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Unable to Sleep & Reading About Tarot

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Well, I guess I can wish you a good morning since it is te middle of the night Seattle time. I mentioned in my last blog post that I would be doing some art work and crafting as well as learning about Tarot Cards. Well, I decided to not do the creative part of my plan of doing art by diamond art as well as crafting by doing latch hook and cross stitching.

Since I didn’t do the creative plan of my plan, I decided to do some education on Tarot Cards. I read most of the books about Tarot and find it an easy read. I hope that once I am done with the book that I can do the workbook so I can be ready to read my own tarot reading and document them in the tarot journals with what the reading is

I am doing the Tarot thing because I feel like it can help me with my mental health recovery. To me, anything I can try to help with my recovery can never hurt as my recovery means the world to me. I am hoping that I can start reading tarot on myself and then efficiency on my friends.

Of course as I read and wrote this blog my cat, Billie cuddled up with me. I love it when Billie cuddles up with me. I love him so much and I love the fact that he loves me unconditionally.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

A Sleepless Night For Me & Focusing on Recovery

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Good Morning, World from Seattle. I am tired as hell as I haven’t received much sleep due to PTSD and Depression. First and foremost I want to say that I have been listening to a podcast about philosophy. The philosophy podcast I have been listening to is Philosophize This. I listened to about two episodes and learned a lot.

I of course read a book about Tarot focusing on those who are begging to learn about tarot. Not only are there books on Tarot but workbooks as well as journals. I am hoping that learning about Tarot can help me with my recovery process. I also hope to do tarot journals and workbooks it hopes to help with my recovery. With learning by reading about Tarot, I hope I can do some card reading on myself and be helpful to other people..

Something I can also do is focus on recovery focused workbooks that focus on mental health challenges and other issues such as eating disorders, self hare and substance use disorders. Workbooks have been quite helpful for me. For some people 12 step programs have been helpful.

Another thing that has been helpful for me is doing mindfulness meditation practice. I feel like practicing mindfulness meditation has been quite grounding for me especially for the challenging crap in my life.

So now to the next thing that will help me with my recovery or at least hopefully help me with my recovery. That is learning and practicing tarot cards. I plan on reading about tarot cards as well as practice tarot cards on myself to help with my own recovery. I als hope to use tarot cards to help with othe peoples recovery.

Thank you for reading my blog. It is greaty appretiated from my end of things. Peace Out, World!!!

Still No Sleep for Me

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Good Morning, World from my corner of the world known as Seattle, Washington. Tonight I am on crisis coverage for work but thankfully, most if not all the calls happened earlier in the evening as well as earlier in the middle of the night. It is still the middle of the night here in Seattle and I am unable to sleep. If I can get to sleep it’s a light sleep or a sleep that wakes me up from a nightmare where I am crying, paralyzed from the body memories and scared shitless.

Honestly, part of me is glad I am on crisis coverage tonight for work but I am also thrilled that the calls have subsided a lot so I can refocus. Now lets hope I am not sticking my foot in my mouth and I get a shit ton of calls from clients and/or social workers from hospitals.

On a good note that is not too surprising Billie has been keeping company and giving me his undivided attention and of course his unconditional love. I love my Billie so very much and how he knows when I need the extra attention and love even when I can tell when he would rather have his own space. My cat truly knows how to take care of me and I hope he knows how much I truly love him. He is my best friend and yes animals can be best friends.

Speaking of friends, a friend introduced me to Diamond Art after she finished a piece for a mutual friend of ours. So, I ordered a bunch for myself and honestly got really frustrated and throughout the first two I started and gave up. Part of the reason is that I didn’t read the instructions and did not ask my friend questions. So, for the last week or so I have read the instructions and have been doing diamond art. I am finding it fun, frustrating, time consuming and a lot of progress. Which I can all correlate to not just my recovery but the recovery of other people. So, I decided to thank my friend tonight in the middle of the night on social media, specifically Facebook. My friend responded back asking if I would want to meet in the community room of our apartment building for a short while so she could give me some pointers on diamond art. I learned a lot from the education my friend gave me about Diamond Art. I love learning new things especially when it comes to creativity. I am great that this neighbor has become a great friend. After spending an hour together we came back upstairs to our own apartments.

When I got back to my apartment I was and am still feeling like harm by hitting a brick wall but I will not act on the urges of self harm especially since I am about to do a mindfulness meditation practice with my cat Billie in my lap as I do it through the Calm App.

On that note, I am going to hopefully get some sort of sleep after I am done writing this particular blog post. I don’t have much more to say except I am tired a fucking hell. I also want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you the reader, read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. Again, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

9 – Years Anniversary of Blogging

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Good Evening, World!!! Today is a big day for me as today marks nine years since I started creating my blog. Little did I know I would be blogging this long despite sometimes having periods of time of not blogging. Just know I do my best to blog as often as I am able to do so.

I love to blog about my own struggles and triumphs of my mental health challenges and how I am able to learn for the triumphs and struggles. It gives me a sense of hope and strength when I am able to do work through my own personal journey of my recovery as everyone’s journey to their recovery looks different to everyone. I really hope I give some form of education to people along with hope when I share bits and pieces of my story as not everyone will connect with some peoples recovery story or journey to recovery as it looks different to everyone.

For me some of the self care I do for myself is do mindfulness meditation at least twice daily. Once in the morning and once in the evening before bed.Another thing is to take two daily walks; once in the morning and cones in the evening. I also take meds for my mental health stuff as well as see my therapist every other week. Most importantly, I have my cat. A cat that loves me unconditionally.

I do not have much more to say except thank you for reading my blog. I grateful for your readership. I hope you have a great week ahead of you. Peace Out, World!!!

Hopes in Getting Back Into Building Structure in My Life

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Good Afternoon World, from the wonderful city of Seattle. Before I go on to discuss what I would like to, I just want to let you know how unusual the weather has been here in Seattle. First and fore most Seattle is known to have lots of rain and wind in the middle of October but not this year. In fact this October has been the driest October in recorded history Seattle has experience. Finally today it’s drizzly and breezy which is a good thing.

On the good thing note, I got a job. A job that is only twelve hours a week and not full time. I may want a full time job but right now a job is job not how many hours it is a week. I’m working at an employer I used to work at and am grateful for that. My supervisor is supper awesome and funny as hell. I also like the fact that he is direct with his communication. In fact I am looking forward to him being my supervisor.

On a different subject and I’ve brought this up two or three times before but I will be doing “workbooks” on various topics with the for “Dummies.” The first two I will be be working on is “U.S History for Dummies” and I am sure they will be missing many important things in history as well a misleading in other parts. The other Dummies book is “Basic Math and Pre-Algerbra for Dummies.” I am doing this to better educate myself and hopefully learn something.

Now on to the blogging part of all this. I’ve notice I haven’t blogged as much and want to blog on the regular basis. Yes, I know I’ve done and said this before but this time I will do want I can and what it take to regularly blog.

Now on to a subject I highly like to do which is household chores. I’m not a big fan of them However it is something that needs to be done on the regular basis and plan to schedule to do it in my planner along with the other things I need and/or want to do.

Let’s get on to a less boring topic which is more fun topic of my cat Billie. Billie is just as cute as he can be. I love my cat Billie so much and I am so blessed that he chose me to be his human. I am grateful that he is in my life.

I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It means a great deal to me from my end of things that you do read my blog. If it wasn’t for you reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you again from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Just A Random Blog Post

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Hello World from Seattle. I’m still unemployed yet I keep geting interviews without any job offers which sucks but I hope I get one soon. I need the money to pay bills.

In the been time I am doing some arts and crafts. I am painting by numbers. I am also doing cross stitching and latch key.I am doing a lot of craft stuff on cats. I found one of tuxedo catt which Billie is one so of course when it arrivs in the mail i will work on it

Another thing I will be doing it is educating myself with the Dummies “text books.” Everything from math to U.S history to grammer to Sociology. After I’m done with those books I will continue my education the the dummy series.

I’m also going to glean my apartment as it is a disaster area. Cleaning is something I have schedule it just like the other things I plan to do or I will get distracted. I also hope to blog more has well to keep yo updated.

I do not have much more to say in thist particular blgo post. I do want to thank you for readingmy blog. It is greatly appreciated from my ened of things. Again thank you for readingmy blgo. Peace Out

No Job Equals No Money

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Good Evening, World!!! Actually it is almost past evening as it is just after eight in the evening Seattle time. I’m worried that if I don’t get a job soon that I won’t be able to pay my rent. I just don’t want to lose my subidized housing. I keep keeping interviews but no jobs. I hope that when you read my blog that you press on the advertisements on my blog. It gives me a couple cents here and there but once it hits at least $100 or more I get the money. So it would be greatly appreciatedi if you can pres on my advertisements.

I’m also creating some crafting and artsy stuff to sell to help pay the bills. I hope you can help me with at least clicking the advertisements to help me with money. I need to get at least one underdred dollars for the advertisements.

I am still looking for a job and it’s geting frustrating that I am a “good” candidate but never the one they choose which suck shit.

On that note music, volunteering and educating myself is helping me keep me busy.Leaning new things is always a good thing.

I beg of you pressing my advertizements to help me earn money.

Thanks for reading my blog.

Keeping Busy to Stay in a Neutral State of Mind

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Hello, World from Seattle. It has been one of them days where trying to be in a neutral state of mind has been challenging. It has been challenging due to some negative shit, I have experienced the last few weeks. Yes, I would prefer to be in a good state of mind however I will and am more than okay to be in a neutral state of mind.

I started off the day cuddling with my cat Billie. In fact that appears to be an everyday thing. An everyday thing I don’t mind especially since it is how I start my day. I am more than sure that Billie enjoys starting his day cuddling with me.

After cuddling with my cat, Billie, I worked on a Mindfulness workbook. As I was working on the mindfulness workbook, I realized that my morning cuddles or any cuddles with Billie is mindfulness. So, I guess I do mindfulness everyday as I cuddle with Billie. Even though I do mindfulness daily, I am still going to work on the mindfulness workbook daily till it is finished.

I, of course did all that before getting ready and going to volunteer at PAWS Cat City. I really enjoy volunteering at Cat City. In fact it is one of the highlights of my week. Even though I have my own cat, I enjoy spending time with the cats at Cat City. In fact I enjoy spending time with the kittens and the senior cats. On that note, spending time with the kittens reminds me why I prefer the adult and senior cats especially to have one as a family member.

When I arrived home after volunteering I had packages at my door from Amazon. One of which was For Dummies book for basic math and pre-algerbra. So, I worked on for about a half an hour and the next half an hour I worked on my other For Dummies book which is on U.S History. I’m still waiting on two more educational Books for Dummies. I am doing the For Dummies books because I have forgotten most of what I learned or I never learned it in school.

After “educating myself,” I decided to be creative. First I did some art work. The art I am doing is coloring a poster for my mom. After coloring, I decided to do some crafting by doing latch hook. I am really enjoying doing the latch hook. I am currently doing a latch hook with a cat on it and it is to wipe your feet with before entering your home. I am not sure what I’m going to do with it when I am done with it.

Well, I’m looking at the time and it is time for dinner. That means it is time to end this particular blog post and go eat. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. That is why it is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. Again, thank you for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!

Weekly Plans

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Sunday

  • Mindfulness Meditation
  • Volunteer at Cat City
  • Practice Latch Hook
  • Work on a Book for Dummies book (not sure which subject yet.)
  • Work on stamp cross stitch

Monday

  • Mindfulness Meditation
  • Work on Books for Dummies (to better educate myself.)
  • Interview at a local fast food chain. (Don’t really want to work fast food but starting pay is twenty dollars and I’m not going to say no since I need a job and it pays well.)
  • Do Laundry
  • Apply for jobs

Tuesday

  • Mindfulnes Meditation
  • Educate myself with the books with dummies series
  • Billie, my cat has a play date with a neighbors cat (Yes both cats get along with each other.)
  • Clean apartment.
  • Apply for jobs

Wednesday

  • Mindfulness Meditation
  • Practice both Latch Hook and Cross Stitch
  • Hang out with grandpa
  • Educate myself with the books with dummies series
  • Hang out with Billie
  • Apply for jobs

Thursday

  • Mindfulness Meditation
  • Hang out with Billie
  • Clean Apartment
  • Apply for jobs
  • Educate myself with the books with dummies series
  • Practice Latch hook and cross stitch

Friday

  • Mindfulness Meditation
  • Doctors appointment
  • Practice cross stitch and latch hook
  • Educate myself with the books with dummies series
  • Dinner with grandpa

Saturday

  • Mindfulness Meditation
  • Spend the day doing hobbies while hanging out with my cat Billie.

Weekly Check-In

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Good Evening, World!!! It has been quite some time since I have done a weekly check in. A lot has happened and sadly a few weeks ago a mutual agreement between myself and now ex-new employer that it wasn’t a good fit for myself or the employer. That means I have been job hunting. This last week I’ve been filling out so many applications my fingers have been cramping up. I’ve been on three interviews this last week.

On another note, Billie had a second follow up appointment regarding his dental extractions. He is healing up okay. He is a champ and didn’t do much complaining except when the anastitic wore off and it was only for a couple of hours. Me as a human would have complained more than my cat about the dental work.

As for me, I was physically attacked and had to go to the emergency room. I have six staples in my head and a shoulder injury. So, I’ve been going to follow up appointments. I’m doing better and my concussion is slowly getting better. I get my staples out on the sixteenth of this month and hopefully will get a referral for physical therapy for my shoulder if it does not get any better.

I think I caught you up to date over this last week as I do not have much more to say in this particular blog post. I do want to thank you for reading my blog. It is greatly appreciated from my end of things that you do read my blog. If it was not for you the reader, reading my blog, I would not be writing my blog. So, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blog. Peace Out, World!!!