thanks for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Woo Hoo!!! U.S.A Women Win Gold In Hockey!!!

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! I’m watching the United States versus Canada women’s hockey game and the U.S just won. Woo Hoo!!! As many of you know that the United States and Canada have a huge rivalry in hockey and tonight’s Gold Medal game went into a shoot out round to determine the winner. Happily and  surprisingly the U.S.A won.

Watching the Olympics have been quite helpful for me especially since my grandma passed away a week ago today. It’s been quite helpful for me during sleepless nights as well. I really miss my grandma and I think that the U.S.A winning the women’s hockey is a sign from my grandma that I do have the strength to carry on.

Thank you for reading my blog. It is much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Snowing In Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

IMG_0281Hello, World!!! As you can tell with the above picture, snow is falling in Seattle. Snow is pretty and cool just as long as you don’t have to go out in it unless it is for fun. I have mixed emotions regarding snow but right now, I am going to live in the present and enjoy it.

One way I’ll enjoy this weather is by drinking hot coco and reading Wonder Woman comic books. There is nothing like wearing comfy pajama’s and reading comics while drinking hot chocolate on a cold winter’s night.

Well, I want to get going to enjoy my comics and hot chocolate. Thank you for reading. Have a great night. Peace Out, World!!!

Rambling About Sh*t

Posted on by Gertie

Good Evening, World!!! Today, has had its ups and downs yet I am grateful for both. Grateful, that I am able to be an okay enough place to have gratitude toward both the ups and the downs for the day. If it were December I don’t think I would have been grateful for the downs I experienced.

I discussed this with Gilbert today in our session and he stated that I am making a lot of progress. Progress with my recovery. Progress with my recovery that I am finally starting see in myself. Not only did we discuss the progress but we discuss the physical assault I experienced on Monday evening as well as the death of my grandma last Wednesday. We discussed on what I can do during the down moments when dealing with the death of my grandma and the assault I experienced.

One of those things I came up with was to journal. To journal about the strength my grandma had. Not just journal in any of my journals but my Wonder Woman journal. I journal in my Wonder Woman journal when I think it is going to be about someone who as some form of strength because Wonder Woman is a strong superhero.

Since we are on the topic of Wonder Woman I also discussed with Gilbert that reading my Wonder Woman comics would be helpful. He agreed as he thinks Wonder Woman gives me some form a strength and he is right. Yes, I know Wonder Woman is a fictional character but she does give me strength.

Thank you for reading. It is very much appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Everyday Inspiration; Day 10: Let the Scene Write Itself

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As I look out the west window of my living room, I notice that the sun is attempting to come out from behind the clouds. I quickly realize there is a bald eagle sitting in the tree outside my window looking in. I’m wondering to myself what he wants but realize that the eagle is paying attention to a squirrel on a lower branch of the tree.

I quickly turn my attention to my living room as the eagle went after the poor squirrel. I see my art supplies and a canvass or two waiting to be painted. I’m wondering if I should paint the eagle and squirrel in the tree. Wouldn’t be the best painting in the world but would be a reminder of what I saw today.

I continue to scan my living room and see music sheets on the floor. I really need to pick those up or practice the music on my flute. What music piece would I practice? I think I need to put playing my flute into my daily schedule.

I look at my couch and see the book I am reading. I really want to finish the book as soon as possible. Its not that difficult to take time out to read a few chapters a day. Oh how I love to read.

I look over to see what time it is on my Wonder Woman clock and it says 12:34pm. I’m thinking it’s time to eat some lunch. Thanks!!! Peace Out, World!!!

Wednesday Morning Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! I am tired as hell due to not getting any sleep last night. I am not to worried about it as I can sleep later on today. Or least when I get home from therapy I can take a nap. A much needed nap.

I have the morning news on and they said Billy Graham passed away at the age of 99. The news is say that he is “America’s Preacher.” I am not sure how to feel about this for a multitude of reasons which I will discuss at a later time.

Right now it is 24 degrees Fahrenheit outside. It being 24 degrees Fahrenheit outside here in Seattle is extremely cold for us. It’s been colder but its 24 is still cold.

I want to thank you for reading. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Gertie & Grief

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As many of you are well aware of, Gertie’s grandma passed away last Wednesday. Gertie is having a difficult with the grief. They don’t do well with loss especially the loss of someone who was a major part of their life.

Gertie is allowing themselves to cry over the loss of her grandma. This is a major deal for them as they don’t deal well with pain or crying. I am quite proud of Gertie for the major accomplishment of allowing themselves to cry.

Gertie is doing the best they can with using their skills. Despite being sorrowful over the death of their grandma they are keeping themselves busy and distracted with the skills they have learned over the years. Gertie is being future oriented.

Future oriented enough that they have been playing phone tag with a potential employer.  Lets hope they get the job they are hoping for.

Please keep Gertie in your thoughts as they are grieving over the loss of their grandma. Gertie is the love of my life. Have a great day.

Mr. Sandman Must Be Too Cold To Stop By

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Good Morning, World!!! It is now three o’clock in the morning in my neck of the woods and still am unable to sleep. I am not sure where Mr. Sandman is but I think he forgot to stop by to make sure I fell asleep. Or maybe it was just too cold that he didn’t want to stop by because he didn’t want to freeze his ass off. It is now 23 degrees Fahrenheit outside here in Seattle. Burr, its fucking cold outside.

Something that has been helping me a great deal tonight is watching the 2018 Winder Olympics. I really enjoy watching them. I may not like all the sports but I still watch all of the sports because I appreciate the athleticism of it all. The years of training it takes the individuals to get to this point in their lives is just pure amazing.

A sport that takes a lot training but won’t see in the Winter Olympics in baseball. I love baseball and spring training games start on February 23rd or at least they do for the Angels. The Los Angeles Angels of Anaheim are my favorite baseball team. In fact they are my home team as I grew up in Anaheim. I miss it a great deal however I love Seattle just a much as I love Anaheim.

Thank you so much for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Sleepless in Frigid Seattle

Posted on by Gertie

Hello, World!!! It is one o’clock in the morning in my corner of the world. Right now I am having trouble sleeping. I am having trouble sleeping for a multitude of reasons. Actually, two reasons. First is due to the fact I am missing my grandma. Today marks one weeks since she passed away. Second is because of the physical assault that happened the other night.

It hasn’t been the easiest week for me yet somehow I am making it though. I am choosing to focus on my recovery. I am choosing to not harm myself when urges arise. I am choosing to live a life worth living for me.

All I can say right now is that it is freezing outside. It is 27 degrees Fahrenheit outside. I am not a big fan of cold weather. Hot weather I can deal with but not so much the cold weather. Maybe it is because I am from beautiful sunny Southern California.

Thank you for reading. It is appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Tuesday Night Ramblings

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Hello, World!!! It is eleven thirty at night in my neck of the woods and it appears it could be a sleepless night for me. I’m not sure way I get that feeling but I do.

I think once I am done writing this post, I am going to work on one of my workbooks. I am going to work on The Queer & Transgender Resilience Workbook as I have been finding quite helpful for my recovery and gender identity. Being able to acknowledge my gender identity without shame is awesome. I am proud to be a gender non-conforming, non-binary, pansexual individual.

Being able to do workbooks is quite helpful for me and my recovery. I look at doing workbooks as part of the many things I do to be in recovery. Kind of like taking meds and going to therapy is apart of my recovery.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!