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Not Sorry About My Not So Rated G Post

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Good Very Early Morning, World!!! Or at least it’s very early in the morning here in my corner of the world, known as Seattle. Apparently, some readers got offended by my last post regarding coloring a morbid coloring book that is all Disney characters. I received an email from WordPress that it disturbed some of my readers but it doesn’t break any rules or community standards. All they wanted was me to put a “Trigger Warning” at the beginning of the post. I totally understand about getting triggered by things and when I do, I talk with my mental health treatment team as well as other who are in recovery. I also use the skills I learned through therapy when I am triggered. Am I sorry the post triggered other, no not really. I feel bad that I triggered others but I’m not sorry about it as it could be a way for people to learn to cope by using coping skill that help them. For me coloring this coloring book is a way for me to heal from some things that are Disney related. For me coloring and doing a morbid coloring book is a form of self care and healing for me.

As far a the morbid Disney coloring book, it appears that my cat, Billie would like to help with me at times. He doesn’t seem bothered by the morbid Disney coloring book. I love my cat and how he likes my morbid sense of humor.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading it. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me that you read my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Despite Being Tired as Hell, I’m Going to Work

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Good Morning, World!!! I am tired as hell as I didn’t not get much sleep again. Part of the reason why I was unable to sleep was because of the depression and insomnia. The other part was because two of my neighbors on my floor decided to have an argument that led into a physical altercation. Not exactly my idea of a good night of sleep.

I do plan on working today due to the fact that I need the money to pay my rent and other bills which I count meds as a bill. If I don’t get my meds it’s not a pretty site for everyone involved. I love my job with a passion and want to make sure I practice what I preach when it comes to my clients.

Being a good example to my clients and to my colleagues is extremely impartment to me as I really want to be the person others can come to for advice. I hope this post doesn’t sound like I am bragging on myself because that is not my intention to do so. I just want to say that despite being extremely tired I will be going to work today. I love my job and love work with both my clients and colleagues.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog as you are the reason why I write my blog. I hope everyone has a great Thursday ahead of them. Peace Out, World!!!

Wanting to Escape from My Own Reality

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Good Evening, World!!! Right now I really want to escape my own reality. The reality of the depression I am dealing with. I personally think the depression I am currently dealing with has something to do with being in quarantine due to Covid-19.

Let’s start with first things first, work helps me not focus on my own reality as I need to make sure the needs of my clients get met. Plus it feels good when a client accomplishes a goal that they have bee working on for a long time. I love being able to walk along side of people who are working on their own personal journey of recovery.

Another thing the helps me escape from my own reality is volunteering at a local animal shelter. Even though I have my own cat to play with it is gratifying to see cats get adopted into a furrever home. Seeing cats adopted is rewarding in itself and I am thrilled to be able to experience that and not just with the cats I have adopted but cats that have been adopted by others.

Another way, I find a way to escape from reality it reading. Reading all sorts of books including comics or comic books. I do have to say be favorite comic book is Wonder Woman and I have my dad to thank for that. Despite my dad loosing his ability to read, he always encouraged me to read. In fact my favorite genre’s of books are science fiction, fantasy and horror books. Since my dad is unable to read due to a traumatic brain injury (TBI), we call each other every evening and I read him books. Doing this has helped mend and heal our issues. We do occasionally read comic books but that is more my thing that my dad’s thing. I am just grateful that reading to my dad is healing our relationship.

Of course I can forget my sweet loving cuddle bug of a cat that helps me escape the realities of what life has to bring. The cat love is unconditional and am grateful for my cat Billie Dean.

Let not forget the most important of escaping reality which is sleep. Sleep can be a major reality escape especially with people dealing with depression and other such mental health diagnosis.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading m blog as if it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be witting my blog. It is great appreciated from my end of things that you read my blog. Again thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Not the Most Productive Day I’ve Had

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Good Evening, World. It is seven ten in the evening in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. If you have read my last few post, I was not able to at all last night and spent most of the the day sleeping. I am finally awake enough to be able to semi function and I by they I mean by writing this post. And of course having a neighbor who is a close friend get me some groceries. I just wish my neighbor would hurry up with getting me my groceries. I shouldn’t be complaining as this neighbor is one of the good guys and respects people even they don’t agree politically.

I guess, I am being inpatient is because I am tired as hell and didn’t sleep last night but did sleep most of day. I sadly, missed work due to the lack of sleep and and I highly dislike missing work as the clients I work with depend on me. I think part of the reason my sleep schedule is unpredictable is because my depression symptoms are starting to slightly increase which is not a good thing.

Not only is my neighbor who is my friend getting groceries for me, my cat has been even more cuddly more than he normally is. Billie being cuddly and my friend getting me groceries is very helpful for my depression symptoms.

I do not have much more to say in this particular post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Still Can’t F*cking Sleep

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Good Morning from Seattle!!! I still have not be to sleep and it is fucking pissing me off. And I really don’t care if this post isn’t G rated. Part of me is wondering if I am unable to sleep because of depression but I am not having my typical signs of depression but it’s something to think about.

On the plus side of things, my family, friends and colleagues are worried about me. In fact they all have been checking in on me which makes me feel love and appreciated. I have some pretty awesome people in my life including my colleagues. My colleagues really seem to care about each other. Of course I know my friends and family love me and care about me.

And of course my precious kitty cat, Billie Dean loves me so very much. He has been following me around all day as well as cuddling with me. He is my baby and I don’t care what others think as Billie in part of my family. I am so glad that he picked me in the shelter. Being picked by any animal is a precious thing especially when it’s a cat or bird.

I best be going now as I am starting fall asleep as I write this blog. Thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you the reader reading my blog I would not be writing my blog. Thank you again from the bottom for my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Not Going to Work Today

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Good Morning, World!!! As if this day couldn’t get worse. Well it could get worse but I have faith it won’t. Despite not getting much sleep last due to an idiot neighbor pulling the fire alarm due to other neighbors not wearing mask which is annoying in itself. I found out my dad was in the Emergency Room all night. He will be admitted to the hospital. It looks like I won’t be going to work like I had hoped to do. I did let two supervisors know as well as HR know that I would be going into work but I will have to now tell them I won’t be going into work. I really want to work but due to the lack of sleep due to a neighbor and my dad being in the hospital, I wouldn’t be at my best to help my clients. I really want to be at my best for my clients at work as they deserve to have me at my best.

On that note, Billie Dean, my cat is cuddling me right now. I think he senses that something is wrong and is comforting me. I just love my cat, Billie so much. He know exactly when I need some extra loving care and comfort.

As far as my dad goes, I hope he is just in the hospital for a couple of days. On a positive note he does not have Covid-19. He had a couple of grand mal seizures so they are just keeping him for observation and to make sure his meds are at an appropriated level. I love dad and am grateful that he raised me as a single dad back in the 80’s and 90’s with the help of my grandparents.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to say thank for reading my blog post. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I hope you all have a great Wednesday ahead of you. I know I will try to have a good Wednesday. Just remember I appreciate all of you and think you are all awesome people. Peace Out, World!!!

Too Tired to Sleep

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At this point in time I don’t really care if my blog is rated fucking G. I am getting extremely fucking angry at my neighbor who keeps pulling the fire alarm. I understand his frustration with others not wearing their mask but that doesn’t mean you put the fucking fire alarm. I’m sure sometime down the road I will laugh over this but right now it’s not exactly laughable. Well, I can giggle a little because the dude tells on himself when the firefighters arrive to the building. I honestly don’t know who is my angry myself and my neighbors or the fire department. I am pretty sure that the firefighter are just as tired as my neighbors and I with the about of times my neighbor has pulled the fire alarm.

On that note, I am pretty sure that the animals in my building aren’t happy about it either. I sure know my cat Billie Dean isn’t a happy camper about it. On a good note at least my neighbors with pets including myself are evacuating which means we get to know each other a little be more. Not exactly the way I would want to get to know my neighbors but at least we are getting to know each other.

The thing my neighbors and I don’t understand is why the dude is pulling the alarm for one or two people not wearing their mask. I know for a fact that I wear my mask but when the fire alarm goes off, I don’t always remember to wear my mask as I am too concerned with getting the hell out of the building with my cat. So, personally I don’t think this neighbor is exactly thinking this through.

The think that pisses me and my neighbors off the most as well as the fire department is that the police and apartment management aren’t doing shit about it. At least the fire department is fining the neighbor as well as the apartment building management. But sadly it doesn’t seem to be helping but at least the fire department is doing their job unlike the cops and apartment building management. Well it is four forty five in the morning I am going to try to get some sleep as I have to get up at seven o’clock in the morning for work. I just hope I am not a cranky bucket for work.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post except that I want some fucking sleep and not have the fire alarm to go off again due to the idiot neighbor pulling the alarm. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader do read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. I greatly appreciate all of you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!! It’s now time to try to get back to sleep. Good night world, or maybe I should say good morning since it is four forty five in the morning. Peace Out, World

Angry As Fucking Hell Due to a Neighbor

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Good Fucking, Morning, World!!!! I have been woken up four times in a matter of two fucking hours. One of my neighbors keeps pulling the fucking fire alarm because other neighbors are not wearing their goddamn mask. I understand being frustrated with other people not wearing their mask but don’t put the fire alarm.

The sad thing about it is that this dude admits it to the fire department who fines him as well as the building management. Sadly, the building management and the stupid cops are not doing shit about it. I personally think the dude needs to get arrested for it. I know for a fact I am not the only neighbor highly pissed over this situation.

I’m pissed about it because if I don’t get enough sleep then I will not be able to work and work in an appropriate manner. I work with people that have mental health issues and I need to be on top of my game to help my clients.

It’s frustrating as hell but at least my work is understanding for the most part. I just get going so i can get some form of sleep. Peace Our, World!!!

My New Year’s Goals at a Glance

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Hello, World!!! It is nearly nine thirty at night in my neck of the woods known as Seattle. I don’t think I have mentioned my goals for this year. I have a ton of them but will share just a handful of my goals for tonight.

First, I will be continuing to volunteering at PAWS Cat City as it helps me keep grounded. Not only does it help me keep ground but I get to help the cats find furrever homes which brings me a great deal of joy.

Another thing I plan on doing is mindfulness meditation practice on the daily basis. This, too keep me grounded. It also helps me keep my emotions under control.

Another thing that will help me with my emotions is doing self help workbooks. Workbooks that can help me with my emotions and help me be a better peer specialist.

I also plan on doing art as art helps me be creative and be able to express my emotions in a positive way. I love the fact the art can help me be a more positive person and less angry.

Reading is another way to help with my emotions and is great goal for me. Reading helps me escape from the realties of what is going on in the hard and harsh world we live in. Reading is a great escape for me and helps me come up with idea’s to do art work.

I have more New year’s goals for 2022 and will share them in another post. I do want to say that my cat, Billie Dean is one of my goals for this year. Billie is a goal for this year to make sure he stat heathy due to hi kidney disease. Thankfully it is under control and not exactly at stage one yet which is a great thing. He is such a love bug that loves to cuddle. I love him so much and I am sure he loves me back.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. It means a great deal that you read my blog. Peace Out, World and have a great night of sleep.

Grateful for a Three Day Weekend

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Good Morning, again, World!!! Not much has changed since my last blob post. I am still coloring a freaky, horrific Disney coloring book which is somewhat relaxing to me. As far as the Christmas/Holiday book my great aunt is loaning me to reading, I am slowly reading. Not as fast as she would like me to but at least I am reading it. The think that is interesting me the most is reading my Wonder Woman Comic books. I need to prefer comic books as well as science fiction and fantasy books and occasionally anima books.

Of course I plan on do doing the majority of things I mentioned above. I am sure Billie Dean my cat will sitting with me as I do want I plan. Of course Billie will would like to help. I love my cat so very much.

I do not not have much to more to say in in this particular blog post.. I do want to thank you for reading more blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of thing that you read my blog. If it was not for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. .So, again, thank you from the bottom of my by heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!!