Tag Archives: Cats

It’s Been A Couple of Weeks

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Good Morning, World!!! I know it has been a couple of weeks or so since I last posted. I have been struggling quite a bit as of lately. In fact I was in the hospital for a week and got out yesterday (Thursday). I am doing much better that I was when I went into the hospital.

I had a neighbor as well as my grandpa take care of my cat while I was in the hospital. The worst part about being in the hospital was missing my cat. It has been quite nice being home with my cat. My cat hasn’t left my side since I have gotten home which has helped my anxiety a great deal.

I hope to post again soon as I am hungry and am going to eat. Have a great day. Peace Out, World!!!

Belated 4th of July Post

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Good Morning, World!!! I want to apologize to you my reader for not blogging as much. I have been struggling a great deal with my depression. My depression symptoms appear to have effected me severely enough that I haven’t been blogging.

Since my depression symptoms got in the way of blogging, I wanted to tell you about my 4th of July.  Despite my depression symptoms acting up, I managed to attended the Mariner versus Angel game here in Seattle. I really enjoyed myself with the exception of having Mariner’s fans throwing things at me. Due to having things thrown at me, I received a ticket to another game. I am also happy to say that the Angels won the game.

As for watching fireworks, I watched them at home on the television as I wasn’t sure how Lil Gertie was going to react to them. Lil Gertie didn’t react all that well to the fireworks. She hid in my dirty clothes hamper which is in my closet. She meowed out fear a good portion while fireworks were going off.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

It’s Been A Couple Of Days

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Hello, World!!! It has been a few days since I last posted. In all honesty things haven’t been going all that well for me and surprisingly I haven’t been hospitalized. Mainly, because I have been isolating so I won’t do anything. No, I am not currently suicidal nor am at risk of self harming myself. I have been disassociating bad enough that I lost track of my days and missed my appointment with my therapist yesterday.  So, since I missed my appointment with my therapist yesterday, I think it might be a wise decision for me to try to connect with him at some point today.

Due to the dissociation I don’t remember much of this week including yesterday, the first day of summer.  For me the solstice is a major deal especially the summer solstice. It helps me remember to focus on my goals for the year and to see where I am at with my goals. Goals that I wanted to go over with my therapist yesterday with my therapist.

I have an inkling that there is a very small chance of me being hospitalized just for the fact I haven’t been taking care of myself this past week. On a good note I have been taking care of my cat, Lil Gertie. Having an emotional support animal like my cat has been quite helpful for me.  I think, Lil Gertie has been a life savor for me.

I think I am going to go now and call my therapist. I hope everyone has wonderful summer. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

Monday Morning Ramblings

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Good Morning, World!!! It is nearly six thirty in the morning in my neck of the woods and Lil Gertie woke me up by licking one of my feet. She obviously had a sixth sense of knowing that I was having a nightmare. She has woken me up whenever I have a PTSD nightmare and I didn’t even train her to do so.

Dealing with nightmares is a part of PTSD that I didn’t have to deal with however it is something I have to deal with. I have learned various was on how to deal with the after affects of a nightmare. Now that I have an emotional support animal in Lil Gertie I can depend on her for help. Just one more thing I can do is depend on my cat, Lil Gertie.

I realize it seems like I talk a great deal about Lil Gertie, lately. It is just that she has helped me so much in the last nearly a month of having her. She has been a great support for me especially during PTSD moments as well as after them.

I am planning on attending art group later on today. I love art group for many reasons. Reasons that I have informed my therapist about. In return he encourages me to attend. I am hoping we do some collaging in art group today.

Thank you for reading. Have a good work week. Peace Out, World!!!

 

Just A Check-In

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Good Morning, World!!! I noticed that I haven’t been blogging as much. I’m not sure why but I will attempt to make an effort to post at least once a day like I have been. I just don’t want to leave you my reader hanging or left out in the dark.

I was playing with my cat and she accidentally scratched me. She attempted to clean my wounds when I was dabbing my little bloody scratches. I love my cat and her personality.  She is a cute little cat who is acutely aware of what is going on with me emotionally.

I don’t have much to discuss right now. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!

Mr. Sandman, Where Are You?

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Good Morning, World!!! I have yet to get to sleep despite trying. Lil Gertie has been helping me through some anxiety attacks. Anxiety attacks that can be debilitating. I don’t think my anxiety is causing me to not sleep however it something to discuss with my therapist.

I have been reading as this time of morning there is nothing on and don’t feel like doing much of anything else. I have been reading a book I put down a few months ago and decided to start reading it again.

I am thinking I am going to get going as I want to try to get some sleep before I need to get up. I just wish I knew were Mr. Sandman was so I could sleep. Thank you for reading. Peace Out, World!!!

My Cat Thinks She Is Human

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Good Morning, World!!! I have notice a few things about Lil Gertie the last couple of days. It started when Lil Gertie took a Cheeto out of my hand the other day and just ate it. Then the other night she was more hyper than usual so I put on one of my favorite bands, Black Sabbath and she calmed the hell down. Who knew Black Sabbath would calm down a hyper cat. Last night she got on my lap and started eating my strawberry ice cream right from the bowl. Then as I was attempting to eat my doughnut she grabbed a piece and ate that this morning. I swear my cat thinks she is a human.

I go see my doctor in a couple of hours. She is just going to check up on me after my suicide attempt last week. My doctor is an awesome person. She wants to make sure I am doing alright both physically and mentally after last week.

I also start back up in DBT group today. I am so looking forward to DBT group this afternoon. I love being able to focus using my skills and being a “leader” in the group according to the group facilitators. I don’t know about being a leader but I do the skills and share my experience on how well the DBT skills work for me.

Thank you for reading. Have a great Friday. Peace Out, World!!!

Cat + Scrap Booking = Helping Anxiety

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Good Afternoon, World!!! I am struggling the moment however Lil Gertie is helping me through the struggle. She is sitting next to me purring up at storm. She knows when to come up to me when my anxiety is acting up.

I having been scrap booking about Lil Gertie. I have added pictures to a SMASH scrap book / journal type thing and writing about Lil Gertie. I have been adding other things to the scrap book as well but so far it appears to be mainly Lil Gertie in it at the moment.

Scrap booking and Lil Gertie appear to be helping with my anxiety at the moment. Both also appear to be helping with the symptoms of PTSD as well.

Thank you for reading. Peace Out World!!!

I Don’t Think My Cat Realizes It’s Sunday

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Good Morning, World!!! I don’t think Lil Gertie realizes it is Sunday. Sunday is meant to either sleep in or go to a religious service and sometimes both. For me it is meant to sleep in. If you read my blog regularly you know sleep doesn’t come easy for me.

I think what I am going to do is attempt to go back to sleep. Especially since Lil Gertie is taking a cat nap at the moment.

I will also be reading. Reading two books on Buddhism. One is called Why Buddhism Is True while the other book is Buddhist Scriptures. Right now I am looking into Buddhism and it is giving me hope and a sense of peace. A Peace that I need at the moment.

Thank you for reading my blog. It is extremely appreciated. Peace Out, World!!!

Relapse Update

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Good Evening, World!!! I had a good time with my family. As much as I love them, I am grateful to be back home. Back home with Lil Gertie.

To tell you the truth I think I was more grateful to be home on Thursday as I was in the hospital overnight due to a suicide attempt. An attempt that was triggered by PTSD symptoms. I informed a friend of mine who lives in my apartment building. He took me to the hospital and informed my family as well as Junior. My neighbor and Junior took care of Lil Gertie all day Wednesday and most of the day Thursday before I got the all clear to come home. Junior brought me home and I have had friends and family check up on me to make sure I’m okay.

I was more worried about Lil Gertie than me and realize that if I am feeling suicidal again that I will reach out to people who care. People who have care about me for a long time. I know of people who don’t have the support that I do when it comes to helping me when it comes to my mental health challenges. Recovery is all about getting back up on the horse and wiping yourself off when you fall.

The lesson I have learned is that I may not have someone to be available to take care of Lil Gertie. She is dependent on me to take care of her. I can not let my emotions get the better of me as I have Lil Gertie to help me with that as well as needing to take care of her.

Thank you for reading and I am not currently suicidal nor a risk to harm myself in any way. You are all awesome. Peace Out, World!!!